Date: 06/10/12 12:45 pm Title: XII
This is soothing and healing. Tom almost sees new sides of Bill, this late in their life (well, relatively) and relationship. Their fragile and tender exchange, the last few words, reveal to me just how much they long to be allowed to love each other again. *deep sigh*
Author's Response: *sighs with you* I'm so glad you're getting so much out of it.
Date: 06/09/12 05:30 pm Title: XII
I loved the to and fro phone conversation with Tom relaying Georg's comments and Bill snorting in reply. And then you worked that round to the subject of hair and how Bill's changing styles were an attention-seeking ploy, and that's kind of flattering to Tom. So clever of you. And the shaven head is like a clean slate, starting over. Loved it.
Author's Response: Clever! I've not been called that before, I don't think. lol I love that you're loving it, though. Especially the parallel between a shaven head and a new start. It's kind of symbolic, isn't it? ;)
Date: 06/09/12 01:42 pm Title: XII
Awwww, it's lovely to see them actually trying to make this work. Slowly, but surely working towards a common goal, restoring their broken bond. Loving this, as always!
Author's Response: They have to make it work! They're twins above all else, you know? But I know what you mea, and I'm definitely rooting for them, myself. =)
Date: 06/09/12 01:38 pm Title: XII
First, when you say "fixing" the end, do you really mean "packing so much more angst into it that it will implode into its own black hole of angst"? I need to know because I have to buy tissues, and I may as well invest in the industrial-sized packs. (I'm kidding, I love you!)
I love how you have things progressing here, slowly and naturally. It's so realistic that Tom would still not know things about his twin, even after all those years, because Bill didn't want him to know. It finally feels like they are really being honest with each other and actually communicating. And I love the continuing bromance between Tom and Georg.
I'm still holding out hope for these guys!
Author's Response: Of COURSE that's what I mean. ;) But no, I'm really glad that you're liking it so far, even if it does end tragically....or does it? =P
Date: 06/05/12 05:55 pm Title: XI
Aww, girl, you make me happily broken for them! :)
Very powerful chapter, very deep and goes straight not only to the heart of this series, but in a way, also to the heart of the way twins are now - with their life in L.A and all the people in there. I wish they could meet each other like this, forever. Not be torn apart by things that shouldn't tear them. Still I am scared of it.
Magical angst, beautiful chapter. I love these twins. So beautiful and vulnerable.
Author's Response: You are so, so, so sweet. I'm so glad that you're enjoying it. I've said it before, but I'll say it again...this story is far less angsty than the rest. I think the worst of their ride is over. ;)
Date: 06/05/12 05:34 pm Title: X
The part where you wrote about paths of being always there for each other and not be and crosdsing the line was something I liked a lot. In a way I think it's alöso my biggest fear what comes to those twins. That faint line between always and never and how much I balance there pondering of where we... they... stand right now. Maybe not in THIS way, but in general now when they eventually start to mature, become men.
I hope Tom does the right way and goes back to beginning. He can save it all.
Author's Response: I've always been curious about that too. How will relationships come into play? How will separate life experiences come into play? They can't be joined at the hip forever...or can they? Who knows? I'm not even sure they do.
Date: 06/01/12 06:58 pm Title: XI
*sniffs* Awwwww, I think this is my favorite chapter of the series so far! Such a loving intensity to it, I loved that Tom took them to the church where Bill got married in the hope of restoring some of their bond and it seems to have worked, at least for starters. They have a long way to go, I presume, but it feels as if this is more of a lead into a healthier, more fulfilling relationship between the two of them, be it as brothers or lovers or everything.
Author's Response: Yes! Gustav was right...go back to the beginning and make a solid foundation...or whatever it was he said. Hopefully they'll get it right this time.
Date: 06/01/12 06:45 pm Title: X
Loved that Gustav and Georg care so much as to kinda gang up on Tom to make him listen. Love that Gustav is, as always, the voice of reason and that Tom has something to strive for now. Now let's hope Bill gives him the chance to make things right. :)
Author's Response: Of course they care! They're good friends. Gustav is and always will be, in my own opinion, the smartest member of the band.
Date: 06/01/12 02:43 pm Title: XI
You are so clever, taking the twins back to the church where Bill got married. It must have been so hard for him to cross that threshold and go inside. He must have thought Tom was trying to torture him. I am so happy that they are really, really talking now, addressing the issues and admitting how each of them felt about what the other did. There's finally a spark of hope that they'll be able to sort things out. Love the final line, 'He's never felt more happily broken.' Beautiful.
Author's Response: Thank you so much. This was really one of my favorite scenes and actually, this story sat untouched for MONTHS, and it was the vision for this scene that brought the rest of the story to me. So I'm really glad that you liked it. <333
Date: 06/01/12 04:01 am Title: XI
I'm in a way speechless. Well, I am. It's such a sense of relief. The first half was... hard, because I was again reminded of how hard it is to be in a situation where you can't reach the other person, and you see their eyes drift away. So hard. But when it turned around... oh, I dearly, dearly hope that they will find that strong connection again. So wonderful.
Author's Response: There's no way to even describe how flattered I am that you can actually feel and relate to what the boys are feeling. I mean, it may be a terrible feeling, but I'm so glad you're getting something out of it. <333
Date: 05/31/12 11:37 pm Title: XI
So close to tears you made me. This was so breathtakingly bittersweet. This story is like a movie playing in my head. You are an awesome writer who engages her readers and I thoroughly enjoy that. I shall be waiting as patiently as I can for the next chapter. Please don't make me wait too long because I'm not getting any younger. :)
Author's Response: Awww, you're going to make me bluuuuuush, my goodness. *composes self* I'll try to post another chapter as quickly as I can, but I'm still going through edits and changing things. But for you, the sweetest of all flatterers, I will try. ♥
Date: 05/31/12 10:33 pm Title: IX
Please don't tell me there's another train coming.
I would hate you if I didn't love and adore you so much. ;D
Author's Response: Choo-choo! ♥ ♥ ♥
Date: 05/31/12 10:18 pm Title: X
Thankfully Gustav has a brain in his head and that Tom decided to listen. I wonder will it be a long, drawn out, romantic courtship? I can hardly wait to read about the 'date'. Hopefully it won't end badly. On to the next chapter. :)
Author's Response: What choice does Tom have BUT to listen, you know? It's do or die time. =)
Date: 05/31/12 09:08 pm Title: XI
So, it's gonna be "Rocks fall; everybody dies. -- The End"? I might write you a very nasty email if that happens, just sayin'.
I love, love, love the paragraph where Tom compares Bill's face to a stained glass window. That's just gorgeous writing. You have such a way with words even as you dig out my heart with tweezers.
At least they are trying to communicate, really hear and listen. Maybe.
Author's Response: Erm.....just remember, you love me, okay? *hides*
Date: 05/31/12 08:05 pm Title: X
Oh, Gustav, your wisdom is No. 9,462 of the reasons why I love you. I love that Gustav is a voice of reason with really good advice, and that Georg is the muscle to stand there and make sure Tom hears it and obeys. Somehow I think the double-team of the Gs would trump pretty much anything the Kaulitz two would do.
I just hope it works.
Author's Response: Don't you just adore him? I feel like I need to write the G's as bad guys or something at some point, because I always make them these two super-perfect best friends-- which, you know, cannon in my mind. xD
Date: 05/31/12 07:37 pm Title: IX
If I still had a heart, you'd be continuing to rip it out. But, is that a little light of hope at the end of the tunnel or just another oncoming train to run them down and then derail, taking out an entire town and all their loved ones?
I do really love Georg here. We all need a Georg-friend like this in our lives. Do you know where I can find one? It's obvious he really cares about Tom and Bill and them together. So sweet.
Author's Response: Ripping it out piece by piece and loving every minute of it! Er...I mean....
That's definitely another oncoming train bb, sorry to say. =P
Date: 05/31/12 07:06 pm Title: VIII
Maybe I'm just projecting here, but both of these guys need a swift kick in the rear. Yes, Tom made mistakes and was an idiot. It's the way he is. But now, Bill is being just as big of an asshat and acting kind of like an entitled little brat. Not saying he should take Tom back, but at least Tom is trying. It seems like either Bill is hurt beyond fixing, acting like a petty little diva who only wants his own way, or truly believes things can never be fixed even as a brother.
Or maybe I'm just feeling really bitchy today. :D I just don't have any hope for these two the way they are now, and I think you've written that hopelessness perfectly. You are just an amazing writer, and you can wring out so many emotions from your readers.
Author's Response: hahaha Project all you want, because 99% of the time, I feel all men need a swift kick in the rear, for sure.
Date: 05/31/12 07:00 pm Title: VII
I really love how you had Bill shave his head. It would be so utterly -- forgive the word -- alien to see him without hair, and it has to mess with Tom's memories and perceptions of him. Tom is just so screwed up in every way, it seems, and I still can't understand this Bill. I wonder if he even understands himself. I really can't grasp Bill at all, but I love the way you said that best friends can reconnect in moments after years apart, but these two are so fucked up right now they can't even make small talk.
You are so much the Queen of Angst.
Author's Response: I keep kind of expecting him to show up at some point with a bald head. And you're right -- it's got to be really strange for Tom to see him that way.
Date: 05/31/12 06:55 pm Title: VI
Never again will he ever take for granted all that Bill means to him. Like a flower without pollen or a bee without a stinger, he knows now that he’ll never survive on his own.
Their relationship almost scares me a little with how intense Tom -- and I think Bill, too -- feels about everything. If something goes wrong or isn't completely perfect in Tom's eyes, how is he going to survive? You've really captured a co-dependent kind of relationship struggle here, and it just makes me feel so bad for both of the boys.
Author's Response: You're so right. It's co-dependency to a really terrifying level. I mean if something were to happen to one of them by the end of this story......
Date: 05/31/12 06:50 pm Title: V
Oooo, you keep pouring on the angst even though Tom has a tiny, little glimmer of hope. It's interesting that he thinks talking to Derek will help Bill, but somehow I think Georg is the wiser one here.
The way Tom's mood changes in an instant from depressed to sunny, just because of Bill, really captures that feeling of all-encompassing love/lust/obsession that usually comes with a new relationship. It's really telling that Tom still feels that overpowering way about Bill after all these years.
Author's Response: Pouring on the angst is what I do. ;) And of course Tom still feels that way about Bill. It's ~true love~ you know.