This was so good! I had the feeling i've read it before but i checked the reviews and i haven't left one so i think i've just gotten far too deep in this pairing genre that lines are blurring haha. Anyway, like i said, really good! Any time Bill's star tattoo is mentioned, especially with someone err, defacing it - as you said, i'm hooked!

This would be kind of sweet if Bill were awake. David seems so caring towards Bill, while knowing that what he's doing is so wrong. Even when he's doing the things he does, he's fighting this internal battle.

You wrote this in such a way that it kind of keeps me at ease, while usually I'd be nearly yelling things to fic!David.

Author's Response: I'm so glad that you weren't completely freaked out by this story and that you could see a softer side to it, and to what David is doing, as wrong and immoral as it is. Thank you for the review. ♥

I first time read this in kink_meme without knowing it was yours. I should have guessed by the quality of writing such triggering topic.

Idk, should I be worried of how hot I found this? Disturbing, confusing, the way yopu wrote it almst made me forget the common sense of how it goes with the age difference here. Bill's obvious innocent and David's love - kind of. They make a dangerous combination.

I really liked the way you dived into the picture behind the scene, their innocense and these protective feeling, which I'm sure every older fan feels. There was a taste of love aside of taste of abuse and I'm not sure which one came up more. Maybe they just mixed together? The background story was a big plus.

There were certain wordings used here that are a turn-on for me, so I found them extremely hot and I can't deny of how it affected me. Interesting.

But yeah, this was definitely not "just" smut, this had a much bigger picture behind and this is more like part of a story instead.

Great job, Chelsi! :)

Author's Response: I'm so, so, so glad you could see more than just the smut in this story because the smut was really only a small part. I really wanted to set up the picture of trust (trust given, trust taken, and trust abused) and innocence, and love, and guilt, and everything that would go along with a situation such as this. At the same time, there WAS smut in it, so I don't think you should be ashamed to find it hot. We all have our triggers, and it's probably just the idea of it being wrong that makes it feel naughty and good. =)

Thank you so much for reading and reviewing. ♥ ♥ ♥

But you know? I liked this. Now...I'm not going to deny the same squidgy unpleasantness that everyone else experienced, but truthfully? I think if you didn't experience unpleasantness, then you need to put down the laptop and run, don't walk, to your nearest psychotherapist's office. That's just me.

That being said, writing about a thing never made one a believer in it, so even though I already know you're crazy...I'm not worried about your motives. :) I'm going to concede that you did a wonderful job with this. But let me tell you why. Ahem...

David is so vulnerable in this that it's almost...not quite, but almost heartbreaking. You see him as a guy who loves Bill, and knows right from wrong, and doesn't want to hurt anybody, least of all Bill. He goes out of his way to be gentle, and tender, and well...loving while he's doing what he's doing. Even though Bill is out for the count, Dave wants to give as good as he gets. He's not there to just take. He wants Bill to feel good, and loved, and safe, even to the point of wishing he could be awake for it. It makes it hard to see him as a dirty, dirty pedophile, and in fact...forces the reader into an awkwardly uncomfortable sympathy for the guy. You actually pulled off making the straight-up pedophiliac rape of one of our most beloved and vulnerable characters into a situation where we're all going, "But wait..."

In the meantime, you're thinking about how he deliberately went to the other three guys first. How he lied to Tom, because in truth...Tom would probably never, ever allow anyone to sedate his brother when he wasn't there. Ever.

You know in your heart what Tom would do if he say, walked in and caught Dave one night. That too, splits you down the middle because on one hand, you feel bad for Dave, and on the other, you want to run down the hall and start pounding on Tom's door to tattle.

This is quite an intricate piece of work, really. I wonder how many of the people that are going to read this are going to pick it apart all scientific-like like I did? I wonder if they're even going to understand why they're feeling the way they did, because the reviews you've received so far all indicate consistency of reaction. This is what writing is all about, right here. Puppet-stringing. Drawing an audience in, giving them something they know they probably shouldn't like, and having them leave satisfied, saying, "What just happened?" You know what this reminds me of? A Salvador Dali. But let me tell you why.

Salvador Dali's work is interesting to say the least. From a distance, or at first glance it appears to be one thing, and it makes you cringe, furrows your brow, maybe even makes you say, "Ewww...." But then you get closer, and closer and you start to understand the thing. Stuff you didn't see before makes itself known and slowly, awe-struck, you find yourself beginning to understand it. By the time other museum-goers make it to that painting, you're standing there like an idiot with your mouth-open and your eyes wide, going, "I get it!"

This story was like that for me, which is why I wanted to sleep on it before reviewing for real. And this is the longest review I've ever written.

But yeah, Tom would kill him. In the face. Repeatedly.

Author's Response: I think you've made very valid points, and you picked up on a lot of the little things that I threw in, not expecting anyone to pick up on. Just quick lines that did their small part in moving the story forward, but also did a lot more in setting up the scene and the feeling of it all. I didn't want David to be a creeper, but at the same time, we all know that what he's doing is wrong. But he can't help it. Sometimes we can't help the way we feel, and sometimes we aren't strong enough to not act on impulse.

I'm not saying that I think this actually happened, or that it would be okay if it had, but if it had happened, I think this is as close to the truth as it would have gotten.

I'm a bit concerned at just how much this turned me on. I felt guilty, but it didn't stop me from reading if. Twice. ;)

Author's Response: Well, you aren't alone. That seems to be the consensus among readers. I'm glad you liked it (twice, omg!) haha Thank you so much. <333

I feel like I shouldn't have enjoyed reading this as much as I did. Very well written.

Author's Response: Never regret something that once made you happy! LOL I feel your pain, though. I felt pretty awkward while writing it. xD

Ooooh, this was yours as well. Unf. Read it and loved it.

Author's Response: Yep, this one was also mine. Glad you liked it! ♥