ohohohoh!

and tom telling that prick "hell yeah, we suck each other's cocks" was fucking brilliant!

Sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you. Now let's get straight to it...Lovesick Bu? I'm not sure whether I love him or whether he kind of freaks me out. I don't recall him ever being that soppy over Bill before but I suppose that's what nearly dying does for you, gives you a whole new perspective on things. Plus, of course, his brain isn't working quite right at the moment and those headaches and how long it takes him to formulate ideas is worrying. But I do love how he all-but sees the thread tying the twins together. Having his head bounced about a bit seems to have awakened some kind of psychic ability. I'm also loving take-charge Andrej, and how turned on Tom gets by his bossy husband. Personally I think they're both insane to be contemplating having more kids, but maybe in some way its the right time after all the losses for them to do something so life-affirming. I'm just wondering if there's the possibility of Bill's little swimmers being added to the mix this time? I know he said in the past he didn't want kids but he loves his niece and nephew and practically sees them as his too, so why not have one (or two) of his own? Did I ever tell you, you are a genius? No...then I'm telling you now. The twins' plans for revenge are inspired and exactly right, and I'm so happy that Andi will be involved. Can't wait for the twins to confront the bastard that had their father murdered and Ani beaten to a bloody pulp. I wonder how many bones they'll break in his sorry body before he ends up being blown to pieces. On another subject (kind of)have you followed anything about TH's new album or watched any of the interviews. This one is good with the twins and has sparked a couple of ideas for me https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gQkoqglOtGo . If they don't come up automatically you can switch on subtitles. Also, of course the video for LWLYB with Bill dragging that guy into the lift for a BJ is definitely inspiring. I am hoping to start working on something soon, in fact I've written a page or two here and there but nothing that's really developed into anything yet, but I have lots of half-formed ideas. I'm thinking maybe a couple of shorts as sequels to the Georg/Bill pairing I did for the last challenge, and I also have one with Ria in it although the main focus will be the twins' relationship. Right, that's me done for tonight. Looking forward to lots of senseless violence in the next chapter. Oh, and you have me wondering now with that comment about ideas you have regarding Zane. And, before I finally sign off...thank you for the congrats re my weight loss although I've likely put some on this week as I've had a few piggy days. Must stop eating so much bread, it bloats me up. And last of all, please do email me with your story ideas and I'll try to offer my opinions and maybe I'll tell you my ideas and you can tell me how shit they are and how to make them better. That's it; I'm finally, finally done. Take care and write lots...oh, how are your wrists now? Chat again soon, love Helen xx

Author's Response: Whew, I'm finally here! Lovesick Bu? Of course! He was super lovesick over Bill in KL! Maybe not soppy and sappy, but definitely crazy in love. Now, after the five years of not being with Bill, of having the knowledge of the twincest thing acting like a huge ugly wall in his heart, he can let all the pain go (it's like feeling like a new human after a 10 day migraine finally, finally ends - you feel even better after the migraine than before it ever started, simply from the comparison of the absence of pain). He gets to be with Bill again (having something that meant so much to him just be gone one day would leave a huge, painful hole for years. Now it's all healed, so it feels that much better). Having that complete understanding of the twin's relationship makes him feel connected to Bill in a way he never had. The complete assurity that he and Bill will be together forever now gives him a new emotional confidence. (in KL, one of the later chapters was Bu finding out about Dave and being devastated and intimidated by Bill's past lovers). OH ! as for me being a genius...Sigh....I wish! I mean, like a true genius. Like Steven Hawkins. I have an "I heart Carl Sagan" tshirt! I do! I just want to understand black holes! Singularities! Dark matter! But alas, I have a different type of creative ability. Anyway.... I'm rather liking Andrej, too. Wish I had more time to develop him and Tom. A little more A/T is coming up, though, with all the plans they have to make for moving. And do you think Andrej would let Bill's baby batter in the mix?? Bah! He'd pitch a fit like no other! I'm glad you're liking the revenge plot - it's going a lot faster than it probably should; I tend to wrap up BIG PLOTS too quickly, I think. Okay I just watched the interview. It didn't have the subtitles but I hope it's sparked some story ideas for you!!!!!!!!! WRITE PLEASE!!!!!!!!! I did watch the video for LWLYB when prompted by someone else. So does Bill know he came out of the closet in that video?? I did like that scene too - write a shortie about it! Mmmm elevator blow jobs! Okay, I'm going to write you an email soon, I have lots to say to you! My arms are in a bit of a flare-up though so it will either be a short email, or I'll write it later :) I did get dragon software but it's being a bitch, I have to fix it. It's really really really hard to dictate a story when I don't have it hand-written first. I'm going to work a bit on the next chapter, talk to you soon! Mwah!

Everytime it says Quinn I think of Quinn Fabray from glee.... Oh and downton abbey love it!

Author's Response: Haven't seen D.A. Or Glee..... Um....Or Dr. Who.... Or Sherlock.....Or Dexter, or Breaking Bad, or The Sopranos (okay, 2 episodes of the Sopranos, a long time ago), or Orange is the New Black..... I live in a box, okay???

Omg I read last chapter instead of latest chapter and I was like whaaat?? But yeah, I have recovered from my mini heart attack and read the chapter in a rush xD
Honestly I can't wait to see/hear more from Bushido.

Author's Response: Whew, definitely not the last chapter! I'm beginning to wonder if this one is ever going to end! There is more Bushido in the near future!

“I’ll love you like no one else, til the day I die,”

i hate you for that

Wait. I thought this fic was about sunshine, kittens, and rainbows... Way to warn a girl.

Author's Response: Ahhh....the sunshine of twincest, the kittens of teenaged murderers, the rainbows of syndicate crime...that's EXACTLY what it's about!!

Omg bu is awake...finally my life wasn't complete without Bill/bushido love.lol

Author's Response: Mine either! Now it's time to get to work on the next chapter! :)

Sorry again for the lack of a decent review for the last chapter. I had the migraine from hell; two days in bed, blinding headache, throwing up and it seriously took me a whole week to get over it properly. But I'm okay now and so, I guess I'll forgive you for going on holiday again and no update for two weeks since this chapter was almost double length anyway. You got kind of mixed reviews, didn't you? Lot of Andrej haters still out there, but I still like him. He's right for Tom, satisfying Tom's need for a wife and family. After all, Poppi might have been the big mafia boss but he had his wife and his kids and grandkids and was a great family man and Tom's just the same with Andrej. And Andrej understands Tom so well. I think its great that he's not the coy, sweet little thing he used to be about sex. He might be demanding and bossy but it clearly works for both of them, and he knew exactly how to ease Tom's stress during their session at the wake. Bill, is the opposite of Tom. He doesn't need a wife to take care of, he needs a husband to take care of him. He can also be demanding and bossy in bed, but ultimately he wants someone to dominate him...and Bu is that someone. Tom and Andrej and their kids are his family and now he's got Bu back he'll have all he needs. Oh...so lovely, that instant reconnection Bu had with his pavone. He might not really recall his near death experience and meeting Poppi in the ether, but it's had a profound effect on his thinking and made him realise that Bill and Tom's twincest is unimportant in the grand scheme of things. I'm so glad it looks like he'll make a good recovery and not be seriously brain damaged or anything, although I'm sure there'll be lasting scars and maybe a degree of disablement after such horrendous injuries. And now I'm dying for the next chapter. I want the twins to make that fucker pay for what he had done to Bu and for murdering Poppi. I can just see how the twins will work in the future; Tom's going to gain respect for his cleverness, organisational skills and ruthlessness and Bill will be the vicious bitch who won't flinch at making their enemies suffer. Mind you, he'll have to learn to control his emotions a bit better in public, breaking down and blubbing over Poppi's coffin wasn't the way to command respect no matter how devastated he is, especially with his mother needing his support so badly. As always, so much in this chapter I could comment on but then I'd be writing more than you. Anyway, have a fantastic holiday, do a bit of writing when you get the chance and I'll be looking out for an update in a couple fo weeks. Big hugs, Helen x

Author's Response: Hi Helen! I'm so glad to see you're feeling well enough to sit up and look at a computer screen (I know how debilitating multi-day migraines are, believe me!). Hope you're up and about now. I knew while writing the Tom/Andrej scene that you'd be about the only one to enjoy and understand it. Andrej is exactly what Tom wants and needs! You're very right that he's the perfect mafia wife and mother for Tom. The small power-play dynamics between them started back in the last story. I think it gives them both the enjoyment of switching roles, since Tom is the big bad man of the house, and Andrej is the sweet, submissive woman. Their little game is good for them both. I must admit, when I hear all the naysayers dissin' my Andrej, I sometimes consider offing him and putting Raf in his place. But Tom would never get over it. Raf would never be what he wants in life. Andrej isn't a sparkly character, but I still like him, and you like him, so even when the thought has popped up, I've always rejected it. He's part of the story, and if I could, I'd probably put more of him in (which I'm working on next chapter anyway!). Yay, Bu is back to the land of the living! We'll have to see what kind of fall-out his injuries might have. And I wonder if everything is going to go smoothly with him and Bill. I am definitely working on the next chapter already. I'm hoping the end of the story sort of starts clicking in soon. I have a halloween trilogy I need to start on, and another idea for the next big one (it really needs a stronger outline, but I'm excited to write something more lighthearted. I'll send you an email of the idea I have, maybe you can help me decide what the hell to do with it!). Oh, I was actually on facebook the other day (a very rare thing). I've blocked everything from my own page about everyone else because the damned thing is just too complicated, so I simplified it to "My Shit." But I did notice that if I scrolled down, I saw other people's updates. Guess who I saw!! YOU! I grinned so big at seeing that you've reached your goal! CONGRATULATIONS!! You look fantastic!!! I know you've been working really hard on that (and that's another thing that I understand very well, too). I'm glad you stuck with it, because accomplishing something like that feels good, and you definitely deserve it!!

I can wait 4 da orgy, n that does not excuse andrej at all!!!!!!!!!!
You should look da book up n read it many lives, many masters by Dr Brian Weiss. Its like a true story book, if my memory is correct there is a time she tells him of drownin wit her daughter or watchin her daughter drown or sumn like that but bills past lives kinda sound like some of da past lives in da book. I'm agnostic too, well not like u, I'm full on agnostic. A friend of mine once said they ar believers of the truth wen asked wat religion they were, which is a fancy was of sayin their agnostic, lol
This book will trip u out a bit cos of ur story, I swear its like uv read it, ul ask urself how u could be so close to da mind set n memories and events of da book wen u were just throwin out ideas. Can't wait till I read it

Author's Response: Pammy-kim, since you so highly recommend it, I'll look it up.

I dont have time quite yet to read this, I just wanted to confirm that my psychic link to this story works all the way in Italy! Today felt like update day :)

Author's Response: Italy! How funny that our psychic link works in reverse! Just the other day I picked going back to Rome instead of japan in March! That was a tough call, let me tell ya! Have fun in italia! Buon giorno!