Wow! What an angst-filled chapter. I'm glad Bill told Tom because his twin was clearly going crazy not knowing. Didn't expect Tom to react violently and hit Bill...but then I understood when it came out about Andrej. Andrej is a heartless dick (love the guy in real life, he is beyond beautiful) and its so sad that Bill tried so hard to please him and thinks so little of himself that he'd basically subvert everything he is to be whatever Andrej wants and give the man his virginity and then still gets rejected. No wonder Tom was so angry. Lovely, lovely for them to cuddle up together and comfort each other, and for Simone to see her boys like that.

Author's Response: Oh! I never thought about it like that, this was written in 2009, and I had no idea who Andrej was by that time, so I piced the name out of the blues. But, oh, yes, it really do fit, doesn't it? Not that he should be a dick, but well, I think you understand how I mean? Thanks for pointing out that to me! Yes, I think Tom reacted so strongly out of fear, fear he wasn't able to handle and took out on his twin this way, it really isn't something he do other wise in this story. I guess they truly are each others biggest comfort. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!

I know I'm reacting more to the "smaller" characters but I think I have a tendency to do that whenever I read something. I love that you include the dog, and that you describe it with such care. It's such a small detail, but I think that the small details are what create character for each person in the story. The fact that the dog is so happy and that Tom is usually with it whenever he is in the story so far makes him seem really devoted to his dog. It shows that he cares for the dog greatly. It just makes him seem incredibly loving even before we get to see how much he loves Bill. So the dog is such a sweet little detail that I'm so grateful that you included. I hope I'm not misinterpreting. Feel free to let me know if I am!

Aside from that, I really hope that Bill will eat the takeout. I am so full from such a delicious meal that it's hard to put myself in Bill's shoes right now lol but I can say that I can sort of relate to the anxiety he seems to feel (I don't want to assume incorrectly) and the way it manifests itself in his eating habits/ ability to eat/ nausea. My anxiety manifests similarly, though I don't want to belittle the feelings he's having by comparing them too closely with my own. He seems to be having a much more nuanced traumatic experience and more consistent and meaningful struggles with food. I can only imagine that what he must feel like is at least one thousand times greater than anything I've ever experienced. I hope that he starts to feel better now that Tom knows and he doesn't have to keep it all in, but you said that this was a dark story so I guess I shouldn't form expectations or hopes in any particular direction. I will just be along for the ride and go wherever the story takes me :). Thank you for the new chapter!

Author's Response: I see that as a good thing, or well, I have a reason to write them ther, to try to create the right feeling in it and I often find small characters like that very usefull, they often tell a lot. And yeah, I really do think Tom cares deeply for his dog, just like he does for his brother. I'm sure there are a lot behind this, behind Bill's behavior (this is the first, rather short, story of two, some of the reasons behind won't show until the next part but I guess you might be able to tell some out from this story too.) And yes, this is a dark story, really dark at times, but I do hope there will be some hope along the way too. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!

I love that you've included Marcus. I don't know why, but it makes ME feel safe as a reader knowing that he's always there.

"He always looked good, but he understood what the man meant." I like that :). Is this a super confident Bill?

You have really captured how nerve-wracking it is to visit a doctor who is going to penetrate you. I can feel Bill's anxiety.

The doctor is kind of horrifying. He sounds like he is having way too much fun delivering this news to Bill.

I feel so overwhelmed for poor Bill :(.

Author's Response: Marcus is nice, and even if he never has any major part in this story, I do think that is the feeling he gave me too while writing this,I'm glad you felt that way here, too.rnNah, not a super confident Bill, not confident at all I think, but in his good moments, then he has sat his mind to it, I do think that is how he thinks. Maybe not as he really do feel it, but as it is a part of who he wants to be in that situation? And yes, the doctor is not nice at all, so completely focused on what he finds farcinating, and not at all about how poor Bill feels about it all. Thank you so much for your review!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! update next soon please!!!!!!!!!!!! is super!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Author's Response: Thanks! Next part later tonight or timorrow :) I'm glad you like it!

I'm short of time, but had to comment. I always love your writing and this promises to be no exception. Poor Bill, lying there in pain in a pool of his own vomit. And Tom must feel so guilty for not being there. Can't wait to find out what happens next.

Author's Response: Yes, it must have been hard on both of them, and guilt, even then you shouldn't feel it, is no good feeling. I'm so glad you are giving this a chance, I'm so sorry for posting it un-betad, but I really can't find anyone to help me, guess it's better to post like this than not at all :)