OMG... O.O

Author's Response: I'm hoping that's a positive OMG XD

Oh hum... *rubs hands together*

First off, DAMN woman! You update like no other! o.O Holy smokes... I was behind on THREE chapters. Holy shit... How do you have time to do write so quickly? Mysterious!

Anyhow, onwards...

Some intense chapters here. I have a hard time with Bill forgiving his brother, for some reason. Of course, their bond can never be the same. But I'm on Georg's court there, I gotta say. On the other hand, I hope he'll get help. He is clearly not alright in the head. Which was showed very well when he was talking to Bill and wanted to protect him from Georg but not from Gustav... That... is not the sound of a healthy brain. Just saying. It doesn't sound to me like he even realizes what he has done, what with whining about Bill not wanting him anymore. Uhu... Well, DUH Tom! *facepalms* You write it very good though, and it will be an interesting journey to see what will happen to Tom.

And well, Bill. Wow. He's not there yet, obviously, but damn. Talk about slowly getting back to himself. THANK YOU, GEORG! And nameless therapist, of course! :-D I really like him in these chapters. Yes, he is damaged, but he is not broken completely. And he shows that with clarity here. Gustav didn't win. ;-) Now Bill just have to realize that himself. *grin*

Georg rocks. I LOVED HIM during his meeting with Tom. He is doing EVERYTHING for Bill. I just wish Tom could have seen that to. I'm still afraid he'll end up with his heart broken, especially since Bill pointed out he is straight. Uhu... No. Since you enjoyed sex with Georg, I'd say you are at least bisexual, if only a little on the scale. Sexuality is fluid. Read up on that Bill! At least Georg is caught up on that little subject. ;-)

David is so so so awesome in this btw. Still a father figure. To all four, strangely. I really really felt for him during his meeting with Gustav. OF COURSE all this would affect him as well. The flashbacks he had about his old feelings for Gustav made my heart clench. Gorgeous writing right there. Absolutely brilliant. You really made me feel for him.

And I left the elephant in the room for last.

Gustav. What to do with Gustav? Talk about a fucked up head. *lol* He is still my favorite member of the band, all categories. And I still ADORE how much you've twisted him in this. *cough*ImighthavedonethatinRPstoo *cough* ANYWAY! It's not so strange the he is having a rough time in prison. That makes sense. From what I know pedophiles and rapists are those that are having a toughest time in prison. Which is odd, since rape is... quite common in prison. But who said there had to be logic among criminals, right? :-)

I am on two minds on what should happen with Gustav. You could do a court-scene, of course. I'd suggest you watch a shit-ton of tv-shows that involve court scenes for that, because let's be honest. You are not writing a documentary. You are writing a fic. (ONE HELL OF A FIC! But still.) Research would have to be done for that though, and so you might not be able to update as quick. To wing it, is not an option in my opinion. You have taken everything so very serious in this fic, so to not take a trail serious is not an option in my book.

Then there's the second option. To kill him off. Of course that has merit as well, and I'd enjoy reading that to. Most definitely. (Where's the damn shower-scene? He needs it up the ass! Pardon my french.) There might even be fans of Bill and the band in prison! (You'd be surprised what inmates listen to sometimes...) And if they found out, well... ;-) So to find someone killing him would not be too troublesome. To make it dramatic, you could even have him killed right before the trail! That would affect all characters quite a great deal, wouldn't it? :-)

And... there's actually a third option here. That might not be as obvious. ;-) You could both do and do not do the trial-scene. Hear me out on that one. You wouldn't have to be IN THE COURTROOM and follow all the characters during the trail. You could, for example, jump the trail and go directly after and the reactions from Bill, Georg, David... and well, Tom to. OR! You could do a news report thing, and let that be all for that entire chapter. Let a news-reporter report on the trail. A reporter would not have all the bits, but the important ones.

That's the options I can see... And to me, I can not WAIT to see what you'll do. This fic has quickly come up to one of my all time favorites, and I can not wait to see what you'll do in the future. You are a great writer, and I'll follow your progress with interest!

(PS: Sorry for any crappy english, I blame the fact I'm swedish. ;-)

Author's Response: I have like a million papers to write and stuff but I didn't want to leave this review just sat unanswered because WOW. Thank you! You definitely gave me a lot to think about in terms of what to do with Gustav and where to take his part of the story. Writing Bill and Georg is easy because there's a lot of personal experience there in terms of the unrequited love but Gustav is harder because like, I've never been to jail. Everything I know about them I've learned from watching Sons of Anarchy. I'm glad you like the way things are going with Georg, he's my favorite and he just seems like the type to fall hard and get his heart broken over and over again.

Although this chapter was a horrible insight into Gus's warped mind, I'm so happy you wrote it. I kept on wondering when we'd get to know what was happening with him. No sympathy for him whatsoever. Love David using his negotiating skills to play Gus and get his answers. Great chapter.

Author's Response: Thanks! It wasn't easy to write but I hope it cleared up any confusion about why he was willing to risk everything.

I am glad that Bill forgave Tom and Georg is trying to respect Bill's wishes. Cannot help but feel bad for Tom. Hope he'll get better soon.

What's going with Gustav? When is his trial?

Author's Response: He's trying to forgive Tom. Whether or not he actually can is another question. Tom has a lot of issues and is very jealous. News on Gustav is coming soon, i promise.

I want to hug Georg for being such a great guy. Bill couldn't ask for someone better. He's clearly helping him to heal and he's so patient, such a good guy.

I'm a crappy reviewer at the time being, I'm swamped with school and other annoying stuff, but I'm reading every chapter and I still love this story.

Great chapter, I'll be waiting for more :)

Author's Response: Thank you! Don't worry about being a crappy reviewer, I'm swamped with school and stuff too so I'm hardly getting time to write any more. I'm tempted to write an alternative universe version once this one is done where Georg doesn't help Bill, but that one would be very dark and ugly, I think.

So lovely. I'm glad it was good for both of them and Bill didn't get freaked out.

Author's Response: Thank you. I wish I could say he never gets freaked out again, but it may well not last.

I just about died. Shit. That was a gorgeous gorgeous moment between them. So very very hot. So very very tender. And just beautiful. The symbolism was gorgeous as well. Washing away Gustav's touch and grim. I am glad you let Bill do it to Georg to. He is very much involved in it all, like it or not. Especially considering his feelings for Bill. And I am sooooo afraid he'll get his heart crushed still. *pets Geo* There's a lot of feeling and thoughts behind this fic. I can see it flying of the page in every chapter. So much respect not only for the victims (that is the most important!) but also for all the others involved, even the perpetrators (like Tom and to some extent, Gustav who I am still curious about... should end up in the shower in prison... *cough, cough*). But by all means! Continue on with the tenderness! I'll be on the edge my seat until the next chapter! :-D

Author's Response: Thank you so so much. I can't tell you how much reviews like this mean to me. Some parts of this fic have been really hard to write precisely because I'm trying my hardest to get them right and respect all the people involved, so to hear that it's working means everything.

Woman. Do you have any idea what you've done? I'm a darkfic fan (and darkfics are not always easy to come by) and a G's fan who likes to pair up Bill with Georg and Tom with Gustav (even harder to come by)... And here you go writing... this.

I do not even know how I have missed your story and it's sequal, but holy hell woman. I read both in one sitting, no joke. Good thing I have a broken leg currently, or I wouldn't have been able to. It's not often I fangirl over fic these days, but this? And you? I fangirl. I am fangirling so fucking hard. All over this like a dog in heat, no joke.

The little details you throw in... the characters growth and their falling to parts, it's downright beautiful. Torture, abuse, rape... all good in a fic to me (and usually what I look for), but if there's no character development, not even that can pull me in. Here you got it all and such a beautiful language to.

You weep for characters you didn't think you'd weep for (in my case, Georg.... who'se the least hurt). And in the midst of all that, you do another thing in your fic that is so very very rare and you never see. You have Georg like to bottom which he says himself in this last chapter that had me in the midst of the misery giggle. Do you know how RARE it is with a fic where he is allowed to bottom? And even more, to Bill? Geezes christ.

And then there's Gustav. Who is my favorite of the band, my all time favorite. And you twist him out of his mind. I LOVE IT! And it makes so much sense. When you wrote about why he ended up so twisted, it hit me in the gut. We're so precious few who holds him as our favorite. Of course he notices. Of course it would hurt. I'll never forget the meet&greet vid where the fans were screaming for Bill and Tom... and then proceeded to call Gustav Gunther, so he had to correct them. I hurt so bad for him then. I love his muscular short stocky self so damn much. So to me, it makes sense that hearing that for years and years (and probably not be totally stable to start with) would eventually push him over the edge to be a total psychopath.

The first fic, it's prequal, was gold. Twisted pure beautiful gold. And this? This is just as golden. For the LOVE of anything holy, I beg you on my bare knees (and broken leg) do continue writing this. You have a fan in me.

Author's Response: Wow. I don't even know what to say. Thank you feels a bit inadequate in the face of a review like this! I'm really glad I could bring you some joy with my work, especially since it features your favorite pairing. Bill/Georg happens to be my favorite too, so it's nice to find someone else who appreciates that. I really love the Gs, and I think they're an unappreciated part of the band; they hold everything together and without them there would be no Tokio Hotel, but people just ignore them. That's what sparked off the first fic, the ignorance that you mention. Don't worry about this being continued, I aim to get a chapter up at least once a day, classes and homework permitting. There's plenty yet to come in the long saga of Bill's pain, Georg's unrequited love, Tom's penance and Gustav's trial.

Wow, beautiful banter between the two of them! I loved that Bill said sure, I'll fuck you. ;) Go Bill!

Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad it worked, I wasn't sure if I was taking it a bit far.

This is an incredible story and you are so good at showing the stages of recovery from something like what happened to Bill. But I am so afraid Georg will get his heart broken, that once Bill starts to feel better about life he won't need him so much. I think Georg realises that possibilty too, but he's prepared to take a chance to have - just for a little while - his heart's desire. I hope I'm wrong and their relationship works out.

Author's Response: Thank you so much! Some parts of this fic have been really hard to write, but I'm doing my best to be realistic and respectful of real survivors' stories. As for what'll happen with Bill and Georg, I really don't know yet. I'm making it up as I go along. Georg seems to feel it's better to love and have lost than never to have loved at all though.