Bushido turned to face him, and Bill dropped his eyes quickly to the floor in front of him, uneasiness thick on his delicate face. Bushido’s eyes laughed until they fell on Bill’s twin. Tom had leaned back into the corner of the couch, one arm stretched behind Bill along the back cushions, the other along the plump armrest. His ankle rested on his knee and it looked like the boy thought he owned the place. He felt a flash of annoyance and his eyes narrowed slightly. – awh he’s just trying to fake comfortable.

Tom’s cheeks were pink when he brought his head up, and he chewed on his lip and swallowed his words hard. He held Bushido’s gaze until Bushido turned back to the bar with a shrug. “This was your idea, kid.” - *snickers* so!

When Bill looked up at him with big, quiet eyes, and held out a slender hand to accept his own drink, and when Bushido brushed rough fingers over Bill’s soft, white knuckles, it was his own hands that were unsteady. He frowned, returning to the bar on knees of jelly to retrieve his drink. – lol now who’s faking being comfortable?

“Are you sure you want to do this?” Bushido didn’t look up from his glass and he didn’t address them.
Bill and Tom froze, as if they were caught doing something they shouldn’t. Slowly, Tom brought his hand between them and Bill grasped it, squeezing and rubbing his thumb over the rougher skin of Tom’s knuckles.
“Yeah. We want to do this.” Tom’s voice strangled when he forgot to breathe. – lol this is just awkward and funny.

“Bill?” Bushido’s voice was velvet, yet Bill twitched.
“Yeah?” Bill whispered.
“You wanna do this?” Bushido sought his eyes, locking them in place.
Bill licked his lips, his tongue just darting out to moisten them before disappearing again, and he took a long sip of his cocktail.
“I want what Tom wants.” He looked at Tom again, waiting this time for Tom to look back. After a moment, Tom stopped staring at his drink and gave his twin a shy smile. The color rose in Tom’s face, and Bill smiled at him, a smile that made Bushido’s stomach twist. A smile that would never be for him. – nice!

“Why me?” Bushido asked again, crossing his arms on his chest. – that’s another question…you said only one *smirks*

Some light shining from deep inside the boy, making him brighter, making his tiny body take up all the space in the room. Once you’d seen him, once you were caught in Bill’s snare, you were pulled in, sucked in so hard you couldn’t escape if you wanted to. And the most frustrating part, the most glorious part was that you didn’t want to. – yeah!

*raises hand high in the air* ooo ooohhh ooooo I have a question…why not Tom?

He held the headboard as he toed off his shoes, taking in the silence of the men who stood nervously by the door. Bill played with the zipper tab of his leather jacket, zipping up several teeth, zipping back down, and Tom shuffled and crossed his arms before uncrossing and folding his hands in front of him. The ceiling fan clicked in its circuits overhead and Bushido’s nerves were making his belly clinch down low. – awk~ward! *grins*

“We won’t do anything you don’t want to do. I promise.” He brought Bill’s hands to his lips and dotted kisses along the knuckles, just tasting the smooth skin. Bill's armor cracked, and he gave Bushido a shy smile. – nice!

Bill seemed to have other ideas. He tilted his head and sucked Bushido’s tongue into his mouth, a move that drug a moan from the rapper and strong, hard arms encircled Bill’s waist, pulling him hard against Bushido and the hard-on that was aching in his pants. – hot!

Bill bumped him again, rolling his hips a little this time, dragging his clothed cock tentatively against Bushido’s groin. – and sexkittenBill comes out to play

Bushido’s legs went weak and he willed himself to breathe, willed himself to calm the fuck down before he lost it like a teenager, desperate and panting in the back of his mother’s car, coming before he could even get inside the easy girl lying with her legs spread, wet pussy gleaming in the dim glow from the streetlamp. – wow that was a mouthful! lol love it!

More rustling came from Tom’s chair, and the men by the bed glanced over at him. Tom was taking his clothes off, all of them. – lol what did you expect?

Instead he watched Bill watch Tom.
He watched Bill sweep his eyes over Tom, he watched desire play over delicate features, he watched Bill’s tongue slip out and lick at his lips, and a rock formed in Bushido’s gut as he realized his place.
He was the surrogate. – ta-da!

This was just a little game the boys played, and he was happy to play along.
But he realized now. He knew now. This wasn’t a game, and no one was playing here. - …hum.

“You think we can get your brother to come play, too?” His voice was a husky whisper, breaking with the effort of keeping it low, keeping it calm.
Bill’s eyes glistened with need and his face shone with anticipation even as he gave Bushido a wry smile. - *gasp, hands cover a smile and muffle a giggle*

Very slowly, his eyes locked with Bill’s, Tom peeled his fingers from the edge of the chair and took Bill’s hand, with a feeling he’d suddenly stepped into a hurricane. Bill squeezed Tom’s hand then, and repeated Bushido’s gesture, kissing Tom’s knuckles, but Bill’s lips were open, and wet, and he licked Tom’s fingers, tasting him. - hot

He dropped to his knees with a soft thud on the plush beige carpet – wow impressive.

Anis’s tongue swirling around him, Anis lapping and drooling on him until Bill looked like he might just explode before they could even really get started. – hot hot hot!

“Kiss him.” Anis’s command was husky and low.
“What?” Tom’s eyes were wide, like he couldn’t quite believe what he’d heard.
“Kiss him. I want you to kiss him.” He dipped his tongue low into Bill’s hole again and came back up. “He wants you to kiss him.” – Anis is going to have both of them isn’t he?

“Kiss him, Tom.” But Tom was already there. Anis’s belly tensed and he rolled his hips harder into the mattress, dragging his aching cock, leaking into the comforter. He watched Tom molest his brother’s mouth with his tongue, watched the sloppy, wet acceptance of it from Bill, and he knew he’d made the right decision. - *shudders* so hot!

He leaned up and his mouth captured Tom’s fingers where they played on Bill, and heard Tom’s gasp when Anis sucked two of them in to the second knuckle, his tongue separating and soaking the fingers. He let them go with a pop. – nice!

Anis opened Bill again, and Bill caught his breath. His brother was down there, His Tom was down there, looking at him. Looking at him so closely and so close to where Bill craved his attention that he almost couldn’t pull the oxygen out of the air enough to survive. - *smiles*

“It’s pure Bill.” Anis held Tom’s chin with just his fingers and pulled it toward him, first sliding his lips over Tom’s before thrusting his tongue between Tom’s lips. He knew he had Bill’s taste on him, and he knew Tom wouldn’t be able to resist. Tom sucked at Anis, pulling the older man’s tongue firmly into his mouth and licking off every bit of Bill he tasted there. – He’s so good at this. *smiles*

watched Tom delve into Bill’s tight hole, his tongue hard. – omg so hot!

He felt Tom suck his breath in before he turned quickly and attacked Anis with musky lips, tongue lapping wildly at Anis’s. - *grins*

Tom’s eyes held his for a moment longer, and Anis thought his heart might break at the emotions swirling there. So much was frightening for these two, there was so much at risk, but they wanted this so much, they needed it. And maybe this would be the only time they could have it, and if it was, Anis was going to do what needed to be done to let that happen. – I love Bushido!!!

“He’s all yours.”
Then he bent over Bill, and kissed him gently, lapping tiny little licks at his beautiful, plush lips, before scooting off the bed. He quickly gathered his clothes, and as he reached for the bedroom door, he heard Bill whisper behind him.
“I always was.” – awh

This was going to be one of my favorite oneshots but then it ended. *sigh* I like PWP where they actually have sex. *sigh* awh well it was good anyway.

Author's Response: I like PWP where they actually have sex.

And Bill Clinton didn't have sexual relations with that woman. :p Bushido may not have penetrated either twin with anything but fingers or tongue, but I guarantee, if he had a girlfriend and he'd told her what he'd done, she'd say he'd had sex with them.

That's okay, I guess definitions don't really matter. I'm glad you enjoyed what was written, and I'm sorry you missed the actual event. The point had been for Anis to get with Bill, to do to Bill what Tom could not, because in this universe, Tom and Bill were terrified to take that step. So Bushido went from being the surrogate to being the tutor and facilitator. And then they didn't need him anymore, so he took his leave and gave them the privacy they did need. Actual penetrative sex would have been out of place, so it's done behind closed doors.

You always take care to comment extensively, and it really helps to know what worked and what made you react. I appreciate it more than I can convey. Thank you! :)

oh wow, don't you just know how to package hot and sweet and heartbreaking up into a neat little package! goodness. That was stunning and I cant help but feel a little that I want to cry for the fragile feeling it leaves behind. So wonderful. I cant wait to read more of your writing this is my first of yours and wow you have set the bar high!

thank you very very much =)

Author's Response: Oh my, I so love that you felt that much, that it moved you that much. I really hope that my other stories live up to your expectations now! Thank you so much for your kind words; I do appreciate them. :)

Oh my good god, woman! I loved that. There was nothing about it that wasn't amazing. The plot could have been cliche, but you made it something original and new and I LOVED your Bushido in it. I loved the twins. I LOVED Tom.

It actually made me want to read Tom/Bushido, which I have never felt the urge to read before. The entire thing was not only hot, but so intensely beautiful and sweet. Guh.

Now I want to read the next scene that we didn't get to see. ;)

ANYWAY. Like I said, amazing.

Author's Response: Arianne, I have come back to look at this review at least four times since I first saw it. I can't tell you how happy I am that you enjoyed the story that much. Truthfully, I almost abandoned it because I had part of it written and showed it to someone, and they said it was a lot like yours and Darcy's Billshido/Tom. But I was poked into finishing it and I'm really glad I did.

I'm very happy that you loved Bushido in this, especially since I've had some criticism about how he's written here. I did, however, also have girls tell me that they disliked Bushido until they read this. All in all, I feel good about him and the twins in this. And Tom is just so sweet; I love him to pieces.

You've just put a huge smile on my face today. Thank you. <3

Holy shit. This was my first Bill and Tom fic that involved Bushido, and I sure picked a hell of a one to start with.

That was fucking HOT!!!!

Author's Response: I'm so glad you liked it, thank you! I loved writing that one, and I makes me really happy when someone enjoys it.

Since that was your first Bill/Tom/Bu, let me suggest another. This is one of the HOTTEST Bill/Tom/Bu fics I've ever read: Bad Influence http://fiction.tokiohotelfiction.com/viewstory.php?sid=4467

Thanks again!

You didn't disappoint me - I can be disappointed that the subject matter wasn't to my liking, but not in your abilities as a writer. Your writing is still something I respect greatly, and unless you like, revert to your fifth grade self, I don't think that's going to change. The fact that you approach whatever subject matter it is (whether to my tastes or not) with sensitive and an open mind is something else that I respect and I feel like it's something I can connect with you on. You have far more experience than me and your level of maturity definitely shows in your writing. I do believe in the saying "write what you know" and it's thrilling that you know so many things - love, especially - because that's what enables me to relate to your stories.

I think I left out some important parts in my previous review (as far as explaining goes), hence me feeling the need for this one. You are right in saying that we all find ourselves in positions we don't like and the way we deal plays a big part in defining us, but my problem wasn't just with the fact that Bushido found himself in that position or reacted that way - because I don't think he would.

It's just my perception of his, Tom's and Bill's characters, of course, but I didn't think Bushido would be their first pick. I get the reasoning Tom had in this case but it was still a stretch of my imagination to follow it (which is the way I read the rest of the fic, and why I could relate to Bushido's reactions, being a little removed from reality) and as for how he dealt with it - I did like his characterization and thoughts and reasons and actions, but the crux of the story - that is, him seeing the love between Tom and Bill and bowing out of the way - didn't seem real to me. I think we write and read twincest so often and that we're so used to it that we frequently forget to look at it from the perspective of our characters - and I'm not saying that's what you did, but in general - and in this case I don't think Bushido would be okay with realizing that the boy he's in love with is in love with his twin brother... much less wants to have sex with him.

That's probably the foundation of my dislike, aside from what I stated before. I could like Bushido's reaction because I had put aside my realistic expectations, but with that came my subjectivity. I hope all that makes sense too, lol, I'm pretty sure I have no idea what I just said.

It's extremely flattering that you think so much of my opinion on your Bushido because mine is hardly the best or most accurate. But yours is always a pleasure to read. :)

And I think you misinterpreted the part about the twincest, or I phrased it wrongly - the only time I pull away from twincest is when it's a choice between that and Billshido in a story. I'm still very much invested in the pairing, but I've seen too much of it trump Billshido that I've started leaning towards the dark side (join us, we have Scotch. ...and also, cookies.) And I don't skim through stories because it's disrespectful to the writer - so of course I caught all of the hints of hints of twincest, even the more subtle ones, I should think. What I meant was that I wasn't anticipating Bushido pulling back and away - it was listed as a threesome so I assumed (and was distracted by the porn) that the twincest would definitely come into play but so would Bushido, you know?

I'm really glad you took my review in the light it was given, and also that you stayed true to the vision you had for the fic. I think the worst is when you lose what you want and start writing for others and it's brilliant to see you have enough faith in your stories to stick to them and see the side of things.

Much love,

Ella

Author's Response: It took me forever to respond to this, and I'm sorry.

I do believe I understand what you're saying, and I thank you for going to so much trouble to explain. Of course, if I misunderstood, I would want you to come back and clear things up, and I appreciate that you did. Truthfully, it made me think even more about the characters, in ways I hadn't really done before. Yes, the fic is still true to the vision in my head, even if it isn't realistic, and I appreciate that you respect that. Thank you again, Ella :D

Aw, damn it, girl... I couldn't stay away. I needed to read this (not because I've decided I like Billshido, so don't get your hopes up!). Besides, I read Fitz's Billshido so how could I not read yours?

I'll admit it, I love this. I love the way you wrote Bushido, even though it makes me feel dirty and sick and I am trembling like a rabbit caught in a snare. Also love how you switched from Bushido to Anis because it made it that more intimate.

After a moment, Tom stopped staring at his drink and gave his twin a shy smile. The color rose in Tom's face, and Bill smiled at him, a smile that made Bushido's stomach twist. A smile that would never be for him.

I. Love. You. (:

He watched Bill sweep his eyes over Tom, he watched desire play over delicate features, he watched Bill's tongue slip out and lick at his lips, and a rock formed in Bushido's gut as he realized his place.
He was the surrogate.

I actually felt bad for him here, though I was cheering the twins on. ;) And god, I love how Tom isn't left out of this, like it's exclusively Bill and Bushido, and I love how Bushido describes the need to be inside Bill.

Yeah, I just love it. *__*

Author's Response: Gah! And now I find out you've been reading someone else's Billshido? ;P

That's really confusing, that you love the way I write him but it makes you feel that way. How could you love it, then? I'm not sure what to make of that. But I'm glad you felt the intimacy, because that's definitely what I was going for with the change. At that point, they went from Bushido and Bill the Rock Star, to Anis and Bill, and then it became so much more personal.

I'm glad you liked those parts specifically. I really wanted to make the reader realize how much the twins were into each other, and that Bushido really knew that going into it. I think it makes the ending more realistic when he just walks away. Well, I hope so, anyway. ;)

Thank you for reading this. I know you really had to step outside of what is comfortable for you, and I do appreciate that. It's not only that it makes me happy as your friend, but I think anytime we step out and look at new things that made us uncomfortable before, there is growth. That's almost always a good thing. And that makes me even happier that you liked it. Thank you. :D

Wow..I just spent all my spare time in the past 3 days reading all your stories on this site. I'm sorry I didn't comment after each one, but I would have had to write a book. I am sooo impressed, especially with this one and Epiphany. Awesome! Your characters are outstanding. Your stories are well thoughtout, and I want to say realistic (even if we know they could never happen). Oh god, I could just go on and on. I love the way your mind works! I'm offering cookies and first borns if you'll keep up the wonderful work.

Author's Response: Hollie, you just made my night. :)

I'm so flattered that you liked my stories so much. It's not something I ever expect, and so when someone says such things, it really catches me off guard. And then I grin like a fool.

Epiphany was my first attempt at writing any fiction in twenty years, and I was very nervous about it, so it makes me especially happy that you enjoyed it as you did. Surrogate is the most recent story, and it was nearly scrapped half way through. I'm so glad to have the support system that I have, and the wonderful readers that I have, that keep me writing and don't let me second-guess myself. So thank you, so very much for reading and for your kind words. I do appreciate it. :)

Hm..hmm..hmr30;
I actually like this very much.
especially the way you described Bushidos thoughts was very sweet.

Dislike the twincest part though, m´sorry (it´s just not for me.__.)
but overall a great piece of work, too good not to read even if I dont like the Tom/Bill thing

Author's Response: I'm glad you liked the Bushido part, I'm sorry you didn't like the twins part. Not that I'm not happy that you read my story and enjoyed it, but I wonder why someone who doesn't like twincest would read it. That's okay, though, that's up to you, of course. ;)

I do appreciate your kind words, and I thank you very much. :)

Here, just take my soul. xD

Author's Response: Aw...look! You left your soul out *picks it up, pets it, gives it back* Here, bb. Take care of it. <3

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Author's Response: Girl, your review just made me giggle and grin, and I'm glad no one was in my office at the time! It really makes me happy when someone likes something I've written as much as you do, and I appreciate that you took the time to give me such a sweet review. Thank you so very much! <3