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Bio:
A nice house in LA, good friends, parties, beaches, sun, a handsome, older boyfriend. A creative break isn't so bad after all. Bill has a very nice life on the outside, but on the inside he's way more troubled. Unable to realize his true worth, he's in a relationship with Philip. Philip is born from a family of wealth who's varied mood, manipulative behavior and abusive ways ties Bill down in a relationship of physical and mental abuse. He'll do anything to be loved, but to others - he's just covered in gold.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Original Male Character, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Drama, Established Relationship, Romance, Suspense
Main Pairing: Bill/OMC
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Abuse, Adult Content, Blood, Drug Use, Humiliation, Infidelity , Non-Con/Rape, Sexual Content, Violence
Chapters: 30 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 90074 Read Count: 6491
[Report This] Published: 04/28/15 Updated: 11/02/15Date: 08/06/15 Title: Chapter 19: I love you
Omg these two...my babies. *looks at them with moon emoji face* I ship them really really hard, you know that. So this chapter was such a pleasure to read although that part where Bill is crying on Shane's shoulder was kinda heartbreaking. Still, THEY SAID THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO JUST GET TOGETHER AND ERASE PHILIP FROM THIS PLANET. Yeah I know, this will never happen and I'm still afraid about the things happening at Philip's party. If anyone hurts Shane, I'll flip my shit. (or if that fuckboy hurts Bill again, bruhhh)
Seriously, best fanfic atm. Love you so much.
(PS. You know I'll be on vacation for the next two weeks so I won't be able to read/comment so don't be angry ok?
Date: 05/24/15 Title: Chapter 8: Hallway fights and too much information
okay, oh my god. Tom is so fucking cute and tbh I can also imagine situations like that in real life. I'm sure this already happened. Bill is such a dumb little puppy but I still adore him. He never learns. Don't even make me start talking about that Philip asshole, he can choke on my dick.
I'm seriously so happy that I'm able to read your fic bc it's fucking amazing. You're such a talented writer. Nooooow enough with the ego push *inserts moon emoji*
See you next time!
Author's Response:
Yep, I\'m sure Tom has played the big brother role 1000 times since they came to LA! :( Thank you babe.
Date: 05/15/15 Title: Chapter 6: Dinner, beers & humiliation
Damn, I hate Philip and his stupid friends. They're total douchebags. But Philip is still the biggest douchebag.
You need to post the new chapter asap because you know I AM WAITING. So, hurry up bb. I love you
Author's Response:
Aren\'t you grateful I at least made ONE of them slightly likeable (Alexander)? ;) They need someone who keeps them on the ground! Ily!
Date: 06/17/15 Title: Chapter 12: Waffles with a side of confession
Wow, again...what a great chapter!
I reaaaally loved the interactions between the twins/Bill & Simone etc because they seem so real. And I don't have to say anything about that phone talk with Philip or? It's disgusting how he calls Bill, his boyfriend, "bitch" and "little whore"...jfc, I wanna rip his head off.
Have fun on your vacation, bb. (although it hurts that I have to wait that long for the next chapter uggggh)
Date: 08/26/15 Title: Chapter 22: The morning after
Okay okay okay, Emi. I FINALLY READ THE CHAPTERS I MISSED AND OMG THIS ONE TOTALLY FUCKED ME UP FSHKFHSALFSAFNLFA.
But first: I really liked the scenes at Philip's party (ofc not his fuckboy behavior) but omg Shaneybaby. You can tell how important Bill is to him and that makes my heart melt.
Still sometimes Bill is pissing me off because he is so fucking stupid for staying with Philip but yeah, I get that he can't just break up. Tbh I was really happy when he cheated on him...with Shane. You know I ship them hard and tbh they should become a couple at the end of the story. Please don't kill my hopes now.
BUT can we talk about the end of the newest chapter? I sat here like "omg gfuck me dashfdkjas what is this shit"...I already feel sorry for Bill. Really. This happening in real life would kill him but I feel like it's even worse for your fanfic Bill bc he's so fucked-up and emotionally destroyed. Bruh, I can't wait for the next chapter. WRITE FASTER YOU LIL SHIT ILY
(PS. Sorry for taking so long to read this but coming home from vacation is exhausting. Anyway, your number one fan is BACK now. *sunglasses emoji*)
Author's Response:
Super glad to have you back babe, it\'s not the same without your reviews and you know that. :) I wish I could tell you all the ideas I\'ve got cooking but nah.... THEY WILL HIT YOU LIKE A BRICK WALL. Or something. I hope you\'ll love it. Thank you so much bby. Wlecome back.
Date: 06/14/15 Title: Chapter 11: Making mistakes
Daaaamn, that was a really good chapter. Don't blame me but I totally wanted Bill & Shane to fuck because...I SHIP IT AND PHILIP DESERVES IT. But Bill is a lil crybaby, I know. And then... THE PICTURE. Bruh, now we know who took it, haha. Cute idea, really.
Now I'm curious what happens when Simone sees her two sons. And how they'll behave in front of her.
Gurl, write faster, I cannot waaaaait. #muchlove
Author's Response:
Thank you so much babe! I understand you, I wanted them to fuck as well but figured it wouldn\'t be right for the story (for now).
Date: 07/14/15 Title: Chapter 15: Therapy on San Vicente Boulevard
Omg this is so cute. I mean Bill and Shane. These two are my little babies. I'm glad this was a Philip-free chapter because I have no time for his fuckboy shit, bruh.
I'm happy Bill decided to see a therapist but if Philip finds out about this........and even worse, if he finds out Shane will come with him.... Dude. I'm curious af.
Thank you for the great chapter, ily.
Date: 05/20/15 Title: Chapter 7: The truth
Okay, first of all: I googled the Shane guy and yaas, good choice. Same with Philip. But now let me PUNCH THAT ASSHOLE IN THE FACE. I seriously hate him so much and Bill is a little puppy doing what his asshole boyfriends wants. smh. Still, I already smell drama and I want it to happen.
If I have to wait more than a week, I'll put my scissors out again. :))))
xoxo, your bae
Author's Response:
I love your reviews babe, you know it. Thank you so much.
Date: 07/21/15 Title: Chapter 16: What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas
THAT WAS SO GOOD LIKE SO SO GOOD (okay, not Bill feeling like shit and Philip being a fuckboy again) but dude, a really good chapter. The twin scene is cute. Bill's thoughts are killing me, especially him not telling Tom about the rape and stuff. And the sex part wasn't even about the sex, it was about Bill finally realizing it's not as perfect as it should be. I love you so much for writing this, it's definitely my favorite fic atm. Keep going, bb, your special (*moon emoji*) number one fan will always be here to write you reviews and stroke your ego. Though, I mean every word I said. ilyyy
Author's Response:
GAH ALINA thank you so so so much. Your reviews and well everything means a lot. Ily. You guys give me such confidence to keep going.
Date: 06/29/15 Title: Chapter 13: The perfect son-in-law
Bb, you don't know how happy I am to finally have a new chapter. And it was reaaaally good. Shane and Bill are so cute, I really adore these two. And about Philip...well, don't make me start. I hate him even more. I always hate him. He's such a fuckboy. I stg if he does something to Shane, I'll rip his stupid cheater dick off.
Date: 06/01/15 Title: Chapter 9: Consensual in 90210
DUUUUUUDE THIS LITTLE WHORE. Why am I not surprised, this is something real life Bill would do as well. *moon emoji*
But let me say: I still hate Philip. Just because he's giving the gay a good fuck (after raping him smh) doesn't make me like him.
Can't wait read what happens next! Love you very muchhhh xx
Author's Response:
He might be an asshole but he still knows how to please his man, at least that\'s good right? Love you too babe!
Date: 06/08/15 Title: Chapter 10: Babe
Philip is a stupid fuckboy but oh my god, Shane is so fucking cute I CRYYYY. His words made me smile and Bill should be happy to have him. Way better than his fucked up boyfriend.
Your characters are all so great, I feel so comfortable while reading and I'm proud af that I know such a talented person like you. Haha okay, you needed that ego stroke but I was 100% honest here!
ily :*
Author's Response:
This review really made me smile, as I told you, you always make me happy with your cute reviews. I\'m glad you like it and wanna read it. Ily!
Date: 07/05/15 Title: Chapter 14: It's better to feel pain than nothing at all
Okay, it kinda hurts reading this. Seriously, why is Bill still staying with him..... but yeah, I get it. It wouldn't be easy to ditch that asshole. BUT STILL. I want to protect my bb but I can't. I'm really afraid of all those things Philip could possibly do to Bill. SOMEONE NEEDS TO KILL HIM AND I VOLUNTEER. ugh. Btw also Simone is pissing me off lol.
I don't regret staying up for this chapter because it was amaaaazing as always.
Your biggest fan, A
Author's Response:
Yes, I\'m torn between Bill leaving the idiot but at the same time, that\'s not how it works in reality. :( Thank you babe, I\'m glad you did. <3 Ily!
Date: 09/14/15 Title: Chapter 24: Two lives at risk
Omg I totally feel Bill's pain because I'm so worried about Shane and I was like "FUUUUUCK" :( I know he seems to be alright but knowing someone you love got hurt is horrible. He could have died, duuuuh.
But can we talk about Philip? Really, his presence annoys me. Everything about him annoys me. Tbfh also Bill annoys me. Pretending everything's fine and still meeting that fuckface and blah. I know he's having a hard time to get away from him but...no. Everything is just so wrong, I wanna scream. I'm seriously afraid of Philip's reaction when he finds out about Shane. Like really, really afraid.
Please make it all okay (i know you won't hahaha you lil shit)
Great chapter, Emi. Keep up the good work, ily
Date: 07/25/15 Title: Chapter 17: Paying the price
OMG HOLY FUCKING FUCK HOLE......I didn't know I could hate Philip even more than I already do?! He can't be fucking serious. That part where I didn't want to eat Bill's meal almost broke my heart. Idk, I just felt so fucking sorry for Bill. And let's not even talk about the rape. That's fucking disgusting and I hope he goes to hell but Bill will keep his mouth shut again and suffer alone. How nice :)))))))) No, really. It's getting out of control (or it already is, haha). This is such a terrible "relationship", I'm shocked. Massive respect to you for always finding the right words to describe this horror. I'm so proud of you, bb.
Date: 05/12/15 Title: Chapter 5: Mary Jane
oh my god, my feels are outta control. I have to admit: I fucking love Shane. I've always shipped Bill with guys like that so he's bae. And Philip is a freaking fuckboy...well, more than a fuckboy. I wish he would leave him but I know you're evil so that probably won't happen in the near future. :))))
Gimme mooooooooore
Author's Response:
Haha, yeah. You know me, very evil ;) Let\'s wait and see what happens!
Date: 07/30/15 Title: Chapter 18: Trying to escape
Omg it can always get worse.....I knew you're a little devil when it comes to writing bruuuh. I'm so fucking sorry for Bill. I wanted him to tell his mom or Tom about it but noooooo. Instead Philip visites him and acts like nothing happened + plays the asshole again with telling him what do to. Is he even serious? Damn.
And now I'm also worried about Shane (my bb :( )...I don't want him to meet Philip. I can already smell the drama.
That chapter was seriously a masterpiece, ilysm.
Date: 05/11/15 Title: Chapter 4: Against my will
OMG Emilia. Here's your biggest fan, Alina. I've just read the first four chapters and I loooooooove it. Your writing is so good, also the story and I cringe bc it seems so real.
Waiting for the next chapter.
ily, bb xoxo
Author's Response:
Alina!!! I\'m so glad you finally read this (also sad you aren\'t writing Clasterlitz anymore). But I\'m glad you love it and thank you. :* ily!
Date: 09/02/15 Title: Chapter 23: Losing privileges
Ok ok I'm so shocked? Like still. Because I can't believe Philip did that. Besides the rape and him punching Bill this is one of the worst things he could do. Ruining bae's life like that...wow. The award for the biggest fuckboy asshole on earth goes to Philip every year. Or what do I say...every day.
That phone situation also fucked me up. Him acting like it's nothing. Like it's not bad. WHAT THE FUUUCK. And then being the worst boyfriend someone could have and try to take away Bill's phone? What is that? Why does Bill let him do all those things...I think now it's time to let go. (it already was before BUT YOU KNOW) It hurts me to read this and it makes me fucking angry.
Thanks for the birthday present, bb. ilysm, keep writing, you're my fave
Author's Response:
Alina, how are you even surprised. If you ever think that Philip can\'t do any worse you\'re mistaken. So buckle up *moon emoji*. It\'s definitely time to let go, or more rather - break free. Ily baby, have an amazing day.
Date: 09/20/15 Title: Chapter 25: The end of the road
What a horrible chapter. (not your writing ofc but the things happening there haha) I'm speechless because...wow. :( Bill and Shane are so cute and I want them to be forever and ever. You can totally see how much Shane cares about him. He would suffer knowing what happened at Philip's house and I'm sure it's not over yet. Seriously, this man is a monster. I felt Bill's pain and it fucking hurt because he really didn't deserve this. Tho I'm sure he'll survive this, he'll have to deal with those horrible memories and ugggghh Philip needs to get arrested asap. And Tom needs to know about all of this. I really CANNOT WAIT for the next chapter. Great job, bb.
Author's Response:
Thaaank you babe! Tbh of course Bill survives since he\'s kinda vital for the sequel *moon emoji*. Philip isn\'t leaving just yet, but we\'ll all feel satisfaction when he\'s gone.