Date: 02/14/18 07:02 pm Title: Chapter 37
*cries*
Very harrowing to read. But at the same time it's like drawing poison from a wound.
Author's Response: Backstory, in this story, tends to not be much of a good time. :(
Date: 02/14/18 04:49 pm Title: Chapter 35
I swear, this was the most BEAUTIFUL chapter of the entire fic. I was swept away with the alternative story of them meeting and falling in love. *hearts* It was made better by the fact that I had this in my ears while reading ^^ https://mynoise.net/NoiseMachines/acousticPianoSoundscapeGenerator.php?c=0&l=0044440000444444000000&d=0
But ohhhh, (@ending) let's take a couple steps back, shall we D:
Author's Response: If only they could make their alternate reality a reality, things would have been so much better. Instead real reality has to come wandering in an make things terrible. Crappy real reality.
The piano is lovely! That site has a cat purr generator, too, that I spend a little too much time playing.
Date: 02/14/18 04:37 pm Title: Chapter 34
Heyyyy, B&T, don't knock instant coffee! =P
I'm melting myself at the thought of Tom smiling brightly and genuinely :D
Author's Response: Bill is a small batch, hand roasted, ground to order kind of man. You just know that his Starbucks order makes barista's eyes twitch.
Tom adores his boy and his sticky little frosting face. :D
Date: 02/14/18 04:21 pm Title: Chapter 33
*gasp* Emily came back and she didn't tempt Tom (whether willingly or accidentally) into going back to her! So happy with this sequence of events ^^
No, boys, don't smoke! Noooooooooo
I completely understand the fear of someone no longer needing you, and the crushing guilt of having such a selfish feeling ;_; Because you should *want* them to get better and move on...
Beautiful chapter ending.
Author's Response: An ex girlfriend that can show up and NOT be either a temptress who's only there to make drama, or a stereotypical catty bitch. Who knew they could exist! She was just glad to know that her friend was okay.
Man, they smoke a looooot more from here on out.
It's definitely not a happy mental space to be in. :(
Date: 02/13/18 09:08 pm Title: Chapter 26
Eep, am I the only one who thinks it was wrong of Bill to look at the pictures of Tom's body without his permission?
Also, despite my two reviews with complaints in them (gah, sorry :( ), I *am* glad that you decided to continue this. I do love stories with very realistic, very slow healing.
Author's Response: Knowing his character, I doubt the idea even crossed his mind for a SECOND about maybe being taboo. They were attachments in his email, so why wouldn't he look? They're going to be flashed all over the courtroom, so he's just going to see them anyway, so what would it matter?
My fragile, writerly ego sobs in the corner. SOBS. :P
Date: 02/13/18 03:52 pm Title: Chapter 12
I'm utterly boggled by people thinking, when a person disappears so suddenly and never returns, that it's *not* a kidnapping, but that the person just ditched everyone they knew for no reason? What the hell?? Something terrible having happened would be the *first* thing on my mind if a loved one vanished ;_;
This frustration isn't directed at you, but at people who wouldn't have the slightest thought it might have been a kidnapping.
Author's Response: tbh, if I was dating someone and they just poofed off the face of the planet, I would probably assume I was being ghosted before I thought something bad had happened. But that's if it was all fairly new. If it was, like, a five year relationship, then I'd be calling family and friends and trying to figure out wtf was going on. Even if it was a belated ghosting, I'd rather KNOW that assume that they were lying dead in a ditch somewhere. (and I would go straight to 'incredibly dead' before 'kidnapped', too)
Date: 02/12/18 10:04 pm Title: Chapter 74
this was a good chapter!!
i can not wait for the next chapter!
an i am sorry that you wont see tokio hotel in concert:(
Author's Response: Thank you much and thank you much. It was kind of the only thing I was looking forward to this year.
Date: 02/12/18 05:57 pm Title: Chapter 74
I’m so sorry to know you were going to attend to the US/NA tour leg. This whole has been a awful and nasty mess... I wish they’d treat us better. I haven’t meet them myself yet, and I’ve been their fan for +10 years now, too. But I’ve never had the chance because I’m from Venezuela and the situation here it’s insane and I can’t afford traveling to see them (and they never come here). Now that I might be moving out because it’s pretty damn impossible to live here anymore, they don’t say a single thing. There’s has been a shitload of rumors about the LaTAM tour leg, but as fucking usual, they remain silent. I love them all to death, but they can get on my nerves like no one else...
Anyways, I sincerely hope you don’t go on hiatus because your story it’s pretty much the only thing that makes me looking forward to Monday’s. But I’d understand, of course. I absolutely loved this chapter, and I’m already ready for more!
Send you loads of love.
Author's Response: I had my ticket all set and ready, and was contemplating whether I could swing a M&G without making my bank account sob uncontrollably. ngl, I'm glad I didn't get the M&G only to have to wait for it to be refunded.
I've never met them, either, though I have had many, many M&Gs fall out from under me. Twice it was because I was sick and couldn't get to the show, and wouldn't have tried because it would have been monstrous to go and cough all over them. Twice more because of Bill's surgery. And then once more because the strings needing pulled were pulled too late. I was kinda thinking maybe sixth time would be the charm, and maybe it still will be, but not this week.
I've been a fan for 12 years now, run a fanpage for 11, and ran their official US forum (not the fan forum, though) for 7 years. Times like this make it all seem like it's kiiiiinda wasn't worth it.
A hiatus would pretty much be until I had a buffer going again, but, tbh, if I'm not touching the story, getting more words down isn't really going to happen, so idk. We'll see. I've been trying to give myself reasonable goals, like 'get 500 words today', but most of the time ever that is beyond was I feel up to. So the buffer shrinks and shrinks, and eventually it'll be gone. Which sucks because the last 60 some chapters weren't even supposed to exist, so it seems extra shitty to take something that, for all intents and purposes, was finished, stretch it out, and then leave it to fester. But that would be a better fate than having a 'rocks fall, everybody dies' quick wrap up after everything that's happened, you know?
Date: 02/12/18 12:46 pm Title: Chapter 74
I'm sorry that they cancelled the tour :( I'm not a fan of the boys, just of the ffs about bill and tom, but I can imagine how you feel.
BUT - we dont know the real reasons. Maybe they are pretty importend, pretty ... what ever, and cant get told openly? Maybe they trie to avoid more drama by just letting the topic drift off?
Probably they will tour there soon.
The chapter was one of the best of this story! I really really enjoyed reading it! It was so ... positive, there is so much progress! I just love this story more now :)
Author's Response: At this point, I barely care if there was a reason, I just want someone to acknowledge that it was cancelled instead of posting vids of themselves with toothpaste slime on their chest and talking about how they're too blessed to be stressed. Like, just PRETEND to be mildly disappointed, if that's what it takes. It doesn't even have to be genuine. They could HATE the idea of touring in the US and have popped a bottle of champagne in joy over the tour going belly up, but, for the sake of goodwill, post a sad face about the whole thing. At this point, everyone I was set to go with to this show has left the fandom because the boys are acting like they don't give a shit about them, so why should they waste their time on them? Even if the do come back, I don't have anyone to go with anymore. :(
But hey, at least the story is going well. It felt kind of shitty tacking a downer note on the end of an upbeat chapter, but sometimes timing suuuuucks.
Date: 02/12/18 09:48 am Title: Chapter 1
Thanks for story! They love to make music and perform so I am just looking forward to what magic they will give us when possible surely. I hope to keep you motivated please.
Author's Response: Very welcome!
I'm not really going to hold my breath on them coming through here again, and, even if they do, I'm iffy on if I'd want to go. All the people I was set to go with have left the fandom because of this, so I'd be going alone. It makes me feel like even more of a relic of a long forgotten time than I did before.
Date: 02/12/18 04:22 am Title: Chapter 74
That was such a good chapter!
Tom got his cast off, what a relief! And the part of the bath was so interesting. I mean, Tom is going so much better, he's going forward to new things and want to do new things. It makes me smile because he would never had let Bill in when he was naked only a few months ago. Ok, Bill coudn't see anything but still.
Bill seem to feel better too but who knows if it's going to last ?
I love them both. And it would be great if one day, they will come to have sex.
I can totally understand if you're disapointed of the band. Their communication is shitty and they don't seem to care about any tour right now.
I have seen them a few times last year but I had to go to the US for the tour, this is why I can understand. I was supposed to be in New York right now but well, I'm at work. GREAT. But 10 years !! It must be long... I hope they will reschedule the tour or at least a few date so you can see them again.
Author's Response: He was in the cast for a million years. It was, in story time, exactly 6 weeks, but both writing and posting it, ugh, it felt like 400 billion years. And, totes, man. Having Bill walk in on him earlier would have lead to panicked towel grabbing and awkward apologies from Bill. No fun.
The rl band's current communication IS shitty. Just last week some poor fan only JUST found out that the tour was cancelled. So not only are they terrible about letting us know why or that they're disappointed, but they failed so hard in even letting people know that it was cancelled to some people DIDN'T FIND OUT. (which, if you only follow them on IG and don't read comments [because, really, who would want to wade through 500 'omg, I love you so much!' comments], you WOULD never have found out.) I feel so bad for that girl. :( She still got excitement for an upcoming tour, only to find out that the show she was set to see in a matter of days had been cancelled for MONTHS, and the band said NOTHING about it to the point where she never saw anything.
10 years is a damn long time. Bill still had the mane, Tom had dreads, Georg's hair was long, Gustav's wasn't. I'd skipped it when they came through in 2015 because I'd been running a forum for WAY too long and hated everything and would have rather scooped my own eyes out with a grapefruit spoon than to have had to interact with other fans for a SECOND longer than I had to (it was a rough time), but apparently I should have gone.
Date: 02/12/18 01:57 am Title: Chapter 74
I feel you sis. I saw my tickets today in my dresser and just frowned. This chapter was amazing. Seeing Tom’s improvement always makes me smile. He deserves to get better after everything he’s been through. If you feel the need to take a hiatus I’d respect it. It is a little disappointing to hear absolutely nothing about the show makes me a little upset. However, like I said this is an amazing chapter despite your feelings about the boys right now. Hope to read more soon :)
Author's Response: My ticket still lives in the computer, alongside the tickets to the shows that were canceled in 2008 as well. My hard drive is a graveyard of ticket disappointment (though I really can't blame them for canceling a tour for surgery). And, man, tbh, if it was still December, I would want a reason for the cancellation. January, I'd want a reason. But now? I'd just like to see them acknowledge it instead of Bill being just soooooooooo goddamn thirsty and 'lol, too blessed to be stressed!' all the time.
Thank you for the chapter love. My wee fictional Tom gets better and better, little by little. He's a doll and a sweetheart and he should have good things.
Date: 02/08/18 04:00 pm Title: Chapter 73
this was a good chapter!!
i can not what for the next chapter!!
Author's Response: Coming soon!
Date: 02/06/18 04:25 pm Title: Chapter 73
All of the fluff
Author's Response: Live on boardwalk cotton candy for long enough, and suddenly everything is fluff. ;)
Date: 02/06/18 03:12 am Title: Chapter 73
I love their lovey dovie interaction 😍😍
Author's Response: They are delightfully smooshy. :)
Date: 02/05/18 02:21 pm Title: Chapter 73
They are doing better and better. Thats good :)
Author's Response: Hmmm, sounds like it might be time to make everything go terribly awry. *cackles away into the night*
Date: 02/05/18 05:34 am Title: Chapter 73
I'm glad to see Bill smile again. I'm not sure it will last, but it's good to see it for a moment.
I will never get bored of their talk. We just feel the love, you know ?
Author's Response: We take the smiles we can get. :)
*loves*
Date: 02/05/18 03:31 am Title: Chapter 73
Great to see them doing nice, normal things. Good to see Bill smiling even if it probably won't last. Depression is such a bitch. Great to watch Tom's progress. I'm so happy you're still updating regularly. Sorry I don't always review. Looking forward to the next one x
Author's Response: Just think, someday, down the road, they might go to the grocery store. You just know Bill is a cart slinker. Turn away for two seconds and suddenly there are 12 boxes of snack cakes in the cart that weren't there a moment ago. Meanwhile Tom is making lists and then organizing the list based on where things are in the store so they don't have to walk back and forth 30 times to get everything. (which would be opportunity to slink in a few more snack cakes)
I appreciate what reviews I can get. ;)
Date: 01/30/18 01:52 pm Title: Chapter 72
Liked this chapter ^^
The other time I meant just keep the non-angstiness going, please don’t make them get 65 dogs :’D
Author's Response: Wine, ice cream, and mirrors. :)
Well, I wasn't thinking 65 dogs all at once, but, like, 10-15 years down the road and Tom taking a fondness for getting old shelter dogs, the ones that have been there for a long time, or just the ones no one wants because they aren't cute little puppies. They don't last long, because they're 15, 16, 17 year old dogs, but the last couple months/years of their life are awesome. It's a lot of turnover, and it's always sad when another pup passes, but he got to help make sure that they didn't have to spend the end of their life in a cage.
Actual, in house dog maximum would be four, two for each of them.
Also, man, but the annnnngst.
Date: 01/30/18 04:47 am Title: Chapter 72
Bill seem to feel a little bit better and I'm glad to see that even if he still have some work to do. Even Tom admitted Bill can be the focus now.
Tom want to move forward and I'm happy for that! He's doing it for Bill but I hope he also do that for himself too. It's a real act of love, and it's beautiful to do everything to give something to someone but he have to feel confortable with it. I don't now how to explain this, hope you'll get it haha
Tom have made so much progress, naked in front of a mirror ? Wow!
Author's Response: It's all baby steps. :)
Currently it's probably about a 70/30 split between 'want this for Bill' and 'want this for Tom' with Tom. He'd be fine tucking his junk away to be forgotten, like an allen wrench you put in a drawer because you might need it again, but never go near, but he's got himself a Bill. He likes that Bill. Might consider taking an allen wrench to that Bill.
That analogy got kind of weird.