Date: 01/04/19 10:39 am Title: Here Comes the Bride
Thank you! Really huge thanks.
Love you
Author's Response: Not a problem. Working on a new story and working on updating the ones I have. I have a job where I manage a business, husband and two children, one teenager, one pre-teen so it's been really hard for me to update lately since the new job last year but you inspire me to take time out of my busy life and get lost again in my writing and reading other fiction. I absolutely looove thfiction. And I love reviewers like you who keep me going and leave detailed reviews. Also I would love to talk with you more if you'd like, just let me know if you want my email address or be on my facebook then let me know and I'll get with you privately for my real name. Thank you for being a loyal reviewer to my sometimes very long fiction and again, it would be an absolute honor to have you translate this into your beautiful language. Thank you again and again!!! Love you, too!
Date: 12/30/18 06:35 pm Title: The Gift and Miracle of Forgiveness
Hi, you know I absolutely love your stories! I will wait for the next chapter no matter what.
I sooo love the way you show us the bond between twins. The Bond that a lot more than any romantic relationship, the Bond that will hill, I believe in this.
I want to show this to other fans, fic-readers in my country. So can you honor me to translate this stories into Russian? If you don't want that's okay, I love you anyway
Author's Response: Of course you can! That would be an honor! Thank you sooo much! Such a beautiful language!
Date: 07/23/18 02:05 pm Title: Here Comes the Bride
Another truly epic chapter but even though it was so long it had me wanting more at the end. I feel sorry for Anita, what Shiloh does to help Bill is physical and more evident, although his treatments are painful they will ultimately heal him. With Anita, her treatment is less visible or quantifiable and could take years to show any really positive results. Things of the mind are also so complicated whereas with the physical there are treatments that, although not guaranteed, are more proven to work. Unfortunately both her and Shiloh have to cause Bill pain in different ways, but it's certainly not helping matters for them to be at each others throats. Glad Bill was strong enough to tell them to knock it off when he needed to put all his energy into the press conference. Although the conference wasn't a total success they do now have some of the media on their side...except that fucking arsehole. Glad Tom wasn't more seriously hurt, it could have hit his head. Georg is great when he gets all riled up and protective of the twins although they could do without the adverse publicity of him going for the guy. One tiny criticism, when they get back neither Georg or Gustav show surprise to see Adam. Not sure how to feel about Adam,if he's truly determined to be there through thick and thin he needs to listen to Shiloh and Anita and let them get on with healing Bill even if the treatments are unpleasant. I guess he's just shocked to see what his husband has been going through in his absence but he has to realise that many of the measures are necessary...he's seen before how manipulative Bill can be. Oh, and as much as I love the sex scenes, Adam needs to rein in his libido, Bill isn't in any condition...but I suspect (know) Bill will probably come on to him and Adam will find it hard to resist...I hope! Yeah, I like the nasty stuff. I could write so much more about this amazing chapter - and sorry for taking so long to review - but I'll leave it here and let you get on with the next one. Can't wait. Love you xx
Date: 07/11/18 01:08 am Title: The Gift and Miracle of Forgiveness
I so much hate Adam, he is egotistical bastard for whom first thing about Bill is sexy. He often likes to forget about health condition of his husband and put his own feelings on first place. Of course he is only human, but Bill needs in some really altruistic and kind man. Maybe like Georg, not Shiloh because I think that his feelings based on fault for his dead patient and it's not so good and right reason.
Why all of them begin hate Anita, it is her job and not everything is nice and simple. Their weakness for Bill's tears partly took this situation so far.
Press conference was good and needed thing, it will be better to hear the truth from the band, at least it will give them some support, not from everyone of course, but still.
Thank you for chapter!
Author's Response: Thank you sooo much for the review again and for sitting through this gigantic chapter!!! I'm sorry you don't like Adam's character, but I can understand why. He does have a certain arrogance about him and thinks he can handle what's going on with Bill at this point, but even I, the author, am not so sure. I don't know that I'll have Bill with anyone else besides him in the future, but I will tell you that it will likely not be Shiloh. Shiloh does have a certain love for him, but I think he gets his feeling crossed with his patient who died, as well. He has a protective love for Bill, almost parental. As far as Anita goes, I think everyone's main problem is she's rushing him after he's had treatments that involve a lot of pain and could potentially physically damage him. And you are right, everyone always having sympathy for him hurt him more in the long run. Thank you so much, once again, for keeping up with this and submitting a review. You are awesome!! I will update again as soon as possible and hopefully, the chapter won't be as long this time.
Date: 05/31/18 04:47 pm Title: Shiloh's Hiding While Adam Gets a Grip
Finally made it to the end of the chapter. Damn woman you sure can write. Not sure the holding therapy did much good in the end, although maybe it did if it got rid of angry woman. But the Child seems to appear more and more now and hang around for longer, showing how weak Bill is. Also the therapy didn't really do him any favours physically, straining his wounds, exacerbating his migraine and giving him a nosebleed. Damn Shiloh, his obsession with doing everything by the book medically has shaken Bill's trust in him and now he's questioning if he can trust anyone at all, even Tom. I'm so anxious for them about the press conference, however will Bill get through it without something triggering one of his personas...how will Tom get through it without smashing some rude reporter's face in? And Adam...such a sexy scene. Also managed to explain in part why he walked away. He was dealing with his own feelings of betrayal, disgust at being accused of rape, but also worrying he was doing more harm than good by expecting a normal adult relationship with such a damaged person. I'm glad you've explored it from his pov and shown he's not some uncaring asshole who just walked out on his sick husband without a backwards glance. Tell you what, though, Bill will go stratospheric with rage if/when he discovers Shiloh sent that text. Not sure how Tom will react. Another black mark against Shiloh in the trust stakes. Dying to read more, the press conference, Adam showing up and everone's reactions. Can't wait. Love Helen x
Author's Response: Next chapter is in the works and so far so good. Should be up tonight. Shiloh is super protective of Bill and yeah, when and if Bill finds out about the text message then I'm sure he's not going to be too pleased with his nurse. The therapies start to come full circle in the next chapter where you can see Anita pushing the twins to the very limit to break Bill down so he can be built back stronger. It will hopefully all have a happy ending and I can move on to other things soon although I really do love writing this. I know Shiloh makes me mad sometimes too because he's so obsessed with Bill, but it's with good intentions and to eventually help him to heal. No, Adam isn't uncaring. Just the opposite, but Bill scared him away and he jumped the gun there for a minute. Now we get to see if he's accepted back into his graces so easily or not. I will keep you posted on when the update is love. Love you muches!!! Muah!!! Oh, and you get to see exactly what happens with the personas and it's all explained in the next chapter, as well. So, really clearing a lot up. They'll still come up but Bill will become less and less vulnerable as this thing progresses.
Date: 05/29/18 04:32 pm Title: Shiloh's Hiding While Adam Gets a Grip
I really despise Adam, just can't believe that he will be any good for Bill. And his appearance on the press conference could make Bill brake I think.
Such decease really mustn't be taken lightheartedly. There are always serious consequences. Thank you for your attention to all of this scary and ugly parts.
Author's Response: well thank you for such a kind review. Hope you'll stay with it. More to come. I love attention to detail and that's what I write, all the ugly stuff most people don't like to think about.
Date: 05/27/18 06:03 pm Title: Homecoming Procedures
OMG!OMG!OMG!!!Can't believe! I'm so happy that there is new chapter of one of my most favourite works! Thank you so much!
Author's Response: Omg! Thanks so much for the review. Just be warned there's more uncomfortable subject matter in this one than some if you haven't read it yet. Next chapter is almost done. Thank you again!
Date: 05/25/18 03:57 am Title: Homecoming Procedures
OMG, such an intense chapter. As usual you are amazing with all the medical stuff. I know it all fascinates you and that shows in your attention to detail. Tom is a hero. Shiloh too, but the nurse at least knows what he's doing, most of the time, Tom has to stand by and watch his twin suffering so badly, take abuse, physically restrain him, watch him change persona at the flick of some internal switch and still love him unconditionally, be there for him...and now he's likely to be accused of abusing the brother he loved and cared for after the real abuser had done his work. It's all right Bill saying publish, but actually it's Tom who's going to come off as the bad guy. I have a little more sympathy for Adam at this point, he's known Bill for such a short time in some ways he just couldn't be there for him and understand him the way Tom does. Having said that, he could have hung around in the background so Bill knew he had his love and support even if Adam allowed Tom to be there most of the time for Bill. But I don't exactly blame him for leaving after Bill's behaviour and accusations, would have been better for Tom to have someone else to share the burden of loving Bill at his very worst. Poor Tom, all attention on Bill, no time to deal with his own issues, he's going to crack for sure before this is all over. Loved the one tragic/comedic episode...sorry not sorry Bill was sick...splattering the vulture reporters. Hilarious and what they deserved.Hope all these medical procedures do help Bill repair physically from the inside out, not so sure he'll ever be right mentally. Will he need lifelong meds to keep the other people in his head at bay? I know you're planning on writing some from Adam's pov, really excited for the next chapter. ..please don't make me wait so long for an update. Get writing girl. Love you xx
Author's Response: Thank you for the review, as always, Helen. I know this chapter was probably a bit much, and I didn't mean for it to be this long when I started to write it. I know I put a lot of time into it. Probably a little more attention to detail than I should have given, but oh well. It's done and the next chapter is on its way. Bill and the personas he's developed are all deeply confused and conflicted about everything. His anger and his pain have taken on minds of their own and seemed to have taken over in the forms of other personalities that come out with negative affects when he has to go through something he can't physically or emotionally handle. They are like damage control that cause more damage than they do help. The Child will remain more or less physically harmless, but be warned for later chapters that the emotional abuse comes from that part of him, mostly. While the physical will show through with the female persona. I don't know why I wrote some of this in here. Just been dealing with a lot of my own demons that I won't go into on here and for some reason it helps me to write the most painful and humiliating scenes I can think of to cope, lol. Okay, maybe it wasn't funny. Don't worry. More from Adam is coming up, just haven't gotten that far in life yet, lol. I'm working on it though. If you think you feel sorry for Adam now, you ain't seen nothing yet. And you may be questioning Shiloh's character before long too. Don't worry, I'm not writing him as a horrible person or anything, just a bit sneaky and overly protective of Bill. Did you get to the part where the pictures were sent? Oh, and yes, it does seem a bit easy for Bill to say release the book when it won't reflect a bad character of him, but rather David and his brother. More to come so please stay tuned and I will let you know as soon as I update and don't worry, it likely won't be fifteen thousand words, which I think turned some people off as well as the extrememly uncomfortable medical scene. Hell, it was not even easy for me to re-read some of that and it left me wondering what the actual fuck is wrong with me?!! Again and as always, thank you so much for your detailed and wonderful review. I love you so much, Helen!!! I can't believe you're actually still with this!! Off to write some more now that I have some free time! Will let you know as soon as I update. I can't even believe people are still reading this lol! But, again, I've read worse so I'm going to leave it up, I guess. Love you again and again!!!
Date: 11/08/16 04:53 pm Title: Holding Therapy
So sorry for the delay in reviewing, no reflection on the chapter...which is amazing. My God, you put a lot of work into this one. Such detail, and your interest in medical conditions and mental illness shows through...you must have spent ages researching holding therapy and personality disorders. Knowing how much you like Adam Lambert I can't believe you've written him as such an arsehole in this. I feel so disappointed in him; I thought he'd be there for Bill through thick and thin but when the going got tough and Bill really, really needed him he bails out and then to have the divorce papers delivered when he's recovering from major surgery...I have no words to describe what a shit he is. Tom must be terrified to leave Bill, worried sick of what might happen while he's away, but he must start taking care of his own needs if he's going to be strong for his little brother. Shiloh, and Anita too, is obviously much more involved with Bill than just a nurse/ patient relationship. His devotion is incredible, I especially love how he relates to the different aspects of Bill's personalities and persuaded the 'child' to eat by bringing in a smoothie. And he goes well beyond the call of duty, after all it's not really his place to have to break bad news but he'll do it in the best way he can. But he needs to take care that he doesn't burn out too; he's too important. I'm glad Bill seems to be recovering well from the surgery even if he is still frail; at least if he's physically well it will be one less thing to worry about, and will make implementing the holding therapy easier if he's less fragile. Although it is worrying he's still getting such awful migraines and nosebleeds. And Jorg...OMG...he's a fucking monster. How the hell are they going to deal with him? Shiloh's right not to tell Bill quite yet, he'll need his twin there when the news is broken to him and Tom needs that rest before that happens. I'm at a loss how you're going to resolve all this...the shit just keeps flying in Bill's direction, with Tom getting well and truely splattered as well. I know you have a lot going on right now, sweetie, but I can;t wait for your next chapter...I'm sure you won't disappoint and the drama is going to be sky high. Love you, Helen xx
Author's Response: I've been writing on this story a lot lately. I can't believe I haven't picked it up in a year and a half. It takes a ton of research for something like this but I love it. Just wish I could make some of it flow better than I have. I use some words too much, some phrases too often. Re reading it it's very choppy and could've been written better. Anyhow idk if I'm done with Adam completely. We'll have to see where it goes. Thank you so much for the review. Love you to pieces!!!
Date: 11/06/16 05:56 pm Title: Holding Therapy
Oh my god! What a nice surprise!!😄 everyday I check the site just to see if you updated , I didn't check for the past 4 days and today I did. What can I say? I kin of hate Adam... He knew what he was facing when he met Bill and now he just wants to leave him? That's a coward thing. If he wants to leave then he should. It makes me sad to read the twins situations... Now Tom also needs a therapist and it makes me sad. He's giving too much of himself, it's weird, I don't want them to be separated but in the other hand Tom really needs a break. I don't think he gets it anyway, it's his soulmate who's on danger and he'd do anything for him, right? Jorg... Omg... He should die already. He's an asshole pedophile. Can't wait to keep on reading , thanks for the update!😌 and btw: No, I don't know how to do anything 😭 I don't know how to do banners , I'm like the most untalented person ever... Lol.
Take care and thank you once more!😄
Author's Response: I'm working on an update soon. Between kids, homework, my husband, house wifey shit, lol, and looking for a job I don't even know how I ever find time to write. I'm glad you enjoyed it,and yes, Adam is a dick for leaving him. It's going to get better, eventually, and again, be looking out for a new fic. Thank you always for your detailed reviews, and again, don't worry, Jorg will eventually, hopefully get his. Can't reveal too much. Thank you, again!!rn
Date: 11/05/16 04:34 am Title: Holding Therapy
I am still reading and now i really want to kill Adam with my own hand, coward bastard!!! And now Jorg appears again to bother the twins, damn on him, you should kill the both. Love the story as usual.
Author's Response: Believe me, they'll get theirs. Lol. Not saying too much, but thanks for the kind reviews and that you are a faithful reader and reviewer!!! Much appreciated!
Date: 11/04/16 06:33 pm Title: Holding Therapy
great chapter...id change 2 things though...people can get a marraige annuled after such a short period of time, also i wouldnt mention the IV until after bill gets out of the shower, since he pulled it out before....or put that he had the iv put back in.
anyway, please update as soon as you can and i hope things get better for you
Author's Response: I'm going to find a way to fix that with the divorce, which I already have an idea to make the divorce legitimate, and thank you so much for saying something or that would have been a major plot hole. I know it's just fan fiction, but I'm striving to write a novel soon, so I need to make sure all my bases are covered. Not much I can do about the I.V. part, but I will be more careful in the future. Thanks, Sieren! I'll update asap! And thank you for the kind words.
Date: 11/04/16 11:15 am Title: Holding Therapy
Seriously Adam? What the hell? I know it's hard to be with someone who doesn't match the personality you gave to them but that doesn't mean you leave them. He's hurt and needs help not a divorce. Asshole. I can't wait for the next one :)
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you're still with me on this. I'm working on the next one and I have another coming up I hope you'll check out starring Bill as a feral child. I'm not even kidding. Trust me, all things will come full circle with this. Hope to get something posted by next week. Thanks again for the review!!
Date: 08/31/16 08:44 pm Title: The Process of Aftercare and Recovery
Hello again, i was listening to Adam`s Lambert Song Whataya Want from Me and i cannot help but think of your story, i guess i am into this characters so much, maybe you have heard the song, but if not, i strongly recommend you to listen.
It could work for both sides, Adam`s and Bill`s.
I like this pairing, i am a writer my self but i write in my native language Spanish, so i have a couple pf Adam/Bill stories of my own.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1Fqn9du7xo
Author's Response: Thanks for the suggestion and yeah, I've heard the song and it does inspire certain areas. I absolutely love Adam Lambert in real life and I really love Tokio Hotel and liked the pairings in other stories and thought, why not? Anyhow, again, thanks for the suggestion. I should update soon enough. Love that song, btw!
Date: 08/29/16 04:47 am Title: The Process of Aftercare and Recovery
I was missing this story so much really, i loved the whole thing, i was a little lost at the beggining, so i had to read a bit of the last chapter. Let me tell you that i love the twins bonding and how much Tom takes care of Bill, but i am really angry with Adam, i mean he seems to not care about Bill at all, saying that he married an image of a person and that he doesn´t like this side of Bill, i mean what the hell, i dont like him anymore, i prefer Georg/Bill in this, Georg really seems to care for Bill and he was a long term friend before... but lets see what happens. I hope that you will keep updating cause this fic is such a guilty pleasure for me. I love how much you torture Billy!
Author's Response: Thank you for such a great and honest review! I love getting the insight of my readers and the more raw and honest the better. Working hard on the next chapter. It will be up tonight or hopefully tomorrow at some point. I don't care for Adam and I'm pretty upset with him myself right now, lol, but it'll get better. My writing always does and I don't like sad endings. I know, the torture, but I can't help it. It just kind of doesn't seem to end in my fiction. Glad you're enjoying and I'll update asap!
Date: 08/23/16 05:34 pm Title: The Process of Aftercare and Recovery
love this chapter
Author's Response: Thank you, dear! And I love you!
Date: 08/22/16 09:23 pm Title: The Process of Aftercare and Recovery
You're going to start a new fic?😍 and with drama? Yeeessssss😍 can't wait but please don't leave this one 😭 I just love it so much.
Author's Response: Yesss, but stuck on AVI at the moment so you'll have to stick around for a minute for that one, lol. Coming soon, though. Just have to get the kinks worked out. Do you make banners by any chance, like for other people? I was scoping your profile and looking for someone to help make mine.
Date: 08/22/16 04:22 pm Title: The Process of Aftercare and Recovery
Great description of the aftermath of Bill's op. You know I love all the medical stuff...makes it so real. The poor thing is in such a bad way, both physically and mentally, you do love to torture him. Bill is lucky to have such a dedicated nurse as Shiloh, and the whole team looking out for him. They really do care for him and want the best. Shiloh needs to take a bit of care over his own health though so he can continue to be there for Bill. He really needs some sleep before he passes out from exhaustion. I'm so glad he's bending Anita's rules and allowing the twins to snuggle. Bill needs Tom even more now Adam has run off. I'm actually really disappointed in Adam. I can see things from his pov, ever since he and Bill married its been one drama after another and what Bill did in kissing Georg and especially the abuse accusation is pretty unforgiveable, but surely Adam must realise that Bill's mind is so confused nothing he says or does can be taken as a true reflection of his feelings. But then I suppose that's Adam's point, he really doesn't know the true person he married. I hope he doesn't leave, though. Bill might not survive another loss even with Tom's support and everyone else loving him as they do. So, another excellent chapter and looking forward to the next one and the 'twist' you've promised. Love you, Helen xx
Author's Response: Thank you, as always, for such an amazing review!! There's always medical stuff in my writing. I'm going to end up writing a hospital series one day, I swear, lol. Yeah, don't worry, Shiloh's going to get that break soon and I already have it in the works what's about to happen with the Bill/Georg/Adam little triangle I have going, but I'm not revealing it here, lol. Yeah, I don't think Adam was prepared for how bad it could get and really was rooting for a fast and full recovery. So, he's beyond disappointed and has some right to second guess, but not really to take off when things like that have been going on since the beginning of their relationship. The twist is coming and you're probably going to be mad at me, but I can't help it. That sinister side of me just loves to come out in my writing, lol. Anyhow, thanks again and I'll have another update asap!!rn
Date: 08/22/16 12:34 pm Title: The Process of Aftercare and Recovery
I honestly almost lost my shit, this fic is my favorite ever (and the other one of course 😍) you literately make me feel every single emotion, it breaks my heart to read how bad Bill is and how bad Tom is too and the fact that they can't even be alone together even tho I believe there's no one like Tom to give strength to Bill. And Adam ? Oh god, I understand him but its not the time to leave Bill 😭 that will only brrak him more 😭 and what up with Georg ? Omg.. Can't wait to read more so soon, please and thank you 😌
Btw, I love drama so much. Please keep on going 😌
Author's Response: I am doing my very best to make this next one a quicker update for you guys. Thank you so much for this review. They keep me going! Not sure what I'm going to do with the Adam/Georg situation just yet. I have a few ideas for when Bill's out of the hospital, but still lots to come and this story is probably going to be at least between 30 and 40 chapters. If you love drama you'll die when you hear the idea for my newest story. Coming soon! Thanks again!rn
Date: 08/22/16 01:26 am Title: The Process of Aftercare and Recovery
Adam....no.....don't do this.....please.....I'm really crying right now. Shit. Keep it up girl.
Author's Response: Thank you for this. I'm sorry I made you cry :( Working on the next chapter today. Don't worry. Not sure where I'm going with it, though. We'll just have to see what pops outta my twisted wittle head, lol. It'll get better one way or another. I do tragedies, not tragic endings...most of the time, lmao!