Date: 09/28/09 12:05 am Title: Mutual Interest
awww :) the last part with snoring, pure sweetness, hehehe, I love it. Bushido's dad seems pretty awesome too, lol n_n lovely job with the whole chapter
Date: 09/27/09 10:39 am Title: Mutual Interest
Aw I love this!
Date: 09/27/09 06:18 am Title: Mutual Interest
Whaaat?Two chapters update?Are you trying to kill me? You definitely are.I didn't even have time to read the previous chappie ;_;.Wait.Why am I complaining?
In the previous chapter,it felt so empty and heavy at the same time.When two people part,the one living always feels less sadness than the one left.When you're looking for someone departing,you feel left behind and you feel like that person has more important things other than you wherever they intend to go.People who leave are those who are discovering,but those left are seeing the same things as before,not knowing what's it like outside of their space.
Those who leave feel like they have more purpose in life and more to accomplish.And I say this generally.
Seeing people leave when you stay behind on the same spot makes you feel miserable.Especially when it's somewhere you don't know...This is probably why every single person on this earth, at one point in their life, at least once dreams,wishes for an escape wherever it is even it's just for a shortwhile.
I feel terribly sorry for Bill,yet I admire him.But he's like a puppet sometimes.A puppet of life.He just does the things he has to do,but it feels like the mere notion of desiring something or wishing for something doesn't cross his mind anymore. He's...Automatic! (lol)
He's the best example of a broken human being.He's so defeated,and struggles but doesn't fight more.None of his actions have a long term target.He's like in the lowest level of "leb die sekunde" if that makes any sense.
On the other hand,there's Tom.Let's put ourselves in his shoes.I think I'd choose his decision too.But he's so brave too,trying to do things right and working.This is so f*cked up. O_O(It sounds like I just realized that haha)
About this chapter,there are so many things to say but I think what caught my attention.No.What struck me ,I don't know why it did (AGAIN and for the milionth time) ,was how realistic this is.Yeah, big revelation.Not that it's something new but...After they had sex,they were not acting suddenly all lovey dovey.Well,I knew they wouldn't,but it was as if the sex is not a major factor,not an important point for the development of their relationship.That last scene in the bed could've happened without the sex,they would still move forward ,a baby step towards a real realtionship.Not that the sex was bad,it was burning H.O.T especially with junior growing in Bill's belly *_*.
I'm still loving the little details,here and there you put in the story,that remind us of their situation and where they are. Like, for example, the broken handle when bushido looked for the lube.There lies your talent guys.(Not in the lube O_O.I just cracked myself up)It's not something like: "They were poor,the furniture in the house was broken,worn and blahblahblah..." It's subtle,but the description is clear,smartly slipped between the words meant to describe the situation,not the place.But in the end,it does both.
Bushido's dream was hilarious!LOL Imagine that...I've never had any dreams like that,but I'd like to.Maybe this proves,what's nightmarish to others might not be for some people.He probably was on rack when he dreamt that XD.
And there's Bill.He doesn't want to be alone in the bed.Guess the fact that they had sex made him comfortable enough to wake bushido and ASK if he wanted to share the bed.Bushido calling him "kid" became a little weird for me,but then again,he's just like that,he speaks like that,so I'm glad his vocabulary didn't change suddenly or something.
I thought Ben was hot!Well, he is.But damn,he wasn't even physically present in this chapter but he managed to annoy me so much.His character is very interesting.I wonder if there'll be some Benjamin/Bill encounter in the future?I'd like to see Bushido jumping in his protective mode.Not because he fears Bill would leave him or anything, but because Benjamin has the means,the power and enough malice to take Bill away just to hurt them.
Will we see more Tom in the future?He's uncle Tomi after all.And Christmas is around the corner!It should be spend with family.I guess he'll be with Amélie's but he'll miss Bill like hell.I am hopping he'll come back one day.Talking about family, the relationship between Bushido and his father is so sweet and loving.The swearwords are almost like petnames haha!Mohammed's an awesome dad,and he'll be an even more awesome grandfather.I think he'll tear up.*pets him*
So...Mutual interest huh? It will start with little touches here and there(besides the sex), and then they'll be in love *_* I hope there'll be twenty more chapters before we get there ^_^ Plus Bushido still has to be the biggest rapper ever,he still has to deal with many stuff and I almost forgot,but he feels so guilty about Bill being pregnant.Because he was drugged,he wasn't so much given a choice.It feels like he fears Bill's reaction if he ever knew.Bet chakuza's going to be the a**hole to reveal that to Bill in a very "elegant and tactful" way.
Thanks for the chapters!
Mwah!Love you guys!
*Iz nervous about ABH*
Author's Response: Don't be nervous. ;)
Date: 09/27/09 05:53 am Title: Mutual Interest
Woa... i love the confused Bushido in here. Sooooo lovely >__
Date: 09/27/09 04:55 am Title: Mutual Interest
Awww ^_^ I love how you updated so soon. You're amazing ^^ Thank you so much!
Date: 09/27/09 03:31 am Title: Mutual Interest
Hee indeed. :D
Oh God, how long I've been waiting for this!!! It was awkward and everything but it was definitely SEX and then B invited him into bed...things are straightening out, aren't they? I'm in love with this story so much! CAn't wait for an update again!
Date: 09/27/09 02:28 am Title: Mutual Interest
LOVED IT GOD
JUST PLAIN PERFECTION :)
Date: 09/27/09 01:22 am Title: Mutual Interest
Their awkwardness between them is so endearing that it made my belly flutters. It's so sweet and hot I felt like reading it over again. Bu need to tell him!
Date: 09/27/09 01:03 am Title: Mutual Interest
Seeexxxxxx. :B I approve. Of this entire story. Of YOU.
Date: 09/27/09 12:10 am Title: Mutual Interest
aww so cute :]
billshido :] haha
Date: 09/26/09 09:14 pm Title: Mutual Interest
This chapter was perfect. I have been waiting patiently for them to finally get together again and I love the way you wrote the scene. I just love how you write dialogue. :)
Date: 09/26/09 09:12 pm Title: Mutual Interest
okay, so i randomly review all the time, and HERE is my random review.
i think i've missed 3-4 reviews for the last couple of chapters, so I'll put it all in here. or try to, because I babble (like i'm doing now) and I'm sure you don't want/need to hear my babbling.
ANYWAYS, on to the review:
I think I've said in my previous reviews that I LOVE the way that you guys characterize these two. It's so realistic, in a harsh, poaque way that makes me think of the people I see everyday when I leave my house.
It's the way that the things they say aren't written in a 'what would be cute/sweet/funny' way, but rather they speak like we do. Like people not necissarily trying to impress each other, but moreso trying to live their lives without imposing on each other, trying to get through the hard times.
Hard times that keep getting harder, int hat realistic way, where there isn't a fairy godmother to make their lives better JUST CAUSE they're the main character in this gritty piece of fiction.
I love the dynamics between Bill and Bushido (the fact that even though you gave us sex in this chapter, it hasn't ALWAYS been about sex).
I love that coming from them, I see a sense of dependence on each other. Not monetary or anything like that, but more so a friend (or maybe more depending on how you two end up finishing off the story) type of dependence. They need someone else that gets their struggle and that they honestly can think of as 'maybe we're in this together. maybe i can trust this person'.
gah, anyways I'm just babbling at this point, BUT once again, I'd like to tell you how much I love this. As a mpreg writer, I love reading mpregs on here, ESPECIALLY ones like this, that kinda take you back to reality. something that's hard to do with a. mpreg and b. fiction in general.
Date: 09/26/09 08:35 pm Title: Mutual Interest
Gosh finally! I think I needed that tension relief as much as they did ;)Please please please more!
Date: 09/25/09 10:06 am Title: Closure
that's it? tom just left. felt a bit empty though. but guess his part is done to make way for bill and bu.
Date: 09/24/09 11:42 pm Title: Closure
There aren't many authors who could convince me to read Billshido, particularly given the situation with Tom here. But you know what, I'm an avid reader of the pairing every time you guys update this fic. The tender, slightly hesitant dynamic between Bill and Bushido is lovely, and it's a bittersweet relief to see that Bill's gotten some closure on the Tom issue now.
In short, amazing as always!
Date: 09/24/09 11:15 pm Title: Closure
Okay, this is my first time reviewing and I feel awful about that, because I've been obsessed with this story ever since you started posting it. And when I say obsessed, I mean obsessed. Like I've written fanfiction about your fanfiction – that's how into this world I am. I should preface this by saying that I don't particularly like mpreg (at all). It just doesn't do it for me, but to me this story isn't really about mpreg, it's about people struggling with difficult circumstances and how they change their view of the world and themselves. Your Bill and Bu are so original – most characters in FF are just recycled versions of one another, but your Bu and Bill are so different than anything I've read here, both independently and especially when they're interacting with each other.
Bill is so hard, yet simultaneously so defeated. He's fighting, but not really for anything – he just keeps struggling because that's what one does, not because that's what he wants to do. I feel like he's completely forgotten what it feels like to allow himself to want anything, really, and he just goes through the motions of pretending to care. It's interesting that our insight into Bill's mind is focused almost entirely on the present (and entirely indicative of how brilliant you two are as authors). Bill thinks of how hungry he is, how cold, how he's putting Bu out - only rarely does he think about the past and it's always as an afterthought of the present (like oh, that's right, Simone died)...he almost never considers the future. There is no permanence in his life so why would he think of things that are out of reach or no longer significant?
Bushido is just really neat, which is an awful way to describe him but it's the only adjective I can think of right now. I don't 'get' him, meaning that if you put his character in a different situation I'd have no fucking clue how he would react, but it has nothing to do with him being an inconsistent character. I just don't understand/identify with rap/drug culture, or with people in that world in general (although I'm obviously fascinated by it). His character almost scares me in a strange way, b/c although he's been nothing but incredibly giving and nice, I sense that he has a repressed anger for his position in the world. Like when he chastised Bill for singing, his comment wasn't that caustic but it just scared me b/c that lack of patience hadn't really come out before in their interactions, and it made me wonder what is going to happen when Bill stops tiptoeing around and actually does something that pisses him off (if Bill's character ever loosens up to that point, I'm not sure...). I have no doubt that Bu is trying to be the best protector/friend to Bill that he can be, and it is undeniable that he cares, but I worry about how far he can rise above the brutal environment in which they live. His interactions with Sarah show that he can take a lot, but I just worry that he has a snapping point and that one day his resigned acceptance of all this shit will explode.
Tom's an ass, but maybe it's just b/c half my heart is filled with love for the real him that I can't bring myself to blame his character. In one of the twins' convos with each other, I think Bill mentioned something along the lines of how Tom was able to leave b/c Bill stayed. I might be overanalyzing here, but to me it was almost a 'you or me' thing, that it could have happened either way and that b/c Tom had the drug problem, the cards fell the way they did. I don't know Bill's personality back when he made the decision to stay with Simone (before he hardened and eroded to his present-day self), but I would guess that had Tom stayed, Bill might have been the one to leave. It's clear that Bill doesn't really think of himself as a 'good person', but whether that stems from his actual personality or his disillusionment with the world, I really don't know. As for Tom, his life is hardly easy, and if I were he I would be very reluctant to put myself back into the same environment that led me to fucking things up so badly in the first place...his relationship with Amelie seems genuine, and I can't blame him for wanting to start over. He either truly misses Bill and they've just grown too far apart to ever reconnect or get passed the initial betrayal, or he doesn't really miss Bill at all b/c he's just a remnant of his earlier life and he just wants to get the fuck away from all of that (I think it's the first, but it's hard to say b/c my perception of Tom is influenced by Bill's perception of Tom, and the sense of hurt and betrayal there is the only thing that I can feel for sure). Either way, Tom may be weak and selfish but he's not evil, and I want to hug him just as badly as I do Bill.
Last thought before I start my econometrics homework – there is something incredible about the atmosphere that you've created in this world. The lack of comfort here is tangible, as is the darkness and the dirtiness and the transitory nature of everything. I've tried to figure out how you've done it, and I think it might have something to do with your terse and uncomplicated sentence structure, but I've just given up trying to pinpoint what it is and am chalking it up to just the way you two write. I love absolutely everything you put out and feel guilty that this is the first review I've left you, b/c really all your works are remarkable and feel like a gift to read. Thank you so much, and sorry for what's sure to be a shit ton of grammar/sp errors in this review...i'm too lazy to go back and edit.
Author's Response: Thank you so much. It's always nice to hear something so in-depth; to know that someone really understands the characters the way we intended to portray them. And we love your work, too, so it's doubly complimenting. :) That you've written something in this universe makes us insanely giddy (again, especially since we think you're wonderful). Could you post it or at least let us read it? :D
Date: 09/24/09 10:28 pm Title: Closure
:( I feel so bad for poor Bill.
Date: 09/24/09 09:51 pm Title: Closure
awww, that was sad douchebag tom.
haha cute the anis went to the doctors appoiontment with him though :]]
Date: 09/24/09 09:12 pm Title: Closure
AWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.:).
Date: 09/24/09 08:30 pm Title: Closure
interesting..... I like it! update more soon!