Date: 06/04/12 09:11 am Title: Chapter 1
Hey i love your story it is soo great so please, please give me a new chapter !!!
Date: 05/24/10 10:43 am Title: Chapter 3
Girl, are you ever going to update this? I just read it through for the first time in like forever and I am dying for more, seriously. I especially want an elaboration on Tom and Isaak, and of course Georg and Gustav. (Is it bad that I don't really sympathize with Gustav at all? I just ache for Tom.)
This story is lovelier than ever, I swear, and even if you never update, I'll treasure what you did give us. :)
Author's Response: Once I finally figure out how I'm going to end it (despite having started this fic over two years ago, I have no idea how it's going to play out...still. D:) I will write it up and post it, definitely. I promised Steinsgrrl that'd I'd finish it, if for no other reason than to be a gift to her. I remember all my plot points, pretty much; it's just that ending. I'm glad that you still like it, even though it's been so, so long since it's last update!
Date: 11/10/09 06:30 pm Title: Chapter 3
I just stumbled across this fic today, was not expecting what I found, and emerged three chapters later a bit dazed, simultaneously in love with and wounded by your words. What I'm trying to say is: what a painfully beautiful story. You have a talent for digging into the emotions and minds of the characters, and that in turn really affects the reader. I know it's been a while, but I hope you'll eventually continue this fic - because it's much too good not to be finished :)
Author's Response: Wow, thank you so much! I'm really going to try and update this baby since I haven't got school to worry over. I also promised a friend I'd make it a Christmas gift, though it looks like it'll be a late Christmas gift, haha. Thank you for reading and leaving such a wonderful review, it means a lot! :)
Date: 03/15/09 03:24 am Title: Chapter 1
Wow. This is so incredibly raw and unrelenting in its brutal honesty. I love the exploration of the differences between 'then' and 'now', and how Tom even realized how it must be for Bill and Gustav's side of things. While Gustav's reactions made me cringe every time, I don't feel like there can even be a bad guy in this (except Isaak, heh...) whole scenario, everyone has their own responsibility and seems to be doing the best they can manage with what fate has dealt them. My heart breaks for them all :(
This is really an incredible and unique story, I'm excited to see where it goes! :)
Author's Response: That's one of the things I wanted to set out and do - have everyone in the story (except Isaak, obviously!) be both a good and a bad guy simultaneously. It's a very big aspect of humanity, I think, and this story is ultimately about being human and the problems that come with that title. I'm hopefully going to update this story soon; I promised a friend I'd finish it for her for Christmas, albeit a bit late of a Christmas present! xD
Date: 02/02/09 11:58 am Title: Chapter 3
suddenly I thinkI know why Tom went to prison... and where Geog is...
Author's Response: All come clear soon. Very soon...
Date: 02/01/09 06:02 am Title: Chapter 3
omg I am loving this update so hard. I've been waiting for chapter three, you know? And it does explain a lot of things. I still don't like Gustav, at all. And Johann, god, Johann, he has to find out the truth sooner or later, and I can't imagine his reaction.
The image of Gustav still in his dark winter coat, silhouetted against his windows and shaking with rage and the million things that can’t be said to the dead, will be forever burned into Tom’s mind.
God, you have such a way with words. *__* Definitely my favorite line in this chapter.
Johann snuffles a little before Tom hears the little thump-thump that lets him know that Johann is walking closer to him. There’s a beat of silence. “If you know that he knows that you’ll always come back…”
Tom hums in encouragement.
“…then why do you abuse that?”
I think I like this kid.
I feel so bad for Tom, it's easy for me to sympathize with him. And Bill... I think the two of them need to have a talk.
Anyhow, I love this, as always, so update soon!! (=
Author's Response: That's my favorite line in this chapter too! I just love the poetic silhouette I picture in my mind. And, as always, I love your reviews. My updates will probably be few and far between this month, but I will work really hard to write something - anything! :DD
Date: 02/01/09 04:56 am Title: Chapter 3
God this is so raw and powerful, you've created such a complicated scenario here with Georg's son and Gustav, and of course Tom's huge role in their lives. Amazing. :)
Author's Response: I'm glad you like it. x3 I hope the next chapters live up to your expectations...There's a lot of heavy stuff in them. D;
Date: 02/01/09 03:17 am Title: Chapter 3
Fuck!! Great chapter!! I love that you've made it so damn detailed.
Author's Response: Thank you for your review! The devil is in the details...
Date: 02/01/09 12:17 am Title: Chapter 1
This is definetly one of my favorites right now, I have no idea why more people aren't reviewing because not only is this story moving it's also real. It digs deep into you and makes you hurt. It's really wonderful.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! Hopefully updates will be...sort of quick. xD
Date: 02/01/09 12:10 am Title: Chapter 3
Jesus, Fitz.
I can't say anything constructive because I think you broke me. It's so fucking painful, and the writing is so good, but of course that only makes it worse. You're amazing.
Author's Response: D; This was the hardest chapter for me to write because I don't like hurting Tom. >__< It gets better eventually, but...Tomi hurts for a while more. TT___TT
Date: 01/26/09 09:35 pm Title: Chapter 2
ooh, i like this. its intrigueing. keep up the good work and update soon please. =)
Author's Response: I'll try my hardest! :D Thanks for your review!
Date: 01/26/09 09:35 am Title: Chapter 2
o,o oh
boy poor mixd up fucked up tomi...
Author's Response: I wish I could say it gets better, but... D;
Date: 01/18/09 09:42 pm Title: Chapter 2
Oh man, I'm so intrigued @.@
Author's Response: Score! :D
Date: 01/17/09 07:44 am Title: Chapter 2
Do you have any idea how many things I have to quote in this perfect chapter? Is it gonna be Biorg, btw? You'd better prepare me for it if it is. ;)
The juxtaposition of youth and that first sign of original sin mixing send shivers down his spine. He hopes that Johann won’t ever take the apple like Tom did.
Nicely put!! Definitely a favorite line of mine.
“I have every right to punch you right now,” Gustav says, very quietly and conversationally, coming to stand at Tom’s side in the doorway. Bill is out throwing snowballs at Johann in just a thin sweater. Tom nods. “He wanted to see Johann grow up.”
Oooh so Johann is Georg's kid! Or little brother, maybe.
It was only five years, yes, but that was 1825 days, 31536000 seconds of something he never wanted to be a part of. He knows those numbers so exactly because in his cell, before the night terrors began to plague him, he had done the math on a piece of scratch paper. Four more years, he’d say. Then three, two, one. But he thinks about how long those five years were to him – they seemed like decades passed every day, like an eternity disappeared in every sluggish blink of an eye. He can commiserate with Gustav; he wanted Tom locked away for longer, because it is still too soon to forget the color of dying, cold lips.
Ugh Fitz!! So sad. So bitter. So perfect. I feel so sorry for Tom, yet strangely not for Gustav.
Bill’s face turns stony. They just look at each other, the gap between them growing into a chasm. Tom wants to read the emotions and memories flashing through Bill’s eyes, but at the same time, he wants the mystery to stay locked in those identical brown eyes.
Just needed to quote that and I don't even know why.
It’s too strange to keep talking. He wants to say that maybe it was good that Georg hadn’t lived to tell Johann the truth. Georg wasn’t good with the truth, which was led to this whole mess in the first place. If stupid drunk Tom hadn’t played chicken with stupid drunk Georg, Tom would not be sitting here confessing the unconfessable.
Foreshadowing!! D: You're such a tease.
How what's this about Bill thinking that Georg was perfect? Is it gonna be Torg or Biorg, woman? XD
Ugh, I just adore this chapter. Don't care if it's gonna be longer or not, as long as you continue with these lovely updates!! (:
Author's Response: I love how you called me Fitz. xDD The original sin line is, quite honestly, my favorite line in the entire chapter. And that was kind of a throwaway line that I almost didn't put in there! I think I answered most of your questions earlier, on MSN, haha. "I feel so sorry for Tom, yet strangely not for Gustav." I don't know why, but that's just so...it's a very interesting point of view! I think I might work something into the fic about that...*cough* Thanks for your lovely review, as usual! <3
Date: 01/17/09 01:56 am Title: Chapter 2
I dunno what to say other than this chapter is UNBELIEVABLE!!
More please. :)
Author's Response: Thanks! And more coming soon! :)
Date: 01/16/09 11:12 pm Title: Chapter 1
I really enjoy this story, it's wonderful that you have gotten deep into the characters emotions. I'm so impressed. This is just wonderful and stunning. The way you have Tom thoughts intermingled with the story is perfect. I just love it. So so much.
Author's Response: Thank you for your review! I'm so glad you liked it! It's always nice to get reviews from writers I admire! (Read Transmogrified and loved it to pieces!) More of this to come, as soon as I get my lazy butt around to writing another chapter. :)
Date: 01/16/09 09:53 pm Title: Chapter 2
This is so heavy and sad, I've spent most of the chapter with tears in my eyes. I have a feeling that it's not going to get lighter any time soon.
I feel like Johann is the only source of light here, and I'm afraid that it won't be long before he finds out what Tom did. When he does, I think it's going to tamp that light, and that makes me even more sad.
But I keep thinking, whatever it is, Tom will likely pay for the rest of his life. I hope you have some way for some relief for him, or what's the point in him staying? With Bill or with himself? He said that he doesn't believe that he spent enough time in prison, either, but maybe he doesn't realize exactly how LONG he's going to be in prison in his head.
I'm rambling now, but I wanted to tell you that it's a wonderful chapter and I look forward to the next one.
Author's Response: Johann is kind of...the kid Tom wishes he had been. I'm actually completely unsure about the ending at all - but it'll be like the ending to For Comfort - an ending without an ending. You've given me a lot to think about when I start writing the next chapters. rnrnThanks as always so, SO much for your review. You make me day. :)
Date: 01/11/09 12:32 am Title: Chapter 1
Jesus, Fitz. Your stories are so good, your chapters so intriguing that I scrolled and scrolled, reading so carefully, and then all of a sudden was out of chapter! You absolutely kill me. Of course, I'll be waiting for more.
Author's Response: x3 I will post chapter two when I write chapter four...so I guess I have a bit of impetus to start writing! xD
Date: 01/10/09 07:30 pm Title: Chapter 1
Oh, you sneaky girl, not even telling me you posted it. Tsk tsk. I've told you this before, I know, but I absolutely adore this. I was a little surprised at the general category ("What? No twincest??") but I do love gen. And, as always, I just have to quote some things.
Tom turns to his twin, seeing the five years reflected in the crease between his eyebrows. He wonders if that same lifetime of change is reflected in his own face.
Gah, so bitter and so perfect. I hate change, but I hate/love the bittersweet nostalgia that comes with it.
The faucet’s leaking, so Tom has to stop and turn it off, even though there are no guards to harangue him about it.
Old habits die hard, huh?
Tom’s already tired of constantly comparing then with reality.
I definitely know what he means. Poor Tomi.
Sleep is coming, but then Bill moves. Tom’s knees are a little apart, and Bill’s fidgeting accidentally pushes one long leg in between Tom’s.
Tom jerks backwards violently out of habit and he crashes off the side of the bed. His breathing is erratic, and he’s furious with himself.
God, so heartbreaking, though I can't say I'm surprised. Have you ever read Stephen King's Different Seasons? The first short story in it is about life in prison. If you haven't read it, do it.
“N-no, of course not.” It’s something he would have said to his cellmate, and Tom isn’t sure if he’s ever hated himself more.
I don't even know what to say. My heart aches for them all.
As you know, I'm very curious about this Johann kid. And Gustav with a beard. ;) And the killing Georg thing. And-- and you never mentioned this Isaak person! Now I just have to know what's his deal. ^.^
Oh, and I saw that you finished the banner. XD Nice work!
Author's Response: I personally like the third chapter the most, I really do. This one was written kind of...idk, half-heartedly, haha. And I'm sorry I didn't tell you I posted it; I was rushing to get it posted and then run off to that concert (which was totes fab, btw). I think I will check out that short story; maybe it will give me ideas for this. I like Johann, bahaha. You'll see why in...chapter three, I think it is. :3
Date: 01/10/09 07:18 pm Title: Chapter 1
Oooooooh. I love it so much already!! More soon I hope!
Author's Response: I have three chapters written of this story so far, but I'm going to write another chapter before I post the second one. xD Thanks for reviewing!