Date: 04/18/17 03:48 pm Title: Making mistakes
OHHHH MY GOD. The Vegas pictures. Of course. When you were posting this in real time like with the instagram pics from slutty Bill. And Tom finding out and locking him in his room and their mom turning up. Oooooooh i remember all this.
Date: 11/28/15 11:25 pm Title: Against my will
awful chapter to read. poor, poor little bill < 3 I am so tired right now, and too tired to leave a proper long review, so I will do it first thing in the morning and, of course, continue reading. Good job, and good night!
Author's Response:
I decided to reply to one of your reviews as a summary of all if that's okay...!!! First off all: a huge thank you for leaving these reviews, it made me really happy how you've analyzed the story and the lines. I'm blown away, seriously! You're AMAZING :D So a HUGE thank you, and I'm really glad you like this story even though you usually don't read stories in this POV. And that it made you stay up so late, omg. And your thoughts are on point - you'll realize why Bill is like this later on... When you see more of Philips personality etc. There's so much more to come and I hope you like it and if you finish this I hope you like the sequel as well, if you continue on reading that. I'm from Sweden btw so hello, fellow neighbor! :D Again: thank you!!!
Date: 11/28/15 11:15 pm Title: Shane
Again, so many feelings. I feel like crying, and yelling, and I feel so... conflicted? I don't know. Not many fanfics makes me feel this much, so that's a good thing, eh?
Friday. A day that should stand for: fuck reality, I’m drinking alcohol… Plus something on the letter y. It’s around 7pm and I’m ready to get totally fucked up, already sipping on some wine to keep my nerves under control. All I can think about is that right now, Philip is with someone. He probably has his dick deep in someone already. The way Bill talks about this, hurts me. He shouldn't... He should. Find the courage he needs to dump him, if he's scared, go find Tom, make him help... I know it's not as easy as it may sound like. I have had friends in abusive relationships, I know getting out isn't easy, even if you know about the other persons flaws... It's hard.
“But I don’t want you to do drugs,” Tom says. “I don’t want to. Don’t do it, please.” I SO agree with Tom. Drugs scare the crap out of me. I mean, I know people who do drugs, and they're not neccesarily bad people, it's just... I don't know. I'm a party girl, I like partying, I sometimes drink until I pass out, and I smoke like a pig. But drugs? no, that shit is scary. I just... I get scared and angsty and... The feel it all music video? Extremely good video, and Bill is so brave for doing things like that, but since drugs make me so uncomfortable, I couldn't see it again. And it's sad cause it's good. Anyway, people who do drugs do it for different reasons, and I am not here to judge, but it's just scary. And the idea of Bill doing cocaine makes me sad :( And terrified. So yeah. Totally agree with tom!
“I picked you up from that party you went to. Without telling me,” Philip says and shakes his head in disapproval. I doooooooooooooooooooooooon't like Philip. Nope. Not at all. I mean, sure, in a relationship communcation is kinda important, but... it shouldn't be so much about controlling and giving up control, and Bill shouldn't have to tell Philip about everything, and if he forgets to do so, Philip shouldn't react like that! It's just... wrong! I don't like him. :(
he fell, he’s drunk – what else?” Tom, you should know better... So the 'he fell' excuse is not a new one, and sometimes it's also the truth, but ugh... i pulled my hair so hard when i read this part! like, really really hard!!! ugh!!!
I'm really into this. This is an excellent story. So many feelings, and just the details and the realism is stunning. Fantastic and it's five in the morning here where I live (norway) and I should go to bed but I think I may have to read one more chapter! (or even two) hehe.
Date: 11/28/15 10:59 pm Title: Pain and pancakes
Oh wow! So many feelings - I have no idea where they came from, or how to handle them. Jesus!
okay there were so many things that either made me angry or made me want to cry (and this is a good thing, which means I'm into it, and like it):
“Can you stop insulting my dad already?” Philip suddenly snaps at me. “I’d say he knows more about you than life.” - This really, really pissed me off. That Philip is turning the blame onto Bill! So it's okay for Bill's father to insult him, but it's not okay when it's the other way around? Awww, made me so sad for Bill!.
Philip suddenly says. “I’ve worked hard to be the perfect son for him, because I want to do that. You’re just weird to him. No education and no grasp about anything.” well, this isn't exactly the way a boyfriend should talk to you? Why is Bill allowing this? I know I'm just on chapter 2, so maybe I'll get to know later why Bill doesn't have the courage to just break up with him? I'm not going to make any assumptions now, as I said, I'm only 2 chapters in. But right now, it feels weird to me that he just allows Philip to be like this to him. Although, I know that when you're desperately in love, or just want someone to be kind to you, you do and allow a lot of things you shouldn't allow, so maybe that's it? Bill just wants to be loved?
“Like you’re complaining. If you’re lucky, I’m gonna tan nude and scare the neighbors,”Philip teases me.
This is good. I like this Philip.
Hmmm, okay, so Philip can be charming if he wants, and Bill likes the kind Philip? So maybe he fell in love with him and didn't discover this side of him before it was too late? Or he's just insecure about himself, and wants love, and maybe that's why he isn't leaving Philip? There can be so many reasons, so I shouldn't judge! But i really, really hate what philip is doing to him. :( My sweet Bill!!!
“I can’t on Friday. Sorry,” Philip shrugs and looks at me like it’s nothing, when that answer actually only meant one thing. He is cheating on me. “I think I’m gonna have to work late, won’t be home until 9 or something… So you two go ahead without me.
Okay, if he's cheating, on top of being verbally abusive, then you should go, sweet Bill! You should really leave him :( But again, if he's got his claws deep in Bill, then I guess it won't be easy for Bill to get out. Plus, he seems like a scary guy, so maybe Bill just... fears him too? Doesn't want to make him mad? Ah, there are so many factors to concider here, and still... all i want is for bill to be happy. yet i'm so intrigued that i want to read more, learn more, just experience this story more.
What I think about the plot? I love the plot. I've read about abusive relationships before, but not in this way. Not with it being bill/OMC, but I must say you're really doing a good job with this! I am impressed, intrigued and eager to read on. This is a very good story, very realistic and there are so many details that just... well, it makes the solid and plot solid!
So - very good job so far! :)
Date: 11/28/15 10:42 pm Title: Meeting the parents
Saw that you've posted the sequel to this, so I got curious, and decided to give this a read.
There are so many things I don't understand about this fic. I mean, I never read first person fics, because I find them awful, but this one, I don't know what it was? Maybe it is how you wrote it, but this first chapter gave me a good impression and I like how it's written with Bill's view, and HOW it's written. I'm sorry, it's hard to explain, I just really got a feeling about Bill, like I could connect with him? It's strange that I can't explain it, but.... Okay, I liked it. This is the first time I've read first pov and it hasn't thrown me off - in fact, it made me more curious!
And also, I must say. I thought Philip was a dick right from the start, and now I understand why - god, his parents were awful. Just awful. Hate people like that. I feel so sorry for Bill; I wanted to jump into the story and give him a hug! I have a feeling that it will get a lot more serious.. and I'm very excited to read about this journey.
I'm very bad at expressing myself sometimes. so i'm sorry if this review seems rude, but I'm not trying to be, i'm kinda trying to say that I'm in love with this story and very, very, very curious.
Date: 11/03/15 11:47 am Title: They say time's supposed to heal the pain, but I ain't done much healing
EMIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!
I'm sorry I didn't comment the last chapter but now I finally read it plus the ending and I just need to tell you what an amazing fanfiction you've written. The characters (I really liked your Bill although he was kinda naive sometimes and stuff but that's how I imagine the real Bill) and the storyline were authentic. There was not a single moment when I was bored while reading this.
But let's talk about the end of this fic: I fucking loved it. I love Bill getting cray and slutty. And I'm so sure that last paragraph was the start of some new, fucked-up adventures for Bill and the others. (What will happen to Shane? Will Philip appear again?)
Keep going bb, I'm really proud of you. You wrote a masterpiece. Can't wait for more.
Author's Response:
ALINAAAAA! Thank you so much bby, I'm so happy you've supported me through this and I'm SURE you'll love the sequel. This wasn't the last time Bill was a little slutty, lmao. ;) And you will meet Shane again and... Dum dum dum, PHILIP! Surprise. Ily <3
Date: 11/03/15 08:59 am Title: They say time's supposed to heal the pain, but I ain't done much healing
This is the greatest ending to a great story. I'll be at the sequel don't worry. I am so excited for it and to see what adventures lie in wait for Bill.
#DancingInTheDark
Author's Response:
Thank you sooo much! :D I'm glad you're coming along and that you've read this. It means a lot.
Date: 11/03/15 07:12 am Title: They say time's supposed to heal the pain, but I ain't done much healing
Definitily i will read the sequel! It was a Great fic! Thank you. From first at end. :). I loved it.
Author's Response:
Aww thank you so much! See you there :D
Date: 11/03/15 06:49 am Title: They say time's supposed to heal the pain, but I ain't done much healing
I haven't reviewed much but I've really enjoyed the story and I am looking forward to the sequel and seeing how Bill's future shapes up. I guess I am hoping he finds happiness somewhere along the way. Love Helen x
Author's Response:
Hello! A "new" reader, lovely. :) Great to see you. Thank you so much, I'm glad you left a review :D
Date: 11/02/15 06:20 pm Title: They say time's supposed to heal the pain, but I ain't done much healing
Wow. Just wow. I just finished reading this chapter and I absolutely loved it. I also took your advice and listened to Shades of Past (which became my new favorite song). I also listened to Adele's song Hello, so yeah you can imagine my emotions while reading this heartbreaking chapter.
First of all, I'm just so incredibly sorry for Bill. He's been through SO MUCH throughout this story. He doesn't deserve this even though he can behave like a total idiot sometimes.
Secondly, I'm so so proud of you. Obviously you've always been amazing at writing fics and I've always loved your stories (from the start actually, remember I told you I have your old ones saved in my old USB lmao, true friend here yes), but this fic was just perfect. It had a great plot twist and you structured it in such a good way. It never got confusing or boring, you always kept ending every chapter with that exciting and heartbreaking cliffhanger, and I absolutely loved that.
I'm gonna keep this short and simple. I've said this in nearly every review and I'm saying it again - you're amazing babe. And I just can't wait for the sequel. I already know it's gonna rock. Love you x /N
Author's Response:
THANK YOU BABY, you started all this and I'm so glad I posted it and that you've always encouraged me to write. It has really meant the world to me, so do you. ILY <3
Date: 10/27/15 11:24 pm Title: Another man's pain, is another man's pleasure
I'm going to kill him!
He broke my Billa!
He needs to die!
I loved this chapter but I seriously feel so bad for Bill. He doesn't deserve this. The law stuff actually does make sense. You captured the double standard perfectly. It's true because had Bill been a woman, the outcome would've been completely different.
Overall, I am excited for the finale and I hope that Bill gets some justice or something. I just hate that he has to deal with this giant burden that's got him awake at night and crying so much. I know how hopeless this is too, unfortunately (emotional abuse).
This really just hit home because I went through this and basically the guy got off with a warning and I luckily left when it was just emotional. Either way, I'm not going to talk about myself. Bill, you've got Tomi and Shane (though, I'm scared he's gonna do something drastic when he hears Philip got off).
Can't wait for the next one.
Author's Response:
Thank you!!! I hope you're excited for the sequel as well. :) And I just wanna say thank you for sharing, that's strongly done by you and I'm sorry that you had to go through something like that. <3 I've written about it, sure, but I can't even begin to imagine what it really feels like. I'm happy you made it out "in time", and I can't believe there weren't any repercussions for him! Stay strong girl. <3
Date: 10/27/15 04:05 pm Title: Another man's pain, is another man's pleasure
I'm sorry because I didn't leave a review, but I can only say that I've had a lot of work to do with school, and I just... Forget it. But now I'm gonna leave a review (finally).
No, your writing is NOT bad, it's awesome. :) And your story is very interesting, and it's getting more and more interesting all the time.
This chapter makes me feel sad because of Bill. Philip is insane. How could he just smile for Bill, isn't he regreting anything? Oh god, only one chapter left... I want to know what will happen in the end! You're doing great work. :)
And hey, are you still going to do the sequel?
Author's Response:
Awww it's okay, I'm really busy too as I said :') Thank you for leaving a reply, and thank you for your kind words! YES - I am doing a sequel. :D I have only had time to write one chapter but it's going to happen. I'm going to add this story and that story to a series. I think I've decided a name for the sequel - Dancing In The Dark. So keep an eye out for that. I'm sure you'll like it! I think I'll also post a small piece of the sequel in the last chapter... So it all fits together nicely. :)
Date: 10/27/15 01:03 am Title: Another man's pain, is another man's pleasure
esta historia me fascina. Cada día me fijo si hay una actualización. Y me desconecto de todo al leerla. Se merece toda mi atención. 😃 Es una de mis SUPER favoritas :). Gracias
Author's Response:
I feel so international getting a review in Spanish! No worries, I used google translate and I hope I got it right. A major thank you for your kind words <3 and thank you for telling others about this fic (if I got the translation right)! It really means so much to me and I hope you will read and like the sequel. :)
Date: 10/26/15 07:09 pm Title: Another man's pain, is another man's pleasure
Aaaaand I sent too fast D:
So I was saying, I can't wait for what's next, but it makes me feel sad to think that it's the last chapter. Think I'm gonna ceck your others stories !
Author's Response:
Ah hello! Nice to "see" another face around here! Thanks for taking time to write something :D it really means a lot. I don't really like my other stories anymore, or well they're one-shots. But as I've said earlier I am writing a sequel. I have one chapter so far but it is happening. I hope you will read that too, I think you will all like it! :)
Date: 10/26/15 07:08 pm Title: Another man's pain, is another man's pleasure
Oh, I never reviewed, I'm sorry :(
This chapter is so sad... You're really good at giving the readers feels, but now I'm as frustrated and angry as them XD
I can't wait to read what's next, but I'm
Date: 10/26/15 06:18 pm Title: Another man's pain, is another man's pleasure
Okay this chapter really got to me. I actually sobbed in the ending. Wow. What an evil fucking bastard. I just can't believe this. I knew he wouldn't regret anything but I just, I don't know. This is heartbreaking. And poor Bill ugh. I can literally feel the pain sigh. You're great babe x
Author's Response:
Thanks baby! I can't wait for you to read the sequel where there won't be as much heartache... For a while. Heehehehe *devil emoji*
Date: 10/20/15 02:57 pm Title: Hollywood hills
I'm getting really sad that this story is coming to an end but I also look very forward your new one.
I can't believe Philip had the stomach to show up on their backyard after all that's happened. Like how fucking cold can he even be? He beat up Bill and even after seeing the state he was in, he still acted like an asshole ugh.
Date: 10/15/15 08:58 pm Title: Hollywood hills
i cant wait for more
Date: 10/12/15 05:19 am Title: The conversation
Sorry for being so late but I now I'm back again!
The cutest part of this chapter was definitely Tom's reaction...it literally broke my heart because you can tell how much he loves Bill omg.
Even worse that Philip probably won't even go to jail for that. He almost killed Bill, hello? Ofc they can't prove the rape ect to him but it's so unfair. He emotionally destroyed Bill. I'm still so worried about him, he's such a puppy who doesn't deserve this :(
But let's talk about my otp: Bill & Shane. I can't find a proper ship name (lmao) but I love them so much. Shane is a really friend. And much more in my opinion. I'm not sure about how these two will end up but I have high hopes. Don't disappoint me, bb.
Just know I really love your fic, it's seriously the best. ly
Author's Response:
Lmao you're so cute for shipping them. Tbh I do it myself, they're adorable. You'll see what happens but I think you'll be satisfied either way if you read the sequel later. Thank you bby, ily!
Date: 10/07/15 04:30 pm Title: The conversation
I AM SO SO SORRY FOR THE LATE REVIEW.
This chapter really made me extra emotional this time because of Tom's presence. I just imagined how hurt and upset he would've been if he found out something like this about his brother. Your way of describing and telling about this just breaks my heart and that's because you do it so perfectly.
What also breaks my heart is the fact that there's a great risk Philip will get away with all of this with a minor punishment and that, is indeed, so fucking unfair and cruel. Despite that, I'm happy Bill has someone who loves him for exactly who he is and in this case I mean Shane. (Of course I would approve 110% if Shane wasn't a drug dealer lol but still, he loves Bill and he cares about him a lot so it is still important).
We're almost at the end of this fic and it makes me so incredibly sad tbh because I your fic to death and you know it babe. Don't let my late reviews make you think otherwise x /N
Author's Response:
HELLO. Yeah it was actually hard for me to write because I have no idea how he would react. We all know he'd be destroyed but it's hard to put such things into words imo. But I'm glad you liked it bb. I have plans for both Bill and Shane - all to be revealed in the sequel *evil emoji*. ILY!