Please continue this its so good OMG cxx

Author's Response: Thank you for your review. I am working on the next chapter but suffering from writer's block at the moment so its taking a while and I'm not sure how long until it gets posted. Thanks again for reading and taking the time to let me know what you think. Hugs, Helen x

Frustrated I-want-to-strangle-him Tom made me laugh so much! I love how you managed to add humour into such a dark chapter. I hate Max, but I really hope he does try to get both twins because then Tom will know and get revenge

This chapter made me cry, and that's just mean of you! And the end was a cliff hanger! But I still loved every word :)

Gaaaawd, he's so freaking bipolar now. Poor Bill, and what's up with Tom not anwering, id thing he would pounce on Bill dropping the wall. Fantastic chapter. I look forward to the next

please update soon
looking forward to more

Author's Response: So happy you're still reading. Many thanks for the review, will really try and update sooner next time. Hugs, Helen x

Are you kidding? This was a great chapter!! Jesus, you really know how to build up the friggin tension. If this guy rapes Bill, I will lose my ever loving mind! I keep wanting to give Bill advice...lol...Like "start acting like you're having a breakdown, you hate yourself, start crying and saying you're dirty." If he told Max not to touch him because he hated himself so much, the psych part of Max might be drawn out! If Bill pretened to completely fall apart with self-loathing, Max might feel more tempted to help his little Billy, and his horniness would die down for a little bit and get him off balance! And I was thinking Bill should shit, piss, and vomit all over himself, then cry and say "look how disgusting I am, I hate myself" kinds of statements! Yes, I could sooo help! Oh..hope you didn't have any of that planned, doesn't it suck when reviewees do that? LOL...my bad. Love the pace of the chapter, its intensity, the thread of disgustingness running through it, with the smells - very nicely described, very visceral - the physical pain of bill's hands and feet and throat from that wonderfully described scream. Then Max and his repugnant boner and frank statements of what he wants to do to Bill. Just...ew. You've got a fantastically gross villain here,Helen! I want to see Bill come out of this relatively unscathed and feeling strong, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the big icky "R" doesn't happen. Where is Tom!!! Hope your next chapter comes easier for you - your writing has a wonderful flow, and as a reader, I can tell you that your excellent style is definitely bringing out strong, emotional reactions from your audience! Brava!

Author's Response: I love your review, it makes all the time I spent poring over this chapter, working and reworking it, totally worthwhile. And you also made me think about Bill's tactics with Max in a different way. I think, though, that at the moment Bill is all about proving to himself how strong he can be. I think he's actually so close to the edge of breaking down all the time he's terrifed that if he even pretends to be as weak as he was after what happened with Ralph he'll tumble into the abyss again and not be able to climb back out. So, I don't think he'll be showing Max that side of himself any time soon, not on purpose anyway. Not sure quite how he'll deal if things really start to get serious and Max makes his move. Not sure if he'll crumble, fight back or if he'll really be able to just take it and make as if its no big deal, like he thinks he will. But for now, he's going to play Max's game so he doesn't set Max off and get shot. Actually, Max is just as confused as Bill, I think. He's loving feeling in charge and powerful after being such a nobody for most of his life, but he's really bitten off more than he can chew by kidnapping Bill which is why he's having trouble deciding whether he's a good guy or a bad guy. Bad Max gets Bill to do what he wants through fear, but what Max really wants is for Bill to reciprocate his love and I think he knows he can't scare someone into having those kind of feelings. I had written some of the next chapter but I've had a whole revelation today while I was out walking and I know why Tom's not answering. Well, I think I do. I wish I knew exactly how the rest of the story will play out because I have a great last couple of chapters in mind, but think its going to be a long old road getting there. Anyway, I've read your next chapter and it was amazing as always. I'll write a review tomorrow when I've had my customary chew-it-over time. Thanks again for reviewing and have a great holiday. Hugs, Helen x

Just a note on an inconsistency I noticed. In this chapter you stated that Simone's abuse started at 11, but in previous chapters you said she was 12.

Author's Response: Hi there. Thanks for pointing that out, I find it hard sometimes to be consistent when posting a story chapter by chapter. When writing a book you go back and edit the shit out of it before it gets published, but as this is written one chapter at a time and I don't plan stuff out all that much in advance, plus I don't always have time to go back and re-read the previous chapters, these little hiccups get in every now and then. I'll go back and edit it. Hope you're enjoying it anyway, mistakes and all. Hugs, Helen x

Arggghhhh guuuuh....eerrrrr....

Wow..amaztastic...I might come up with something more coherent later, when its not 2am...but regardless, just know this was a great chapter and I can't wait to see more

Thank you for the update. I was very happy to receive the notice. Yet another wonderfully written chapter full of suspense and drama and my favorite thing... Twinternet, I absolutely love that:D

Author's Response: Thank you for reading and for your lovely review. Twinternet, the term just popped into my head and seemed to fit their psychic link so perfectly. Thanks again, and I'll try not to take so long with the next chapter, but no promises. Love, Helen x

Holy cow, this was a monster of a chapter! I love the long ones, they really let a reader swim in the deep end for a nice long time. And this one has one hell of a deep end, Jesus Christ. I'm torn between wanting to bitch-slap Bill for blocking out his brother, and praising him for deciding to go through what he has to and get out of there alive on his own. Wait... bitch-slapping won out. Damn him for doing that! He should know that blocking Tom would hurt him! And endanger Bill all the more - he needs all the help he can get! Love all the details in this one - vomit, snot, smells - very visceral, very gross, very real. And how Tom has a few split seconds to react to the hot lady - even in dire times, our bodies have minds of their own. Can't fight billions of years of evolution! As for Bill's determination to do what he has to do - it actually seems to be a healthier reaction than feeling like a victim. Let the guy rape him? Harsh, but with a no-wimps-allowed attitude that would allow him to survive and shake off some of the damage, he'd be more whole and better off, not crushed and damaged like he had been with the first rape. Which would let him turn to Tom for healing (even if Tom didn't know IT had happened), instead of away from him, like he had done for so long. The Max character (and I realized while reading it that I used the same name a couple chapters back - I usually grab a nearby magazine when I need an insta-name - didn't steal it, I swear - but Max is a great name for a bad guy!) you've painted a picture of a seriously demented fellow there, Helen! Nicely twisted, and it's quite obvious that his plans would have to include killing Bill when he's done with him. At least, that's what it seems - get what he so desperately wants, then realizing that the reality of the situation is that Bill could never want him back, and knowing he'd never be able to let Bill go. He'd get tired of keeping him chained to a wall in the dungeon, and would have to let him starve or just kill him and bury him in the forest. I am anxiously dreading and awaiting the next chapter! I know you're not going to rescue poor Bill any time soon, and it's killing me! Lovely (horrible, awful, traumatizing!) chapter and I can't wait for more so I hope you're working on it! You've got such an excellent writing style, you really weave all this pain and horror into a beautiful spider web. And I'm the unwitting fly......Dang it!

Author's Response: I can't beleive you got all that out of this chapter; I'm not sure I even had all that in mind when I wrote it, but you have this knack of teasing out hidden meanings which are great for sparking further ideas. I think you're quite right that Max has maybe not thought his plan through. Well, he did come up with it in the blink of an eye and really didn't have much prep time. I don't think he considered beyond getting his grubby hands on Bill and escaping the law. I am finding it hard to maintain the strong side of Bill throughout this. It was a new determination that had him agreeing to keep that appointment with Max and bring the shit to justice, but he never could have imagined he'd get abducted, not with a team of cops on surveillance and his bodyguard outside the office. So he's struggling now between being strong, protecting Tom by keeping him out of a dangerous situation and getting himself out of the mess by allowing Max to have his wicked way with him; guilt that he's to blame for walking into another trap; and utter despair that he can't communicate with Tom during this terrifying ordeal. Plus his emotions are all over the place anyway, and he hasn't taken his meds. Might even be that the Ativan Max doped him with is keeping a lid on his reactions to the situation making him feel braver than he really is. The tears are more for missing Tom, I think, even than for fear at what Max might do to him. Poor Tom, really not knowing what is going on. Hopes raised and dashed thinking they'd tracked Max down and were on the verge of rescuing Bill, and then to find it was a false alarm and the situation was even more dire because the tracker had been ditched. And his reaction to Rachel, well, I know this story is pretty farfetched anyway, but I think it would be unrealistic that a confirmed heterosexual like Tom could instantly turn off that switch. No matter how much he loves his twin and no matter how long he's wanted him, Tom's only ever had sex with women before he and Bill got it together, and its not even as if they've done it that often. I have future ideas in that direction, Tom maybe slipping back into old ways...maybe another sequel. Oh, yeah, Max is a great name for a pervert. I'm pretty good at thinking up name combinations (even if I say so, myself) but if I have trouble I often look down the list of credits for TV shows or films and mix and match first names for one person with a last name from someone else. Not sure when the next chapter will get written although I've made a start on it. Hopefully a bit sooner than this last one. Thanks as always for reading, and for writing such an amazing review. I'm looking forward to another chapter from you this weekend (where do you find the time to post so frequently? But I'm glad you do). Love and hugs, Helen x