Date: 11/17/08 10:18 am Title: XI : Where's Bill?
I would have been fucking scared shitless if my sister had been gone O_O
but she's not the anorexic one though, so I don't have to worry about that :P
Author's Response: still, the fact that if my little brother wasnt in his room would scare me. that happened to me the other morning, i couldnt find my brother in his room. turns out, he was in the spare room down the hall. (it has a tv lol)
Date: 11/17/08 03:22 am Title: XI : Where's Bill?
I adore this... i really do...
ever since the poem a couple of chapters ago i've been itching to write my own poem about this fanfic, it's been driving me crazy, so here it is:
Starved for perfection
Ignoring every desperate plea
Disgusted by your reflection
Convinced you're not what perfect's supposed to be
She's so naive, it right in front of her
He won't believe that your really alright
you look down, the numbers are a blur
You can't convince him, but you're fine.
Just fine, he can stop obsessing
Just fine, there's no problem that need adressing
Just fine, you don't need to do any confessing
No, you're fine, but it's progressing
Now, she's not so naive anymore
You let out the secret you stored
He forced you, you didn't want to
But you screamed it out,
she didn't want it to be true
They tried to make you get help,
the things they made you tell,
they think their solution's useful
but they don't know you're entries aren't truthful
But he found out, he read them,
you had no idea it clicked,
He figured out, put two and two together,
and now he's really pissed.
He wrote poetry, made it quite blunt
and now he thinks that your a-- liar
If he wants you gone so bad, fine
you'll bend to his desire
He wants you gone, your killing him
you and your need to be thin
so your going away to stop it
Even though it's all bull shit
You're disgusted by your reflection
You're starved for perfection.
Okay i'll say it again I LOVE THIS!
more please! :D
Author's Response: that's very good (: it summerized the story pretty well. just one question, you used 'she' rather than 'he.' was that so you can tell who the anorexic is? anyways, i like it (:
Date: 11/17/08 02:31 am Title: XI : Where's Bill?
WAIT FOR A MOMENT!!!!!!
Where's Bill????
You can't stop there im going crzy here and you just stop!!!
more please
Author's Response: im sorry (: you'll definetly find out by next chapter :D
Date: 11/17/08 02:21 am Title: IX : A Book Full of Lies
HOLY FUCKING SHIT.
...
...
......
that was all i could think for about ten minutes there
that poem is LIKE AMAZING!
see, ur so amazing you made me say "like"
woah...
bill how could you?
Author's Response: thanks, glad you liked the poem. one of my readers made it into a song. (:
Date: 11/16/08 08:30 pm Title: X : I dont wanna kill flowers anymore.
I love it! Thanks so much for updating, and I don't hate you. lol. I love apocalyptica too, it does go great with the story :-)
-Lindsey
Author's Response: yes, isnt that your myspace song? lol or was atlease, idk if it is now. glad you loved it, and im writing the next chapter as we speak (:
xoxo oli
Date: 11/16/08 11:09 am Title: X : I dont wanna kill flowers anymore.
Awwwwww I loves this fic so much!
Don't make Bill goooooooo T_T
So sweet. I wishes I has a brother like Tomi.
Please continue this! It's really amazing and I don't see any way possible how you could improve it! It really is so good.
xx
Author's Response: really? wow. i thought maybe i ruined this fic with this chapter somehow. your review really made me feel great. thanks a lot (:
Date: 11/16/08 03:16 am Title: X : I dont wanna kill flowers anymore.
i'm gone cry :'(
i like this so mutch and i no how hard it can be to eat.
relly like it so a new chapter soon please :)
Author's Response: thanks, im so glad you liked it. and im thinking up the next chapter now. thanks for the review :D
Date: 11/15/08 05:25 pm Title: Prologue
of course she isn't healed for 100% (you can never heal for 100% from anorexia..) but they can't keep you for ever in a clinic, you have to face the reality and stuff
so now, she still needs to go to such kind of docter
but her state isn't dangerous anymore
she still has to gain weight,
but yeah, the clinics can't keep patients there if they are ready to go home again cuz there are so many girls and boys, mainly girls, who are anorexic
thats the reason why my friend couldn't go to such a special clinic for those cases, but she was placed into a childrenhospital cuz their was no place for her in an anorexic clinic
and i'm so glad for the fact that her mother forced her into a clinic cuz otherwise she wouldn't survived it (and still she kept saying she was healthy... yeah, of course, you only could see her bones poke out from a KM away O.O)
and yeah, once you have anorexia, it never goes away, it always will be in you somewhere hidden,
and indeed it can take years O.O, i know, an other friend of mine who was very anorexic too was placed into an anorexic clinic for a year and a half I guess..
but she was already a long time anorexic so then it's not that easy to 'heal' it.
(and maybe this sounds hard, but i can understand why she was that way.. it was like her only way out.. she just had to learn an other way to out her feelings than hurt herself that bad)
and it depends from person to person and from the reason(s) behind it.
oh^^
i'm looking forward to the next chapters =D
xoxo
Author's Response: wow. thank you soo much. you really helped me out and stuff. i never expirienced any of this, and neither has my friends. i started this fic when i did a big research paper on it last school year. so im sorta clueless, i just now basics. but thanks a lot, looking forward to your review in my next chapter (:
Date: 11/15/08 05:18 pm Title: X : I dont wanna kill flowers anymore.
Class. Poor Twins
I Love It!!
I Dont Hate You Lol
But Review Faster Its Kills Me!!!
Author's Response: im sorry. i had writer's block and i really didnt know what do to. i have the ending tied up perfectly, but i didnt know what to put from this point on. i kinda have an idea now, so there should be more updates. anyways, cant wait for the next chapter. hope it pleases you (: rnand im glad you dont hate me :P
Date: 11/15/08 04:34 pm Title: Prologue
eum, lets think..
She went to that clinic at the beginning of August
and she went out at the beginning of November..
so it took her 3 months :)
xoxo
Author's Response: okaay good. i heard sometimes it took years, and i was hoping bill would get better in a few months. still not sure. i know how to end this, so i know exactly where this is going. it should be frequent updates from here on (;
Date: 11/15/08 03:41 pm Title: X : I dont wanna kill flowers anymore.
Please continue, continiue!!
I'm glad Bill made this choice :D
you know, that friend of mine, who i told you about in one of the first chapters, is out of that clinic since a week and she's back healty :)
I'm happy about it :D she isn't that bone-being person anymore
I hope Bill will be back healty too :D
xoxo
Author's Response: thanks. and that's great to know, im so happy for both of you! (: and how long did it take her to be healthy again? just as a reference for the story (:
Date: 11/15/08 03:05 pm Title: X : I dont wanna kill flowers anymore.
grrr tom! more soon please! i loved it!!!
Author's Response: thanks. i think my writers block is gone (:
Date: 10/21/08 05:49 pm Title: IX : A Book Full of Lies
more soon please :-)
Author's Response: ill try. im sooo busy lately. but ill try :D
Date: 10/06/08 09:05 pm Title: IX : A Book Full of Lies
Aw, how sad.
bill must feel horrible. :[
well, maybe not.
Great update and I like the poem. :]
Very cute.
Author's Response: thank you. i wrote the poem for a person in real life too, so this came from pure experience (:
Date: 09/30/08 04:55 am Title: IX : A Book Full of Lies
DDD:
Date: 09/29/08 08:30 pm Title: IX : A Book Full of Lies
Ok I don't know if i told u this but I love your banner! I mean like LOVE IT! It's amazing I love the whole picture thing its awsome and just completly amazing.
Author's Response: really? thanks! rachel stevens made it for me, but i picked out the picture. i tried to find one of bill where he looked really skinny. except you cant really tell in the banner bc it's a tad blurry lol.
Date: 09/28/08 09:03 pm Title: IX : A Book Full of Lies
i wonder how Bill will react to that :) i'm so glad the secret is out :)
Author's Response: me too (: idk about bill's reactions, but i have tom's reactions already planned out :D
Date: 09/28/08 04:58 pm Title: IX : A Book Full of Lies
wauw,,,
MORE!!
Author's Response: (:
Date: 09/28/08 12:00 pm Title: IX : A Book Full of Lies
Hopefully Billa sees how he is hurting Tomi and gets better :o Bill needs Tom now, yeah Tom's hurt, but so is Bill's self esteem and, like, self image. They need eachother to get through this. I love this fic, update soony pleasey? xx
Author's Response: i totally agree, tom needs bill just as much bill needs him. glad you like the story (: