Date: 02/15/12 08:21 pm Title: Chapter 17
Definitivamente amo esta historia :D
Author's Response: e absolutamente amor tu resena! muchas gracias, amiga!
Date: 02/15/12 08:16 pm Title: Chapter 1
Wow this story is intense! Haha I love it, I've never been a bushido fan but his character in this story is really well writen. I usally never finish reading stories where theres cheating and it looks like Tom & Bill wont end up together but im hooked so we will see :) I I really hope Bill isn't falling out of love with him :x
Date: 02/15/12 02:30 pm Title: Chapter 17
really, Tom? a child? will he cheat again if they have a baby? actually I like Bill and Tom be together but I am still a little bit peeve on Tom.
Author's Response: Well, relationships like this are supposed to be life-long. You meet, fall in love, get married, there's life, and you get buried side by side. Here's how life long relationships work, if they can get past the rough times: Good stuff. Bad stuff bad stuff bad stuff. Hate. Disinterest. Boredom. Little bit of renewed passion. Comfort. Bad stuff. Some good stuff. Love. Peace. And the longer the relationship, the more often the roller coaster goes up and down. So, will Tom cheat again? Will Bill get some on the side? Maybe not now. But five years from now? A decade? I can't imagine a 40 year old Tom not having ever cheated on Bill again. Can you?
Date: 02/15/12 01:47 pm Title: Chapter 17
so very realistic! good job.
Author's Response: Yay! So glad it's coming across like what I see! Thank you!
Date: 02/15/12 08:07 am Title: Chapter 17
Tom is really investing everything he can in saving his marriage. It would destroy him the same way Bill was destroyed by his cheating if he lost his husband.
Bill seems pretty lost concerning himself at the moment in spite of his studies which should give him at least one solid goal. It doesn't help that he's in love with Anis. Makes you wonder if he was ever in love with Tom or just his money and social status. Tom turns him on but is it enough? So that fraction is missing right now. He needs to become acquainted with the real Tom because he obvious wasn’t introduced to that side of him when they met and eventually married. I like the fact that Tom was going against his father back then. Counts for something when he could have anyone he wanted...
What can Tom do to make Bill fall in love with him 'more' than Anis' simple loving gestures can? Or was Anis just there at the right time? It still feels like Tom is doing everything he possibly can to make Bill understand that he's definitely more in love with Bill than he's ever realised before. So far, he succeeds to surprise Bill on several occasions that works for him - and some that are too soon *G*
Anis is totally sweet but I'm rooting for Bill and Tom :)
Sorry about my messy and probably repetitive observations :)
Author's Response: Tom would be pretty devastated, definitely. I think Bill never would have married Tom if he didn't love him. He would have had his pick of men for just money and status. He was HAPPY. Then he started having his doubts. But I think he justified and excused, thinking his husband might have an affair here and there, but he might be able to ignore them enough, pretend they weren't happening. When he had to really face it, and the extent of it, I think it was a huge blow. It wouldn't be that hard to fall out of love with someone, when they weren't who you thought they were. rnTom explained how he stuck with Bill because his dad didn't act terribly disapproving, so it gave him some balls. Tom's working on Bill, but it will take a LOT. I think for Anis/Bill it was timing, in the beginning, then potential, then something real. rnYou can be messy and repetitive all you like, I love your reviews, thank you!
Date: 02/15/12 07:47 am Title: Chapter 17
Aww. Poor Bu. And poor Bill, he seems so torn. And I kind of feel bad for Tom as wel, because now he's hoping for a baby, when Bill doesn't want to give him one. I wonder how things will turn out.
Author's Response: Hm, me too! They're all kind of a little sad right now, huh? Poor guys....
Date: 02/15/12 06:42 am Title: Chapter 17
So much happened in this chapter. It kind of broke my heart when Bill went to visit Andi and I'm wondering if there's stuff Andi discovered about Tom while he was stalking Bill that he's not telling. The sexy time on the sofa was funny and hot, but I was angry with Tom that he still spits instead of swallows. Don't know why that bugged me, it just did, though maybe I see it as a way of him rejecting a bit of Bill...or am I over anylysing and he just doesn't like the taste? LOL!!! The therapist's session was really interesting. Seems to me that Steve and Tom maybe did have some deal going on because having had some experience of therapy, and about to start studying a counselling course, it seemed wrong that the therapist appeared to side so much with Tom and almost be pressuring Bill into agreeing to a baby. Not exactly normal counselling procedure I would think. And what can I say about Bill and Anis at the end. So sad, so sweet, so tender and so damned painful to read. I loved everything about this chapter. Incredible story. Thank you.
Author's Response: I laughed reading the part about not liking Tom spitting. It's just a douchey little thing he does, but it matches him. I couldn't see him being the type who swallows, and he's not about to do something he really doesn't want to do. As for the one-sided therapist, been there, seen it, didn't like it. So, I think it's more that Steve just feels a better understanding for Tom's point of view. rnAnd thank you for letting me know what you thought about that Anis/Bill part. It works in my head, it feels like it works for the characters, but sometimes I worry it doesn't come across as smoothly as I'd like. Maybe a bit too much. But how you described it was exactly how I felt. Thank you!
Date: 02/15/12 06:09 am Title: Chapter 17
NO NO NO u can't separate Bushido from Bill
u're gonna kill me
great chapter though
I think bill is being manipulated by Tom and their therapist but once again he just let himself be used like a rag doll
Author's Response: It's very refreshing to know there is a diehard Billshido fan reading this! Glad you're enjoying it. I don't feel too bad for Bill right now, because he's making his choices, and sometimes life is so much simpler when you let people manipulate you a little.
Date: 02/15/12 05:08 am Title: Chapter 17
omg!!! the scene with bill and anis was so intense,i changed my mind : can they end up together? :D
i have to thank u for this wonderful story
Author's Response: And then look what you did! I'm going to have to punish you now. rnI loved writing this part of the story, and it makes it that much better to know you loved reading it. Thank you, thank you!
Date: 02/15/12 03:36 am Title: Chapter 17
Im shocked to realize that I dont care at this moment whom Bill will end up with. Im just going with the flow.
Its not like its a race.
Author's Response: I loved this one - total submission. reminded me of Azaria's Breathe (great, great story!). There is happiness in submission. (no evil laugh there. None.)
Date: 02/15/12 03:32 am Title: Chapter 1
It seems I hit the wrong button.
I was saying that it is good that Bill and Anis have confessed to eachother, its out in the plain and its making everything more dramatic.
I wonder if Bill is falling out of love with Tom... (I love that expression)
Anyway, Im competely hooked, if I find this updated in the morning, than I have a very good day!
Date: 02/15/12 03:22 am Title: Chapter 17
Poor Bill.
You have a thing for making my poor Bill be in love with two people at the same time.
I am impressed with Tom, it seems he is seriously trying to change.
But somehow he is taking everything too easy. From the moment he mentioned the baby thing I was wondering, just like Bill, if he bribed the therapyst...
I guess I will just wait and see, for now I am basking in the pleasure of reading the chapter.
Someone said in a review that Bill is emotionally cheating. I think he doesnt even know what that means. He doesnt have the experience of cheating or the at least the experience of HAVING a relationship other than the one with Tom.
He even wants to keep Andi in his life because he didnt allow himself to have too many close people around. Thats so sad.
Its good,though, that Bill and Anis have
Author's Response: I can see how the other reader thinks Bill is emotionally cheating. He's turning to Anis, focusing on good feelings with him, being emotionally intimate, instead of focusing on his husband. Which I understand. But I agree with you about him being a bit emotionally stunted when it comes to interpersonal relationships. Sorry, I won't be updating for a few more days, working lots, but writing, too, so hopefully Sunday morning!
Date: 02/15/12 02:05 am Title: Chapter 17
Gruh. Even moar difficult. At this point I'm further towards desiring Bill to end up with Tom, BUT it's not due to a real inclination... Now I'm feeling secondhand *guilt* that Tom is trying so hard to fix things. I feel like it would be cruel if Bill left him now. (I'm rather easily swayed by guilt)
Zomg. I'm still following every update of this... cringing for any heartbreak XD
Author's Response: Guilt - one of the best "appeal to emotions" tool out there! I feel bad for Tom, too. He's just rolling off the pen as a changed man! Oh dear. I know one of these guys, at least, will end up hurt. I wanna cry! ;) Thanks for reviewing :D
Date: 02/15/12 12:34 am Title: Chapter 17
Divorce, divorce, divorce... i just imagined the look on Tomīs face, muajajajaja xD
Author's Response: Me too, me too!!rnHey, wait a minute! I really meant to say, "Poor Tom." rn(Scary horror film giggle)
Date: 02/15/12 12:22 am Title: Chapter 17
Oh the last kiss!? Will be? Great cap! I loved it! XD
Author's Response: We'll see! And thank you! <:D
Date: 02/15/12 12:21 am Title: Chapter 17
I totally understand what you mean about the relationships and how you view them. I just honestly looked at the facts and I guess they added up differently to me. I get how someone may say that Bu is the only person that Bill has to talk to, but you can't really say you are working on your marriage but talking to the person you are quote unquote in love with. I thinks its bull crap I mean end it and move the hell on because the way he is handling things makes therapy pointless. How can someone try and gain your trust and heart back when your not really trying. Anything that Tom does is going to pale in comparison to Bu at this point. I also don't know what toms reasons for cheating are, but he probably has some deep inner issues that need to be dealt with. I do know one thing though, that Bill not being honest with Tom makes him no better than him. It doesn't matter how many times you cheat on someone because the point is that you were able to do it in the first place. So I don't know how to feel. People say you can't help who you love, but truthfully I always thought that's just an excuse people came up with to explain doing messed up stuff. This whole situation is so complex and it's driving me nuts, but I love it. Maybe I'll feel bad in coming chapters when Tom cheats again because right now all I see is Bu being encouraged to go after a married man and Bill acting like he is trying to fix his marriage.
Author's Response: Relationships are terribly complicated things. Bill had planned on investing a life time with Tom. But..things happen. Life gets difficult. People do things you don't want them to. YOU do things you don't always want to. We make hard, bad, wrong, compromised decisions. We can have strongly conflicting desires. We can hate someone and love them at the same time. Want to stay and want to leave equally. We almost always KNOW BETTER, but how many people do the right thing? I'm glad that all this mess isn't making you just walk away, though, frustrating as it is!
Date: 02/14/12 11:36 pm Title: Chapter 17
Damn it! You've gone and done it again. You give it to us just to take it back, it's so cruel. Wow, that alley scene and description--Perfection. I'm starting to see these two relationship dynamics sort of like "The Notebook" in way. I mean Tom is the obvious "catch" on paper and Bill can have a fine life with him and their kids, but I feel like Bushido is the "One". Bill will be able to live his Best life with him, not Tom. They can go on adventures and travel and be carefree and laugh about stupid things and have kids as well. It's funny because I remember at the beginning of this story (Chap.2 I think) when Bill went to see Bushido and he was telling him about all of the incidents that were occurring, he caught himself when he was about to curse in front of him, then in the last chapter when talking about the movie, he just curses so effortlessly while on the phone with him. It's a small observation that speaks volumes. It seems as though Bill feels he can be his whole true self with Bushido; he doesn't have to watch himself and be so hyper aware of his actions. They feed each other's souls so deliciously. :)
Author's Response: Love the observations! Yeah, Bill did try to seem like a well-heeled "grown-up," but he's letting his hair down, relaxing, feels like he doesn't have to impress anyone. Especially when he isn't face-to-face with someone. Nice, very nice! As for the alley scene: I know! Working on this chapter in my head last night, that was the scene that popped in, anchored the whole thing. Haven't seen "The Notebook," but I get the gist of it, and I can agree. But Bill likes things "on paper." They make him feel super secure. I really get pulled as to what this guy wants more - on the one hand, he honestly needs financial security to be happy. On the other hand, that's so empty without being able to enjoy it with someone. Maybe Tom will step up. Maybe Bill will step down. Sigh....maybe I'll write 2 endings.
Date: 02/14/12 10:42 pm Title: Chapter 17
Why do I have the feeling that Tom isn't being sincere and that he is playing Bill? I just have this feeling in the back of my mind that he hasn't changed and that he won't change. Hmm, guess I'll just have to wait and see!
I'm still loving this, though! I'm a total Tom/Bill girl but I am loving Bill/Bushido right now!
Author's Response: Tom??!! A player???!!!! Well then he needs a baby mama, don't he? (snicker)rnrnI think Bill and Tom just feel like untethered balloons right now. Tom thinks a baby will help ground their lives. (Right into the grave, but that's jmo about babies!) Course, it's easy for him, he doesn't have to have it! (and he won't even bottom, selfish bastard, but he expects Bill to prepare his body to carry a child, gestate it, and have it). I LOVE that so many B/T fans are liking the Billshidoooooo! Thank you for writing :D
Date: 02/14/12 01:59 am Title: Chapter 16
WHY DO YOU TORTURE ME?!
This isn't even a real review, that's what you've reduced me to.
Author's Response: Can't say I'm sorry, I love the strong reaction!! Very flattered. Besides, we're ALL suffering with this one!
Date: 02/14/12 01:28 am Title: Chapter 16
Poor Bu. I find it sad that he realized he's love in love with Bill but he can't do anything except try to move on.
Author's Response: I know, he's such a broken hearted stoic. :(