Date: 09/07/16 12:02 pm Title: Christmas Spirit
this was a good chapter!
i cant wait for the next chapter!
Author's Response:
Thanks for taking the time to read and review. I really appreciate the support.
Date: 09/07/16 07:03 am Title: Church
~Hello
So I asked my followers on twitter for Tom/Bill story recommendations and yours came up, so here I am. I really like it so far, though; thank you for sharing this with us. I'm really enjoying how you're portraying Bill's sexuality crisis, his confusion & denial, and how he's attempting to cope with it; I think it's realistic that he's trying to find a distraction in Cora, if only to convince himself (and others around him) that he isn't gay. It happens and it's going to be relatable to a lot of people out there.
I know I should probably review on every chapter, but the NEXT button has never appeared this tempting before - my apologies for that. I literally had to stop and review at this point, though, because "What did he have in common with a bunch of bible thumping Jesus Freaks?" I lost my shit at this line and you needed to know that.
Well done!~
Author's Response:
That is the best start to a review I have ever read. Your followers recommended me. I literally paused my music took out my headphones and read the review aloud to my boyfriend. I was so happy. I wanted to dance and clap. If people are recommending me I am definitely doing something right which I have feared lately with the lack luster response to the last few chapters. Anyway.
rnThis is written based on my own struggles when I got involved with a very repressive chruch and an even more repressive guy. I tried to reconcile my own beliefs on sexaulity with their's. I have a GBF (gay best friend) and fall very firmly into the other caterfory myself. Labels are for clothing and closets are for brooms was then and is now my own personal philosphy on sexaulity. I wanted to get it all out in a forum that I knew would love it. Many people have found the message with Cora did resonate with them even as they hated her.
rnI don't mind you not reveiwing on every chapter. There are quiet a few. I would appreciate it but just letting me know you are working your way through the story and the parts you find hillarious I would appreciate. I do hope you will be kind as you progress because I did lose some of my magic and inspiration at certian spots so they are kind of blah. Also I working through a part of the story that many seem to hate right now. I have guarnteed it is worth it and I appreciate everyone hanging on. I hope you will as well.
rnI appreciate you taking the time to read and review. Please let your folllowers know I am so floored and amazed that they reccomended my story to you. I am very glad one of my favorite lines of the whole story had you laughing. That is amazing to hear. I hope you will continue to read and review.
Date: 09/07/16 01:34 am Title: Christmas Spirit
Nooo, noo end :( I will hate you, if there will be no tomxbill Happyend :O Then most of the story would be for nothing (also if it's the same in life ... There are enough people that dont get their happy end of life, so we dont need that in a story :O ) woah, just reading your author comments makes me sad, but I should catch up on the chapters and read them :O
Author's Response:
I am not going to guarantee an ending because if I do and change my mind I will either end up with upset people on my hands or I will feel trapped an unable to express my proper creative self. I am very sorry my author comments made you sad. Every good story has an ending no matter how much I wish it could go on forever. I really wish you would read the chapters and catch up. The next two chapters will be up today and the last one has a surprise for everyone. So I hope it will make up for months of me being mean to everyone. See you soon. Thanks for the review and letting me know you are still there.
Date: 09/06/16 09:51 pm Title: Christmas Spirit
Hey there,
nah it wasn't only my story that kept me from writing reviews. My life is changing rapidly right now. Aside of that your story makes me feel weird to be honest. Weird in a...weird way ...(I know tells much). Well, and I'm afraid you grow tired of my Ian bashing xD
I don't like Bill much in here because I still think he is very self centered about what he deems right and I think he is close to unable to think about how others might feel. Makes him frustrating, but also interesting at the same time. My favorite character of the story is Tom and I adore most of the side characters, so for me this stage of the story is really hard, but I'll manage.
Of course I still enjoy the story in itself, otherwise I wouldn't keep sticking around. It's just challenging in its own way^^ Especially since I am on my knees to know how it ends xD Have mercy on me despite my little grumbling about Ian, please.
I know it sounds cruel, but with Ian I'm right at the stage where I wouldn't care if he gets hit by a truck o.o A big truck...or maybe a train.....or a tank......well, I can't decide xD
Right now he just seems like the perfect boyfriend, which is maybe the reason I can't learn to like him. He seems like this seductive but also kind and lovely, perfect boyfriend. He seems to have no flaws at all. For me this package seems too perfect to be true.
So yeah, your story and your teasing have tied me to being extremely curious for the end, so I guess I'll suffer through anything at this point xD
I'm glad my comment about the letters inspired you a bit^^ It's a real compliment to me that you got some ideas out of it wherever they head. I'm excited what they'll add to the end now^^
By the way, Zarlina's banner is wonderful! Compliments to that :) Also I think the update of your summary is fitting^^ (I always struggle to write those myself xD)
And with that I'm out^^ Enough rambling for now. Take care!
Author's Response:
I am not sure whether to be concerned or glad that your life is changing. I guess if you're happy congrats and if you're sad I hope it will get better soon. I was tired of everyone hating on Ian for a while but thankfully that has died down. Also even if Ian bashing is the primary point i enjoy the review and am floored that someone took the time to be mad enough to tell me they were upset with me.
rnBill is very self centered in this story and I am beginning to believe he will drive me crazy before I finish this story. Most people have made it clear that Tom is their favorite and they enjoy my side characters more. I hope you will find your solace in the next few chapters. There are some very big plot points I finally managed to get out. I might post two chapters at once just because I am impatient but we will see.
rnI can understand wanting to get rid of Ian. I plead your patience for just a bit longer. Just a tiny bit please hang on, I promise it will be worth it. I promise.
rnI made a bit of an error with Ian, called a Mary Sue character. You are right he is perfect and this is unfortunate but I am grateful that you are all so stubborn otherwise I would be stuck in an ending that I hate currently. So Ian will find his way out shortly and Bill will be better for it. Ian is just older and I think he takes things easier because of his exposure to the harsh media. Therefore he is less high stung than either Bill or Tom. Bill doesn't need someone who goes with the flow. So yeah. We're at the tailend of all of that.
rnI am glad you are curious for the end but I guarntee over the next few chapters you will want to kill me for my teasing. I plead your mercy. I probably don't have to plead since if you actually harm me the story and teasing will never be over. I love reviews because they make me feel like someone actually cares whether or not I post as well as giving me some new ideas. I never had planned on Nathalie being pregnant in the beginning but it took the story in a direction that I am very pleased with and gave me a beautiful little baby boy added to the mix. So I love reveiws that open a new path that I never considered before.
rnI am so pleased with the banner, I feel like it breathed a second life into this story and into me the author. I needed to update the summary when I did the banner. Just like Bill's face and hair, they had to match. Plus the old summary didn't fit the story much anymore. I appreciate the long review and I hope you enjoy the long reply. I will be posting later today so keep your eyes open for that.
Date: 09/05/16 03:59 pm Title: December
started to read this story just but jumped to last chapter to leave reaview. From the few chapter that I have read I really like your characters and it seems you have great chemistry between Tom and Bill. Going to jump back where I was and continue. There is quite many chapters to catch up!
Author's Response:
I am glad you like it and have started to read and enjoy. I am also very grateful for the review. There are alot of chapters in this story. I have had a ball writing it. It is the longest story I have ever written. I hope you will continue to read, enjoy and review when you get fully caught up.
Date: 09/04/16 05:26 pm Title: December
I must admit that I didn't read everything because it was a lot of BillxIan :$ But I guess I've read the most important parts. And Tom's letters, it doesn't even matter what he's writing anymore, every letter of him makes me teary-eyed :$
Author's Response:
I respect that you don't like the Bill Ian chapters. All I can say is I hope you will be happy in the near future chapters. That is all I will say for now. :D Tom's letters are something that I have been looking forward to for a long time. They were in the orginal planning although they came out in the story in a diffferent way than I orginally anticpated. I hope you will enjoy future chapters more. Thanks for taking the time to read and review. It means a lot to me.
Date: 09/04/16 12:24 pm Title: December
Hey there,
I have a lot to manage currently and mostly concentrate on posting my own story so sorry for the lack of reviews.
This chapter was well written as always though I liked the last one better, since I still can't enjoy Ian chapters very much (I fail to like them everytime somehow)
I was very happy about Bill and Tom's talk though, of course I wished it had ended a bit differently. But well, you like being a tease don't you^^
I got a few different theories about the ending. The letters make me curious, since you could go down a very tragic path with them or one that could break some more of the ice. I don't know which one I would choose if I had the choice. They give a lot of opportunities for an author. Still excited to see how this ends.
Take care!
Author's Response:
I understand concentrating on your own stories and I respect that but as an author I am sure you can understand how discouraging it is when readers don't review as much on one chapter or another. I am glad you felt the chapter was well written although not as good as others. I wanted to show that Bill was really trying to work through the issues of his past. I love teasing both my readers and characters. It is a fun way to write and I love writing drama especially between these two explosive dynamic personalities. I am hopeful that one of your theories is right. The letters weren't really intended for anything and I had the ending all planned out until I read your review and my mind spun into overdrive. Thanks fot that. The ending will be soon. Thanks for the review. I really appreciate it.
Date: 09/04/16 04:41 am Title: December
nice chapter!!
i cant wait for the next chapter!
Author's Response:
I am glad you liked it. Thanks for taking the time to read and review. I appreciate the continued support.
Date: 08/28/16 05:44 pm Title: Apologies
Tom finally got to explain Bill his reasons, even though what he said after that wasn't very smart :$ Even though I do understand, to me it would feel the same way when I was Tom. It can honestly make you wonder if that person ever really loved you, and that feeling hurts.(sorry I'm starting to talk about own experiences here xD) And yaay, it's december, which means that Tom's almost coming home again :D Okay, I'm acting like I really had to go all these months without him, lol xD great chapter :)
Author's Response:
I wanted Tom and Bill to have a heart to heart and than Tom said that stupid thing and made me very upset with him too. It definitely will affect how you see people and how they see you. I didn't want to get into all the stuff surronding the major issues with Ian and Bill and all that so I decided to skip some time. I am glad it is being well recieved. I am glad you liked the chapter and missed Tom. I appreciate you taking the time to read and review.
Date: 08/28/16 05:03 am Title: Apologies
this was a really good chapter!
i cant wait for the next chapter!
Author's Response:
I am glad you liked it. Thank you for taking the time to read and review. I appreciate the support.
Date: 08/21/16 12:55 am Title: Sculpture
You get way too few comments. You should get more, because this story is awesome and you are a great author :)
Author's Response:
I appreciate that. I appreciate all reviews no matter how many or how few. Thanks for taking the time to read and review. I appreciate the support and the vote of confidence.
Date: 08/19/16 06:57 pm Title: Sculpture
Great chapter :) (sorry for the short review, but it's late :$ )
Author's Response:
Thanks for reviewing. Short, long or otherwise I appreciate every review especially those who review every chapter. Thanks for taking the time I appreciate the continued support.
Date: 08/19/16 05:21 am Title: Sculpture
this was a really good chapter!
i cant wait for the next chapter!!
i am happy that tom was back in the chapter's!
Author's Response:
I am glad you liked it. Thanks for taking the time to read and review. I appreciate the continued support.
Date: 08/09/16 05:56 pm Title: Memories
Wow, this chapter got me emotional. Tom and Bill are both missing eachother in their own way, even though Bill doesn't confess it yet. Great chapter :)
Author's Response:
I torture my characters sometimes. They are missing each other and it's very sad. I am glad you liked the chapter. Thanks for taking the time to read and review.
Date: 08/09/16 12:11 am Title: Memories
I hope Bill realized that Tom is his only love. And i like it Ian too so I hope more Ian&Bill too jejeje 😅 ;)
Author's Response:
It's kind of a catch 22. On one hand we want Bill with Tom. On the other hand we want Bill and Ian. Thanks for the review and the continued support.
Date: 08/08/16 09:47 pm Title: Memories
Hey there,
it's nice to read that Tom's visiting Oranitz and Ryan again ( as I said, I love them xD).
The Bill part...at first I had to cringe then I kinda smiled at the end....I don't know what that says about me o.o
But yeah, beautiful written as always^^
Nice to hear that you had a good time on your trip.
(Sorry that my review is rather short in comparison to the others, but I'm tired xD ..I mean it's 3:46am for me right now)
Greetings^^
Author's Response:
I love my side characters too so whenever I can I try to introduce them into the story.
rnAs for the part about Bill I can see why that would happen. Working through confusion is part of how we work through emotions.
rnI am glad you liked the chapter. Thnak you for the review and the continued support. I appreciate any reviews no matter shorter or longer than any others.
Date: 08/04/16 06:09 pm Title: Letters
I loved to see Tom back :) And Bill actually missed a few very important words from Tom before Tom had to leave O_o And those letters made me teary-eyed, and I don't even know why :$ And Bill, you shouldn't be so mean to Tom, he really doesn't deserve that, remember when he was there for you after you got raped and how patient he was with you? Yes, he should've told you earlier what he was planning to do, but that's no reason to be like this towards Tom after months. Just talking wouldn't hurt anyone. What if something would happen to Tom and you never talked things out? (Sorry, I had to say that last part to Bill, someone has to talk some sense into him, it's like Bill only thinks about mistake Tom made instead of the moments in which Tom was so sweet, maybe it's fear from Bill's side, but I don't know) great chapter :)
Author's Response:
I wanted to bring Tom back while not leaving out everything that had happened to him during basic training. I also wanted to show how badly he was missing Bill all summer even while training while also using them as a sort of diary.
rnBill also would like to tell you that he currently does not want to talk to Tom. He remembers how very patient Tom was with him after everything but he didn't tell Bill what he was doing earlier. Bill says it still hurts too much for him to talk to Tom. It hurts him. If something happens to Tom he;ll be heartbroken but he wants to know what you think will happen to him. He believes Tom can take care of himself.
rnI agree that Bill tends to overreact but sometimes the sweet caring moments can't outweigh the painful part of a relationship which is sometimes all it takes for a relationship to fall apart. I am glad you liked it. Thanks for taking the time to read and review. I appreciate the continouis support.
Date: 08/04/16 03:19 pm Title: Letters
Hey there,
You surprised me today, I thought it would be Bill at artschool again (so thanks for that^^) I really like Tom's letters, they show how his thinking changed. I know how much military can change a person, some for the good, some for the bad and others just...different. For me, Tom was always a bit more grown up, as well as Georg than the others, but now he seems to be even more like an adult.
For me Bill is like an overdramatic teen. (I have never liked him much in the fic xD) I mean he meets Tom again, who wants to speak with him normaly, and Bill sees only himself instead of finally listening to what Tom has to say. But still I like that you let them meet again!
My favorites of the story somehow are the side characters, like Andy, Nathalie, Georg and also the detective and his boyfriend. I think they make the story quite vibrant and nice to read.
And I am happy that you were able to enjoy the comemnts more this time! I'm sure it'll stay that way^^
You said your in the end phase, so do you know how many chapters are left or aren't you sure yet? Don't worry, this is just me being curious xD
Have fun on your camping trip!!
Author's Response:
It normally would have been but I wanted to show Tom's perspective for all the time that had passed. I also wanted to show how much Tom had chnaged with the military. Bill is definitely an overdramatic teenager but I wanted that contrast between the two of them. I liked writing the side characters in this story. I wanted them to be a vibrant and bright as the main characters without overwhelming the main characters. I was very happy with the comments and this one. I really appreciate you continuing to review and stick with this story. I am not sure how many more chapters there will be I just noticed I had expressed most of my story arcs already. I had alot of fun on my camping trip.
Date: 08/03/16 04:46 am Title: Date
nice chapter!
i cant wait for the next chapter!
i hope you keep doing this story!
Author's Response:
I am glad you liked it. Thanks for taking the time to read and review. I appreciate the support.
Date: 08/02/16 09:14 pm Title: Date
Hey there,
I am still holding on with hope that my predictions come true in the end^^
I absolutely accept your decision to not let yourself get influenced by us readers. As an author myself, I know how it feels if you have an idea and a plotline that you like as it is.
Please don't let yourself get dragged down.
I mean, see it positivley that many people, despite not liking the current part of the plot, are still reading. Me included. Your style and the way you describe everything still holds everyone interested in the next chapters.
Not many people can bear, if readers critize and are upset about the plot, but you still posted the next chapter without changing anything or say you won't post no more. I think this is also something people should have respect for!
I hope you can gather a tiny bit of motivation from my review^^
Author's Response:
Maybe they will become true. You'll have to wait and see. I love the way the story is now and I have a way I want this to go. I have allowed readers to influence my ideas in the story with mixed results. Right now though I am nearing the end of the story and I want this to go the way I wanted it to in the beginning.I appreciate your support and am really grateful I added that disclaimer to the last chapter because the reveiws became kinder while still expressing opinions. It is definitely heartening that people are still reading despite seeing as how they seem to hate the plot. I apprecaite that you respect that I posted the next. I thought about retiring this story from posting and finishing it on my computer because I was so disappointed in the response but I thought I would ask people to be kinder before I did so. Your review is very motivating and I appreciate you leaving it. Thanks for the support.