Date: 03/31/13 05:32 pm Title: Accidental Confessions
Loved it! Really!
Date: 08/12/12 12:39 pm Title: Accidental Confessions
hey! this review should make it clear i got your message lol. Sorry your internets down =/Things aren't really all that good but im so deep in my nirvana that i cant really even complain cause it's not hitting me like it should since im so numb. I know i've said that before, but it's worse. Im seriously feeling next to nothing. My emotions are all up in my head and barely in my heart any more. Im still caged in, sadly. I kinda have a big shot at my singing dreams though if i can somehow get to new york for a audition in september. Don't ask me how im gonna do that though. Especially since I would need to try to move out first too. - makes a face- lol How goes life on your end miss lady? OH and on a side note- my dads officially a complete dick. Sorry to throw that in randomly, but I just got off a Facebook thing which confirms it so I had to throw it in there since it's fresh in my mind.
Date: 07/24/12 01:26 pm Title: Accidental Confessions
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
comment one: what color is bills hair dyed? black?
comment 2: what's 'the painful good old fashioned way' of getting rid of a fever?
comment 3: ooh. thaaaat's what happened. Poor kay :'(. Was she 7 months preg. by the gang, or by kay?
comment4: ""It's never worth it to take a human life. I don't care how good you think the fucking cause is. To send a soul to Hell for the sake of someone's salvation or revenge for something someone's done to you makes you just as evil as the motherfucker you killed," OUCH. and also, not true if you ask me.
comment 5: "The tension in the air almost made Anis cowar away from the teenager's fierce stare." hahahahahaa
comment 6: whoooo for the girl doctor and her secret connections!
comment 7: why did he just cover gordon's ass?
comment 8: shouldn't the lena person take a few pics of bill's backside for the case? I know it's not exactly nice to take them while he's asleep and unassuming, but adam has to know at this point that it's going to be a battle to get him to willingly take them while he's awake. He saw the reaction to the video tape. Just saying, it's a thought.
comment9: call me paranoid, but is there any cameras in this floor of the hospital? With all the going back and forth between rooms, i can't help wondering.
Author's Response: Yay!!! How are you? My internets down for a while. I don't know how long, butI will respond to all your comments asap and if you want I can try to start emailing again when I get it back up. How are things going? Leave me a review and let me know if you got this because I get on my mother in laws computer from time to time or shoot me an email!!rnLove you and miss you dearly. Life just gets in the way of shit sometimes, but I'll hopefully be back by October and I'll be better at emailing you and others that I talk to. Hope everything is good your way and I hope to talk to you soon.
Date: 07/24/12 01:25 pm Title: The Best Medicine
chapter thirteen
comment 1: oh yay. things are slowly falling apart from with in on the dark side. wwoooot.
comment2: "believe me, friend it will go to trial, and I can't promise we'll be on the winning end." hop. nice line, so im quoting.
comment3: so he's actually planning on idling bill and is just stringing saki along? Ooooo ho ho ho yeah things are defiantly breaking from with in on the dark side.
comment 4: hooooooyyyyyy crap. news report?!
comment 5: ' bushido had everything from katanas' fuck yeah, bushido is a warrior code after all.
comment 6: wow. coming at adam? He has to really be delusional to not at all remember what type of relationship they have. Bill is truly loosing it.
comment 7: seeing how bill just tried to kill himself I know it's a very serious moment, … however i pictured everyone bursting into the room in very funny way.
comment8: aaaaaaaaw. baby bill learned to play piano by just listening to the radio!? I used to sorta do that and let me tell you, it takes serious skills.
comment9:so the finally straw was him wanting to learn music and not a sport?psh. asshole sounds kinda like my dad in a odd way.
comment 10: " You did it on purpose, knowing we weren't ready for another child!" Jorg shouted and slammed the door behind him." 0_0 isn't there like, over a 10 year difference if bills only seven and toms in college?
comment 11: no bill, don't go numb! it's hard to go back from going numb!
comment12: tom still had dreads then =)
comment 13: "Tom never thought the day would come when hugs and kisses couldn't be enough to make his baby brother feel better." aaaaaw cute quote - sad sympathetic pout-
comment 14: -cringe- nooooo don't make george watch the video WITH you. 0_0
comment 15: Adam turned his head quite a few times, but the moment Saki took over and forced Georg out of the room, his teary eyes were attatched to the horrifying scenes before him." aaaaaaaaack - cringe-
comment 16: did he actually get through the rest of the tape or did he throw up right as george left? that parts a bit unclear.
Date: 07/24/12 01:24 pm Title: Breaking the Dragon
comment one: a good ol' shin kick. I take it back,adams not ninja. A true ninja - like myself- would know to fight the pain in a moment like this.
comment two:i m confused, did he pinch bills vein(s), or his whole wrist?
comment 3: "Now, I want you to lie down and let me run down stairs" i didn't even finish read that sentence before i shook my head. - doesn't he think he should get the rest of the drug gone first? and whie im at it, hows the dig on the house by gustav going in all this?
comment 4: -claps cause he toke the drug-
comment 5: as much as im happy about adam taking care of bill, he really needs to grow the fuck up and control his temper. He gets mad when ever he feels tom 'grieving' in the wrong way and not dealing with bill the way he should, yet you rarely see tom blowing his top when adam starts shouting and screaming at bill 'because he cares so much' and is giving him the 'tough love' he supposedly 'needs' i mean really now, way to be hypocritical.
comment6:when you said kay and georg had left i thought you meant together and were like in a room together, you know together.
comment 7: no these idiots are not arguing over possession of bill.
comment 8: i like can't even read this any more. adams jump roping with the last of my nerves. he really truly is. does he truly think only he's allowed to vent and say stupid things when he deems it convenient? He needs to stop acting like he's everyones mother hen and start letting grown men occasionally be GROWN MEN.
comment9:Done. I.AM.DONE. I'v sat through nearly 10 chapters and I can't even deal with adams self rightous self appointed 'reasoning' position and supposedly needed 'tough love' i just wana punch him in the face and knee him in the anus. -leaves heated and takes a break-
comment 10:"Now, you're not seeing him until you sober up. If he'll even want to, then" WHY IS HE STILL PLAYING BILL'S SELF APPOINTED KEEPER?! He can VERY WELL take care of him with out dictating his relations. UGH -kicks a wall still frustrated-
comment 11: and why does tom keep breaking down and crying over everything? is that going to happen every time adam 'straightness him out'? what happened to all that hot anger of from when kay told him there was illegal things happening at the casino? why doesn't he direct that to where it might do a bit of good or at least relieve a bit of frustration. GOD, I don't know if it's cause it's hot, humid, and night time (it's 3:05 am as im typing this) so the bugs are getting to me, or what, but im just way to irritable right now.
comment 12: ok, im better now. Im calm.
comment 13: oooooooh. kay killed some one?! -shocked face-
comment 14: apartment complex? oooooooh. toms?
comment 15: im happy bushido covered his tracks so well.
comment 16: yaaaay dragons. -plays puff the magic dragon theme song-
** i wrote these out a week ago and im just correcting typos right now (its tuesday july 24th) and i gotta say i rather lost it on adam. Never in my life have i used the phrase "he makes me wana ounce him in the face and knee him in the anus!". I mean really. lol sorry, i was irritated.
Date: 07/24/12 01:24 pm Title: Stolen Property
CHAPTER ELEVEN
comment one: "I have to get Gustav to pull up any information he can on your dear director. " -wails at the top of lungs- WHY IS GUSTAV EVIL?!!!!!??? - finally has that break down she's had coming for the past 5 or so chapters-
comment 2: " Bill raised his head briefly from his humiliating position, and caught the worried, concerned expression of Georg, who'd been brought in with the others to witness Bill's beating. " i scoffed, threw my hands up, and looked away in a rather defeated gesture. I seriously did.
comment 3: - crosses fingers that the grandma's will that left everything to bushido wont come up, wont be mentioned in the paper, and can't be tracked-
comment 4: wait, why would where she is be in gordon's office if gordon himself doesn't even know? I don't get georg's logic.
comment 5:" For a man who liked to make sure all his bases were covered, Gordon certainly slipped up when he left his office unguarded. Unless, of course, there was no information in there. Certainly Natalie's phone number had been kept on record somewhere." THIS.
comment 6:The camera ?! "MAIL THE TAPE!' was my first thought, my seconds was 'why is it in gordons office? did they fucking watch it together or something?!'
comment 7: " We're all in this together, " i just thought of high school musical. I now have a high school musical song jamming in the back of my head as 2 ppl i like and one i kinda don't try to rescue some one i like and some one i kinda like from a pippin mans drug pin…I blame you.
comment 8: WHO BLASTED THE SHOTS?! Was it kay trying to get bill attention? cause if so that was a bit stupid seeing how guns are loud so bill attention is certainly not the only ones he's got.
comment 9: oooooh were the shots FOR kay? since he's scarred i mean.
comment 10:", where Bill started to punch at his back and scream." - sucks teeth and rolls eyes-
comment 11: pleeeeeease tell me the van has already taken off as bill and adam are having this shouting match.
comment 12: - sucks teeth again, and even louder this time- of all things to calm bill at a moment like this, mentioning getting him clean was NOT one. Where the FUCK was adams head on that one?
comment 13:"Tom stood and started for his little brother, thinking he'd come in fragile and willing to receive comfort for all that had happened to him. He found himself a little stunned when he opened his arms to the pianist, only to receive a spiteful glare as Bill started to come unglued." just quoting again.
comment 14: he just mentioned the bloody piano in front of tom. pooooor tom - shakes head-
comment 15:bill doesn't actually think geoorg's going to SHOW them the tape right?wait… he isn't,… right? Isn't he using it just to push bill to realization? After all, who could really SIT AND WATCH that thing.?!
comment 16: " We won't watch that right now" what's he mean 'NOW' ?!
comment "Adam stepped quietly through the room. In his years of training as a nurse, he'd learned to go unheard so as not to wake sleeping patience went he went in to check their machines" NINJA.
comment 18: now mad dash for the needle.
Date: 07/24/12 01:23 pm Title: Ruthless Planning
CHAPTER TEN
comment: "because now, they were all at war to rescue the living dolls that were trapped within the walls of The Playhouse Palace, and held down beneath the hands of the cruel tyrants that ran the brutalities taking place within." i think i sound like sugared up kid when i say this, but "preeeety quoooooote" lol
comment 2: " This left Kay with the comfort of knowing Adam would be Tom's rational half during all of this, so he continued." i laughed. I seriously out right laughed.
comment 3: "What the fuck do you mean 'not legal'! pft there goes the rational.
comment 4: "Tom! Calm down! He's trying to help. Will you let the man finish before you decapitate him? Then we'll never know the truth," this came out in my head as all shouts.
comment 5: mad dash for the guns ?! kay run,, run run!! - i sound like some kinda sick humored cheerleader -_- lol
comment 6: so bipolar. what happened to all that anger from a moment ago? don't get me wrong, i know how bad that kinda anger is when it comes to being in controll so im happy it's gone before it gets to mess up any plans, but geez, what a 180.
comment 7: "Adam had to bend closer to hear his words, which almost infuriated him." speaking of irrational emotions and lack of control -_- theres no possible way he's actually about to try his stupid "tough love" trick at a moment like this. I swear i will hop in this fucking story and gladly face kick adam for all im worth.
comment 8: aaah. now heres a bushido i like to see: big, bold, tough and fearless as a mob boss
comment 9: uuuuuuuuug or not. Why would he offer to help him run right in front of saki? i feel like im watching the dumb blonde go into the cobweb and blood covered door. it's aaaaagonizing.
comment 10: " and decided to go the opposite direction of his home to be on the safe side." -touch down dance-
comment 11: wait camera? id bet money that that camera is linked to a system that allows gordon to watch the house from the casino if he has any idea what's smart. Im rooting that it doesn't, but the smart thing would be if it did.
comment 12: "Hey Cinderella, put down your mop, grab some belongings of yours and Bill's and get out here as soon as you can." lmao, what a time for jokes
comment 13: oh tom and adam, just kiss already.
comment 14: woah woah woah- why did adam take charge after his opera moment will tom? lol
comment 15: woooooa- there grand plan is to take a yelling, screaming probably bitching and possibly scratching bill ON FOOT? I hope kay was a track runner in his former life, he's gonna need to move faster than lightening bolts. And what about after they take him? don't they realize they will be followed? MY POOR HEART!
comment 16: crying tom is starting to where on me. I want some anger fueled bad assery to kick in.
comment 17: i think it's worth askin exactly how old bill is as all this happens. I know he was 15 - al most 16- when he was-… er… 'broken in' but if he's 18 now, wont it be hard to call it kidnapping?
Date: 07/24/12 01:22 pm Title: Tainted Instrumental
Chapter nine
comment 1: wait, the performances are still going on? I thought bill and natalie went on last… did bushido change the order even though Gordon told him not too.
comment 2: uuuuuuuuugh i was right. He's going to bring tom and adam go to his house and someone's going to follow him and find out where he lives. I would say hopefully he goes to kays house first as a decoy, but if i remember right kay doesn't have a house. -deep sigh-
comment 3: bill sounds a hell of a lot like some pouting kid.
comment 4: ooh god. he's about to destroy the hard worked on scrap book. i can feel it.
comment5: eh… well that wasn't so bad. It was more sentimental than anything so at least the book and all it's pictures are still in tact.
comment6:can someone whack adam for me. He's being rather annoying. He should learn to control his emotions a bit more. I can't really feel sympathetic for him when he's always so much more all over the place than tom even tho tom is the one who's actually related.
moment 7;: "Inside Tom and Adam were practically at each other's throats" how bad is it that this made me a bit relieve. It's like 'finally!'. Tom has to know that just falling into adams arms after he screams his heart out at bill every time he gets angry wont help a damn thing.
comment8: I. HATE.WHEN.PEOPLE.DO.FACKE.JAMAICIAN.ACCENTS. It's usually way off and flat out insulting. My mom does it when ever she's around my step dad's family or calls herself being mad and it just sounds so fake and forced it makes me flat out embarrassed to have a real one.
comment 9: aaaand tom more or less falls into adams arms. ugh. Much as i hate sex roles, i cant help but wish tom would 'grow a pair'
comment 10:" I'm ready to kick someone's ass at this point and I'm just not sure where to point my foot. " point it at adaaaaaaaaam.
comment 11"I don't know if Bill's just sick or if he's on something or if someone's been hurting him, or...""Tom, Bill looks and acts like he's being hurt" this is why I think adams the direction toms foot should be pointed. He's just such a smart ass know it all. Sure it won't really help bill with Gordon, but it wont hurt either. After all, it's not like adams throwing temper tantrums over not getting answers is helping bill, or getting him any answers.
comment12: so she's more scared of tom cause she think he'll GO AFTER gordon… AND adam? nice.
comment 13:wait, or was she actually saying that adam is the one who a fricken character…?
comment 14: " you'll both be receiving checks in the mail from me that will surely get you out of that run-down studio of yours in approximately one week from now" wait, so bushido does actually have a studio and put that as his address in the resume? smart. Sorry i doubted him.
comment 15: uh oh. mr. drug lords bout to spill the beans. Im really nervous about them being followed. Now that i know they do in fact have a studio to go to, i hope they go there first as a decoy for like the lights or something - even though i doubt thats going to happen.
comment 16: noooooooooo toms car will most definitely NOT be ok there. Because when they say he stayed with bushido gordon will know he's getting too close and when he tells that lie gordon will say that the black van wasn't outside the studio and know they're lying- does no one but me see these things?!
comment 17: WHY IS EVERYONE SUDDENLY SMOKING CIGS?! jeeeeeeeeez.
comment 18: at least he thought about the hotel as a cover. Now is he smart enough to actually rent out a room, is the question.
comment 19: "Kay stepped towards them and smiled," You guys ready to go?" he asked." aaaw. least kay still remained a sweet in all this madness =)
comment 20: see now with all that money bushido could easily get a fake room at a hotel. sure the people working at might be bribed into reveling that he was never there, and possibly even handing over security tapes, but it wouldn't hurt his case.
comment 21:This is probably going to sound insensive, but does bushidos house have enough bed rooms for all the prostitutes at the palace to stay with him?
comment 22:" "Everything's gonna be alright now, Babe, just go take care of Bill and we'll figure all of this out in the morning." aaawww I kinda almost want bushido to date her. Even though I think her and kay (and possibly even tom) would be cute. kay is kay, and kay is MINE. No amount of falling back in love with gustav or never falling OUT of love with taeyang or jay park changes that…! lol im such a teenage girl.
cmment 23: uh oh The hour early has to do with what mr. drug lord over heard when he was being a creepy ninja. I just know it.
comment 24: "I'm telling you, something's gonna leak if you don't let me put Bill back in his place and make him deny anything that may have been said. Oh, and your director doesn't live at a fucking studio, he has a house somewhere," Saki divulged, hoping to get Anis out of the picture altogether." what a lil bitch he sounds like.
comment 25: much as I hate to say it, gordon right. I was kinda wondering why he didn't have him followed myself- im happy as hell about it, but it does still pretty dumb. Hopefully bushido gets smart and starts stopping off at the studio before going home.
comment 26: aaaaaaaaaah -cringing- he's gonna fuck him while he's still stitched?! and on the sacred PIANO of all places. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah - throws hands over eyes childishly -
comment 27: sooo much blood - continues to cringe-
comment 28: aaaaaahw. bushido and his timing. - don't know how to feel-
comment 29: why in the fuck is bill shouting? doesn't he realize it's the worst possible time to shout? he's almost as bad as adam! Your emotions shouldn't be let control things so easily. mind over matter people.
comment 30: ""Make sure you won't be followed," - claps a one woman standing ovation-
comment 31: for such a big and powerful drug lord, saki reaaaly increasingly just strickes me as a bitch. A love sick, and in a twisted way , 'pussy' (after all bill's a boy) whipped jealous lover bitch.
Date: 07/24/12 01:21 pm Title: Give Me Your Absence...
chapter 8
comment one: im sorry, but if bushido really thinks that Gordon is hurting bill, why would he do something like stop natalie at work? it's just really stupid.
comment 2: "Well, he offered me a blow job to get out of a beating I guess I was supposed to give him. " sooo nonchalant it hurts
comment3: ". It was like seeing a glistening river from afar, clear and golden with beams of sunlight reflecting off of it, but when he approached it and looked through it, he could see the pollution that gathered and that it was very shallow, as if trying to dry up. " pretty quoooote lol
comment4: I kinda don't like the way natalie is being to bushido. In a lot of ways I can understand why, but in other ways it's also completely ridiculous to me.
comment 5: "Who's hurting you Bill? Huh? C'mon, Kid, you have to give me something here. It's obvious, too obvious," i smell a bad thing coming
comment 6:"He was staring up at the balcony, his frail, slender body was shaking with violent tremors and tears had already started to fall from his wide, fearful eyes." - nail biting in nervous suspense-
comment 7: Well, that's ALMOST what I expected. Obviously I thought it would somehow be Gordon himself, but saki's just as bad. Worse even.
comment8: oh god, is bushido going to pretend to be an ass to them now? Doesn't he realize it's a bit late for that?
comment 9: I knew he'd already heard. How ninja is this guy that no one noticed he was there until that very moment.
comment 10: uh… did bill and natalie just, like, kiss? 0_o
comment 11: But, in the meantime, a good lighting technician might be needed for The Playhouse Palace theatre. " Kaaaay. As im readying this I somewhat ironically have a picture of a very innocent looking Kay one pulled up on tumblr =)
comment 12: "and even have him check out the upper ventilation shafts just to see if they lead anywhere" and what if they do? what's he gonna do? Hop up, climb inside and crawl around like a hamster ?! hahaha
comment 13:' Now Mr.Ferchichi, this isn't summer camp"- why does he keep trying to belittle him? lol it's like he feels like a big man when he does, like it makes him feel ok in his arrogance.
comment 14: "You want eyeshadows on, Bill?" at first i read this as 'you want eyebrows on bill' and i kinda chuckled and went 'as apposed to what, (having his) eyebrows off?!" lol
comment 15: "He looked above him to see Kay high in the rafters and smiled as his best friend worked the lighting from above." i just pictured kay up on some super high balance beam of sorts. As much as I love kay, he's not some twig - that's actually one of the things I like about him- so it was a pretty funny sight.
comment 16: ""What do I look like, your wife?" Adam joked back, nudging Tom in the ribs with his elbow. "Sometimes, yeah. But, I'm being serious, Adam..." now that was funny. =p
comment 17: "maybe his pretty little friend will take you back to one of Gordon's suites and have her way with you. 'Cos, ya kinda need a good lay, or shot of whiskey or something," everyone is so wrong about everyone else in this story.
comment 18: it's the same song as in the dream? Creeeepy 0_o
comment 19: wait… bills trying to run AWAY from tom? is he trying to hide his shame or something?
comment 20: oooooooooooh. Isn't his forearm where the needles been going ?!
comment 21: iiiiintervention.
comment 22: "you see, bill border line diabetic'- oooor maybe not intervention. Maybe INTERRUPTED intervention?
comment 23: ooooooooh come on bushido, how can you bring them to your place then go there latter to hide?
comment 24: wait.. is he trying to do a jail break already? huh? im soooo confused- WTF IS GOING ON ?!!
comment 25: why is everyone so fucking ninja? why didn't they think about the fact that someone might have heard all of bill's very LOUD screaming? all I can picture is this very big drug lord with his ear pressed to a door and smiling like a little kid over hearing plans about their birthday party.
Date: 07/24/12 01:19 pm Title: Introduction to The Playhouse Director
CHAPTER SEVEN
comment one: "Well, what do ya think? Too much?" the new director asked as Kay One grinned from where he was lying back on the bed" i am smiling =)
comment 2: call me dirty minded but kay telling him looks good made me think…
comment3: aw why is kay about to cry? who is he grieving over?
comment4: ,"You gonna be workin' with showgirls, Bushido? That's why you took the job, ain't it? It's like goin' to a strip club, only you're the one gettin' payed," lmao oh kay, between this and 'the bosses brat' oh how wrong you have it
comment5: "I, uhm, don't mean to pry, but Bill, don't let that make you think you're a bad person, okay? " oh george, how i wish i could steal some of your sugary goodness and give it to my once sweet gustav. lol seriously though i wouldn't mind gustav being a bad ass - might even find it a bit attractive- if he wasn't evil. I can't help but think of the g's in pairs, you know, since the twins are so paired together thanks to them being twins.
comment6: oh bill, oh how wrong you are about bushido being an ass, just like kay is wrong about the bosses kid being a brat.
comment 7: yes. bushido just HAS to ogle bill in front of Gordon, huh?
comment: eight: never mind. yay for conference calls.
comment9: "I have a fitting paddle in my office that I'll bring to you, so if he gets out of line or misses too many notes, feel free to use it." i can just imagine poor bushidos face a he's being let in on the spanking
comment 10: " Otherwise, you can take your skills elsewhere and continue on with your failed attempts at producing while remaining in that little box of a studio you call home." he's so wroooooooong though. why does he assume it's a box if he's never even seen it? most studios arnt all that small if they are professional.
comment 11: i thought the 'slap sound' was bushido clapping and bill was surprised because he wasn't used to hearing it. I kinda forgot that he plays to crowds, silly me.
comment 12: ooooooh bill is having withdraw isn't he?
comment 13: insulin doesn't come in pill form, does it?-tries to remember if it's the stuff you breath in-
comment 14: Bill...We really need to have a talk while Gordon's out," lets hope Gordon's actually out and not watching from the balcony again.
comment 15: "Tomorrow night. God, Adam, I don't even know what to wear," lmao. he sounds like such a little diva! hahaha
Date: 07/24/12 01:17 pm Title: Little Executioner
Chapter 6
comment one: "His first mistake was thinking he could get away with it to begin with. His second mistake was purchasing the hotel room under his real name, using his real I.D." pshhshshft. that's my answer to this.All that planning and he didn't think to get a fake id and not use his real name? How was this guy a drug runner again?
comment2:*melo dramatic voice* no bill, not the stash! lol i feel ike someone watching a horror movie and telling the dumb blonde not to open the door.
comment three: good grief, one night pushed him all the way over to an official addict. - sigh and a sad face-
comment four: his mouth was stretch to the point theres marks? I didn't even know that was possible.
comment five: random question: where do they hide the bodies of these killed off people? on site? or off?
comment6:oh why oh why is my sweet fun sized Gustav evil in this? really? a nail gun? let me guess where the first shots going.
comment 7: o god bill, didn't she tried to warn you against compassion/ -deep sigh-
comment 8: what a bitch move. Not only will bill have to possibly kill him himself, he'll watch him suffer more if he doesn't.
comment 9: WHY IS GUSTAV EVIL? AHHHHHH.
comment 10:psh of corse it's not actually sharp.
comment11: Gustav fired at natalie or the little girl? - resist asking why gustav is evil again-
comment 12: "I told you, Bill. I fucking told you. Oh, God. You're gonna be so fucked up from this, oh my God," no comment, just quoting.
comment 13: at least Georg is sweet. Wish i could say the same for my gustav - sigh-
comment 14: the fact that he's somewhat protecting bill and natalie's relationship is kinda ruined by the fact he's handing him over to someone who literally tore him open =/
comment 15: "He walked out of the office and towards the elevator. On his way, he passed a man who looked to be in his mid-twenties headed for Gordon's office. Saki flashed him a gleaming smile and the young man raised an eyebrow and kept walking." BUSHIDO ?!
comment 16: "Anis Ferchichi. I'm here about the position," came the voice from the other side." AHHHHHHHH! lol
comment 17: "No, thank you, Sir. I don't drink." hahahaha this seriously made me smile, don't know why but it did. i guess it's cause he seems innocent? idk
comment 18:did it ever occur to gordon that maybe he can't afford a suit? he isn't working after all. And clearly he isn't pimping or pimping him self- not that ppl wouldn't pay for him, but still.
comment 19: psh why is Gordon laughing at bushido rapping?! How does he mean he 'must have taken a lot of hard knocks to be where he is'? Studios happen to be rather on the comfy side. And it could of course just be a regular house turned into a studio due to equipment - offended and upset/defensive-
comment 20: my eyes squinted when he laughed at bushido being happy and smiling at getting the job. he's so fricken arrogant 'this is not some silly rap studio. it's the biggest and most well-respect casino in berlin" yeah and wrongly so asshole. psh
comment 21:" For his own reasons, he always failed to mention the large house, property and good chunk of inheritance money she'd left him in her passing. "smart man.
comment 22:"he just didn't like the idea of flaunting wealth, even if he did become famous someday." *raps* ich hab, ich hab, ich hab, ich hab style and das gelt (i have, i have i have, i have style and money' bushido hook on kay ones hit song)
comment 23: speaking of kay one, is he the best friend that's waiting for bushido? Has to be.
comment24: awww he' making bill a scrap book. Thats so fricken cute- i have no idea if bill will actually get to keep it, or if it will makes things worse, but it's still cute none the less.
comment 25: "I uploaded it and printed it out," … I really hope he means he uploaded it just to a computer and not to some social networking site.
comment 26: " As Tom and Adam carefully looked at each picture in sequence of Bill's age, they noted the failing shimmer in the boy's eyes from the time he was fifteen to present" pretty quooooote.
Date: 07/24/12 01:16 pm Title: A Plaything for Pelka II
CHAPTER FIVE
comment one: "Vivid scenes of sexual torture in this chapter, guys. Just a warning. Hope you enjoy!" clearly I have some sorta sick mind, cause I literally had to put my hands over my mouth to keep from laughing . I know the last sentence in reference to the chapter itself and not the torture part, but you seriously worded that odd. lol
comment two: "Tom's heart felt crushed beneath the weight of the torment in the song and his soul felt as cold as the place he seemed to be lost within. " aaaaaaaaand tom's twin sense is kicking in. *cough* you know, even tho they're not even twins in this story *cough*
comment3: aaawww tom's so innocent =) - feels weird typing that since im usually the one on the receiving end of that 'compliment' lol
comment4:" he looked down at the image of eight slender fingers and two thin thumbs with ten strings attached at the middle of each one. The strings appeared to be sewn under the skin as the keys were being soaked in a thick, crimson liquid that poured from the small appendages." HOLY SHIT. ER.. I feel this is as good a time as any to tell you/remind you that I happen to think you give beautiful descriptions.
comment5: "Bill! Bill, come back! Oh, God, Biiilllll!!! We can fix you, Biiiilllll!!!!" his voice rang through the small apartment." I laughed. Im a terrible person #shameonmeandmysickhead
comment6: wait wait wait just a second here… cin is a cat right? Theres not some beautiful twig of a girl curled up on adam's tummy right? *concerned and confused face*
comment9:"Back you beast, or I'll get the spray bottle,"pppst buahahaha now I REALLY hope it's a cat he's talking too.
comment0: "don't ask me why, but i though tom and adam were in the room and just in different beds so when i read about adam having to go down the hall to get to toms room i palm faced
comment 11: tom yells "BILL1" so adam yells "TOM!" ?! hahahahahaha
comment12: all this talk of bills lips being sewn shut is reminding me of this music video in which thread goes up all the members bodies and sews they're eyes and lips shut. used to scare the shit out of me as a kid.
comment13: ""Sure...if you're up for me taking up half your bed, and having to fight to resist my apparent sex-appeal, then I'm game." lmao
comment14: "but your sex lost its appeal to me years ago, I'm afraid, so you can play with yourself," psssh like mother fuckin (correct spelling of last name here) needs to play with himself hmmpf
comment15: WOAH. He has until SEVEN IN THR MORNING with bill? ISN'T IT ONLY TWO? Don't they normally only get a HOUR?! … holy fuck, this is about to be baaaaaad.
comment16: "Good evening, Bill. Or morning, I should say. I have a very special surprise for you, if you want to follow me to the bedroom where we can become better acquainted, " … you have no idea how wide my eyes have become.
comment17:GEORG?! I squirmed, i seriously wiggled around on my bed and just squirmed. First gustav's evil, now this. Your killing me, you really are.
comment 18: ""I want you to strip for him, Bill, and then, I want you to let him fuck you." *squirms some more and flails arms with a stunned face*
comment19: I … I don't know how to feel any more. I really dont.
comment20: aaawww well at least Georg maintained some of his sweetness in this madness you call a story.
comment21:ahhhhhhhhhhhh- george was raped too?!
comment 22: so…this man is sick. #thatisall
comment23: I feel little guilty knowing that he was going to use a ball gag. I really shouldn't even know what that is. Then again, i don't fully, so -shrug-
comment 24: and poor Georg He's not going to sleep for who knows how many weeks
comment 25: he… he branded him. Like some kind of a cow… I. Don't. know. what. i am. reading. any more.
comment26; oh noooow gordons worried. psh, what good does that do.
comment 27. i know exactly why natalie's in a rush, but i kinda wish she wouldn't rush anyway. She has no idea the ugly sight she's in for.
comment 28: the beds drenched in blood?! im gonna faint *gets dizzy*
comment 29:"Get it out!" he yelled' oh you've gotta be fucking kidding me. I so already know what that means.
comment 30: oh god, not Georg. I know he's better than someone else seeing bill's shame but for the love of god it's going to kill him.
comment 31:she spit on him?! *wide shocked eyes*
comment 32: he's apologetic ?!!!!
comment 33: i don't know weather to be happy or sad about bill going to josts being killed. On one hand he kinda earned it since it some ways it's josts fault he's torn open, but on the other hand josts was just trying to get away from that life.
Date: 07/24/12 01:14 pm Title: A Plaything for Pelka
CHAPTER 4
guess who's back? lol iv loaded all the chapters and have been reading with out writing my comments out in some sport text document (i can just post them because im not on the internet), so forgive me for how late in the chapter they kick in.
comment one: why was gordon so intent on giving bill the drug? It's not like he had to give it to him to force him to make him 'become a playmate', he has him gripped already. Is it just because he's evil? Call my naive and or innocent, but honestly can't get my head all the way around that part.
comment two: it's highly ironic that being high made bill happy and child like. After all, he is only on it so he can be more or less pimped out for the first time. Doesn't get much more ironic than that, just saying.
comment3:how come he doesn't do the drug at the same time as the methadone? fear of over dose, or because he only needs one or the other to ease the pain during his…'performances'?… or both.?
comment4: wait, for a prescription to methadone, wouldn't bill need to have an actual illness?…or could gordon just buy him one with all his pimp/dirty money?
comment5:" 'She fell asleep with Bill's head resting on her chest" at first i thought it said she slept WITH bill. I was like "wtf?! THAT DEFEATS HER WHOLE PURPOSE!" lol
comment6:As heartless as it sounds, it's almost a good thing that she shot bill up so he wouldn't fully realize how horrible he's being treated by still being expected to put out while his whole back side is (put gruesome comparison that accurately describes bill's back side here). It almost makes me the smallest bit happy he did. Key word in all this being almost.
comment7: WAIT. Didn't he shoot up before they went to sleep? Were they asleep long enough for it to where off? (I have no idea how long it takes to where off,never did it) Oh god, is he going to use this as a reason to shoot up twice in one night?! *super worried face*
comment8:Never mind, he's crying- 'for all he's worth' even. Means he must be sober enough to know how bad it is. =/ On the bright-side he hasn't shot up again…yet.
comment 9:even though it says they're being loud and shouting, in my head they're talking in hushed tones and somewhat whimpers to each other…weird.
comment10; ","Natty, I can't do this unless I'm completely gone. Before I go, I need to shoot as much of that as I can take. I just can't do it any other way right now. Not after everything that's happened." *squints eyes and whispers* oh i sooo called this…!
cmment11:on a random side note: theres a cooking show of some sort on in the other room and I seriously thought i just heard the lady say "i like to use sex for virgins'. It toke a few minutes of staring at the door to that room with a serious wtf face before I realized she probably said 'EXTRA virgin' in reference to like olive oil or something…yup.
comment 12:"go to the theatre's costume closet and retrieve an outfit similar to what was on the paper." with type of get up does this man want him in?! geeeeeez.
comment 13: im not even almost happy he shot up again, but i guess the blissfully unaware part is good…sorta…well, in a sick way.
comment 14: "Bill stood before her clad in a short white skirt, with pleats going all the way around. His smooth legs were covered to his thighs in white, lacey leggings and white knee-boots with red laces that hit him just at the knees. His upper body held a thin, white tank-top and fitted white jacket that stopped right at his hips. His hair was done in pig-tails and his make-up made him look like a real whore. Beneath his skirt, he was wearing a pair of white panties instead of boxers. " …0_o.
comment15: so in my head bill looks like some kinda stereo typical porn school girl. Is that anywhere near right?
comment 16: "He reminded her of a living blow-up doll, dressed as a school-girl prostitute and guessed that this was the main idea." well never mind then.
comment 17: "where she fled to the nearest stall and found herself on her knees in front of the toilet, discarding any and everything she'd eaten that day." wait, this is because she's sick to her tummy over what's going to happen to bill and not for the sake of a eating disorder, right? I feel completely stupid and insensitive for asking, but everytime I hear about someone who doesn't have the flu or cold throwing up I think eating disorder- i used to have a friend that had one, when i was younger so the worrying is just my caring maternal instinct kicking in
Date: 07/15/12 08:36 pm Title: Accidental Confessions
Hi, update soon please!?
Author's Response: My internets down for a while.
Date: 05/21/12 12:32 am Title: Accidental Confessions
Yehhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! I missed you!!!!!!!!!! :D Very intense capi I love it soooooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
And already "aparecen" the people that will help a Bill and the others Im waiting the next capi a ver q pasa super emocionante
:D
Author's Response: Thank you so much, as always, for the incredible review. I can always depend on your awesomeness to get me through until I can write again. I'll try to update more frequently, it's just been hard because I have another story I work on also. I'll let you know as soon as I update, and thank you sooo much, once again!!!
Date: 05/20/12 05:25 pm Title: Accidental Confessions
Umm, Anis is already interested in Bill! I can't wait to see what is going to happen between those two but since Bu has strong inner values, I
don't know...:-*
Author's Response: Thank you for the kind review. I don't know exactly how far things will go with the two either, since this story kind of writes itsself, but keep reading and I'll try to post more often. Yea, he does have strong inner values, but that may be what actually brings them together. We'll just have to see!!
Date: 05/20/12 02:34 pm Title: Accidental Confessions
Hey! That was a fantastic chapter, and I can't wait to see what happens next. You always know how to keep me hanging.
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Anyway, that part where they forced Bill into the bathtub? Hardcore.
Very well written, doll, and I can't wait for your next update! I'll email you soon. ;)
Author's Response: Thanks for the awesome review and email!! I know you've got a lot going on, I just like to keep you updated because I know you can't get on here as much as you'd like. Glad you're still enjoying this and I'll let you know when I update again, thanx!!!
Date: 05/20/12 06:54 am Title: Accidental Confessions
I've been trying to find some time to read this chapter since some hours ago, when I saw it was up (that was kind of difficult since my exams take up too much of my time) Anyway, on to the review: This was AMAZING!!! I'm glad you updated it :) Your narration (especially the descriptions) are very strong. Also, it was nice to see some backstory on Anis and Kay ^^ All in all, I think this story is progressing nicely and smoothly ;)
Author's Response: Thank you so much for this lovely review. I know I have a tendency to write really long, overly descriptive chapters, so they may take some time to read, but I'm glad you're sticking with this and that you're enjoying it. I've had that back story for Kay and Anis in my head for a while now, so I'm glad I could bring it to life here. Thank you once again!!
Date: 05/20/12 05:26 am Title: Accidental Confessions
I was in tears when Tom was cuddling with Bill in the bedroom, and then especially at the bit where Anis has told his story and Bill says he never wanted Tom to know how horrible he is. And in the bath when he thinks the pain is his punishment for being bad and using drugs and being a common whore. So sad that he sees himself as the demon and not the victim. I wish Bill would tell Tom about Gordon raping him. That would be such a good reason for the authorities to give Tom custody. I know Anis has promised not to tell, but I wonder if he'll break that vow if it looks like Tom won't get custody. Bill would find it hard to forgive him for that, and as Anis is showing signs of being attracted to Bill then that would be hard for Anis to cope with, but I'm sure he'd speak up regardless of whether he alienates Bill if it will keep Bill safe. I loved the whole back story of how Anis and Kay took revenge for the girl's death when the cops didn't do a proper job. Shows they'll do what they have to do to right wrongs. Lena is great, taking such chances to help Bill, and trusting in Adam's judgement and love the way she's blackmailing him by telling him he has to train as a doctor. A lighthearted moment in such a traumatic situation. Adam is incredible as usual, taking charge and helping to keep Tom strong. And I am so happy to see Tom really being there for his brother now even though his heart must be breaking and he must feel guilty as hell that he didn't do anything to help earlier, even though Bill shielded him from the truth. And I love the hints you give at the end about Saki and also Dunja arriving in town. You are doing a fantastic job of getting all the threads to work together, and I love seeing all the things we've discussed appearing in the story. I know you're working on your other story too but I'm so happy you're keeping this one going.
Author's Response: Thank you, Sweet muse. I must say, I did work my ass off on this thing and I'm so glad you liked it. I do like to add lighthearted fluff to dark stories, because it breaks up the craziness in my own head when I write. I think right now, Bill is still in shock that his personal life has been put on utter display and there are still some things he's choosing to keep private because of all the shit Gordon put him through before Saki ever came into the picture. I have the next chapter pretty worked out in my head, but I'm trying to get ARV up. I really like my Lena character and I'll write more on her later on. You're right about all the guilt of the characters, there's a lot of victim blaming on Bill's part that he won't recover from so quickly and just as much for Tom because he couldn't be there before and now he's been putting him in physical pain, even if it is to help him. Yeah, I had that backstory in mind for a while now, going back to the previous chapter when Kay was introduced as Anis' best friend, I wanted to bring it to life and add something to their past. All in all, I'm happy with where this is going, but I swear, if it weren't for you sometimes, I'd never get a damned thing done!! Love you and thanx again. Oh, and I am so regretting taking down WAHT now, just sayin'.
Date: 04/04/12 07:29 pm Title: The Best Medicine
wow, just wow, this chapter was perfect. the tom-bill moments, the flashback and adams breakdown. it ll fit perfectly together like a...i dunno...a beautiful symphony. wow that sounds corny...oh well, it was a beautiful chapter. once again hauntingly written and i have once again dried up my tear ducts when i thought bill was gonna kill himself. anyway i hope you update soon, this story just gets better and better as it progresses. keep up the good work honey! xx
Author's Response: Nooooo!!! It wasn't corny! It was inspiring. I cannot thank you enough for your wonderful reviews. I'm in the process of another fic, as well, and I will probably get back to this one by the weekend. I'm just unsure of how it is all going to play out just yet. Again, thanx for all the lovely reviews. I couldn't ask for more detailed readers!!!