Date: 11/09/21 01:55 pm Title: It's better to feel pain than nothing at all
Philip is a monster....
Author's Response:
:( :( he truly is! Thanks for reading and reviewing <3
Date: 04/20/17 10:53 pm Title: They say time's supposed to heal the pain, but I ain't done much healing
Aw man, it's over! God i hope this boy finally finds some peace. Even Jacob gave him peace with the coke in the party toilet which was what Bill needed right there to try and get through the aftermath. Looking forward to reading how he progresses mentally and romantically from this in the sequel! :)
Author's Response:
You know your reviews give me life, you really read through this quick af!!!! I'm glad you liked it and I hope you will like the sequel. Don't think it's going to be all flowers and sunshine though. Noooooope girl. Thank you for reading and writing such lovely and long reviews. <3
Date: 04/20/17 10:26 pm Title: Another man's pain, is another man's pleasure
That sentence is total bullshit. I hope he really fucks off now for good and will just leave Bill to heal and get on with life. Only one chapter left? NOoooo... I hope all will end well.
Date: 04/20/17 10:10 pm Title: Hollywood hills
Ugh how dare that prick come over to the house and invade Bill's last bit of privacy. So glad Tom came home soon after. And i am happy they are moving so Philip cannot bother them anymore.
Date: 04/20/17 07:25 pm Title: The conversation
Oh man that was so hard to read. ;_; Not only for Bill to have to admit it all but Tom's reaction because he didn't even know what had been going on. The sentence sounds shit and unjust but as long as Bill is finally safe now and far away from Philip, especially now with Shane and Tom at his side.
Date: 04/20/17 07:10 pm Title: Holding on and letting go
Omg i am an absolute mess. I was just thinking fuck this is getting far too much with him beating Bill to death but the moment when Bill heard Tom's voice and called out for him i knew instantly that everything would be okay. Such relief when he smashed Philip up finally and Bill felt that justice and relief in Tom's fists too. I just love how Tom was finally there for him and saved him just in time. Again, such relief in the hospital knowing that Bill is getting some rest and is healthy and in a safe place. So glad Tom has taken him there and they are going to expose Philip for everything that he did to Bill and all his threats. Tom is going to be so hurt finally he will understand what has been going on and Bill will find safety.
Date: 04/20/17 06:38 pm Title: The end of the road
Omg noooooo ;_; BILL How could he let all of this happen to him! He needs to escape and tell Tom everything but maybe it's too late. I feel terrible while reading this because i am reading Bill being hit about while i am sitting on the sofa stuffing my mouth with crunchy nut cornflakes like popcorn and just chilling. Aw man i hope he can somehow get away from Philip before he hurts him any more !
Date: 04/20/17 05:29 pm Title: Two lives at risk
Omg he actually gave him his phone. I am pissed about that. But at least he got away from him and can get to Shane because oh shit he needs him. But i am praying he has run away from Philip for once and for all because i keep getting my hopes up but he always goes crawling back to Philip who just destroys him further.
Date: 04/20/17 04:40 pm Title: Losing privileges
That totally makes me think of the blowjob in the Feel it all video somehow. Some dirty toilet in a club and then Philip kinda shoving Bill outside afterwards. Would even expect that at this point of their relationship. But holy shit a Bill Kaulitz sextape? Imagine. Oh dear. I should be saying omg that is not good but at the same time, bill-fangirl be is like omg. Oh god he NEEDS to Tell Tom about everything or i will EXMPLODE. But holy fuck WHAT THE FUCK he is not taking Bills phone is he messing? Why is Bill even worrying about giving that over? Why th fuck has he not told Tom about it all and Tom will drive over to Philips on his motorbike and smash his fucking nose and throw him in the pool in a genuine gatsby style.
Author's Response:
I wouldn't mind seeing one lol. Don't judge me.
Date: 04/20/17 04:27 pm Title: The morning after
FINALLY HE IS TELLING TOM!!! I like how you describe every little thing in detail like the sounds of the water splashing in the shower soothing Bill. That and instagram give me such a good idea of what this scene would look like irl. But holy shit about the last bit.JUST CHECKING. That isnt a real pic is it? Like even a manip? E.g do you have a link? HAhaha this is a case for Alligator.
Author's Response:
YAAAAY! No sorry this was all from my imagination <3
Date: 04/20/17 03:10 pm Title: Extracurricular activities
Oh my god i said it every time but reading this is way too realistic seeing how scared bill is into this relationship and how trapped he feels and is letting Philip do whatever he likes and have power over him. Yeah i wasnt always sure about Shane but now i love him and he is so good for Bill always supporting him. And so TOM. I've been waiting the whole time for Tom to get involved and even though he still isnt, i am glad they had a little interaction here with (Ria?) even though i really wanted Tom to tell her to go home and speak to Bill. But anyway, at the same time i loved this moment of peace that Bill could finally get when he was getting ready for bed finally feeling able to relax and not be on the run constantly and being beaten about. It is so hard for him with Philip. :( I hope he has locked the door so Philip won't disturb him and he will stay far away. I hope the girl is gone tomorrow and the twins can have waffles on the terrace and he can tell Tom everything and cuddle him and Tom will save him. Please?
Date: 04/19/17 07:38 pm Title: The party
So glad that Shane stuck up for Bill finally and told the truth in front of all his friends who will hopefully take it seriously. And i absolutely loved this conversation with Julie! Was so proud of her for following him to the bathroom to check up on him. And maybe i've been watching too much SKAM and the name Julie is triggering haha but i was seriously reminded of an episode of Skam here where the characters are in the bathroom at someones house party and there is a big confession scene or something. Sorry that may have been totally unrelated. Back to the story: the convo while Julie told him she had been through that was really comforting even for me as someone who has never been through that, i felt like i could kind of understand this situation they have both been in and it felt very realistic and very trapped. End notes: I really like the endings of the chapters. Just enough suspense but concise enough to make you satisfied you know what i mean? I like how they were like "let's go outside for a cigarette" because that solves everything. So yeah, i'm really glad Julie has helped him out and i hope she will take him to Tom. I'm waiting for Shane and Tom to team up.
Date: 04/19/17 06:29 pm Title: I love you
Aw i really like Shane and Bill now. At the start i wasnt sure because i was like drugs = bad influence on Bill, but now to see how he really cares for Bill and will literally drop anything to go and see him in the middle of the night. Shows how much of an asshole Philip is for even more reasons. Anywway, Bill seems really nice and relaxed with Shane, even the kisses they swapped seemed chilled and like no big feelings there, which seems good for Bill right now. And oh shit i forgot about the gun. Damn that party is gonna be eventful and scary. But shit i am so scared for Bill when Philip finds out that Shane has stayed over the night in Bill's bed and that they were kissing.
Date: 04/19/17 06:16 pm Title: Trying to escape
Fucking fuck, oh my god. Reading Bill getting dressed and sneaking out of the house was so tense. I was so scared for him the whole time that Philip would pop up. I had visioned him getting to the bench and just hiding behind it and breaking down, so scared of being seen by Philip and having to deal with him again. He is so scared, poor baby. :( But holy fuck, Bill climbing in the bubble bath and smoking a joint. Shit, i read this WAY TOO SOON after that pic Bill posted the other week in the bath with his knees everywhere. But oh dude, so sad when Philip came in the bathroom like Bill had finally escaped to freedom and had a moment of peace to himself and then Philip just walked right into the privacy of his own house. Kinda reminiscent of when the twins' house in Hamburg got broken into back in 2010 :( The bit that killed me in this chap tho: "You're still fucking pushing it. Wow." He leans down and kisses me on the forehead. Like while he is threatening Bill and abusing him like this, he is pretending to be sweet and like he is doing the rright thing. Total mindfuck for Bill who thinks this is what he deserves. :( WHERE IS TOMMMMMM
Date: 04/19/17 05:29 pm Title: Paying the price
Omg first paragraph in: instant cute visions of Bill and Pumbi playing in the grass and cuddling in the sun in LA. Omg my heart has just melted. Thank GOD for Instagram these days, specifically the stories. If only we had a instagram back in 2006 we would have DIED. But back to the story, poor Bill, this relationship has him constantly on edge around Philip scared to say one wrong thing and he will get badly hurt. :( My heard aches. Philip is so god damn rude about the pasta. I dont like seafood but if Bill Kaulitz had handcooked me salmon pasta i would eat the fucking salmon past with gratitude. THE ENDING: ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS. Philip did that again? Bill tried to stand up to him again but Philip has way too much rage and just hurts Bill. I am still praying for the moment where Bill will call Tom and tell him. ;_;
Date: 04/19/17 05:15 pm Title: What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas
Oh my god. Again. firstly, when the fuck is he gonna tell Tom about any of the violence and bullshit from Philip. He has hurt Bill and Tom really needs to know that if he cannot see it already. I am constantly waiting for that moment where Tom finds out because i am curious of his reaction. That bit in the recording studio was so cute and just what it needed to show their bond and even how some times things can come betweeen them but they will support each other. I really look forward to seeing the first therapy session. And man the last bit with Philip... that was so sad man. :( So damn realistic because i dont know, somehow the way you wrote it highlights that fusion between sex and violence in abusive relationships and how it is so destructive. :(
Date: 04/19/17 05:02 pm Title: Therapy on San Vicente Boulevard
Yessss i am so proud of bb for getting an appointment so finally he can admit to someone that he is being hurt! And of course! I just lost interest of TH after the FIA tour and disappeared and now i am back in tour feels i am back here and so i had to finish it off cos honestly it's really good! The plot is really intricate but the characters like Bill are very sensitive and especcially the first-person writing way, makes it feel really intimate. Anyway. I really hope Pumba can come with him to all his appoinntments there now for $150 an hour!
Date: 04/18/17 07:06 pm Title: It's better to feel pain than nothing at all
UUUUUUGH Philip is such a bastard, how dare he treat Bill like that and hurt him. Bill putting on his makeup to cover up the bruises from Philip is breaking my heart. :( I need Tom to jump in ASAP. The whole time while Philip was attacking Bill i was waiting for Tom to burst in the door to the rescue. ;_; I really hope he hurries up and saves Bill.
Author's Response:
I wanna reply to all your reviews but I'm gonna collect this into one, and that is that your reviews give me life omg :( It brings me back to the way I felt when I wrote these things and ah I'm so glad that you came back to read it and that you still like it!!!! <3 Thank you so much. <3 <3 <3
Date: 04/18/17 06:50 pm Title: The perfect son-in-law
Okay i'm sure i've read up to here before but i'm just gonna keep reading from here now since i remember. So firstly, omg Tom hating enough to kill Bill's boyfriend is really not gonna be good for the twins. I imagine this is the type of thing that would really break their bond if they didn't like the other's partner. ;_; I hate Philip for playing this perfect guy in front of Simone by not drinking, while he doesn't realise Simone hates him already. Tom and him are really going to grind on each other if they're caught alone or provoked enough and Tom is doing a pretty good job at provoking shit. Telling his mum Bill does drugs? So uncool, Tom. Unless it was last priority.
But you know what breaks my heart the most?: He doesn’t like Pumba. He thinks Pumba is in the way, that Pumba is annoying and snores. That says everything to me that everything is wrong :( But OH MY GOD how could Simone tell Philip all of that, especially about Shane. Philip is going to seriously fuck with Bill when they are alone :(
Date: 04/18/17 04:35 pm Title: Waffles with a side of confession
Omg their terrace in LA eating waffles. TOO REAL. But ughhhhh again he's made it like Bill's fault when in fact he was the asshole. :( I dont want Philip to meet Simone because he totally doesnt deserve being that big a part of Bill's life. Eurghh.