i like this chapter. i'm glad Bill has a friend. It worked for the story for him to seem less human at the beginning, but I am glad we are getting to see him as more human now. I'd like to see more of andreas perspective, someone who knows Bill on a more human level. and bill and tom are so cute together!!! keep up the good work. Update again soon please!

OMF GOD!!! I LOVE IT KEEP ON WRITING MORE PLEASE!!!

Is it weird that I kinda like how fucked up Bill is? And that my favorite chapter was when he was ripping Tom apart? (ponders*
Oh well, this is great, and I wish i'd gotten around to reading it sooner

Acccckkkkk!!! Read it all in one night and I'm begging for more!! You have a way with writing that reaches far beyond the average Bill/Tom story!!! Love it!!!!

The part of him that instinctively wished to continue living struggled, fighting for air, trying to get the muscles in his chest to inhale. The part of him that was sick of living rebelled, constricting his chest, until his eyes were wide with panic at the battle taking place in his body. – why would a happy person be sick of living…answer…they aren’t there is a very good reason why Bill is so unhappy I just don’t know what it is yet.

He had to confess his mistake, if only to the empty room.
“I didn't mean it.” He said quietly, staring at the silent wall. “I didn't mean anything I said.” Tears began to slip from his eyes. “It's not true. And the parts that are true, I wish they weren't. I can't even ask for forgiveness, because then I hurt both of us for nothing. Would it be worse to let us continue hurting, or to apologize, and have it all be for nothing?” He closed his eyes, more tears slipping out. “I don't deserve to be forgiven anyway, so what does it matter? But I want to be forgiven. I do. But it isn't that simple, who could forgive for what I did?”
He curled into a ball, sobbing, and chanting to himself. “I want to be forgiven. I want to be forgiven. I want to be forgiven. I want-”
“It's okay,” Tom's voice whispered, as Bill felt a gentle hand resting on his back. “I forgive you.” – I don’t think that Bill was expecting this…BTW just wanting to warn you Tom is headed towards marysue’s ville! He’s being too perfect, he’s suffering too perfectly, he’s taking it all too gracefully…just be aware that you need to make him more human give him more depth! Right now he’s starting to turn into a prop.

“I don't know what's the matter with me.”
“I do,” Tom said with a grin. “You like me.”
“No I don't.” Bill snapped, still resting his head on Tom's shoulder. “I mean.. I do. But not like that.” He shifted uncomfortably, unsure of what he really thought about Tom anymore.
Tom smiled, he hadn't really been serious, he still doubted that Bill had any real feelings for him, but it was fun to tease him. – That funny. Very misdirectional on Bill’s part and hopeful on Tom’s part…it works. *nods*

“It isn't me. It's not what I do. I don't want to do it.”
There was something in Bill's tone that brought a small smile to Tom's face, and a small glimmer of hope to his heart. “But at the same time, you want to do it.”
Bill looked away, blushing slightly. “Maybe...”
Tom felt a surge of happiness. Bill did like him. – interesting that he confesses.

“I just... I don't know what I want. I'm confused, okay? I'm uncomfortable with this, and I don't want to be pushed into it.”
Tom snorted. “Quite the hypocrite, aren't you? You certainly don't mind pushing other people into situations they aren't comfortable with.”
“That's different.”
“How is it different?”
“I... I don't know, it just is! – lol

“What if I don't want to move on?”
“Please, Tom, don't make this any more difficult than it already is. If you don't move on, it will be harder for me to move on.”
“What if you don't want to move on?”
“Of course I want to move on! Why do you think I...” Bill paused, his right hand covering his eyes. “...Do I want to move on?” – he broke himself oops.

“It's okay, Bill. You don't have to make a decision now.” He pulled Bill a little closer, until their lips were softly touching. The Tom pulled away slightly to nuzzle against Bill's neck. “Until you know what you want, I'll help you in any way I can. I'll give you anything you want, as long as you think it will make you happy.” After all, Tom truly loved Bill, and he wanted him to find what was right for him. – sweet but be careful you’re verging on Mary Sue.

Bill pulled away slightly, staring into Tom's eyes. He understood the implications of what Tom was saying, but he wasn't sure Tom did. “Do you realize what you're saying?”
“Yes.”
“Anything I want?”
“As long as you think it will make you happy.”
But don't blame me if it doesn't. - *smirks* yes true.

Author's Response: OH NOES, MARY SUEVILLE!!!!!! *instant death* Don't worry, actually Tom is not so good at keeping his promise in a couple chapters, and Bill's like, "What happened to 'anything I want, hmm?'" And Tom's like, "Yeah, but it has to coincide with what *I* want... >.>" And Bill's like, "XD Yeah, thanks a lot, Tom..." Or something along those lines, I know Tom goes all *rawr* on Bill in a few chapters... Trust me, I has a plan~ XD Tom cannot stay 'perfect' forever.

Bill felt a surge of triumph; he had won. It had taken longer than he expected, but he had done it, as he did every time he played this game. His conquest lay, broken and defeated, before him. He had won; soon the ache of his desire would be eased; soon the pain of his longing would be healed. He had won; the game was over. Tomi was his. – yeah! But it won’t solve his problems *smiles sadly*

“You don't know how long I've wanted this,” he whispered, breaking away.
Bill smiled. “Yes I do. You've wanted this ever since you first laid eyes on me.” – basically yeah!

“Are you going to fuck me senseless now?”
It was too much for Tom. – this is a very effective couple of sentences!

he pressed his lips to Bill's throat, snaking his hand up his shirt. Tom had never been aware of how soft Bill's skin was, it was like touching hot silk. He ran his hand up and down Bill's side. – great adjectives and describing words! Looks like madlibs worked well for you! lol

Bill batted his hand away impatiently. “No teasing. Fuck me.”
“Demanding, aren't you?”
“It's my nature, and I'm sick of being patient. I've waited weeks for this, and I want to feel you inside me. Now.” - *eye roll* you should go slow, you’re going to miss this when it’s gone.

Tom sighed. “What am I going to do with you?” He nuzzled against Bill's neck.
Bill sensed the emotional attachment, felt himself being drawn into it, and fought back. – I wonder what happened that made him fight against emotional attachments.

This was a business transaction, and emotions had no place in business. – hum?!

He suddenly felt a wash of guilt for the curt words, and kissed Tom tenderly as an apology. He instantly smacked himself mentally. What the hell are you doing? Don't encourage him! What's wrong with you? Thank God the game is almost over, you're losing it, Bill... He pulled himself together, re-assembling his walls to keep in any unbidden emotions. – what makes you think it will be all better once this is over? Have you had this kind of emotion about someone else you were chasing that you got over? Hum?

Tom wrapped an arm around Bill's waist, pressing their bodies together. He breathed in the smell of their melding scents. Bill still felt warm, but it seemed like there was a chill radiating from him now. – nice!

Tom sighed, wishing he could reach the real Bill that hid beneath that powerful, seductive exterior. Sometimes it felt like he was there, but then he slipped away again behind the face that was all heavy lidded eyes and suggestive smiles, the voice that was all coaxes and purrs, the mind that had only one purpose and pursuit. – Tom really likes Bill…and all Bill had to do was be nice and his own sexy self. *smiles sadly*

“Do you know what you're doing, by the way?”
“I have no idea, but I'm sure you'll tell me.”
“Maybe you could ask me nicely.”
“And maybe I could fuck you dry.” Tom made as if to toss the tube aside. He was slightly annoyed that Bill, who was so eager to get fucked, had the nerve to get uppity with him. - *giggles* Tom’s funny!

He curled his finger forward experimentally, and was met with a curved surface. As soon as his finger pressed against it, Bill let out a loud cry.
Tom stopped. “What's wrong?” he asked, sounding worried. “Did I hurt you?”
“Do it again.” was the reply. Tom smiled, understanding, and curled his finger again, pressing the spot that made Bill yelp. – mmmhhh hot!

Tom was dizzy; the sound, the smell, the taste of Bill was almost too much. He slid another finger into Bill, wanting to hear him scream again. He began stroking himself as Bill cried out, digging his fingernails into Tom's back. – still hot! mmmhhh

Tom sighed and rolled off of Bill, who straddled his hips, easing himself onto the waiting erection. Tom gasped at the tight heat that enveloped him, and Bill began to slowly slide up and down his length, gradually picking up speed.
“Oh God, Bill, that's so fucking good...”
“I know,” Bill panted – mmmhhh OMG this is sooo hot!

He kept at the aggravating slow pace, which he knew Tom was loving even as he fought it. Finally, finally, he sped up again and Tom moaned in relief, closing in again on his climax.
“So... close...” he gasped.
Bill grinned evilly and slowed down again. Tom nearly screamed in frustration.
“Stop doing that!” he cried.
“Beg me.” Bill retorted.
“Beg you?”
“Beg me to make you come so hard, you can't even remember your own name. Beg me to let you come inside me, the way you've imagined doing since we first met. Beg me.”
“Please... Please, Bill...” Tom gasped. - *shivers* oh god the power play is so amazing! *grins*

Satisfied with his victory, Bill slid off of the gasping Tom. He wrapped his hand around himself to finish his own job, but Tom knocked his hand aside.
“I'll do it.”
Bill was stunned, he hadn't thought Tom was that far gone, but he wasn't about to complain. The psychological high spiked as Tom's lips wrapped around Bill's hardened arousal. Bill closed his eyes in bliss as Tom slid up and down his length. It being Tom made it so much better. – Yes Bill you broke our Tomi but in the process you broke yourself too *smiles*

Tom wrapped his arms around Bill and pulled him down so they were lying together. He snuggled up against him, and Bill instantly stiffened. He was suddenly suffering an unexpected internal conflict. He desperately wanted to cuddle Tom back, but that wasn't the way Bill did things. Bill did not cuddle, especially after sex. Sleeping with someone after you fucked them created a false sense of emotional attachment, and emotional attachment was unnecessary and messy. Bill was caught in a battle between personal and professional.
Professional won. - sad

In the shower, where Tom couldn't hear him over the running water, Bill broke down. He leaned against the wall, shaking, sobbing, tear coursing down his cheeks as he hugged himself. He wanted so bad for Tom to hold him, and he didn't know why. It was confusing and scary, and he wanted it to stop. Or at least, he thought he did. – oh poor Billa

“You used me for your own self- gratification.” Tom's voice was soft and steady, and Bill wish he would scream at him.
Bill almost apologized, and quickly bit it back. Unhealthy, unnatural, dangerous. “Yes,” he said evenly. “I did.” - *makes a face* oh Bill you are burning a bridge you don’t want to burn!

“I'm not even a person to you, am I?” Tom whispered. “I'm just another game to you.”
Bill laughed cruelly, wishing he could cut out his own tongue, rather than say anything else that would hurt Tom. But that was impossible. – I love the internal struggle. Bill’s fear of intimacy is palpable and he clearly is so unsure of what he really wants but can’t let that reach the surface. Something very damaging must have happened…I know we’ll find out what that is soon.

He turned out the light and sank onto his own bed, staring at the dark, at the place where he knew Tom was. Staring at the only person Bill truly cared about, who would probably pay money to see Bill ripped limb from limb. Staring at the only thing he wanted in the world, which he now knew he could never have. Staring at Tom, who he loved more than life itself, even if he didn't realize it, or didn't want to realize it.
It's better this way. – but why? Hum?...I guess I’ll find out soon.

this is my favourite chapter yet!
mostly because I've done that seatbelt thing with my girlfriend xD
except we got pulled over by a cop and if we didn't know him then we probably would have gotten a ticket x3

O___________O THERE'S NO NEXT BUTTOONNNN *searches frantically* AHHHHHHHHH and what in the hell does Andi mean "save him the trouble and tell him"????? OMFG DDD: are they actually twins? O_____________O *paces frantically*

Author's Response: LOL, no, I'm not pulling the whole, "OMG, they're actually twins, LOL" thing on you. XD They are not related.

2:56 AM... I love your dream, idk why... but I do. Mainly because it's totally random like me... I like rabbits.

2:57 AM
Frosting. Half and Half... Oddly... I can see Bill doing this IRL

3:01 AM UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE i love you UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE i love this chapter UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE ... UPDATE!

2:45 AM

It's Tom's MOM! IT HAS TO BE!!!!!!!!!

2:46 AM

Love you, going to read next chapter. Will to type out full sentences...gone