Date: 07/23/12 03:46 pm Title: Chapter 5
Max is so disgustingggggg!
He'd better not try anything with Bill. And I get that Bill is a bit screwed up, but he needs to realize that he IS cheating on Tom and that he's letting Max control his life. I thought he was going to realize it when he thought "not without Max's permission" then he didn't and I was like "awww :("
But I seriously love this story so pllleeeaassseee update soon! (:
10/10
*****
Author's Response: Thank you so much for your awesome review. And I hate Max too. He's such a slimeball, preying on vulnerable people. The thing with Bill is that what happened with Ralph has seriously messed with his sense of self worth and he's not sure what's right and wrong any more. Like an abused child he has trouble deciding what are good and bad touches. And yet I guess he has this underlying sensation that not everything is as it should be. He's had to trust someone with this dreadful thing that happened to him and Max has promised to 'cure' him so he can have a sexual relationship with his 'boyfriend' as long as he obeys the rules. And Bill is so desperate to make things right with Tom, he'll put up with anything to make it happen. I will be updating, but it might take a while because I only just started on the next chapter. Thanks again for reading and writing me such lovely reviews. Hugs, Helen x
Date: 07/22/12 10:27 pm Title: Chapter 5
I know I read he last chapter, and I thought I reviewed it. I rarely read something without reviewing, but it wasn't there when I checked to see if you responded...curious.
I greatly enjoyed this chapter, and I find it incredibly worthwhile to continue it.
Simnme was a sneaky sneaky in this chapter, bringing Bill his coffee when Tom told her he was doing it so she could go get ready. And that was an awesome save by Tom with the surprise thing, and omg Tom pouting and Bill's puppy eyes *drools* Didn't they come visit the boys for her birthday or something? They could arrange a surprise party if that's the case. Or if not, they could arrange a hot air balloon ride, or a ski trip up in the moutains, I've heard there is almost always snow up there, so it'd be a real trip to see snow in its typical off season when you were just in hundred degree weather.
After reading the last chapter and knowing Max is 'tweaking' Bill's meds to lower his inhibitions, I'm thinking the high dose of anti depressants is bad for Bill, other than just that reason, especially if he takes them with painkillers. For some reason I think mixing the two causes some pretty nasty side effects, but I could be mistaken. Also, you can definitely tell the hypnosis Max is doing is working. Tom is right, therapy is supposed to help you make your own decisions and take back control of your own life, not force you to hold back when you feel ready to move forward. Max is a bad bad conniving man. Its horrible that he preys on victimized people who came to him for help. I hope he gets arrestedand loses his license, or shot, before this is over.
Fantastic chapter. I loved it and can't wait for more
Author's Response: I'm so very happy you loved the chapter. I really wasn't sure about posting it because I didn't know whether it was any good, even though it took me forever to write. I've just not had much of a writing head on lately and almost thought of giving up on this sequel, but you've made my day with your lovely review. As for Simone's surprise, I'll maybe have to do some research about places to go around LA. Being from the far corner of England and never having visited the States I have no idea what LA is like,so any place I mention in this story is pure fantasy or derived from film and TV. And, yes, Max is a very, very bad man. He's using some of the techniques that are supposed to help his clients to play on their subconscious for his own perverted reasons. Let's hope he gets what's coming to him, and I don't mean our lovely Bill all naked and compliant. As far as I know most painkillers are okay to take with Prozac. I have a daughter who's been on meds for a couple of years and she also has back pain and certainly took them and prescribed analgesics together. She wasn't supposed to have alcohol as well though. Anyway, enough chat. Thanks again for reading and not giving up on the story and especially for taking the time to review. Love and hugs, Helen.
Date: 07/06/12 10:29 pm Title: Chapter 4
Helen,although I am offline right now, I am taking whatever time I can to read your chapters whenever I can and I must say that this is one of your best. At best I can give you a review each week maybe every two weeks as I don't have much time on the computer.
This my dear is a masterpiece if I've ever read on in TH fiction. Poor Tom fretting so hard over Bill's therapy sessions was breaking my heart through and through. And the fact that he's hired Lisa is brilliant. I will write more on this subject either in an email or when I'm back online because this is borrowed internet and time. Love you and your work soooo much.
Will write more on this as promised and I have also emailed you a few times and will again soon. Love you and incredible stuff as always. Wish I had time to detail this more!!!
Author's Response: Hi, sweetie, I'm responding here straight away in case you're not receiving my emails. I've written back both times you've written to me but not sure if you received the emails. I started a new thread last time and copied my previous email into it. Just wanted to let you know again how happy I am to hear from you. I know you don't have much computer time right now, but I have tried keeping in touch over the past few weeks and have written you every few days. I'm not giving up on our friendship, honey, and I'm really am ecstatic to hear from you. Glad you enjoyed this chapter, too. This sequel is proving so hard to write because I'm not sure I'm in the right headspace at the moment, but I won't be abandoning it. Take care, sweetie and I'll keep writing and hope to hear from you every now and then. Love and hugs, Helen X
Date: 07/03/12 09:34 am Title: Chapter 1
I knew it! I knew Max was a scumbag! Just....ick.... I wonder how long it will be before he figures out the real identity of Bill's "boyfriend". Cue the drama!
Author's Response: Let's hope the 'scumbag' never finds out that Bill's twin and his boyfriend are one and the same. But what will happen when Tom discovers what Max has planned for his baby brother? He's already helped kill one raping bastard; let's hope he doesn't decide to make it two. Thanks a million for reading and taking time out to review. Hugs, Helen.
Date: 07/01/12 04:02 pm Title: Chapter 4
I fully understand that Tom felt the need to ask Bill if he still loves Tom, and it was so lovely when Bill replied with a kiss. Still Bill is uncertain, and who can blame him. Just judging from what he went through, he must be an emotional wreck (which he is). I love it that Tom can't stop being big brother, and feel the need to make Bill stop being stubborn! I'm pretty weak for twc with remaining brotherly feelings. :D
But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO that therapist, I could kill him! He is a horrible, horrible horrible ... BLERGH. You've created interesting side-characters with the PI and the therapist. But... BLERGH. You are not going to have these twins, pervert. I hope.
Author's Response: Yes, Bill is very confused. He's actually feeling better about himself as a whole, still blaming himself a lot for what happened but trying to get past it, and that's as much for Tom as for him because he feels he needs to reward Tom's love and loyalty. He's also petrified he'll drive Tom away if things don't improve soon and, as much as he wants to be selfless and let Tom go if that's what's best for his twin, he's too needy right now to do that. Tom in return blames himself for not getting there to save Bill in time, plus he feels he's being selfish by wanting sex when he thinks Bill isn't ready for it but, because they're not being physical, he has doubts that Bill still cares for him as more than a brother. When Bill says he wants Tom it gets Tom's hopes up, and then to hear that Max - who Tom instinctively distrusts - has put a ban on Bill expressing his feelings sexually is about the last straw. Bill really does want to have sex with his twin, to prove his love in a physical way and because...well, 3 months without and he's horny too, plus he loves Tom so much and for so long it's killing him not to be able to be close to his twin in that way. He trusts Max because the therapist has made him believe that everything that goes on in their sessions is towards the ultimate goal of mending the physical relationship with his 'boyfriend' and that's what Bill wants more than anything. But I think deep down Bill also knows things aren't right and that's why he feels so bad after each session. Plus, since their twin bond got back on track, he hates keeping secrets from Tom. Thanks for your great review and I'm glad you're enjoying the story even though Max creeps you out. Sorry I haven't had time to read the last couple of chapters of Rolling the Dice but I've had birthdays and kids moving out etc. over the weekend so it's been kind of hectic here. Hope to catch up over the next day or so. Hugs, Helen.
Date: 06/30/12 06:45 pm Title: Chapter 1
YAY SEQUEL!
Author's Response: So happy that you're happy! Hope you enjpy it.
Date: 06/29/12 08:16 pm Title: Chapter 4
OMG that sicko really doesn't know who Tom is XD I wish he tries it lol But then again not Tom may really end up in jail lol
Author's Response: I don't think Tom will give jail time a second thought if he finds out what that sicko's planning for his twin. Tom in full must-protect-Billi mode. A sight to be seen I'm sure. Thanks so much for reading and reviewing. Glad you're enjoying it. Hugs, Helen.
Date: 06/29/12 04:02 pm Title: Chapter 4
Oh my god he is disgusting.
Author's Response: Yeah, he's disgusting all right. Pity there really are shits like him out there. Kind of sad that my weird brain can conjure up such twisted characters. Thanks for taking the time to review, sweetie. Big hugs to you. Love Helen x
Date: 06/28/12 12:33 pm Title: Chapter 4
Ew that therapist is fucking disgusting like...I literally wanted to throw up when I rea that. |:
If tom doesn't find out before max does anything, beware of an outraged reviewer xD
10/10
*****
Author's Response: Thank you for your great review. I think I have something of a knack for writing creepy guys (and gals...because Melissa was kind of fun to write too) but, yeah, I think Max is gross. Sorry reading about him made you feel sick...but also happy that I wrote him well enough that you felt that way. He's in a position of trust and power over vulnerable people and he's using that for his own satisafaction. I'm with you. Let's hope Tom discovers what's going on before Max gets what he wants. After all, I wouldn't want to to upset my reviewers too much. LOL!!! Thanks so much for reading and reviewing. Love, Helen
Date: 06/24/12 07:38 pm Title: Chapter 3
This story is brilliant, I just finished reading Keeping Up Appearances and I loved how many twists were in the plot. And I'm not hating Simone, you've made her into such a well developed quirky character and I can't wait to see what happens next. Please keep writing!!!
Author's Response: Thank you so much for such a wonderful review. I'm really happy that you enjoyed KUA and that you're reading this sequel. This was meant to be just 2-3 chapters to tie up issues over the pendrive, but having inserted the dream sequence as an extra chapter and starting to play up concerns around Max the therapist, it's promising to be quite a bit longer and more complicated. Even I'm not sure now just how it will all turn out. The next chapter has been giving me some problems but I'm hoping to have it finished in a few days. So, I'll keep writing as long as you keep reading. Hugs, Helen x
Date: 06/22/12 06:58 pm Title: Chapter 3
love it keep goinggg~~
:3
Author's Response: Thank you for the lovely review. I'm so glad you're enjoying the story. And I am keeping going but the next chapter's giving me problems so it might be a few more days. Thanks again for reading and taking time to let me know what you think. Hugs, Helen x
Date: 06/22/12 03:05 pm Title: Chapter 2
Terrible, terrible nightmare. I love how you built it, using pieces of Bill's fears and bad memories. I also love how Tom's been up and running even before waking up, feeling Bill's distress. Their bond in your story is beautiful.
Now, so Bill's recovery is actually being supressed by the therapist? It sounds fishy. If he feels comfortable with touching Tom, what kind of therapist would tell him not to do so until he's told? Very weird indeed. Like Tom, I wished Bill decided to go with the same therapist as his brother. This guy doesn't seem very good. I smell bullshit.
As for Simone... oh well, I've already read the next chapter, so I know where she comes from and what she feels. Still... bah, I don't think Gordon should be lying to her about the guy who's supposedly checking the recordings. I think he should be honest with her. And honest with the boys (I'm still looking forward to his and Tom's talk). I think everybody needs a bit of honesty.
It might be shocking to Simone, but I believe she'll learn to accept it. There's no abuse between her sons, so it's not the same as what happened to her. Once she sees it she might learn to live with it... right?
Well, as usual, I love your writing, and I'm standing on my toes for the next chapter... twins moment? I love those! Yes please. (:
I had trouble stopping to review this week, but I wanted you to know I'm still here, I'm still reading and I'm still enjoying!
Author's Response: Thank you as always for your lovely review. I'm especially honoured that you're reading and taking the time to write your opinions with all that's going on in your life right now. I'm beginning to think that Gordon's being very foolish keeping up the lie, but he said all that at the end of KUA when they were both in shock from receiving the pendrive and now it's hard for him to backtrack without upsetting Simone, and chancing her turning against the twins. Because the dream chapter was an extra, the original sequel I had planned has now had to be reviewed so I'm not even sure how everything will play out. The next chapter is definitely a twinny moment...but not all happy and cuddly. Thanks aagin for the womderful review. Hugs Helen x
Date: 06/17/12 02:29 pm Title: Chapter 3
Gordon must absolutely not send those tapes to a real person... that's wise of him, to keep them so far. And it's such a tremendously interesting thing that Simone has experienced incest, that will make sense if the sexual crossing the line-pattern would continue in her sons. So very very interesting!! Gordon's love for Simone is very beautiful, and the way she and Bill are alike is so endearing and fun a clever of you to present. This was a necessary chapter, to get the thing from Gordon's POV, even if I don't disapprove of Simone's behavior per se - I feel bad if it stresses the twins though. However... I don't think lying is the best thing in the end. So far, my feeling is that the best would be for Simone to have knowledge, and help to accept, and move on.
Author's Response: Thank you for this amazingly insightful review. I love that you've seen so much in this chapter. I'm not clear yet how things are going to end up since my ideas have altered a bit since I started writing this (and its definitely going to be longer than the 2-3 chapters I initially envisioned) so it could go several ways. I would say that it sounds like Simone could do with a good therapist too. I adore the way Gordon cares for Simone and also the twins, his adopted family. That just makes his decision so much harder, because he doesn't want anyone to get hurt. I've just started work on the next chapter but it might take a while. Thanks again for a great review. Hugs, Helen.
Date: 06/17/12 12:32 pm Title: Chapter 3
Ahhhh, oh poor Simone...but she also needs to realize this is an entirely different situation than hers. Fantastic chapter! It was nice gettinh some of Gordon's pov. I kinda hope we get to see the twins reaction, in 'live time', to gordon's saving them at that point. Fantastic chapter! Can't wait to see more!
Author's Response: I'm really happy that you enjoyed this chapter. I had most of it written a while ago, but then it came to me in the middle of the night just why Simone is acting the way she is, so I had to rewrite to fit that in. Thank you so much for your wonderfuly reviews. Hugs, Helen.
Date: 06/17/12 12:12 am Title: Chapter 3
Gordon's love for Simone here is really beautiful. I hate the fact that he's having to lie to her about the sound clips, but I understand why he's doing it also and that he's going to such great lengths to protect her feelings about her son's relationship. What happened to Simone was truly heartbreaking and I loved the insight it gave into why she feels the way she does.
It seems she's seen something from the beginning and being paranoid from her own experiences with her older brother certainly doesn't help. Gordon seems like such a strong hold in all their lives and I really do hope Tom can find trust in him and is open and honest about him and Bill when confronted.
The comparisons between Simone and Bill are so cute, the way they laugh, their flare, it seems for dramatics. I just love how you portray this family here and that this chapter was written from Gordon's understanding POV. He seems like such a wonderful father figure here, such a strong husband in the way he protects them. I can't wait for the next chapter to see if Simone holds up her end of the bargain on her and Bill's shopping trip and to find out what's said between Tom and Gordon. I also love how patient he is with her, showing her how the photos and such were made when the twins first started out in their career. This was truly an insightful and enjoyable read and I can't wait for the next chapter of this!!!
Author's Response: Sorry I forgot to respond to this review. As always you make me feel so good about my writing. I'm really happy that you're enjoying it and that you see all the things I'm trying to convey. I see Gordon as the sane one in an insane household, and yes, he is still madly in love with his Simone, as she is with him. Thanks again for leaving me such amazing reviews and for being such a great fan of my stories. Love and hugs, Helen.
Date: 06/14/12 06:47 pm Title: Chapter 2
I had no idea this was up, but I'm glad I found it. I wonder how long it's gonna take the twins to realize that Simone and Gordon know about them. And I feel so bad for Bill...that nightmare was terrible :( Can't wait for another chapter!
Author's Response: Really happy that you liked it and thank you so much for reviewing. The next chapter is up and explains things from Gordon's POV. Hope you enjoy that too. Hugs, Helen
Date: 06/14/12 01:53 pm Title: Chapter 2
It's pretty good. But his parents need to leave. And is Gordon going to be a major player in this one? Because him and Simone are really annoying me...
Author's Response: You'll get Gordon's take on things in the next chapter. He's kind of caught in the middle trying to decide what to do for the best for all 3 of the people he loves. Thanks for reading and for taking the time to review. Love, Helen.
Date: 06/14/12 01:46 pm Title: Chapter 1
*waves hands in the air* I'm here! I'm here! I kust missed the first chapter coming out somehow.
So ...ooookay. Simone is going just a biiiiit over board. I could under stand paying more attention to how they interact, even interupting them when/if the disappear alone together for 15+ minutes, and staying awak until they've both gone to bed and fallen asleep. But to get up in the middle of the night to check on her grown ass sons is kinda ridic imo. But atleast they will be in their jammies when/if she comes in the room and they have a totally reasonable explanation.
At first I was kind of thinking tom was overly worried about Max, but then Bill started thinking about him and I kind of agree with Tom now. What the heck is he making Bill do? Is he taking advantage of Bill's delicate state of mind? And is Bill maybe taking something he said a little too extremely? Like maybe Max said something like 'be careful not to move too fast, take your time and don't do anything that makes you feel uncomfortable. It could set you back and have to start all over.' Somehow I doubt that, but maybe?
Bill's dream would be horrifying. I'm not sure which would be worse, thinking it was real, or knowing it was all a dream and still being trapped and unable to wake up from it. I'm so glad Tom was able to 'hear' Bill needed help
I can't wait to see the conversation between Gordon and Tom about what's going on. That's gonna be good. Wonderful work! I can't wait to see the next chapter!
Author's Response: Hi there. I'm really happy you found the sequel and you're enjoying it. I'm wondering if I made Simone a little too OTT with her surveillance of the twins, but she's determined not to give them the opportunity to do anything twincesty. I also see her as really highly-strung and Gordon is protective of her in the same way Tom is of Bill even though she drives him insane at times. You'll have to wait and see what the deal is with Max, that thread is expanding as I write it so I think the 'short' sequel will grow a bit longer. The next chapter is more or less written and just needs a bit of tweaking so hopefully will be posted in a day or two. Thank you so much for reviewing. Hugs, Helen x
Date: 06/14/12 04:43 am Title: Chapter 2
hope for more soon :D
Date: 06/14/12 04:43 am Title: Chapter 2
hope for more soon :D
Author's Response: Thank you so much for reading and reviewing. Next chapter is almost ready so hopefully will be up in a couple of days.