Date: 10/21/14 04:19 pm Title: Chapter 25
Another incredible chapter to a wonderfully finished fic! This was beautiful, Helen. I absolutely love all the psychology you put in here and what Bill's dealing with in this. Writing their twin tattoos into this was really awesome, too, and doing it basically as wedding bands. Simone and Gordon were great here and so supportive in giving them much needed time together. I felt sorry for Bill, though, thinking that Tom wanted Rachel and giving himself over to the point he physically exhausted his twin and ended up hurting both of them. I was glad Tom could clear that up and I was so happy that Simone could find it in her to denounce her abusive brother. The ending was brilliant, with them all curled together and this whole thing just worked out so perfectly. I could probably give this a much better review, sweetie, but I have been reading this thing non-stop for the past few hours, and I must say, it's actually been really inspiring for me. Brilliant job in wrapping it up and leaving room just in case there's a third installment! Love you!
Date: 10/21/14 03:50 pm Title: Chapter 24
I absolutely loved this chapter! It was sweet and hot and angst-filled all at once. I appreciated how it wasn't just the two of them diving in without Tom's argument at first that Bill was using him as Max's replacement and then Bill clearing it up and coming out of the binds. The way Tom showered him with love through the whole experience and made sure he wasn't hurting him, was really awesome. I felt so sorry for them both when Ralph came into Bill's head and it was really sweet and emotional when they stopped and Tom took the time to hold his twin, waiting until Bill was ready. And you say you're never writing sex again after reading my stuff? Woman, as if! I don't think I could do this, not the way you do. This whole thing is just amazing. Thank you for another fabulous chapter and now I'm off to read the next!! Oh, I've been reading so much today, I know that my reviews may not be doing these justice, but my head's a bit fuzzy and my visions a bit on the blurry side.
Date: 10/21/14 03:21 pm Title: Chapter 23
Don't burn the pasta, Tom is pretty much all I have to say. Hell, the pasta would be fucked if it were me. Yes, I know I said I was going to stop for the day, but I couldn't resist clicking on yet another chapter. You got my mind in the gutter, Helen. But, at the same time I wonder now if Bill is ready emotionally for this or if he's doing it strictly for Tom. What an awesome way to start their evening, too, by cooking for his twin. I loved how you had him sort of blank out in thinking everything over while he cooked and how detailed you were in all the preparation. I doubt I'm not going to finish reading and reviewing this now. Great job in keeping me focused for once in my life! Love you!
Date: 10/21/14 03:11 pm Title: Chapter 22
This chapter was beautiful. I am a little worried whether Tom actually wakes up the next day before that nurse comes in. Helen, your descriptions are so amazing from everything to how your characters appear to the raw emotion in your story. I know Bill was trying to hold on and not let himself slip emotionally, but I nearly cried when Tom told him he couldn't stay with him at first. I'm so glad they got their relationship cleared up and that Tom was honest with Bill about what he said while he was unconscious. I'll probably finish reading this tomorrow when I have time since I have a few things to do and I've read four or five chapters today. I couldn't tear my eyes away after everything. You know what I'm talking about. I think I needed this. Your story to put me into another world for a while. It's simply awesome and I can't wait to read more from you, my sweet, lovely Helen!
Date: 10/21/14 02:48 pm Title: Chapter 21
I absolutely loved Gordon in this chapter. He has got to be the most supportive parent on earth. I loved the way you wrote his and Tom's moment in the bathroom, and how you had him basically save the day after what he'd discovered they'd been doing. He's so funny and fatherly at the same time, warning Tom to not tease him after he suggested Bill piss himself to cover up their love stain. This was an all around great chapter and I can't wait to find out what happens next. Oh, and Tom trying to fake pass the buck on the Gs has me wondering how all this will affect him emotionally in chapters to come since he's still blaming himself for what his twin has gone through. And the last part about Gordon not needing to know all the details was pretty hilarious. I also wonder how Bill is going to do with everything emotionally when he gets out of the hospital. I'm off to read the next chapter and find out!
Date: 10/21/14 02:33 pm Title: Chapter 20
Okay, now I absolutely have to finish reading this. How do you make a sexual situation from being in a coma hot? Oh, that's right, your name must be Helen!! Just wow! I love all the conflict you put Tom through when writing this. I definitely doubt he's going to be able to keep his hands off of baby brother now. I never thought I could cross over into the world of actual twincest before you, and now, well, I'm thinking very seriously about writing about it. Again, I don't know if these reviews are really doing your chapters justice, but I'm enjoying reading the rest of this. Very awesome. Please keep writing!
Date: 10/21/14 02:13 pm Title: Chapter 19
I finally got a chance to get back to this and let me say, this was a really good chapter. I absolutely love the twin connection you write them having here. It was an intense read, but it was so, so good. That dream at the first of it was really scary in a way, but I loved it from beginning to end. I hope Bill comes around soon, though, because you can feel all the stress Tom's having with the way you wrote this chapter. I wonder how Bill will feel about the promises Tom made in prayer of them not being together. I love how you're keeping Bill there because of his brother. This story is really good and I'm so glad you finished it. I do hope my reviews give it at least some justice. Now, if I have no more interruptions today, maybe I can get some more reading done!
Date: 07/15/14 02:34 am Title: Chapter 25
Wonderful. This was absolutely great, I loved this ending. You did a great job of wrapping things up and giving us the happiest ending you could, while keeping it realistic. Can't wait to see what's next.
Author's Response: Thank you again for reading to the end. I needed to wrap the story up with hope for the future, but obviously the twins, and Bill in particular, will have a lot of emotional baggage still to cope with so it couldn't be the perfect, happy ever after ending. Many thanks for reviewing, and although I'm not actually planning a sequel at present I have thought of writing at least a one-off to see how the twins are getting on. And I also have a few other ideas for new stories floating around in my head. Thanks again, hugs Helen x
Date: 07/15/14 02:15 am Title: Chapter 24
Wow, that was amazing! So hot and sexy and yet tender and sweet as well.
Author's Response: Thank you. I'm glad you came back to read the last couple of chapters.
Date: 06/05/14 09:06 am Title: Chapter 18
Another compelling chapter, sweetie. I read this a couple of weeks ago and am just getting around to leaving a review. I know, I'm terrible and highly unfocused most of the time. The cliff here was amazing and I'm truly worried about Bill. I can't believe Max actually shot him!! At least he has the identical match of a blood type to help with whatever is going on with him and I can't wait to get a chance to read more in between my own writing, which seems to lure me away from reading way too often. I will make sure I leave a review for every chapter of this. You are an awesome writer and I hope to see more out of you in the near future! Love you!
Date: 05/26/14 10:44 am Title: Chapter 17
Wow, just wow! And I thought I had a talent for the intense. Every bit of this chapter was so good, from the beginning when Gordon was fretting over Simone's health and supressing his own feelings and Bill trying to play nice with his kidnapper and Max continuously tricking him and testing him to see if he was being true or not. I felt so bad for him when he was being molested, but he did get a good one in on Max,didn't he? I was so tense reading that and the struggle between him and Bill until the gunshot fired. I just hope I have time to read another chapter today. God, I'm so proud of you for finishing this thing up, Helen. You've done an amazing job from what I've read so far. Oh, and I feel like Chas really wasted some time in his little jealousy over his sister and Tom and some of this could've been prevented. What an asshole! Anyhow, I need to go and see what happens next. I need to know if Bill actually got shot or not. Again, so proud of you and your awesome talents. Love you to pieces!
Date: 05/25/14 01:20 am Title: Chapter 25
Oh, what a lovely ending!! It reminded me of Gabrielle Aime's Extraneous a little bit. They're together, they love each other, but there are some imperfections. It's not a one hundred percent "happily ever after." Bill will have to deal with being a victim of rape and kidnapping and mental and emotional abuse. Tom has to deal with Bill's damage and the damage caused to him from all the ordeals. Bill has panic attacks and nightmares and doubts. Tom gets exhausted trying to take care of Bill. That kind of realism is beautiful! Knowing the story couldn't have ended with a blissful perfection comes from wisdom and understanding how life really works. knowing to put the realism into a fictional story comes from talent. The audience knows they love one another, but their happily ever after is tinged, and they'll have to work on their relationship. Just like all long-term, serious relationships - it takes monitoring, and dedication, and determination to stick through the bad times. Tom WILL look at girls. He's a heterosexual, he won't ever be able to NOT be a heterosexual. It's part of him. What's going to happen when he's 30, 35, 40, and occasionally longs to touch a woman's body? Maybe he'll ignore the urges, but the urges will be there. And even if he can look, admire, kind of miss the boobage, and be perfectly happy with Bill, Bill is going to see the admiring glances, like he did at the party. Love how he went all out to sex Tom up to the point of exhaustion! It was actually a good way to get him mentally and physically and emotionally used to sex, so that it wouldn't be a huge, formidable mountain to climb. But poor Tom, dick rubbed raw, just about crying to be left alone. At least Bill accepted "No means No" pretty easily. Once they communicate, they do alright. (so many people don't realize it's the magic answer to many problems). Oh, and the little marriage...their willingness to be out like that, to be so confident in their relationship, was beautiful. And to be so confident, and ballsy, even if it was just in their little circle, was a nice touch to show their desire for honesty and commitment. I'm sorry to see the story end, because I'll really miss your talented writing. I do hope you're working on something new, something that will bring you a lot of pleasure. Thank you for sticking with this, and being loyal to your audience. So many talented writers bail on us!! Your dedication, and your attention to detail, and the care you took in things such as grammar and spelling (soooo pitifully rare!) actually mean a lot, and show what a true talent you have, on all levels. Hope to see a new one soon, Helen! Love and big wet kisses!
Author's Response: Thank you as always for your wonderful review, and simply for sticking with this story even though I took so long between chapters. And yeah, the twins will have their happily ever after but not everything will be plain sailing. How could it be after what Bill's been through; those kind of experiences stay with you for the rest of your life and will kick up shit every now and then even years after the event. I had to finish the story. There have been so many stories on THF that I started to enjoy and that didn't get finished and that's really frustrating. Even though I didn't get many reviews for the last few chapters I couldn't ditch it and leave those lovely, loyal readers (like you) in the lurch. It feels strange that its over after so long, but a bit of a relief too. And yes, I do have a few ideas for something new but at the moment they're just fleeting so I need time to play around and see what works. I've had a request for a story where one of the twins is disabled in some way and the other has to care for him. That's also sparked a thread or two, so we'll see where that goes. So, don't expect anything immediately, but 'watch this space' as they say. Thanks for staying with me. Thanks for the love and kisses, and right back at you. Big hugs, Helen x
Date: 05/24/14 04:04 pm Title: Chapter 1
ok thanks
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i hate how there are not many fcs going on right now that im interested in so im glad that i got to read these and cant wait for more of your stories
Author's Response: Thank you so much. I know what you mean with the lack of good stories; hopefully, when (if) the band releases an album this year there will be more interest in the site. Have you tried Captivation by Rina76 and anything by Mizu. They are both really good writers and story tellers. I have a few ideas for new stories so we'll have to see where they take me. Thank you again for sticking with me. Love and hugs, Helen x
Date: 05/23/14 09:23 pm Title: Chapter 25
And we come to the end. And all I can say is...thank you! Wow, two years! I didn't realize I had been reading this story for that long. Thank you for sticking it out till the end!
Author's Response: The two years included Keeping Up Appearances as well as this one, but I've lived in this version of the TH world for a long time now. It feels weird to have it done, and there may be another sequel or some one shots in the future so we can check in on how the twins are doing. But for now I'm looking forward to working on somthing else. Thank you for being a loyal reader and for leaving me so many encouraging reviews. Wishing you all the best, love, Helen x
Date: 05/22/14 09:37 pm Title: Chapter 25
I loved these stories so much. Im going to miss them.
Thank you for these.
Can you maybe do a fanfic of Bill or Tom either in a wheelchair or with a mental disability and the other twin takes care of him
Author's Response: Thank you for being such a loyal reader and always taking time to review. I've been giving your story request some thought and I do have a couple of ideas so maybe I'll write something along those lines in the future. Thanks for the suggestion. Wishing you all the best, Love, Helen x
Date: 04/29/14 07:05 pm Title: Chapter 24
Such a beautiful chapter! Your twins have such a deep connection, and the absolute NEED they have to physically connect is so strong, and you express that huge need so well. I also love how the entire story (or both of them, really), is about the twins learning about that need for a physical connection, and then having it delayed, interrupted, and changed by two outsiders who came between them. However, the interlopers didn't damage that need, or their ability to make the connection. Hampered, yes. Complicated it? Definitely. But your twins weren't going to be kept apart, physically or emotionally or psychically, by blackmail, rape, manipulation, kidnapping, or near-death. The interlopers would never be more than an interruption, a blip, a complication, on their path to be completely together. I've loved your stories of these twins, and how it all really boils down to the fact that they belong together so completely that nothing and no one will keep them apart for long. Their love and determination is at a near-cellular level - driving them to commit to one another no matter what, even fighting their own insecurities and doubts to be together. You expressed an absolute, almost subconscious, or unconscious, or molecular NEED between them, and nothing you threw at them was going to damage that. For all the drama, the story was all about that incredible love/twin-connection/soulmate relationship they have. Lovely! Thank you so much for staying dedicated to your readers, to your imagination, to your creative talent! Beautiful job!
Author's Response: Bad Helen! Sorry I've taken so long to respond to your review; I've been really slow at that lately. I was a bit worried this chapter dragged everything out too much. I mean, it was a long chapter that only covered one scene and you manage to move your stories on from one scene to another so effortlessly while I seem to get bogged down in thoughts and feelings and internal conflict. But you always manage to see so much in my writing and make me feel better about it. Coming from an awesome writer like you the compliments mean so much to me. Thank you for sticking with me. Hugs, Helen x
Date: 04/26/14 07:24 pm Title: Chapter 16
You got into Max's slimey head so well in this chapter. The way you make him think that by being good and nice and taking care of Bill will sway the singer's opinion and slowly cause him to at least fall in like with him, lol. And poor Bill. He's trying to stay so strong and optimistic and be the martyr. I wonder if he's really going to just let Max ride him until Max falls asleep. Will he be convincing enough without seeming too eager when and if they get started. I just wonder how bad all of this will further damage him and his relationship with Tom later on. I love, also how you have him prioritizing and nit picking about clothes, lol. I had to laugh when you made the bit about his man-parts flopping about. God, I guess his mind does need a bit of a distraction, though. I do hope they catch up with Max before anything bad happens and I definitely don't want to see him turn the gun on Bill. I can't wait until I get a chance to read the next chapter. Oh, and Tom with Rachel. I love how much detail you put into her tough, yet sultry kind of character. Anyhow, I can imagine after not having Bill with him and all the stress piling up in his heart, it must be very hard for him to just ignore the raving beauty in front of him. I mean, he was straight for all those years before his feelings over his twin finally tore through. But, I don't fault him for having a tiny bit of lust for her at the moment. It's not like he's going to cheat on Bill. I just really love Tom's character and I wish Chas wasn't such a dick to him, having him wondering if he's still on their side. But, I can see his point to. That's his twin, his lover. And I'm sure a hot and sexy fox like Tom Kaulitz would be make one feel a bit insecure. Yes, I just said hot and sexy fox, lol! Okay, I doubt this review did this chapter much justice, but I do love it. I just know there's impending danger ahead and I hope Max doesn't get the chance to rape or hurt Bill before his brother or the others can get to him. Really on the edge of my seat over here. I may HAVE to go and read the next one. Love you and thanks for being such an awesome writer!
Author's Response: Sorry it's taken me so long to get around to responding to your review; I'm really bad at that lately. Glad you enjoyed the chapter and didn't hate on Tom for being attracted to Rachel. It's a stressful situation that has brought them together, and she's the soft side of tough and understands Tom's emotions whereas with the guys Tom feels he can't show any weakness. Add to that the fact she's a beautiful woman and he's not had much sex lately with Bill recovering from being raped...no excuse but stress can affect people perspectives. As for Chas...you'll need to read ahead a bit to find out how he handles Tom apparently hitting on his sister. Thanks for taking time out of your busy life to read and review. Hugs, Helen x
Date: 04/16/14 09:21 am Title: Chapter 15
Oh, god, Helen. Amazing and intense read. Max scares the hell out of me. The way you write the psychotic nature of him. One minute being so kind and the next sending threats Bill's way of killing him, burying him in the fucking woods or letting him bleed out in the bathtub and sending Tom the pictures. I was nearly in tears. But, Bill's got some kind of strength through all that's happened. Being bound and naked and having to give over to his own humanity in such a humiliating position while he takes in, literally absorbs all the posibilities around him of escape, has to be a really difficult thing. And, it happens in so many cases which makes the all the more realistic and vivid. I can feel the fear of not knowing what's going to happen to him and the panic in the idea of being raped by someone he was supposed to be able to trust. I love the way you wrote his inner conflict on wanting to continue to be defiant, but understanding Max's insanity to switch his personality, he knows he has to play nice, at least until he can find an out. Bravo for another great chapter and I can't wait until I get time to read more. Stupid fucking reality has just got to cut into my fanfiction time, doesn't it? But, I will get caught up on this. I love this story. You should change the names and a few themes and write a book, lol. Love you!!
Author's Response: Its always such fun writing the bad guys, even when they give me the creeps never mind creeping out the readers. I'm glad Bill's thoughts and emotions came across to you. Thank you again for another amazing review. I'm so grateful for the (few) people who've stuck with this story and who take time out of their busy lives to read and review. Thank you, my dear friend, for your lovely in depth comments. Love you, Helen x
Date: 04/14/14 02:06 am Title: Chapter 24
Egads, did you know that you're at nearly 200,000 words with this baby?! Niiice. Of course you already know that I love this chapter. The way you show their turmoil is beautiful. Bill's ptsd was a perfect touch - the way he actually saw himself in that place and time and couldn't touch base with reality for a few minutes was just how ptsd works. And the way you acknowledge the fact that Tom wouldn't have gone unscathed from the trauma! I'm so glad he's not just scarred because of what his twin went through, but has actually sustained some damage himself. The way he went off on Bill, thinking that his twin wanted to reenact the rape was so painful, but I'm glad Bill didn't freak out right back at him, and got him to listen, and also that Bill understood what Tom was thinking. Tom's just so sweet and simple, with that romantic dinner, and having no expectations of his twin. That soothing, sweet energy would be very healing to be around. This has been a wonderful story, I'm sad to see it end (however, all those horrific cliffhangers? I think my heart couldn't take much more of that). I hope to see something else from you soon! I've loved your stories, and had a lot of fun reviewing them. I could write a lot more if my damned arms worked better (the new therapy made them worse!). I read your most recent review of KE and I'll definitely respond soon. Just really, really need to start on the next chapter (no, I haven't even started yet! I'm so far behind! but I was kind of blah about it for a few days. I really want to jump ahead to some fun scenes I've got in my head, but the story has to get there first, dammit). Anyway, looking forward to the last chapter of this one! see you there!
Author's Response: Thank you for sticking with me despite the long gaps between postings. I can't believe I've written that many words, but then again I always use a hundred words when two would probably do. I'm glad you picked up on all the things I hoped to show in this chapter. I was hoping Tom's suffering would show that it's not only the victim that carries scars from the ordeal. I have made a start on the next chapter but as its the Easter break we've been making the most of the lovely weather and I've not been spending much time indoors. Next week everything will be back to normal and hopefully I'll have some 'me' time to crack on and do some writing. Sorry your arms are still acting up, and your latest therapy made them even worse. Is it typing on the keyboard or longhand writing that makes them hurt the worst? Anyway, thanks again for reading and reviewing and I'll see you again for your next chapter, and hopefully not too long until mine is done too. Take care. Love and hugs, Helen x