Date: 01/30/15 06:20 pm Title: Grandma
Please Bill keep her
Author's Response: I also really hope he will! Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!
Date: 01/30/15 09:29 am Title: Grandma
I really thought you gave up on this story, I hate to like it! XD
At least a Bill, I mean the Doctor made Bill keep her. I loved the moment when Bill and his grandmom were "making fun" in knit tiny pink shirts and socks, it felt like for a small, little time that Bill accepted his daughter for real and was happy about that!!!
Author's Response: And Im really glad you are still reading this! That moment are also a favorite of mine in this chapter, sometimes it feels like Bill taking small stepps towards acceptens and normality, even if I think he got a long way to go. Thank you so much for your review!
Date: 07/06/14 04:57 pm Title: A little one
this is so sad
Author's Response: I can only agree, but thanks for reading!
Date: 12/02/13 10:42 pm Title: Going home
I am so relieved that Bill decided to give the baby a chance to live. I also noticed that Bill is calling the baby 'she' rather than It now. I guess he wants to call the baby It, but 'she' just slips out even in his thoughts now. I think it is a good sign. That doctor knew what he was doing when we revealed the baby's sex.
I am very glad that Tom revealed to the grandparents the truth about their mother. I think otherwise they would not understand why Bill and Tom slept together. I also think that Simone should be punished.
I wish for Bill to love Georg the way the latter deserve. But may it is yet to come.
Anyway, I can finally the see the hope in this story. Great chapter!
Author's Response: Thank you, and I think you are right about Bill's changing form It to She. I agree it was good that Tom finally told them about their mother, even if I wish he had many, many years ago. rnAgain, thank you so much for your help, without it I hadn't been able to post this story!
Date: 12/02/13 04:09 am Title: Going home
I feel like things are looking up, despite this being another emotionally devastating chapter for so many of the characters. Thanks for the speedy update!!
Author's Response: I think so too, but sorry for not keeping the speed up, I hope you still want to read this story, and well, the next chapter won't take this long!
Date: 12/01/13 05:35 pm Title: Going home
So sad that Bill still wants his mother's love after all she's done to him and Tom. Just as sad that he's angry at Tom when all Tom was trying to do was find a way to exist with what was happening to him. How hard it must be for their grandparents to hear what a monster their daughter is; they must feel so guilty not having realised what was going on at the time so they could help the twins. At least now Grandad must have some idea why the twins relationship isn't normal. I'm pleased that Bill will not be aborting the baby, still upset with him that he's holding out for a love that he might never find when he has Georg always there for him, and he does love Georg but not quite enough. Grandad is so right, that first flush of love doesn't last forever and its the other kind that endures. What now, I wonder, with the baby. She's going to be born closer to full term and will probably survive and be completely normal. If Bill still doesn't want to keep her will Georg step in to raise her, even though she's not his...probably. What does Tom now think about the situation? He was desperate to get ahold of Bill, leaving all those texts, so he cares a great deal for his twin. Does he have any feelings towards the baby girl Bill is carrying? Has he thought about her at all? Will he allow Bill to give her away? Such a fucked up, heartbreaking situation. Can't wait for more.
Author's Response: Thank you so much for your review! And I agree, it's sad, yet I understand Bill. A parent is always a parent, and I think it's natural for a child to always love it's parenst even when she/he does things like this. I don't want to imagen how the grandparents feels, it must be completly devestating to learn to know something like that about your own child. rnAnd about Georg, I so wish Bill would understand how lucky he is to have him, but I guess love is more complicated than that, and sometimes itäs just not enough. But maybe it will change for Bill? Lets hope for the best, and I hope you still want to read this story as I started to update it again.
Date: 11/28/13 02:33 am Title: A little one
Wow. This is so awful for all of them. I still have such a love/hate relationship with your stories. They are so well written, but also just so sad. I am looking forward to more though, seeing what happens.
Author's Response: Yes, they really are sad, most of them (saw that you found one who isn't :) there are a few...) I'm glad you still want to read them, the next chapter is up now!
Date: 11/27/13 04:03 am Title: A little one
So happy to see your update, and thank you for the mention although, really, I only nagged you to post because I'm selfish and wanted to read more. And oh, this was beyond sad. Poor, poor Bill having to go through all that pain and suffering for a baby he doesn't even want. He's so crazy mixed up, feeling guilty and selfish and needing to be loved but not really knowing how to return that love like a normal person. And why would he after all the abuse he and Tom suffered at their mother's hands and, with her encouragement, from others too...including Gordon? She is one evil bitch. Having Georg there is a two-edged sword for him because he needs the support but feels so bad for what he's doing and the distress he's causing the man who loves him. And his grandad too. I'm wondering, does grandad have any idea at all that Tom and Bill have been abused...I mean, not the extent, but does he have an inkling, and that's the reason they turned to each other? There's no reason why he should know since abusers are generally very clever at covering their tracks and are often really popular people who no one would guess was capable of such despicable acts, even their nearest and dearest. I'm just kind of hoping grandad finds out about it if he doesn't know so that he can understand why Bill and Tom's brotherly relationship isn't quite normal. What now, I wonder. Knowing the sex of the baby, knowing IT's a SHE, must make her so much more real. My heart is bleeding for Bill and for Georg. And although Tom's not around, I'm wondering what he's doing right now, how he's coping with what his twin's going through, whether he's feeling excluded or is he just trying to block it all out? Anyway, I'm wishing for another update soon and maybe just a little flicker of hope for Bill and Georg. Hugs, Helen x
Author's Response: But I really do need someone who does! I'm so glad you haven't given up on my stories yet! I feel so much both for Bill and Tom in this, and yes, I think she is really fucked up, at the same time, i don't think Simone ever really meant to hurt her boys, and maybe that is what really makes her fucked up? About the granddad, I guess you will get some of the answers in the next chapter that is up now! And yes, I think it will be much harder for Bill to keep that disntance to the child now, but if that is a good or bad thing, well, that is left to see :) Hugs and thank you so much!
Author's Response: But I really do need someone who does! I'm so glad you haven't given up on my stories yet! I feel so much both for Bill and Tom in this, and yes, I think she is really fucked up, at the same time, i don't think Simone ever really meant to hurt her boys, and maybe that is what really makes her fucked up? About the granddad, I guess you will get some of the answers in the next chapter that is up now! And yes, I think it will be much harder for Bill to keep that disntance to the child now, but if that is a good or bad thing, well, that is left to see :) Hugs and thank you so much!
Date: 11/26/13 05:45 pm Title: A little one
Simone is a truly despicable person and a monstrous mother. Tom and Bill should have cut her off long time ago.
Bill's grandpa sounds like a decent person. Why could not he help the boys when they were growing up?
I so am glad that Georg is there for Bill when Bill needs him most. I am still hoping that Bill will change his mind about the baby...
Great chapter. Very heavy emotionally and very touching. Cannot wait for more!
Author's Response: I really think he is, the granddad. And well, I think he did his best, but it's not easy to help all the times, and I guess Simone covered it up pretty well :( And about Bill... well, we will see, I guess the next chapter twisted it around a bit? Once again, thank you so much for all your help!
Date: 11/26/13 09:25 am Title: A little one
Speechless... I can't even breath. I'm seriously crying. This is killing me. It's so deep and dark and wonderful. Poor Bill, poor Georg. Poor baby.
Author's Response: it is pretty dark, I guess. And yes, poor all of them :( But I'm glad you are reading it! And liking it! :D Thanks for your review!
Date: 11/23/13 08:22 am Title: Paris
I'm so happy to hear from you and that you're going to start posting again. I was afraid that you might have decided to give up on TH completely because I know you get discouraged when you don't receive many reviews. As tragic as your stories are I love your writing, even when you have to post without a beta, so I will definitely keep reading this one. Can't wait for more. Will you also be updating 'Just Say No'? I hope so.
Author's Response: Thanks you so much! No, will never give up TH, it was not so much lack of reviews, I can live with that, as the way things here at THF was handle "behinde the sceen", I'm still pretty upset and hurt, but well, I love writing, I love my stories. And yes, Just Say No will be updated, and so will "Daddy's little bunny" :) I'm really glad to have you as my reader! <3
Date: 08/09/13 12:45 pm Title: The hospital
:(
Author's Response: I know, it's really sad :(
Date: 07/23/13 06:18 pm Title: The hospital
I really hope that Bill's grandpa will persuade Bill to keep the baby.
I liked this midwife. She does her job well, but is also obviously a very good person.
Poor George and poor Bill. I hope that their relationships will survive this ordeal. They both deserve to be happy.
Great chapter!
Author's Response: I hope so too, if any one can, I guess it's the granddad. And yes, I think so too, hopfully moste who works with ppl this way are. And yes, I can only agree, they really do. rnThanks for all your help! <3
Date: 07/18/13 09:34 am Title: The hospital
"He doesn't want to be big anymore, doesn't want to be Bill. He wants to be small again, he wishes for someone to take care of him, to tell him what to do, someone who knows what is the best and right. He wants to be taken care of by someone who knows him and who cares about him. He longs for someone safe and adult,"
Author's Response: Yeah. I know. Reading this now is in a way speacial. I hope you will be around to read the rest of this story <3
Date: 07/17/13 10:55 am Title: The hospital
all these emotions
wonderfully written
Author's Response: Thanks! I'm glad you think so! <3
Date: 07/17/13 03:49 am Title: The hospital
I was about to review the previous chapter and saw you'd updated again. Both chapters are so sad. The abuse that Simone facilitated on her sons is disgusting. Normal mothers try to protect their kids from that kind of thing. I hate her with a vengeance. My heart is truly breaking for Georg. I mean, I really feel for Bill too, but in some ways the decision is easier for him because he has made up his mind to get rid of IT, that It is an abomination and he can't have it. But Georg views it as a baby, possibly his baby, and he has to support Bill while the child is killed. But he also loves Bill and understands why this must happen. And they are both so very young to have to go through such a devastating situation. The nurse going over all the details obviously hasn't helped, but it was necessary and made Bill pull his head out of the sand a little and face some of the realities he's been denying. I'm glad this chapter ended with a little hope. I'm not sure what Bill's grandpa can do, really, because there aren't that many options, but he can be there for Bill at least, an adult who truly cares about him...which he needs so badly. Such a hard decision for someone so young to make; so hard for him to know he's causing Georg so much pain. So, I'm hoping that grandad can help somehow. Hoping for another quick update. Love, Helen x
Author's Response: Yes, Simone is very far from a normal mother in this story, still she at some level manage to make Bill feel loved. My heart is with Georg in this story too. I wrote this story for such a long time ago, re-reading it makes me realize how really sad it is. I hope you will be around to read the rest of it, I'm about to start posting on this one again, and your reviews means a lot to me! <3
Date: 07/16/13 02:57 pm Title: The hospital
Hey, don't be too cruel... I'd love to read Bill's granddad giving Bill a huge lesson in the boy's life the it could change his decision, I know he doesn't want the babe, but there's something telling me that he just needs anything strong enough for him to stay on, to reach and feel completely secure!
I do hope that his granddad changes his mind!!!
Girl, you should write a book.
Author's Response: He sure does, doesn't he? And well, who knows? A chapter of this story is actually on it's way, I hope you still are around to read it. And thanks, who knows, maybe I do some day?rn
Date: 07/16/13 12:26 am Title: The last night
My heart is breaking for them all. I honestly don't know what else to say about this anymore. It's such a tragedy. I honestly wished Bill didn't get permission, because I want this child to live so much. Even with the scarring past, fears, doubts...would it be so bad after all? It's definitely in the details that makes it so painful.
Author's Response: It really is, and I understand you, it's really wrong in all the ways it can be wrong, even if I personally can understand Bill's feelings. I'm glad you still reading it, it means a lot to me (and sorry for not reviewing your stories yet, I will, I promise!)
Date: 07/15/13 09:33 pm Title: The last night
I've said it before, but this story always makes me think back on so much of my own life. I worry about being like my dad the same way Bill worries about being like his mom. I feel so bad for little Tom. And I feel terrible for Georg as well. Obviously, I sympathize with Bill as well, but for some reason his suffering just seems so static, like that's just how he is and he's almost just numb to the feeling of hating everything around him now. Tom and Georg, though, they seem more "human" and when they're suffering, your heart breaks for them. I like the contrast.
Author's Response: I'm sad to hear it does, and at the same time glad it does, as I guess it means I wrote it in a way that feels "right". And I do think it's a very common reaction, to worry about becoming that way yourself. I'm so glad you read this, and thank you so much for your review, it means a lot to me!
Date: 07/13/13 02:14 pm Title: The last night
I really hope that Bill will keep the baby. I can see now that he has another fear that prevents him from keeping it. It is potentially as powerful as the fear related to the baby being Tom's. Bill is afraid of becoming a monster parent like his mother. But I do not think he ever could. I just cannot see him putting anyone, least of all his own kid, through what Tom and he went through. Poor boys. Simone is truly despicable.
Great chapter! Cannot wait for more!
Author's Response: I hope so too. I do think it is a fear a lot of victems of abuse feels, as it is the senario that is often describen in media and so on (that the person who commited an awful crime was a victem him/her self). And yeah, poor, poor boys, all of them. Feels sorry for them though it's me who written this. rnThank you once again for all your help and for reading and reviewing!