Date: 11/09/13 11:17 am Title: Tom
This was very dark, personal, and powerful. I honesty believe it to be too good to be on this site next to some truly god awful teen romance stories. I read this several months back and didn't understand it. But I was browsing and came across it again. And I think you and I talk on twitter occasionally. So I wanted to read it again. It made so much more sense the second time around. It is so deep and complex. You did a fantastic job.
Date: 03/30/13 03:36 am Title: The end
Great story! I hope that they will let Bill to live with Tom and George and keep the baby. I want them all to be happy...
Date: 04/24/12 07:59 pm Title: The end
Fascinating. Confusing, but bizarre and fascinating. =)
Date: 04/14/12 08:50 am Title: The end
Georg's role in this story is highly dual - in one way, a helper, someone who truly seems committed to helping Tom and Bill. At the same time selfish, I think, for example having sex with Tom when he's worrying about bringing Bill home over the weekend. Or was it some kind of mutual decision that I didn't see? Not saying he did anything against Tom's will, but I feel that he took advantage of Tom there.
I don't agree with Georg that it's against nature, in a way, well, nature meant for Bill to be able to have children... or perhaps it is. I'm not sure. But certainly it's a bad and irresponsible idea of Bill to get pregnant. For those reasons. Someone to love, to have control over, someone who would exist only for him? No, Bill, I don't think that's a good idea.
Bill's state and how others talk over his head is terrible to read. I feel so sorry for him here. The last scene is so beautiful and full of hope. All in all a strong story, very discomforting but thought-provoking and highly inspirational. I really, really hope you keep it up here at THF.
Date: 04/07/12 12:08 pm Title: The end
wow. not what i was expecting when i started this story. it was a very interesting read, very warped frame.
Author's Response: Interesting is, most of the times, good. I hope I didn't disapointed you, I know it's a bit strange, and some how fucked up story, but I hope you liked it anyway. Thanks for reading and reviewing, it means a lot to me!
Date: 04/05/12 07:45 pm Title: Tom
What? Remove? Please, don't! This site needs moree challenging, darker, great fics instread of het self-insertions :)
Author's Response: LoL, well, I can agree about that ;-) But the thing is, I really like this story, it meant something to me, got personal in some strange way, took a lot of thoughts and efforts to write. But few seems to like it, or understand it or... Idk. But very few of them who read it have commented it, the last two chapters almost nobody did, and... in some way it gets personal too, when you give so much of yourself, expose yourself in some strange way, it almost feels like a personal rejection? I know it isn't, I know it's just one story among many others, nothing to think about, care about. Still, if it makes me feel bad in someway, maybe it's better to remove it? Along with "Lighthouse Beach", and maybe "Just say no". I'm not sure, most would think it's childish, but if it makes it feel a littel better, maybe it is the right thing to do?
Date: 04/05/12 07:42 pm Title: The end
So.... powrrful. I can't really find any other word for this, but this is so strong, so breath taking. You rally nailed this stpry with this nice ending. All these problems and solution, which they might doubt at times, but still knowing this is the best way.. All the fragileness of life. Accepåtance and forgiveness.
I feel like hard to breathe. You know it's a good thing. So very beautiful.
Author's Response: I'm glad you think so, I guess it made some sense in the end then? I guess that is the theme for this story; acceptance and forgiveness. So easy and yet hard. Thanks for reading this, and for your reviews, this story is somehow speceial to me, so it really means a lot.
Date: 04/05/12 07:10 pm Title: Georg
Sorry that I'm a bit late with this. I've been off from THF for couple of weeks and all.
I really love this uiniverse. This is confusing, detailed, fascinated and cleverly written. It is way too late already, but I can't wait to get the last chapter on my hands. The charascyers are so twisted, so many skeletons in their closets, but stioll likable, somehow making sense.
Does it make any sense if I say that the relationships with all these boys make me bpth sad and happy?
Author's Response: Oh don't you worry, my stories will always be there for you, when ever you want :) I'm glad thouhg you did commented it now, I logged in to remove this and another story, guess I'll wait until you had a chance to read the last chapter then. rnrnAnd I'm glad you think so, I know this story isn't the easiestto follow, but I hope it all will make some sense, or that some of the questions will be answerd in the last part. rnrnIt does, I understand how you mean, it's far from easy or un complicated,nor just bad, at least I hope not.
Date: 03/26/12 03:38 pm Title: Georg
This is an extremely complex story, with all kinds of feelings involved but one, I think -- peace. No one is peaceful, no one is able to have hopes for the future. You set some scenes very vividly, you have the ability to draw these sketches with one or two sentences alone -- it's very impressive. At the same time, some scenes are complicated to follow and as a reader you need to keep the attention up and keep focus on what's going on and what's saying what, or you lose it. But doing that is rewarding -- if you can stand the pain Bill is going through. Because this is just so painful. And it's no one's fault. It's just Bill who feels so extremely bad. I am beginning to feel dislike towards Gustav actually, what is he doing in this part? Just watching Bill, and laughing? What good will that do? Tom in pain from seeing his brother like this, it's absolutely painful to read it. Georg is the one who seems to be able to so something, and does something, luckily he is around when Tom has had enough. You asked in the last reply if it's different to read it again, yes it is, because this time I know more about the whole story which makes it easier to follow, and I know that there is some hope in the end, which makes me able to breathe at all.
Author's Response: Interesting how you feel about Gustav here, and maybe that is crule of him? At the same time, maybe the pain Tom feels are more in his head and heart? Some of the things they say indicates that this isn't a new situation, that they have been through this before. Maybe Gustav feels safe in that, knowing things aren't that bad as they seems? Maybe he is the only one finding some peace in all of this? In a way is it only Gustav who treats Bill as a friend, as someone just as good as himself, the only one who don't try to tell Bill what to do or not to do, good or bad, I don't know? But yeah, I guess this is both painful and complicated, and very understandabel that it isn't a popular fic *lol* But I'm so glad you take your time to re-read it, and I'm glad to hear that it's comes out different when you read it before, I hoped it would. I konw you wanted me to make some things clearer,but I really do like the story like this, maybe this is one of those stories you write more for your own sake than to be read?
Date: 03/13/12 04:17 pm Title: Bill
Just a few lines and I know the pain is going to be unbearable. Even if I read it already -- or perhaps just because of that. The flashback to when he's sitting with Nicole is so painful it... tears my chest up. Bill is just a young man, so fucked up, and he seems completely confused about everything that has happened to him. When Jörg says that Bill is his child, too, then I get the feeling he's the only person who really supports and loves Bill without either feeling the need they have to (Tom) or want something in return (everbody else). It's so sad. The scene on the parking lot where Bill has taken steroids is powerful and painful, all of it *sighs* But! With that said, your Bill comes across as a tiny, yet strong, wrecked, yet shimmering person, and I wish only the best for him.
Author's Response: I'm glad you re-read this, and so thankfull for your reviews, makes me also wounder if you read it difrently now when you know the whole story? And yes, I see Bill that way, as deeply confused and lost in this, but at the same so strong. It's intreseting you see Jörg that way, to me, all of them comes across as a victem in some way,everyone are used in some way, no back or withe. But I guess that is also how you see your children, that Jörgs reaction and relation to Bill is the same all parents should bee. I guess he is the only one not leting Bill deal with the his pain too.
Date: 03/10/12 06:21 pm Title: Bill
Oh? Oh... Very, hmm, what word should I use? Very "Bill-löike" chapter of Bill. Equally jumping here and there, trying to collect pieces, almost there but not quite. I have to say that thios chapter made me a bit confused, but I guess it was your intention? Some of the scenes here are very strong and I think the most I like the scene on a partking lot. It was short, seemingly random, but it was very powerfully written.
I really do love your work! It goes so dep, in so complicated structures. :)
Author's Response: Oh yes, sorry for that,but yeah, that was my intention. On the other hand, this chapter gives a lot of information if you know what to look for. Which you ofcourse doesn't yet, but if you read the last part, this makes a lot of sens, and remember, everybody lies, the question is about what, and why?(oh, am I bad towards my readers? sorry for that ;)) That is my favorite too here, I'm glad you liked that scene. And thank you, I'm so glad you do, dispite how hard to read I guess this story is.
Date: 03/09/12 08:11 pm Title: Bill
dear lord what's going on in that story ?
So strange
Very well wriiten with the flash backs as explanations, really it's a very good story
Author's Response: Oh, happy to see you reading another of my stories, not sure if I ever said, but your reviews of my fist fic here meant so, so much to me! And yeah, this is a strange story, really strange, but I hope it will make sense in the end, like I said, there are lots and lots of hints in the text,and only two more parts of it left now. rnThanks,I'm glad you think so!
Date: 03/08/12 05:21 pm Title: Gustav
I absolutely love the structite in this: you mix present and the past. Those little moments of present and the actual story is built on those single memories. I've always loved that jumping in timelines and it gives lot of possibilities to the story.
And you aren't afraid of triggering topics. You made me gri9n. You know why. :)
It is very interesting portrait you are painting at Bill, a pic of very messed up person. Sad. But not only do you write about the mental illness in this fic, this is also about the bond, the twisted, but loyal, loving relationship between all those boys.
Liking this very much, which was no surprise to anyone, I assume. :)
Author's Response: I was a little afraid it would make it hard to read, and wores as I often don't point out when in the past time the parts are before the end of that part, I'm happy you like it! rnAnd yeah, I know what you mean ;) And I'm glad you read it like that, because to me, that is the main point with this story, the story about the four of them, about their love for eatch other. Thanks for reading, will post the next part now :)
Date: 03/08/12 04:46 pm Title: Tom
I'm so excited to finally get ready to review this! I'm waiting so much from this, tbh. I know you have a rough, prtovocative, but also extremely insightful way to see very disturbed issues in human mind. It is something most people can't write since they simply copy bad Hollywood productionbs when it comes to mental issues.
It is both heart-breaking and understandable to see how Tom protects his brother till the end. There are just things you don't share, some pains too deep.
Author's Response: And I'm so glad you are reading this! I'm happy if I manage to avoied that, that Hollywood view on the subject...are always afraid I will end up "wrong" even if this is something I actually do know something about. And yes, somethings are private, don't think there are many, if any, things Tom wouldn't do for his brother. Lying is probably one of the easiest.
Date: 03/07/12 05:27 am Title: Gustav
This is very interesting. I like that I am learning from what is being said, and then just from observations. Your stuff is always so heartbreaking, but I can't help but read it anyway. You are rough around the edges, you need a beta, but your writing makes up for it. (Though you should get a beta, its sad when good writing is overshadowed by stupid mistakes) I can't wait for more!
Author's Response: I'm glad you think so, and I hope the chose of perspective will make sense (had a thought with that, but I'm far from sure it shows). And well, I know, but I'm afraid some of it has more to do whit my way of writing than lack of English scills,even if those are huge. But I'm just as rough around the edges in Swedish, the way of switshing between past and present tens, the lack of words and the broken sentences, that is, I'm afraid, just me :)
Date: 03/04/12 03:17 pm Title: Tom
I loved this! Please keep writing!
I have often wondered about the mental health of the twins to be honest. Not questioning their sanity at all, but they often seem nervous, alert and sensitive to things outside their safe little bubble.
Author's Response: Thanks! This story is already finished, there are a total of five chapters so it won't take long before I update this :) And you are not the only one, that is a feeling I believe many of us gets from time to time. thank you so much for reading and reviewing!
Date: 03/04/12 03:14 pm Title: Gustav
Again, so painful, but so beautiful still and rich in detail, you get so much from reading even though it hurts! Bill seems to believe he's in charge though he keeps putting himself up for abuse, over and over. Gustav seems to really love him, but he, too has sex with Bill even if he perhaps shouldn't. Where are Bill's true friends? It tears at my heart to see how much he suffers. Very good, this. Painful.
Author's Response: I think you points out something important here; is obeying Bill alwasy the same as beeing his friend? Is it right of Gustav to lie? And as you say, when Gustav have sex with him, is that also a kind of abuse, as Gustav must understand that nothing good will come out of it? On the other hand, if you look at it from the other point of view, Bill is also abusing Gustav, Gustav gives him something he probably wouldn't give because he likes to but because it's something he knows Bill want's, and through lying, Gustav also turns down the help he would been given, and needs, to handle Bill. To pretend that Bill is "normal" (awful word, I know) he also let's Bill feel "normal", but they both has to pay a quiet high price for it. Thank you so much for re-reading and reviewing!
Date: 03/04/12 03:01 pm Title: Tom
A very bravely written story. So rich in detail. The pain Tom feels tears at my chest, and Bill is just one walking bundle of pain. The flashback about Bill as little is a treasure. Very good!
Author's Response: Thank you so much, I must say I was suprised then I say your review, but very glad. And oh, he really is, even I feels so sorry for Bill in this story, he carries a lot of pain.
Date: 03/04/12 12:43 pm Title: Tom
its really interesting i like it... a little complicated to understand at first but im in that.... please keeping posting ill keeping reading i like so much your history is very good writed..
:D
Author's Response: Thank you so much, and yeah, I know it's a bit hard, but I hope it will make sense to you in the end, have written all parts of this (are only five) so I don't think it will take longe before the next update. Thanks for reading and reviewing!
Date: 03/04/12 11:14 am Title: Tom
You write really good, I think it is totally interesting and yeah, a little bit different, but I like that kind of stories :D
Author's Response: Thanks! I'm glad to hear you like it! :)