Date: 02/13/12 11:54 pm Title: Chapter 16
I really dont want Bill to go with bushido i would be so disapointed! I saw hope in Tom in the last chapter.... Hes gotta do something for Bill hes gotta make everything alright for good
Author's Response: We'll have to see what happens!
Date: 02/13/12 09:12 pm Title: Chapter 16
Is this where I tell you I really really want him to drop Tom like a hot rock and run to Anis? Yep, it is.
The dynamic between Tom and Bill is so good, but I want him to be happy.
I have really, really enjoyed this story so far. Who ever submitting this for the feature was dead on. Thanks to them!
Author's Response: Thank you, thank you! I'm glad you're liking it. I don't know who submitted it either, but holy cow, I was so excited! .....I want Bill to be happy, too <:\
Date: 02/13/12 03:08 pm Title: Chapter 1
Umm... where do I start? Can I write in Spanish? haha. Do you comprehend it a bit? My English is not good enough, but I try my best...
Well, I don't get why so many people want a Bill/Tom ending, that would be utterly boring for me, sorry... I mean, I've read some B/T stories and I really get into the plot, if the story is good, of course. Even I sometimes forget that I'm reading fiction.
Bill has a turmoil in his brain and heart and I think he must give himself the opportunity to feel another things with Anis to be able to make a proper decision about his future.
We (all Billshido lovers) have to thank to Bushido for creating such an amazing fantasy, OMG he rocks! The only thing I hate about him right now, is the fact that in real life he's screwing his fucking "girlfriend" =(
Por último, ˇmuchas gracias por tus excelentes historias y por mantener vivo el Billshido!
Author's Response: I know exactly what you mean! I'm surprised at how many people still want T/B together (usually people freak OUT on cheaters). I can understand if they expect Bill not to just pack and run, to at least try. But I'm glad there are a few out there who like Anis. (Not too interested in the real guy, but I'm glad he opened his big mouth too! We have HIM to thank for Billshido!) Muchas gracias, Constanza!
Date: 02/13/12 02:51 pm Title: Chapter 16
Poor Anis... He's taking it worse than Bill, but then I need a fresh POV from Bill to establish that ;) I need to know what Tom feels right now. I thought he was doing remarkably well the day after and he had a few glimpses of 'old' Tom but I'm impressed what he's willing to do to keep his husband. He's been controlled all his life by his dad so he's entitled to figured out how to function in his new skin.
In love or not, Anis is not ready for anything if he's going to continue the lifestyle that drove Andrej away.
Author's Response: Bill's pov coming up, but there's a slight time jump (just a few months, I'm hoping it's not too jarring). We'll see how they're doing, and how the fall-out is affecting Tom (he's going through a lot of changes, too, and he's going to react to stress and pressure). I'm thinking Bill might cope better with Anis's bumps, abrasions, stab wounds, etc, than Andrej did. But, as he's still married to Tom, we may never find out (coughs).rnrnThank you for reviewing again, love hearing from you!
Date: 02/13/12 01:32 pm Title: Chapter 16
I can't feel bad that Bill is seeking out Anis even while trying to mend his relationship with Tom. I mean, who else does the poor guy have to talk to? His best friend is a psycho who's been stalking him and almost killing him in an attempt to get his attention, and his husband has turned out to be a cheater who he's trying to learn to trust again. Anis has proved himself capable in dealing with all kinds of trouble and he deals with things in a calm assured way that helps Bill feel calm too. So, yes, Bill could be accused of cheating on Tom but his world has just crumbled about his ears and Tom was one of the people who weilded the sledge hammer. He's turning to the one person who hasn't let him down so far. Talking to Anis about ordinary every day things like films seems to be his way of connecting and giving him an excuse to keep talking and just listening to the voice of the man who makes him feel good in a fucked up situation. So I don't bame him even though its making things hard for both him and his PI. It's Anis who I really feel sorry for because he's trying so hard to put Bill out of his mind, even going on a date, but he's fighting a losing battle. As usual, an incredible chapter and looking forward to the next one.
Author's Response: Thank you! I agree wholeheartedly! Anis is an emotionally stable person, and Bill doesn't have one of those anywhere in his life, and desperately wants one. I'm glad you saw all of this in the story (Tom "weilded the sledge hammer" - love it!) And I feel for Bushido, too. Accepting that he's in love with Bill, and still trying to move on, is just ...I guess poignant would be the word. Thanks for the review, I'm so happy you're sharing your thoughts!
Date: 02/13/12 06:28 am Title: Chapter 16
Bonito capi..... Sound of music? And addicted? I'll watching :)
Author's Response: Prego!
Date: 02/13/12 02:02 am Title: Chapter 16
Honestly I really don't know how to feel it's like... I guess for some reason feeling bad for Bill and Bu seems like the easy way out. I do really like your story but the way I see it falling out of love is not an easy or quick process. Falling in love or rather lust with someone that's helping you in a dangerous situation on the other hand happens a lot. I dont know why bill is falling for Bu but I will say I consider bills affair worse than Toms because emotional affairs are the worse kind. At the end of the day Bill is no better than Tom because if you have such high moral standards you'd end things with one person before even considering things with someone else. I mean even in this chapter bill says he wants to work on things but if im not mistaken he called Bu which is still cheating just not the physical kind. Then say Bu and bill do get together relationships that are built on cheating seem doomed. Sometimes i think in relationships its easier to walk away,but it takes courage to stay and fight.I know I kind of rambled my way through this but that's just my opinion. All I know is that it's your story and I hope whatever conclusion you come up is awesome.
Author's Response: This is a great review! Nice and opinionated! Gives me something to work with. I love that you're not taking the easy road of feeling for Bill/Bu, that you thought it all out and decided that Bill's being a jerk. Bravo! My take on relationships and affairs is a bit different. I think people are very complicated, relationships are very difficult, and sex drives only add fuel to most problems. Tom might not emotionally cheat, but he's a serial cheater, which may mean that it's a deeply embedded behavioral issue. Bill may not physically cheat, but he's searching for an emotional connection, support, and affection from outside his marriage, which would definitely damage the foundation of his relationship with Tom only further. People have a lot of difficulty making big decisions in life. They are afraid to give up what they have for uncertainties. They don't want to face loss. Many times they aren't sure of their own feelings. There are moral and ethical issues that people like to think of as black and white - cheating is bad, in any manner. Relationships that are started by cheating are doomed. But human emotions are much more gray area than that. They are very complex. And that's really where I'm trying to go here, in this little story. No real good guy/bad guy, even Tom, who was shaped by his upbringing and continues to be willingly manipulated by his father. Not Bill, who comes from a damaged family and missed out on what healthy relationships are but is desperate for one anyway. And not Bu, who is achingly lonely. I hope that this all conveys, just a little, and I hope the conclusion stays true to form. Thanks for your lovely review!
Date: 02/13/12 12:40 am Title: Chapter 9
Ahaaa.. I think I'm on to something here, I think I might know who's the culprit, but I still can't figure out his motive D8 Seriously though, I'm glad I gave a shot at your story, it's amazing :) But Tom is such an asshole for cheating on Bill and then pretending nothing's happenned, lying, trying to get into his pants again! I don't know what I would do in Bill's situation...
Author's Response: I'm glad you gave it a chance, too! Yes, Tom has some personality ....issues. I don't know if BILL knows what he's going to do! Thanks for all your reviews :)
Date: 02/12/12 11:32 pm Title: Chapter 7
I am so into your story right now lol. I really wonder who wants to get rid of Bill and what his true intentions are D: I love the feeling of suspense, I can't wait to know more about the case, as well as what's going to happen between Anis and Bill :) (I love his name, Anis, by the way haha!)
Date: 02/12/12 08:40 pm Title: Chapter 4
I feel like crying for Bill, he's had such a difficult life and now this? Tom cheating on him? I wonder if they're going to patch things up or just keep ignoring this...
Date: 02/12/12 11:36 am Title: Chapter 15
You know, I haven't been this emotionally conflicted on a pairing since reading 'This Hour's Duty'. My absolute favorite pairing is Bill/Bushido; however, there are a few rare stories that cause me to root just as hard for Bill/Tom...and this is one of them. I actually want Bill and Tom to work on their marriage and have a family and all, but I still want to explore the Bill/Bushido dynamic, but as a relationship somehow, not for a quick fling. My aforementioned conflict only occurs when there is excellent writing. You have that amazing technique that allows us readers to be right there in scene, in the room with all the characters. I also love they way that you can seamlessly inject the characters thoughts while dialogue is simultaneously occurring and it just effortlessly flows. Kudos! You're just that good.
Author's Response: Sobbing with joy about now. To get this kind of feedback just knocks my panties off! I was amazed at how many Billshido haters grudgingly said they like this Bushido (subliminal messages, I swear, were NOT used in this story youwilllovebuyouwilllovebu). That I've got a Billshido lover pulling for B/T, how the heck did that happen?! I loved This Hour's Duty, but when Bu died, it broke my heart - the Billshido in that story was so intense, and to have it ripped away from me! Noooo!!!! That hurt. rnrnThank you for taking time to write such a detailed, thoughtful review. It makes me so happy to know that you're walking in my imagination with me.
Date: 02/12/12 03:56 am Title: Chapter 1
You seem young, how do you know all these things? How do you know how people are reacting when their heart is broken in a marriage, what they see and what they think? Some details left me speechless, so to say.
You shouldnt know that, I hope its just an insight you were born with, not aquired.
Now you are the reason of my lack of sleep. Just finished reading Digging 3 minutes ago. Thank god is sunday.
You are right about Bushido in King of Kings, I had to stop reading that at some point, take a break, just couldnt take it anymore. And its long.
Indeed you fixed it with the Digging... series. He was so perfect in that...!
I cant wait to see the next chapter of this story. Its my absolute favorite at the moment (together with Cupids Chokehold, but in a different category).
Author's Response: I seem young! That's good, because I certainly don't feel my age. I'm not young (which is why I'm here for the gay fic, not as a th fan. Never did "fan," anyway). Character studies, personalities, and emotions have just always been fairly easy for me to see. It'a all laid out, like a full astrology chart. One little behavior can show how mommy treated you when you were five. I suck at math, but I'm good at people equations!rnrnI am awestruck that I kept you awake! Fyredancer made me lose a LOT of sleep. Glad it's your weekend, though. I can't tell you how much it means to me that you took the time to write all your well-thought out reviews. rnrnAnd I'm so glad you liked Digging! Did someone say "cheese?" Don't care! I love it!rnrnBeing your favorite story right now - that blows me away (especially mentioned right next to CC.....Okay, that is some high praise. That story, along with Mohanrocks' Work Out, are the BEST funny stories ever. They've inspired my next story, I hope I can live up to them. Cupid's Chokehold.....Lordy. I'm ecstatic that he's sticking with it, but a tiny black cloud hangs over me during the six weeks between chapters). rnrnThank you again for talking to me!
Date: 02/11/12 09:26 pm Title: Chapter 6
OMG.. This story has, I think ,everything that I wanted to read in a fanfic.. and is so perfectly written!.. I get so indignant when Bill saw Tom with that whore!..I didnt see that coming! I thought he was just busy you know! It can happen! or maybe I´m too naive.. I dont know..
Oh and the dreams.. those sounded like real persons dreams!.. I said: wowww.. is this a fanfic?? is very well written! .. I´m really enjoying this and
wanted to say: thank you and very well done!! ;) .. I wish I could write this in spanish hahhaaha..sorry for my bad english ..
Oh I think that the guy who is doing this is Andreas.. maybe he is obssessed..or something like that O_O
Author's Response: You're English is really good! De Espana? Mexico? rnrnThanks for the review, I'm glad to have impressed you!
Date: 02/11/12 02:59 pm Title: Chapter 1
Somehow I find I dont have even a drop of sympathy for Tom or Anis. My heart goes 100% to Bill, who, in a twisted way, was so faithful.
Tom cheated like hell and Anis kind of took advantage of Bills pain and insecurities.
Someone said that Tom needs to have his shit sorted out!!! I loved it, I giggled like 5 minutes doing things in the house, it was so graphic and exact...
Author's Response: I had to think a sec about Tom getting his "shit sorted out." Then I could picture it. Andi decides to "fix" Tom for Bill, and beats him with a roller skate.
Date: 02/11/12 02:48 pm Title: Chapter 15
I read this in the morning and I found myself overwhelmed.
First, because I enjoyed the news of several extra chapters. I came to absolutely adore this story.
The way you developed Bills character is beyond my expectations. To see him wanting to save his marriage, especially after he had a taste of what life could be with another man that he likes and that likes him. Before Tom, he never gave himself permission to have a relationship, he seemed virtually virgin emotionally, too.
But now he has a posibility to compare ans yet he still wants his husband.
I especially liked the phrase where he wonders how many couples were happy in that house and how many will be. Its a power of introspection I didnt see in Bill. And I resonated so painfully when he thought that his home was (very well phrased) a labyrinth of bad memories.
He has grown so much, unfortunately through pain, he doesnt know exactly what he wants yet he manages to keep his husband and doesnt lose his friendship with Anis (god, I hate the real man but he has such a beautiful sounding name!!!). And he puts his life on track.
On the other hand, I didnt expect Tom to make such a dramatic cut of the relation with his father. This goes deeper than I thought. Although I am very pleasantly surprised, I dont trust this Tom. Yet. He must prove himself to me more.
I have the feeling that they all are going to surprise me more.
Kudos to Judith182 who gave you the push to write the sequel. Im sure you had it somewhere already.
I sure hope to see the future of these guys and Im so curious about the baby thing, this would be another life changing experience for Bill and I would like to see it. No matter who the father is! There, an option.
I started to read your other fics, Im so impressed and I like very much what I read so far. But I will leave the reviews there.
Author's Response: Wow. Wow. I love this review. That you take your reading to such depth, and break it down, and analyze it (I love analyzing things. Give me a gum wrapper, I'll get into Freudian dream theories and marketing to the subconscious). The part where you point out that Bill is "virtually virgin emotionally" - very precise! Love it! "Hi, I'm an emotional virgin, nice to meet you." That is a great phrase for such a deep personality aspect! rnrnAnd noting that Anis has so much to offer that appeals to Bill - I think so many people are rooting for Bill/Tom that they are pushing that fact aside, I'm glad you could see the worth in that pairing. Bill for the first time in his life doesn't know what he wants, you're right, so not having anything to really hold onto has him feeling pretty insecure. rnrnI don't trust New Tom, either! But we'll have to see how determined he is not just to keep Bill, but to make a healthy, mature relationship (wouldn't it be nice if that were easy for anyone!). rnrnAnd a lot of people say they hate Bushido. I don't take into consideration the real people, so any possible sliminess of his real character doesn't taint what I take from them for the stories. What does - really powerful works by other writers. The Bushido in King of Kingz devastated me. I had to fix it a little with the Digging stories! rnrnThanks again for a great ....discussion. Working on chapter 16 tomorrow.... whew, this is some hard work, but you guys make it so worth it!
Date: 02/11/12 02:48 pm Title: Chapter 15
Solid job, mizu. I've just caught up with all chapters and I'm thrilled by the way the story has developed.
Your characters are great and very detailed and I love we get the many 1st pov's. Good job and I look forward to what happens next.
Author's Response: I'm very flattered you're enjoying this! I really enjoy yours as well - End of the Road was great! Thanks for letting me know you read this, I really appreciate it!
Date: 02/11/12 10:51 am Title: Chapter 15
Real Tom is manly and beautiful. Way more attractive and dangerous than Bushido, in my opinion. I honestly have no idea what he is thinking at the moment. They are learning to fall in love all over again. I am definitely rooting for Tom/Bill with a baby because I know this pairing could only have a tragic ending. Bushido/Bill would be boring.
Sorry for the gushy incoherent review. Such is the effect of this story.
On another note, the details of the breakdown of a marriage are painfully there and very real; where did you get these insights from?
Author's Response: Real Tom is trying so hard to put his life back together before it all collapses around him. I think Bill is trying really hard to tolerate Tom right now, and hopes that love will come back eventually. (Just like real marriages that survive affairs - you have to break it down and rebuild it completely). Bill and Bushido boring.... I can see how you might think of them like that. They're both quietly passionate people, everything works under the surface instead of on top, with an obvious fire. I like both, but it depends on the character. rnrnGlad the story is having such an affect on you!rnAnd I've always been a natural analyzer of people, motives, personalities, basic characteristics. People have always been pretty easy for me to figure out, for the most part, so I think that helps when I describe them, because I can see small details describing big things. I'm glad it comes across in my writing :D
Date: 02/11/12 08:04 am Title: Chapter 15
throu the whole story in every chapter you kept pulling me in ^_^ every chapter i would have a new idea a surprising one, but the part where andi was the one who was doin alll tht i kinda suspected but i was sure it was tom andi was just the side and then it ended up for the dad to be the cause of all of this -.- such an ass -.- but anyway in this chapter i am very sure bill would end up with bushido it is writen in bright red between the lines of this chapter it is true it ended up with bill and tom being alll happy and stuff but if really i think you will end him up whit bushido :) i wouldn't be surprised with tht ending, i am kinda disappointed thou i reallly wanted him to end up with tom since he seems to be changing alot :) ^_^ , oh and btw when is the next chapter ? and i was day dreaming the other day abt this story XD where bill ends up with tom and tom changes into this perfect husband for bill and andrej would finally comeback cuz a paper wrote about how the famous tumper's house caught fire and who the p.i tht was there and bushido's name was there and it reminded him of bu so he would go bakc to him XD ... i knwo i am crazy i rel would wish it would end up liek tht ^_^ :) :*
Author's Response: I do that, too - try to fix the sadder stories in my head. But a wonderful super fairytale ending wouldn't quite match this one. I'm so glad you're enjoying it so much that it's got you living in it! And thanks for taking the time to let me know (and did you see the tiny thing I put in this chapter just for you??)
Date: 02/11/12 07:49 am Title: Chapter 15
Ooh. Some angsty fluff thing. I like it.
Author's Response: Angsty fluff, fluffy angst..... s'all good!
Date: 02/11/12 04:30 am Title: Chapter 15
OK i understand that part tho i'm really sad Bill and Bushido may not come back together
Author's Response: O.O Um.... let's see....Bill needs to try to fix things with his husband. He took the marriage very seriously (after a tumultuous childhood, stability means a lot to him, so he is very mature) and can't just walk away.