Date: 07/29/12 02:13 pm Title: 17. Princely Legacy
First of all, don't be in a hurry to stop this story too soon. Saltywench has kept my interest and she is up to 86 chapters to date. I am in a state of white knuckle expectation until you post an update and now it will be even worse, since it is pretty obvious that Tom (and who knows who else)has been shot. The thing that keeps me hopeful is that you are a girl who likes a happy ending, so I know all will be well. I thoroughly enjoyed the chapter and I never tire of the the Bu/Tom sex scenes. They both deserve a little happiness. I hope you produce the next update very soon, I don't think I can survive a long wait!!!
Author's Response: Ya know, I'm really happy you said that ("don't be in a hurry....")...with my stories, they all seem to have a sort of THE END ending, wrapped up in neat bows, but this one just isn't doing that, and after reading your comment, I thought about it. Now I realize that the THE END ending is out there, just not in my head yet, but when the story and the characters decide to wrap up, that's when it'll happen. Everything else pretty much flows, so I'll just have to wait! Mirror Images...Oh, do not get me started. No, go ahead, get me started. That labyrinthian behemoth...reading it is truly like entering another world, where the door shuts and locks behind you, and you don't care. I can't get enough of it; it's so deep and layered, I understand why it takes her so much time to write each chapter, although I'm a selfish person and want her to go faaasssteerrrr! ...as for me, yes, I must have happy endings. Well, in my previous stories, I guess not everyone was happy (poor Tom seems to get the short end of the deal). Working on the next chapter, it'll be up hopefully Friday. Thanks for writing, patc456!
Date: 07/29/12 02:07 pm Title: 17. Princely Legacy
Gah! I love this! I hate that it's a cliffhanger, but an author's gotta do what an author's gotta do. Keeps things interesting and us readers wanting more.
I for one am not sick of Tom/bu scenes. Even the sex scenes. I love this Tom you have created here. It sucks that he's been through so much shit, but I think that is what makes me like his character so much.
I can't wait for the next chapter!
Author's Response: Hello again, TCG! Sorry for the cliffhanger - after 22 pages, it's kind of time for a chapter to end. I could go on and on, but it gets to be a lot to write at once, and a lot to read, too. I'm so glad you still like the sex scenes, these two are the ones kind of poking at me to write them. This Tom, he's been so fun to write, so real, so sweet and I just love him. Glad to know I'm not the only one! Next chapter, hopefully, will be up Friday evening! Thanks for reviewing, it's great to know you're out there :D
Date: 07/29/12 09:26 am Title: 17. Princely Legacy
As always, I have way too many feelings! I should get that checked out... But this chapter was amazing, as always. Tom being self-conscious of his man smell and then crying during their "quickie" was positively adorable and I think Bushido and I realized right at the same time that Tom cries quite often during sexual activities. Makes me have hope that the future might hold a heart-to-heart about Tom's past between him and Bu? Or even Bill. I love when Bill and Tom talk about their childhood in this story! And I LOVED Bu and Kay's phone conversation about keeping Queenie happy. Bill mixed in with the "gangstery gangsters" and the "thugly thugs" was strangely adorable and I wish I could see that in real life. Do Bu and Kay know that Bill kisses Tom? I thought about that when Bill wanted to kiss him in the club but held back... idk if it's ever been addressed and I just can't remember, or what. No way am I getting tired of the Bu/Tom scenes. They're precious, and of course, sexy as all hell. The line about Bushido's heart having an orgasm! That was amazing!!! And now I'm just sitting here, flipping the fuck out because Sido' s got a gun and Tom's trying to protect Bill and I'm sure Bill's going all PROTECT TOM. This chapter was perfect; definitely one of my favorites. AND OMG THE END NOTES! I can't breathe! I literally can't! You mentioned my name! That's the sweetest, nicest, coolest, [insert more positive superlative adjectives here] thing that anyone has ever done for me!! You're amazing, this story's amazing, and I love everything about it/you.
P.S. idk if you know/heard but apparently IRL the twins got another twin tattoo this week and when I read that I was like "OMFG THEY GOT THE COATI!" I think I'd shit myself if that's actually what they got....
Author's Response: As always, you write the best friggin reviews. This story seems to just be unfolding and going on and on, so it really helps to have some feedback, since I'm just sort of trailing along in its wake. You're right that maybe Bu and Tom should have a bit of a discussion about things, but, being guys (albeit gay ones), as long as there aren't any real problems, they don't feel the need to get all chatty. Bu's aware that Tom's just releasing a lot of pent up emotion, and Tom just wants to not feel like an embarrassed retard. I love when Bill and Tom talk, too! Bill is more like a girl that way, he wants it aaalll dragged out. I think Bu has probably seen Bill give Tom kisses, but maybe not those slightly lingerish ones he gives in private. I was thinking that might eventually catch someone's attention. Yay, you're not sick of the sex scenes! There've been a few, and I don't want it to get too redundant, but they're kind of doing their own thing. That thing about smells, it's all Tom (I was writing, and imagining, and he kept scrunching his nose and it took me a few minutes to find out why. Damndest thing). And Sido's got a gun! Holy shit! .... One of your favorite chapters, huh? Wow.... (bats eyelashes shyly at you). And if mentioning your fantastic stories, which everyone should read, was the nicest thing anyone has done, then you need more praise, definitely. More nice things for you! (and btw, I saw in mohanrocks workout that you've been reading....was I right, or was I right!!)..............As for Bill and his tatts, imo, he needs to friggin quit it, quit working out, starve, shave, and take out some of those facial piercings. And, if he did get another tatt, I hope it was a coati, too!!
Date: 07/25/12 01:30 am Title: 1. All Hail the Queen
Hi:-) I am really glad that the banner thing worked out and that your story is so liked.
Author's Response: Hi, green and blue! Good to hear from you again - isn't that banner friggin AWESOME?!! Thank you!!
Date: 07/24/12 03:29 pm Title: 1. All Hail the Queen
Hi again. Just thinking about you writing a fic around Andrej, did you know he's going to do a reality TV show? Check it out at -
http://www.fabsugar.com.au/Australian-Model-Andrej-Pejic-Reality-TV-Show-Confirmed-Modelling-Agency-DNA-24107126
And -
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2172763/Andrej-Pejic-TV-star-Androgynous-model-gets-reality-mom-joins-New-York-commence-filming.html
Also have you checked out the images on here -
http://fyeahandrejpejic.tumblr.com/
Author's Response: Helen, Helen, Helen.....how the eff am I supposed to go to sleep NOW????
Date: 07/24/12 10:09 am Title: 15. Crown the Prince
I love this fic so, so much!
I guess I should apologize for not commenting on previous chapters, (I'm sorry) but I couldn't stop readinG. I had to see what was going to happen. I'm so hooked to this fic, it's not even funny.
Second, the banner is absolutely beautiful! I love it!
Third, you're a phenomenal writer. I love the way you write and how you keep me wanting more and more. I was a bit leery about reading this when I had seen it on the updated stories page, but once I started, I couldn't stop.
I love the pace of the story and how things have progressed between Tom and Bu, but not only them, but Tom and Bill as well.
I think I had told you in one of your previous fics that I wasn't a fan of Bill/Bu, and I'm still not really a fan, but I have to say, I love the pairing of Tom/Bu. Maybe it's because I haven't seen that pairing too much, I don't know. Either way, I love that pairing way more than Bill/Bu. I wasn't sure what to expect when I started reading this, and I don't think I was expecting to love it as much as I do, but I have to say it's so wonderful.
The pain and heartache that Tom has had to go through all his life, pained my heart and I could feel how he was feeling. It's so great to be able to read a fic and be so in tune with the emotions that are going on in the story.
This is beautifully written and very, very well done. =]
Author's Response: Hello, TCG! (Toronto? Vancouver? Quebec?). Thank you for such a lovely review. Knowing there are people out there (you!), "hooked" on the story, even after this long, makes me want to go on forever. Hearing this wonderful praise is extremely encouraging, and so wonderful to hear. I'm so glad you started reading it, even with trepidation - I think a lot of people skip over my stories completely because of the Bushido factor. I've had several readers say they HATE Bill(Tom)/shido, but that they actually liked mine, and I love to hear from people who overcame their initial urge to skip the story completely and discover that those pairings can be done right (and I'm totally excited to know that my writing swayed them!). I was swayed to the dark side of Tomshido, which I never would have thought of, by one of Amdee's stories, and it just planted the seed of thought that Tomshido could actually be a mighty fine thing. ..... I've loved writing this story, I love this sad little Tom, and I'm hoping the characters still have plenty to say and do because this world really has drawn me in. To hear that others feel the same gets me all excited and happy to get back to writing more. Oh, and you don't have to apologize about not commenting on previous chapters, I'm thrilled to know you're out there, so any time you feel like dropping a line is fine, even if it's every eight chapters (I tend to wait til I'm done with a story to review unless it's an unfinished one, which I hate starting but keep doing anyway!). And that banner, lordy, I squealed when I saw it! It's gorgeous! ... Thanks again for such a sweet review, oh Canada, and being part of this with me!
Date: 07/23/12 06:22 pm Title: 16. Holding Court
So much in one chapter. The one thing - amongst so many others - that really shines through is how much more real Bill is now that he has his other half. He seems to have grown as a person, capable of empathy and love and caring about others. I feel sorry for Tom that he feels like he's wasted his life, but love that he won't allow Bill to blame himself for that. The whole conversation on the topic in the car was amazing. As is the way you can see the twins sparking off each other, with Tom giving Bill light-bulb moments of inspiration. Oh, Kay is so sweet, so in love with Bill he just has to shout it from the rooftops. The whole going public thing was incredible. You are a spoilsport, though, with Bill intervening between Andrej and Tom; I would have loved to see Andrej actually coming on to Tom and Bu stepping in to reclaim his boyfriend...sorry, his 'partner'. And won't the media have a field day wth that, Bu swapping one twin for the other! Nearly forgot Bu beating off to the recording of Tom...gives phone sex a whole new meaning. And that confession of love. Gave me happy shivers...so sweet. And Sido got what was coming to him, clever Tom. Oh, like I said, so much to comment on. It was all amazing. I don't know where you're going from here. I would really like to see Tom discover what he wants to do with his life as fashion doesn't really grab him. Maybe music? And - dare I say it - double wedding? Maybe? As much as I'm longing for the next chapter I don't want the story to end. Except then I hope you'll start something else just as fabulous. Love and hugs, Helen x
Author's Response: Saw I only had one more review since yesterday...I was so hoping it was from you, and lo and behold, it was! So glad you've got time to read and send me a note about what you enjoyed. You're right, Bill really is more fully himself, now that he's been able to let down his extremely paranoid vigilance. He's turned out a little weirder than I thought, what with keeping his little sex fantasies about Tom; but also more grounded and sweet (really, this was not the image I had when I first started, but if he's happy, I'm happy). I too would love to see Andrej spread his sugar all over Tom. I just adore Andrej! Gotta figure out a way to make him a star in whatever story I write next. I've no idea how long this one will last - I have a couple plot ideas, but mostly just want to write lots of scenes with the characters just being themselves, but I worry it'll start dragging. There's no real "Ta DA - the END!" moment to this (but I will confess that you dropped a mention of an idea I DID have in mind....durn it...lol). So it could go on a while, although the next story is finally, finally starting to nudge me. Tom's been my favorite (although Kay has been a lot of fun, I can just FEEL how monkeynuts he is for Queenie!) in this one, and I hope he finds his own way, too. Sometimes, we just never find the career we long for (or the place, or the person...I call it the table leg theory -if you're lucky, you get three solid ones in life), so maybe he'll have to settle for a partner, a brother, and lots of money (oh, wah!). I love that you're reading, thinking, enjoying, and letting me know! Oh....and I was reading the reviews on Thairice's Bad, looking for a response to mine, and I saw yours.... Isn't that story awesome!!!! It's breaking my heart! Thanks for writing, Helen doll! Hope your own story is going well (I'm still waiting for a few more chapters, I really want to dive in when I know there's a lot of water in the pool!)
Date: 07/22/12 02:40 am Title: 16. Holding Court
A part of me really wants to see some Tom/Bill action only because I love it so much! But that would ruin things for Tom, and that’s how we know Bill is regressing to his delusional but 100% loveable self.
Tom’s mouthed “I love you” made me giddy with glee! Maybe I don't want any Tom/Bill after all.
Bill’s newfound ability to think of others is the best. :D Finally! And now everyone is out of the closet! PARTY TIME.
Author's Response: Lol!! Yes, everyone is out of the closet (not all of them by choice, poor Sido!). I too am tempted to nudge Bill/Tom together, but Tom has let me know that he's not really interested in that. Bill is just going to have to keep practicing pushing sexy thoughts of his brother out of his thoughts. And, as you pointed out, Tom has now declared his love for Bu, hooray! Even if it was a little on the down-low. Up next - the partay! (talk to you afterwards, I hope!)
Date: 07/21/12 07:56 pm Title: 16. Holding Court
This is so good! One of the best Tom/Bushido fanfics ever! From the storyline, to the love triangles, this story gave me everything I could have ever wanted plus more.
Author's Response: Wow, thanks! If you know more TomBushido stories that were good, let me know! Amdee has a one shot that was amazing, but I haven't read any others or any long ones, anyway. I'm so glad you're enjoying it, and this could go on for a while because I'm having such fun, so if you have any questions or want to see anything in particular, send a note, I'll keep it in mind :D
Date: 07/21/12 09:57 am Title: 16. Holding Court
Very different dynamic for this chapter. I like what you did with it.
I loved the back stage parts. Tom's constructive adjustments to the show were surprising Bill, but they both have creative minds and their ideas mingle beautifully wanting to obtain the same result.
I thought Tom recording his reaction to their bed tumbling with his phone was very sexy. Creative thinking n your part *G* Also, that you cut off the scene and go directly to the morning to have Bushido/and us read it after it happened was also a good effect.
Lastly, Sido paid hard and fair for his brutal stunt when he was exposed on the net. I'm just not sure, if it was a staged footage against his will, or if he was just stupid enough to agree to get recorded while being with a guy :)
Great chapter. I really enjoyed that.
Author's Response: Love the thoughtful review, MD-E! Thanks for taking the time to write, it's always so appreciated (as you know!). I feel so bad for Tom, not knowing quite what to do with himself, feeling like he's floundering around, but hopefully he'll get grounded with something, soon. Thanks for bringing up the phone thing - Tom is so shy ;) and after that, all **I** wanted to see was Bu's reaction to it, yay! And Sido....kind of wondering what he's gonna be thinking... Thanks again, Maria!
Date: 07/21/12 08:38 am Title: 16. Holding Court
Saying you think there's only gonna be two more chapter is like telling me I only have two weeks left to live. I am most certainly NOT bored and this chapter was absolutely amazing. The twins are absolutely adorable with their constant hand holding. I wanna see Bill try to sort out his Tom-lust and Kay asking Bu about tips and tricks to keep Bill interested. I want to see Tom actually tell Bu he loves him out loud. And I want Gordon to give his feedback on how he feels about both of his precious babies dating rappers on his label lol. And I want Bill and Tom to design the clothes together! And snuggle!!! They're just so damn cute.And I still wanna see Tom and Bu go hiking/camping. Maybe they were able to convince Bill to join them?? Anyways, I'm done rambling and I love this story.
Author's Response: Oh, thrilled to tears to hear from you. Keep giving me things you'd like to see in the story, and I may just keep going. I've thought about a lot of the little stuff, too, but wonder how long "the little stuff" can keep the story moving. This has been so fun, and without a definitive "ta da!" ending, I could go on forever! There's definitely a few things you mentioned that I'll be getting to, so it is very possible that there will be more than 2. I hope you'll have access to THF in China (like you'll be sitting in Beijing thinking to yourself, "I'm so damned bored. Think I'll read short stories about a German pop band." Yeah, right. Although, if you're in Beijing, you might be wheezing too badly to actually do any of the exciting things to do in foreign countries (like, just sit there and absorb), so you'll want something to take your mind off of the air quality and what your lungs will look like after a month. (It'll still be worth it!). Okay, done rambling, and I love your reviews, spcf!
Date: 07/21/12 07:41 am Title: 16. Holding Court
This is very very good! I love it still always your storys.
Author's Response: Thank you so much for letting me know!
Date: 07/14/12 11:38 am Title: 15. Crown the Prince
I forgot about the banner, this is the first of your stories with one, at last! Tell her to that lovely girl that make at least one more for Shrouded in fog!
Author's Response: I wish! I'd love to have all of them with banners. Now that I know a little more about it, thinking of trying to find one for the Fog stories, just to at least have a pic up. But it won't be spectacular, unfortunately! Lenna says she's done :(
Date: 07/14/12 11:03 am Title: 15. Crown the Prince
Hi there, sweetie, sorry I didn't review sooner and this is going to be kind of short because I'm over run with stuff right now. As usual you can do no wrong in my eyes, and this chapter was the perfect blend of angsty, sexy and just plain lovely. So happy that Tom feels able to share so much with his twin, and great how Bill is really showing his feelings even though it meant Tom ending up comforting Bill, but like you said, it was as if Bill was hurting enough for both of them, and of course he's carrying a world of guilt for not being there for his twin. The sex was sweet and hot and you made it realistic with the discussion about Bu having Tom's arse on his fingers afterwards. Funny but true. But the funniest part was Bill calling to check on how Tom was getting on with Bu. What a strange conversation. Loved how Bill warned Bu to take care of Tom. I know some people aren't keen on Bill being with Kay because Kay's not a looker, but really, the guy will try so hard to keep his Queen happy because he'll feel like the luckiest man alive that someone as beautiful as Bill is going out with him. And as Bill adores being adored it seems like a match made in heaven to me. Okay, that's all I got this time. Just to let you know this was another amazing chapter. Loved it to death.
Author's Response: Hi Helen! Figured life's been keeping you busy lately. Hope it's all good stuff. Lucky for me you made time to review! I'm so happy you liked this one (you've got yourself to thank that the story is continuing ;) You mentioned the finger smell - I've noticed that fictional stories tend to keep sex all super perfect and, well, fictional. While some people are fine with all the earthy scents and natural noises of it, not everyone is, and, Tom being as inexperienced as he is, I can't imagine it wouldn't kind of skeeve him out and make him a little embarrassed. Although I can only imagine Bu enjoying the hell out of Tom's odors (laffin...). I agree with you that Kay is not a looker, but I've admitted that I imagine him better, more attractive. It's his personality that matters. I needed that sweet puppydog-ness, which seems to suite him well. And you stated it perfectly - Bill adores being adored, something he'd never have with Bu. Thanks again for squeezing in a review, I know stuff like this can take a back seat when things get busy. Hope everything's well with you!
Date: 07/13/12 09:26 am Title: 1. All Hail the Queen
I am trying hard to refrain myself from reading other peoples reviews, at least before reviewing a specific chapter. Because, damn, they make a brilliant read! I still dont have my own notebook, its hell to write something on a different keyboard. But I 'll be back with a vengeance.
Author's Response: I'm so glad you like reading other people's reviews! I've gotten a lot of fantastic ones, and it's so fun to feel part of the discussion (on mine or any other really good story). I'll be waiting for you!
Date: 07/13/12 03:09 am Title: 1. All Hail the Queen
Hey :)
Regarding the grumpy attitude towards Bill and Kay, could be that Kay sort of appeared out of nowhere and bam!, - suddenly they're an item? Personally, Kay is not really that attractive to me like Bushido is, and but since I prefer Tom and Bu here, Kay's looks are not important to me. He's a sincere guy, so... that works for Bill. But if this story had been a Bill/Kay pairing alone, I have to admit I would probably only have read it because you wrote it. But the pairing would otherwise be pointless to me. Sorry :) I hope you can use this.
Author's Response: Well of course I can, MD-E! I too am not particularly fond of Kay's looks (I pretend he's better looking than he is), but his personality seemed to fit. Guess I just plugged in one of the stock characters. Bill/Kay as the main? NEVER! Going back to Billshido, definitely. Thanks for the comments :D
Date: 07/13/12 01:55 am Title: 15. Crown the Prince
Yay for this chapter! Tom has been through so much. How is he ok now? It kind of blows my mind. It also blows my mind that Bill can't get Stefano's name right... but maybe that's a good thing since Tom doesn't like talking about him.
I loved reading the twins being all twinly at lunch with Gordon. Their bubble is very exclusive! That was my favorite part of this chapter!
But the sex came a close second. Geddit? Came? Ahh, to have the immaturity of a 14-year old. XD I'm sure you understand as well, sometimes. It was great to see Tom get the attention and care he deserves, and for it to be good for him. Stellar for him. Bu loves him, and Bill loves him, and he's gonna be more than alright. He's gonna be fantastic! I'm glad Tom had his little emotional epiphany. :3
Where can I buy these Girl Scout cookies? I want some of these special cookies. And OH YEAH, the banner looks A M A Z I N G! Congrats on getting such an awesome one (much thanks to Lenna)!
Author's Response: First, that banner... I KNOW!!! About died when I finally got it, best present ever! And I will pass your words of praise on to her, maybe she'll change her mind about not doing any more! I'm so happy to hear you loved the chapter and what you enjoyed. I too act like a fourteen year old...no, probably more like thirteen....at times. The word fart is still funny to me. And I laughed at the "came" comment, soooo silly. You're right about the twins' bubble - even dear old dad can't fit in, and he knows it! Poor Gordon, midlife crisis AND not being Bill's favorite anymore. I too am happy for Tom, but I'm a happy ending kind of person. I want him all loved and petted and taken care of. And don't you just wish you could get those cookies delivered by this girl scout!
Date: 07/12/12 09:58 pm Title: 1. All Hail the Queen
one last thing! ...
just read over some of the other reviews after posting mine, and for the record i love bill and kay! whats the problem? they are so sweet!, Kay adores Bill, he's so whipped! although maybe that is the reason, i'll make a theory that people are used to bill partner being really tough and macho like Bu, and they might feel that kays just too 'soft' i dunno.
Oh heres an idea! you could maybe remedy this with a dose extra kinky sex?
is it me or do other reviews seem longer now! in bill style narcissism i shall choose to believe that i have started a trend :D xx
Author's Response: Important decree: As of today, the cause of all long and interesting reviews is credited to HannahCappy. I'm glad you like Kay! Constanza pointed out, though, that where Bu goes, Kay follows, so maybe he just doesn't seem original enough, and I can certainly understand that. But these stories on this website have a character layout all ready made, besides just Bill and Tom and the G's, and Kay is one of those, so I used him. I think if people thought he was too soft, my Kay would have Tom throw gasoline on them.
Date: 07/12/12 09:39 pm Title: 15. Crown the Prince
Back again!
Wow what a lovely rebuttal to my thoughts, I wasn’t expecting that.
Well if people like my rambling, I shan’t restrain myself!
Yes Capricorn! I guess I wasn’t very stealthy announcing my birthday within my username; can’t believe I picked that now, so unimaginative of me! And that’s why I’ll probably never be posting any stories on this site.
Very admirable of you to always finish your stories, I definitely appreciate it! I know it’s heartbreaking when an amazing story is abandoned!
(We should form a group to politely harass leichenwasser into posting!:D)
If you say so, I’m more than fine with being a ‘baby grownup’ lol, reading back I see your point. I guess what I meant was, that when I discovered tokio hotel I wasn’t a naive little girl dreaming about finding prince charming. Although having said that, I don’t think I dreamt of prince charming at any age, I’ve always been a bit of a cynic (although I’m now curious as to your age! I’ll infer you’re over 25... but I won’t ask as I know you should never ask a lady that question)
I shall absolutely love to review your other stories!; although it may take me a week or so, as I’m trying to review ones that are being updated atm. Speaking of which, Mohanrocks has returned, i must get around to reviewing!
Very relieved you say you’re a ‘non-fan-sort’, looking back I half regretted writing that. But absolutely, as you said they are pop stars! To me they’re not real people, to me they are a bit like our royal family, they all live unbelievably charmed lives, to which I can’t truly relate to. (not saying they haven’t worked for it) but still, I don’t know these people and never will, therefore sometimes I get annoyed at my own interest, and theorise it to be ‘unhealthy’/ ‘unnatural’. But on the other hand these people are like bright shiny diamonds wowing us with their sparkle, and surely it’s natural to be drawn to such things; they are a welcome distraction from our mundane lives. So in the end, I love my Queen, and I love my queenie!
‘spanking... the monkey’ O_o wow, actually I thought I knew a lot about American slang and culture (from a secret and guilty diet of Prez Hilton, -don’t kill me!) but I have never heard of that! I wonder who invented such a curious phrase; it’s tickled me absolutely pink!
Now as for this latest chapter..
You got a banner!, I was meaning to say you should get one, as I think people tend to over look stories without them.
It’s interesting to note that although Bill and Tom have repaired their relationship, and ‘narcissus’ is no longer ‘deluded’ that he still is essentially the same. For example his insecurity and jealousy, over something as insignificant as an anecdote about a kiss tom had years ago, but Bill still needed validation, to be told he’s the prettiest. It’s like these negative aspects have just shifted instead.
I’m glad Bills sexual desire for tom didn’t just magically disappear. And he had to remind himself that tom’s lips were ‘off limits’ that would have been unrealistic I think, change doesn’t happen overnight.
Part of me missed the lack of bill and kay in this chpt, but I enjoyed the tomshido. Yes I think as you said this tom is ‘just soft enough’ perfectly describes it, other times bot-tom / tomshido I read seemed to make him too soft and feminine; to the point where I couldn’t visualise the character in my head as it was just so far away from the ‘real’/ default tom i have in my head.
I can’t believe tom got raped! Naughty Mizu, you’re so evil to him! Not suggesting this is the case here, but isn’t it interesting how history tends to repeat itself? I recall reading a few times some studies and research that said women who had been raped or been in an abusive relationship were more likely to have it happen again? Something about their damaged self-esteem etc from the initial trauma subconsciously lead them into unhealthy relationships, because of their low feelings of self-worth, they think they almost deserve it. Hypothetically I would theorise that maybe tom would have fought more against this ‘army’ dude, if Stefano had never abused him in the first place.
Favorite line of last chapter “Gordon theoretically raised a Botoxed eyebrow “ There’s always something that cracks me up! So basically, his face showed no change in expression!, oh well as long as in Gordon’s head the eyebrow is raised that’s all that counts.
On the subject of Gordon, I really love how not just in this chapter but all throughout the story even though, its not relevant to the plot, we get so much of Gordon’s thoughts and insecurity’s, Gordon reminds me of someone I know actually, and sadly I think this kind of mindset is very common, aging is the one thing we can’t stop, and people fight it so hard, I probably will to! But it can’t be good for the mind and psyche feel like you’re constantly fighting a losing battle. Always thinking ‘if only I were ten years younger’
Looking forward to the fashion show and tom meeting Andrej, and bill getting jealous, possibly some awkward kay..
Again I think you made a little mistake, I’m sure I’m right this time! Towards the end, shouldn’t it be “woke him up” instead of “woke hip up”?
keep up the good work! ;)
love once more your friendly neighborhood ex-lurker xx
Author's Response: You have quickly moved to my "favorite reviewers" list, HannahCappy! First, I hope you don't really wish you hadn't mentioned certain things last time - I love your free-form, stream-of-consciousness writing. I agree with your comments whole heartedly - these royal beings glittering from afar - they're so unreal to us that we can take them and make them into anything our imaginations devise, hence this website with Bills and Toms of a thousand colors. But as for who they are as people, the lives they've led undoubtedly made them into little weirdos. Can't really exist in that extreme kind of bubble, of such an intense fantasy life, from such a young age and not be an official Weirdo. *** love all the comments you made on the chapter - you really pay attention to detail! Bill's egocentric insecurities and misdirected lust for his brother. And Tom's painful past. Yes, could well have been a direct result of being molested as a child. He was still just a kid when it happened, barely sixteen, so he'd still think of adults as the ones in charge. And once again gets hurt, poor thing. ** I love Gordon in this story! He's been such a blast to write, I could go off on a chapter tangent just on him! Middle age, well, it has him thinking, seeing changes in his face, not liking it. He's a gay man, in L.A., and in the music industry - all those insecurities are compounded a thousand fold! Ouch :(rnI too am looking forward to more Kay/Bill. He's so sweet on Bill, that it's pulling him right in, like a love vortex or some shit. And Andrej - thinking of having him feature more prominently in future stories. This one has been fun. And Bill is not going to like him around Tom one bit! ** Thanks so much for pointing out the spelling error, I'll get that fixed. And thanks again for all your great comments! (oh, and yes, over 25).
Date: 07/12/12 07:56 am Title: 15. Crown the Prince
About the Bill/Kay situation, is not your fault! Actually, i like reading about Kay, is like that: if a story has Bushido in it, Kay One must be there! I just don't like Bill with anyone else, i CAN'T picture him wih another man, don't worry haha! Fuck, in real life if Bill and Anis were gay.... hmmm, thinking about it it's a turn on for me...
Author's Response: Okay, you make a very good point and I'm glad you did! I have put Kay One in a couple of stories, but really should have done some searching for another character to put in. Although, in this one, I needed Kay - this character had to be sweetly in love with Bill and crazy for him, and Kay has that sweet face (although, to be honest, in my imagination I make him better looking than he is) that sort of fit the bill (oops). But I will most likely going back to my (OUR) Billshido next story!