O.O Okay, that's not good. I wonder how that flash drive got to Simone and Gordon....

I loved this story!!! Great job, and I'll be waiting for the sequel (patiently...take a break! You deserve it :D )

Author's Response: The flash drive was with some of Ralph's stuff that was still held by the record label. He'd already had it packed and labelled to send off to Simone as part of his blackmail plan. The label cleared out his stuff and forwarded it to the solicitors (lawyers) office where it had sat until Grace discovered it and then sent it on to Simone once the case against Ralph was closed. So, Ralph still gets the last word even though the shit is dead. The sequel will concentrate on the outcome of Simone and Gordon knowing about the twins' relationship. Working title is 'Gordon's Dilemma'. Just wanted to say thank you for following this story to the conclusion and for your lovely reviews. Hugs, Helen x

I am soooo sorry it took me so long to read this, but amazing doesn't even describe it! From beginning to end I was hooked and on the edge of my seat.

Every description here was just fabulous. I loved Tom's intensity here and the plan he and David devised. God, I feel so bad for him and Bill. You absolutely nailed how some rape victims bodie's respond during the act and it is different for each victim, but that doesn't mean Bill actually enjoyed it. I know Tom didn't know how to take what he saw as Bill is his lover, his brother, his twin. God, it was just so sad and intense. I just hope they can find a way to cope between the rape and the murder.

It was pretty traumatic because your descriptions are so realistic. I can't believe Tom actually shot at him, but it's good he didn't splatter his brains all over the carpet and walls, because the fucker deserved to beg for mercy after what he did to David, Bill and especially Melissa. That murder scene was so intense and I'm glad Bill wasn't too damaged to share in it. You covered all bases, even covering up the crime scene by propping that sick perverted murderer up against the bed, with all suicide evidence in tow.

Oh, and towards the end, after the whole traumatic experience, it just seemed Tom needed that reassurance as much as Bill and I felt really sorry for him, although he did seem a bit selfish. I felt so sorry for Bill, although he was truly a here, I'm sure he felt like a lot less. Poor thing probably doesn't know whether he's coming or going. I'm just glad Tom got his semi-selfish head sorted out and realised his twin needed him.

The fact that Bill thinks Tom finds him disgusting still is really upsetting. The way Tom hovers over him here shows how much he really loves him, but Bill can only see himself as dirty, which is understandable. The bathtub scene was heartbreaking and the fact that Bill was so torn up about it all they had to drug him to examine him was almost gut wrenching. Poor thing. I just wonder if Tom's going to tell him about the exam.

Helen, this was amazing, no amazing just doesn't cut it. I know, I'm an angst whore!! Sorry, I loved it. Oh, yeah, and the mention of a past ED made me jump a little. Poor Tom. As much as I love the intensity of it all, I hope in the sequel, the twins do find some peace with each other at times.

Never stop writeing!! You are brilliant and I can't wait for the Epilogue. This whole thing is just incredible. Can't wait to find out if Munroe covers for them, as well. Okay, I am done. Love you!!XOXO!!

Author's Response: Finally I get around to responding to your review. As far as I can tell you are the only one who picked up on that little piece I slipped in about a past ED. I just threw it in there in case I decide to explore it further at a later date. You really seem to have understood everything I was trying to get across. I've almost got the end written. A bonus chapter - very angsty to feed your demon - and then the epilogue which will hopefully make everyone want to read the sequel. I'm so, so happy that you enjoyed it and thank you for taking this journey with me, for all your encouragement and your long, detailed reviews. Love you, too.

Sadness? remorse? I don't even know now. It's too much for the twins to bear. *teary eyes*
Glad that old shit is gone. Poor bill, tom is going to be extra sweet to him to make it up.

Author's Response: Sorry for not responding before, but I've been working on the epilogue and hope to have it posted this week. Actually its grown pretty long so I suspect there'll be a bonus chapter before the epilogue. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing.

Oh darling.

You just blew my mind yet again.

I'm gonna be honest with you. I think that by coincidence I've seen your new chap right after you posted it. When I read your warning about explicit non-con, my breath became ragged and I felt a big fat lump down my throat. My heart began to pound. Hard.

It took me all day to read this chapter. I had to stop sometimes, because I was overly agitated. Thank god for tumblr, because it kinda kept me grounded between paragraphs. Amazing how much reblogging can calm me down.

I was right there, honey. I was sitting with Tom inside that car, smoking those cigarettes with him. I was with him, my heart thumping in my ears because the phone wasn't working, because David was late, because Bill had been in there for twenty minutes already. I felt Tom's relief when Jost finally came, I went up with them step by step, through the door and through the doping of the guard, and when Tom finally opened that door... my poor heart stopped. I just needed air. There was no air, because I knew what he must have seen.

I was there with Bill too. I was there, disgusted, hurt, angry, destroyed. Raped. I understood perfectly why he would feel dirty and a slut. I felt it all through him. Ah his body's betrayal. It rang in my ears. And the timing... the moment Tom chose to open that door. I died a little. I knew I had to stop, I had to do something else, go grab a smoke, go reblog some silly thing, but I was glued to the screen. I was blind with Bill, listening to the voices, lost in face of what exactly was happening.

I couldn't stop reading until Tom pulled that trigger.

Holy shit.

Holy shit. Then I just had to stop.

The only thought - the only coherent thought that is - going through my mind was "NO, IT WAS TOO QUICK! HE SHOULD SUFFER MORE!". But I had to stop. I had to go grab a bite, I had to go find something else to do. There was no oxygen in the room, I mean. The air I was breathing in had no air in it.

I resumed the reading a couple of hours later. And the prick was alive! Gosh, I was so scared. I was scared that he sould have something up his sleeve, you know, a trick of some sort. He was so cool up until then, he almost died (and if it was me on Tom's shoes I'm sure he would've) and he was still making fun of the situation! You can't imagine the relief I felt when the son of a bitch finally apreciated the seriousness of his situation. When he started to beg for his life. When he proposed to trade the tape for this life. It meant no further tricks to me, and I finally started breathing.

From that moment forward the whole chapter went smoothly like your writing always goes for me, steady paced and with purpose. But my heart was still there, you know? My heart was with Bill and Tom, because I understood all of their feelings, and felt them myself.

I understood how Tom must have felt seeing what he saw. I understood the feeling that was ripping Bill from the inside. I knew doing it would break him. Bill tried to be the hero, but he is so vulnerable. He is delicate. He was made for sunny days and smiles and cuddles. He is a creature meant to be loved and handled with care, and that's why Tom is perfect for him. Tom must protect him. And Tom failed to do so.

The tears from Tom's eyes when he saw Bill asleep in the bathtub. God. I spilled them too. It's hard for me to get so emotional with reading, but I couldn't stop my watery eyes contemplating how wrecked Bill was, red skinned, sleeping under cold water. Tom must take care of him now, must help him the best he can.

But ultimately, Bill is the one who has to help himself. He is not cooperating and he must. He's losing the battle. He knows that Tom is right, he knows in his mind what he should do to get better, but his feelings... ah, he's so vulnerable.

It was a great chapter. Monstruous, of course, a rollercoaster for my nerves. But a great chapter nonetheless.

Thank you very much for this. I'll be waiting for the epilogue (and the sequel) with this lump permanently residing down my throat. But I'll manage.

Amazing story. Love it. Heart-wrenchingly love it.

PS: sorry for my previous review. I was out of it at the moment. And I'll be answering your e-mail tomorrow. (:

Oh. God.

I'm wrecked. Give me a moment to adjust.

btw, is that girl in the banner atually a picture of Andrej? Cuz when I first saw it I thought for sure it was...

Author's Response: Don't know who it is actually. The banner was made for me by flywiththebirds. Don't think its Andrej because, quite honestly, I think Andrej is much more beautiful. Oh, I so have to include that pretty boy in a story soon either him and Bill, or him and Tom...or a threesome. Stop giving me ideas, have to get this one finished first.

Love it - excellent, smooth writing, covering lots of information without a bump. I like your G's, they're a good balance for B/T. And whatever Dave has done seems mighty foreboding. The blackmail just keeps getting worse and worse, making for a tense read, and I'm seriously hoping (fantasizing) that Gustav pushes Melissa in front of a train!

Author's Response: Hi, I'm just catching up with answering reviews and I finally read three chapters of your story and left you a review. Thank you for the nice things you've said. It's kind of weird to have people reading early chapters because I've moved on so much in the story now and its almost done. I have some editing to do and the last proper chapter will be posted sometime over the weekend. Then there'll be a short Epilogue and about eight months work will be over and done with. Can't believe I'll have written the equivalent of a full length novel. Thanks again for reading and reviewing. Chat again soon.

Okay, so. I was planning on waiting to review to the end of what's been posted so far, but I can't hold back any more.

*strangles the shit out of Melissa in exaggerated back and forth motions*

So, you know what? Bitch wants a relationship with Bill? Fine. Bill should tell her to make her choice, a fuck and she leaves, or they have a 'real' relationship get to know eachother and have sex sometime in the future. If she's as big of a fan as she seems then she would know Bill doesn't do sex off the bat.

I still have the feeling David isn't telling them everything.

God this fic is so good so far...must go read more

Author's Response: Thank you for your amazing review. So glad you're enjoying the story. I always find it strange to hear from people who are near the beginning of the story because I'm at work on the last chapter right now, to be followed by an Epilogue and then a short sequel. You'll find out later on exactly what David is keeping hidden. Happy reading. Hugs, Helen.

Yay! I kinda want this suspense over with. It's drivin me completely crazy! Soooosoooooo good!!!!!

Author's Response: Thank you for the great review. Not long to go now until the end, but I've got quite a bit of the next chapter still to write so it might be a few days before its posted. So happy you're still reading. Hugs, Helen.

*sighs and dicreetly hands to David Jost a good hitman's phone number*

I mean, what? We have a time and a place already, might as well make it worth it.

I'm still relieved Tom knows and that Tom is not down with it.

I'm relieved Dave also knows and is trying to come up with something. I'm wishing for it to be Ralph's very painful death.

<3 can't wait for the ending!