Date: 07/03/16 10:12 pm Title: Here Comes the Bride
i have severe depression AND anxiety AND in a wheelchair (spinabifida) so yeah its kinda strange around here
Author's Response: Posting now! Getting there and new story soon you might want to check out and if you haven't read playhouse palace, go read because I'm about to update that one too.
Date: 07/03/16 10:02 pm Title: Of Stitches and Fresh Wounds
please update soon.
i miss this.
Date: 06/17/16 08:23 pm Title: Of Stitches and Fresh Wounds
look forward to more.
I have been having a really bad few months, off and on, and this gives me at least something to do. i love this
Author's Response: Well hun, if you ever need to talk I did send you a friend request over facebook. I understand. I suffer with severe depression myself and a lot of my friends do also. Thank you for your kind reviews and don't stop fighting through whatever you're struggling with. Take care and you can accept me on Facebook if you need someone to listen, talk or just comfort you.
Date: 06/17/16 04:00 pm Title: Of Stitches and Fresh Wounds
I can’t tell you how relieved I am that Bill finally had the surgery. It’s just awful that he had to get so bad before the decision was made to override his wishes and get him to the hospital. I hope they sue the doctor who did the biopsy and damaged him further. Hopefully he’ll fully recover (with the aid of Tom’s blood) and then his mental health issues can be worked on. I know abuse means he’ll always have some issues but I’m really hoping at the end of this story we’ll see a stronger Bill both physically and mentally.
I’m trying to decide exactly how I feel about Adam. I do understand how devastating it must have been for him to hear Bill say that about their sex life, No wonder he tells Tom he can’t touch Bill for a while, he probably feels guilty, almost like he was abusing Bill. Bill will be mortified if he ever realises what he said when he was pretty much delirious with fever. And then for Adam to learn about the kiss. It must hurt so bad to know his husband kissed another man just days after their wedding. So, yes, I do get how shattered he must feel, but he’s also seen what a mental mess Bill is so a part of him must know it’s not the real Bill saying or doing those things. It’s so sad that Adam is baling on Bill when he’s most needed, and if he really wants the man he married back then he needs to stick around and support him through the bad times and through his recovery. But then, I guess they actually haven’t been together that long and most of that time has been one drama after another so no wonder he’s overwhelmed and wants to run away. I’m hoping once he’s had time to think instead of just acting on his initial gut reaction that he changes his mind and turns up at the hospital. Otherwise he really will lose Bill because Bill's more likely to turn to Georg again whenever he can't get his own way with Tom or the others and that’s not a good thing for either of them. I’d hate for Georg to get hurt, but I think that’s what would happen. Once Bill’s thinking more clearly he won't need Georg's support in the same way.
This was another excellent chapter, so much to take in there’s no way I can adequately comment on all of it. I’m so damned eager to read the next one and see how the whole mess works out…and hopefully Bill’s recovery will be trouble-free, but knowing you it won’t be. LOL!!! Love you, Helen xx
Author's Response: Thanks again, Helen, for always being faithful to the messes of my stories I can make, lol. This review was awesome. I'm not sure what direction I am going with the Bill/Adam/Georg mess, but it's going somewhere, I promise. Maybe Adam will come around and Bill will come full circle as the young man he needs to be. Bill is still so traumatized by the molestation when he was younger that his personalities have certainly split off so that he can just cope with what's going on around him. Not sure he was ready for an adult sex-life at this point, but let's hope that comes full circle too, because you know, I love my homo-erotica, lol. Anyhow, I don't think any response I can give can live up to your epic reviews, so thank you so much. Bill will have a good recovery, but yes, you know me, it won't just be easy sailing. I can't be THAT positive! There are also going to be times that Bill turns to Georg, yes, because, as you can see in the story they gravitate toward one another in friendship. Okay, dear, that's about all I have. Ideas are circling my brain like hungry sharks, so I'm going to write and I hope you and Dave have a lovely Father's Day! Love you!
Date: 06/17/16 01:14 am Title: Of Stitches and Fresh Wounds
Adam is being unreasonable. It's not like Bill has any control over his actions. He needs him as much as he needs Tom. It's not fair to Bill that he's upset over a kiss. Clearly if there was something going on, this Bill would not be physically capable of hiding it. He is just a broken scared confused boy. I don't know if I like him anymore. I get it, it's tough when your significant other is emotionally unstable and needs so much physical and mental recovery and yes you did sacrifice a lot but that's what marriage means, for better or worse, in sickness and health. Bill is in sickness and you're willing to abandon him over it?! Not cool! The minute Tom said he asked for you, he should've dropped the ego and went to see him. He wanted you, not Georg or anyone else, you. That was a dick move, bro. Seriously not cool.
Any who, can't wait for your update. I'm really enjoying this. One question, are you a medical student or a doctor or are you just really into medicine as a hobby because the medical stuff (because I know jack squat) is spot on! Your knowledge makes this story even more intriguing to read. I love it when a writer has knowledge on a topic and demonstrates that as beautifully as you have. Keep up with the good work.
Author's Response: "That was a dick move, bro. Seriously not cool." Lol. You crack me up. I can't make any promises for our sweet Bill and Adam. We'll just have to see what mood I'm in when I'm writing. To answer your question, no, I'm not a medical student, or a doctor, I just love medical scenes. I research my ass off for stories like this to give all the gory details I can. It makes most people uncomfortable. So, whereas I'm a decent writer, I don't get a lot of reviews because of the content and subject matter, I think. I was also an eating disorder patient for well over about fifteen years now, probably closer to twenty and have been in recovery for a while, so I know what happens to the body when it starts to get affected by malnutrition and the like. Some of the first things to go can be things like your heart or kidneys because they can't hold up, especially with chemical abuse, such as laxatives and things like that. I've almost been in renal, or urinary system failure, but was smart enough to get healthy quickly after that. Some people aren't so lucky and depression gets to be too much. Alright, enough about my personal life. Please keep reading and enjoy. Any questions I'll be more than happy to answer as I am always an open book!! Thanks for your lovely reviews and keeping up with this thing!
Date: 06/17/16 01:06 am Title: Of Stitches and Fresh Wounds
Hello again, glad to be able to leave a proper review now that i am reading the latest updates!
So, i was cringing in several parts of the chapter, Poor my sweet Billy, so much pain and despair is not fair for him, and this last minute surgery was a lot... i love the drama so much, so when my heart starts to feel in pain i know the story is so good. Sorry if i am not making any sense, English is not my first language and if i am excited gets harder to get my point across.
Anyway, i do not know what to think of Adam`s behavior, i mean, i know is hard to find out your husband kissed another man, but he is saying that he will leave him?? WTF Bill will die if that happens.
I do really like this story, so please dont leave it like Adam said.
Author's Response: I will do my best not to split Bill and Adam up, but unfortunately, I write tragedies, lol. Your reviews are amazing and express how you feel however you like or can. I'm sure I can make it out. Always excited to get a lovely review from you. Thanks again!rn
Date: 06/12/16 06:04 pm Title: Unholy Trinity- The Demon,The Child, The Tortured Man
cant wait for more
Author's Response: Coming very soon. I sent u a facebook request. I loved the pictures of you and Bill. Thanks for keeping up with this. Love your reviews.
Date: 06/12/16 05:22 am Title: Unholy Trinity- The Demon,The Child, The Tortured Man
I finally finished reading so far, and let me tell you that i am in love with your writing and the whole story. Its so good that i want to scream and jump, please keep writing because you have a new loyal fan here! I Love the drama and intensity of the characters and this new thing with Georg is amazing!!
Author's Response: This was an amazing review and thank you so much. It is very intense. I write with pure emotion and some experience with the eating disorder. I do take a lot out on my characters but again thank you so much. I will keep it up and probably updating tomorrow. Loved this review. I respond to all of them. This made me smile. Thank you again from the depths of my heart.
Author's Response: This was an amazing review and thank you so much. It is very intense. I write with pure emotion and some experience with the eating disorder. I do take a lot out on my characters but again thank you so much. I will keep it up and probably updating tomorrow. Loved this review. I respond to all of them. This made me smile. Thank you again from the depths of my heart.
Date: 06/09/16 04:30 am Title: Unholy Trinity- The Demon,The Child, The Tortured Man
Another dramatic, angst-filled chapter full of the most amazing detail. Such a sad situation for everyone who loves Bill. I'm not sure Anita and Shiloh are doing any good by trying to break the twins' co-dependency. It seems it might do more damage than good, and anyway Bill is just going to fixate on someone else - Georg - to fill the gap. I do understand that Tom's reluctance to force Bill in to any kind of treatment, and to remove his rights to make his own decisions, is detrimental but forcing separation on them has to be bad for both of them. In a sense, despite everyone around them, and even Adam, they only have each other. Really I think I'm just as confused about what is best for Bill - and Tom - as they are. I do understand though that Tom can't be allowed to keep giving Bill more chances, every time he persuades people to let Bill alone for a while Bill does something harmful or he just gets sicker. I'm not sure Georg is going to be any better, he'll likely be wrapped around Bill's little finger too. And quite honestly Adam seems completely out of his depth...like, holy fuck, what has he married in to. Poor guy. I think Anita got it right, he really wasn't ready for marriage and Bill certainly wasn't. Poor Adam has a physically and mentally sick husband and his worn down, distressed twin to cope with. What a start to married life. He must still love Bill very much to stick around and not run away. Something's gotta give, the whole situation is like a pot on the brink of boiling over. Either Tom needs a change of heart and needs to get tough and just tell Bill what's going to happen and follow through (and maybe a night out away from it all, and some straight talking from his friends might actually help him listen to sense and see things in a different light)or someone else needs to be appointed to make those decisions and stop pussy footing around Bill. Sounds horrible and I would hate and fight against it like Bill if anyone tried to take over my life like that but I don't see what else can be done. His behaviour just gets more self destructive and I think he could try and put off the procedures until it was too late and he was too sick for treatment to save him. Maybe in an unconscious way that's what he's trying to do, kill himself by neglect (maybe the evil in his head is at work on that). So, yeah, another long, rambling review because I get so involved and I have no answers...what's good for Bill's body is potentially harmful to his mind, but like Anita said they need to get him physically well and then they can heal his mind. Sorry if none of this makes sense, I'm still a bit under the weather. Love you, Helen xx
Author's Response: Helen, thank you so much for this wonderful review. I don't know if I have the words right now to match it. I don't really know, at this point, where this is going. I guess a lot of me writes from the behavior I have reflected in my own life, just not as intense. I think Bill is pushing Adam away and I don't know how to stop it in my head. This review has given me some insights on where this might be going, so thank you for that. I'm trying to get this to a happier place, but it's really not easy. The next chapter should be up tomorrow as I have written over half of it and trying to make it as realistic as possible. I think I would react the same way if someone tried to take control of me. As far as Bill and Tom go, I know the push to get them separated a little may be somewhat detrimental, but they'll have to learn to cope and it's not going to be an easy road. I'm not sure yet where the future lies for Bill and Adam and I have added another little twist in my next chapter, that has Adam's heart bleeding and call me crazy, but it makes for great drama, lol. Okay, love, thanks again for this detailed review. I loved it and I love you to pieces. It helped me a lot and I'm going to change it up a little now that I have great direction and opinion. Love you to pieces. Wish I could hug you right now. I'll write you tomorrow when I post! Have a great week.
Date: 06/05/16 10:42 pm Title: Unholy Trinity- The Demon,The Child, The Tortured Man
Bill seems to be getting slowly worse than he was before. He needs serious counseling and I hope he gets all the help he needs. I am worried about him and this is fiction.
Author's Response: Thanks for the review and time will tell. I guess we shall see! Chapter six in the works babe!
Date: 05/06/16 03:12 pm Title: Bill Beyond Reason
Okay, so I'm back to feeling sorry for Tom again in this chapter. (Adam too, of course, not the best start to married life!). But for Tom, who is literally the other half of him, Bill's rejection and abuse must feel devastating. It's all about Bill right now and his issues, and poor Tom is out of his depth, and Bill telling him he's not their mother reminded me that really Tom hasn't had a chance to mourn her loss because he's had so much of Bill's shit to deal with. And as well as losing his mom he's terrified with Bill's health problems he'll lose his twin too. No wonder Tom is freaking out when Bill keeps kicking back against the rules and regs he and Adam are trying to impose to safeguard his health. I didn't expect the power of attorny thing to go well but thought at first Bill was going to accept it, and then he pushes everyone away again. He's obviously turning to Georg because it seems he's the only one on his side, and the attraction for Georg probably has something to do with Bill being so needy and maybe Georg has some kind of saviour or hero complex and thinks can be the one to step up and save Bill. Mind you, he's also been quite straight-talking with Bill and Bill takes his advice to a certain extent, but I think Bill can manipulate him. Aside of Bill's natural beauty and that magnetism that draws people to him, part of the attraction for Georg must be wrapped up in Bill's vulnerability, and because Bill is turning to him and choosing his company over his loved ones, which has to be flattering. Still, the ending was a bit of a shock, but then what we see through Tom's eyes is Georg kissing Bill...we don't know at this point what Bill's reaction is to the kiss. Maybe he'll be horrified that the man he's turned to is taking advantage, maybe he'll kiss Georg right back because he needs the connection. Can't wait for the next chapter to find out. Love Helen xx
Author's Response: No spoilers, but if you feel sorry for Tom and Adam now, wait until you read the next installment. It's devastating. Anyhow, as always, thank you for the wonderful and detailed review. I know, Tom feels awful about being constantly reminded that, first of all, Simone isn't there anymore, and second of all, he's having to be parental for Bill. We won't know what exactly is going on in Georg's or Bill's head about the kiss, or if anything else goes anywhere for a chapter or two, at least. There's too much else to focus on and NO SPOILERS!! Sorry! Bill is very good at manipulation, but you'll see it's not all of his fault. Yes, that's exactly what Bill is doing to get and keep someone on his side, which, right now, can be dangerous and make it hard on everyone to get him the medical attention he needs. Don't worry, I'll address that kiss soon enough. Thanks again, as always!! Love you to bits!
Date: 05/05/16 01:20 am Title: Bill Beyond Reason
Omg! #Biorg 😍
Author's Response: Lol. FANGIRLS. I love us!
Date: 05/05/16 12:59 am Title: Bill Beyond Reason
oh shit
Author's Response: Yup! Ty for the review lol!
Date: 05/04/16 10:36 pm Title: Bill Beyond Reason
love you too.
"I want a divorce, I want a legal seperation from you, Tom!" sounds kinda strange though lol.
looking forward to more.
Author's Response: He was telling Adam he wanted the divorce and Tom he wanted to be legally separated and basically out from under the rules, lol. Not a divorce from Tom. I should have made it clearer. Sorry, love.
Date: 05/02/16 08:08 pm Title: Here Comes the Bride
i had a few ideas for stories
do you have a facebook?
and when are you gonna update this one? i miss it
Author's Response: Updating now. Yes I have a facebook. It's under Tisha Cuellar. Chapter four is going to be called Bill Beyond Reason. Thanks again
Date: 05/02/16 08:06 pm Title: Here Comes the Bride
im looking forward to it
i also like how Bill acts as baby and sleeps like a chimp
Author's Response: Lol. He has regression issues to a certain extent, but the next chapter shows a whole other side.
Date: 04/26/16 08:11 pm Title: Cold Defiance
please update soon
Author's Response: I'll try for tomorrow night. Thank you for reading. And especially for reviewing. Gives me hope this isn't total shit.
Date: 04/25/16 08:57 pm Title: Here Comes the Bride
oh no please dont stop writing this
Author's Response: I'm not hun. Just busy. Thank you for your lovely reviews. You ever want to talk just let me know and I can find a way to get you info privately. I can try a story for you. Let me know something soon.
Date: 03/28/16 02:47 pm Title: Cold Defiance
Sorry it's taken me so long to review. I actually really liked this chapter and it's been going around in my brain since I read it. I do have mixed feelings but only because I feel guilty for being on Bill's side. I know that's probably bad because everything he did was wrong for his health and recovery...but I was thinking 'go Bill' every time he switched off another baby listener. Usually I feel sorry for Tom trying to care for his twin and taking so much abuse for it, but this time I was almost cheering Bill on in his bid for a little privacy. I feel so bad for him, he's in the public eye so much and is now being spied on constantly in his own home. I guess his sneakiness in this chapter shows why its necessary, but I still kinda enjoyed how he gave the finger to his minders. Of course it was a bad move and had consequences, and I hope his decision to delay the tests doesn't bite him in the arse (and yay for Georg's intervention... Bill's hero) but it must have felt good for a moment to have a little victory when his whole life is so controlled. Of course, his actions must have been heartbreaking for Tom and Adam, and that last line was kind of chilling. Is the voice in his head manifesting as a split personality? Scary. So, yeah, confused analysis from me but really great chapter. Love you, hugs Helen xx
Author's Response: Thank you again for a wonderful review. Sorry I just got time to sit down and respond. A lot going on and I'll email you later. Bill is to the point he's sick of the reins and this is his form of control, but the choice should be his. Yes, I thought my protective Georg was great in this chapter. Bill gets mean when he's backed into a corner, I know, but it's necessary at the moment to show the not-so-vulnerable side of him and that he has rights, as a person, over certain procedures. Loved this review and glad you enjoyed this chapter so much. The next is turning out to be quite long so I'll have to work to shorten it. I'll try to have the next one up in a day or two. Love you much, dear!rn
Date: 03/23/16 03:31 am Title: There Goes the Honeymoon
Thanks God you're back, i thought you'd never comeback, I loved the episode, poor Bill D: Can't wait to keep reading, please, don't go anywhere ahahah...
Author's Response: I'm not and I'll keep writing, lol. Got a lot going on at the moment, but already working on chapter 3. Thank you for reviewing!!