Date: 09/10/12 12:06 pm Title: This dream that makes me ill
I just found your story and read it non stop. It is very good. You're quite a talented writer. With that being said, I would like to state how much an update would be appreciated if you are still working on this story. Tom's reaction to Bill spending the night out with another man is certainly something that I would love to discover and Nasos is such a nice character that more of him with Bill would be nice as well.. at least until Tom comes to his senses; maybe that green eyed monster known as jealousy is just what he needs. Anyhow, hoping that you continue and wishing you well either way:D
Date: 07/26/12 11:01 pm Title: This dream that makes me ill
i hope u update this fic one day its really good and i want to see how it all unfolds ^^
Date: 11/04/11 01:18 pm Title: This dream that makes me ill
I’m sorry I didn’t review earlier, but I read this a while back and didn’t have the time to review. But I can say I was so glad when I saw that you had updated! :D Now to the story:
Tom’s dream seemed very realistic, and you wrote it very well. It really shows how much Tom actually worries about Bill because a dream like that doesn’t appear without a reason. And it could even happen, with the way things are progressing. I must say though, that Tom’s reaction didn’t please me. He should have understood that he needed to do something, and not call Susanne. This actually made Bill feel worse, even if Tom didn’t know.
Now for the finding a fuck that Bill wanted to do, I was sure that he would do it and then feel even worse afterwards. I’m glad that he met Nason, he seems perfect for Bill. At least he isn’t a psychopath like Chad. Bill needs to talk to someone, and that someone can’t be Tom for now. He has kept quiet for too long, and all these feeling had build up and that’s not healthy. Hopefully Nasos will be able to make Bill feel better.
I sure Tom won’t be so happy, and I think he will get really protective when he finds out about Nasos. That is if there will be anything between him and Bill. Well, we will see. I’ll be waiting for the next chapter! ^_^
Author's Response: Hey, nothing to apologize for! I'm a fan of your reviews and I can wait for them for as long as it takes :)
Yeah, Tomi screwed up there... (which was on purpose, since I need him to keep fueling the drama *cough, cough*) Although, he has the small excuse of not knowing about the real facts. In his perception, he's the one causing Bill to hurt because of the kisses and all that - he has no idea Bill returns the feelings twofold, so he believes the best thing he can do is to push himself onto Susanne, instead.
And Nasos is a breeze of fresh air, eh? :p I thought it was about time poor Billa got some real fluff, after everything he's gone through... I wanted Nasos to be a bit of a dork and extremely nice - the kind of person you can't help but adore. And he's gonna play a fairly active role, considering he's not one of the main characters.
Thanks so much for your words, see you next chapter :D
Date: 11/02/11 07:27 pm Title: This dream that makes me ill
Bill deserves a good guy. I always feel bad for the good guys though because I can't help rooting against them in favor of Tom. Thanks for the update, I can't wait for the next chapter!
Author's Response: haha sameeeeeeeee xD And, well... this is a twc fic, we all know how it will eventually end :p But there's still a loooong way to go, with enough twists and turns. Thanks so much for the support :)
Date: 10/30/11 08:05 pm Title: This dream that makes me ill
Oh Lucy, your writing skills are amazing! I missed this story ever so much and I had such a perfect chapter to be welcomed back to. I'm beyond excited for the next chapter. I must say Bill is reminding me of myself more and more as I read on.
Date: 10/25/11 08:53 pm Title: This dream that makes me ill
Nooooo, my pic didn't work. Meh, it was just an icon size version of the "FFUUUUUUU" face ;P
Author's Response: rofl better save that for Unicornland... THF seems to not like it xD
Date: 10/25/11 06:08 pm Title: This dream that makes me ill
I'm already crying and I'm not even halfway through the chapter. I'm crying because A) It's beautifully written and the scene you described is gorgeous - not in spite of its sadness but because of it; B) I can feel Tom's panic; and C) Oh my god Bill :(. I have chills. I've felt like I've been where Bill is in this dream of Tom's.
I'm groaning out loud at Tom right now. Really, I'm fussing him out right now. I just...*shakes computer screen* WHY?
I adore the butterfly in a muddy swamp comparison. REALLY beautiful imagery, and it emphasizes the majestic idea. LOVE IT.
I feel like I'm bathing in...beautifulness (lol) with the way you're describing everything. This man sounds just as you described the drink and the rose.
I LOVE Nasos. He is a dream. SO refreshing. I just feel like I've been wrapped up in a rose. This was so satisfying.
Author's Response: I would insert a relevant gif here, if I could, but I have to save that for Unicornland xD DON'T KILL THE SCREEN THO YOU'LL NEED IT TO READ THE NEXT CHAPTER.
I actually figured you'd like the little butterfly remark, because of your username :3 And Nasos... It was about time poor Bill got some consolation, right? xD At least for now...
Date: 10/25/11 02:49 pm Title: This dream that makes me ill
Well, given his mindset, no one can blame Bill for this.
I think Tom's dream was pretty darn revealing and helpful. Too bad Tom's reaction is to call his girlfriend 
At this point, I can't instantly hate any additional people in Bill's life. As long as he makes him feel better. The puns were a bit cringe-worthy, though XD
Author's Response: Yeah, she thinks she holds the title now... On Tom's side, it's the typical case where it's too much trouble to make shit straight, so he lets her say what she wants in exchange for spread legs xD (because he's unaware of the little tense moment she and Bill had, in the other chapter)
And and! I know, right? xD I wanted Nasos to be a bit of a dork... That kind of person who can get cheesy, but he's so nice you can't even say anything. Cue the little lame moment lol
Thanks for reading and reviewing, dear :3
Date: 10/08/11 09:32 pm Title: We lock ourselves in
I was waiting until I was sure I wouldn't just flail over the keyboard before I reviewed this chapter. So much has happened... I don't even know where to start.
Susanne has really gotten on my nerves. She's awfully presumptuous, just because Tom's been wasting a bit more time on her than usual. I really liked the discourse between her and Bill. It was so subtle- she wasn't be incredibly obvious, but the bitchiness came across so clearly. I wish Tom would have found out that she upset Bill so much. No matter what's going on between the twins, I think he would have been rightly pissed off about that.
One thing I noticed especially about this earlier part- Jost and Natalie? I'm not sure why, but that pairing strikes me as very interesting. It seems like it would be so obvious, and yet it's not used often. (I'm not sure that I've seen it around at all, actually.)
I loved the part about Bill's septum! It really shows how desperate he is for Tom's attention, that he'd go for a bunch of new piercings just for the pain of it.
Now... Chad. That name alone gives me the creepy crawlies. He is an awful bastard. I could hardly believe what he was doing. I almost had to stop reading once he started to violate Bill. That anyone can sink so low.. ugh. And it was so much worse, given that little insight to his head and seeing that he didn't think there was anything wrong with it.
When the rest showed up, it was such a relief. Yet it still feels as if it was a bit too late... I cannot wait for the next installment.
Author's Response: I missed you on Unicornland yesterday but, at least, I woke up to this <3
br>I wanted to make Susanne different from Katy... Both hatable, but different lol. The storyline itself is a lot less humurous than "1000 Oceans", so I wanted her to be a bit more credible - not just loud and obnoxious. She's not exactly a bad person... (yet, spoiler alert) But she's that kind of annoying girl who thinks she is da shit because she's hot and what not. And, unfortunately, with Tom it works. Especially because Bill won't tell him straight away what's going on.
Annnnnnnd... I can tell you I'll be having a use for Natalie in a not so far away future. Maybe not as you expect, but she's gonna gain a bit more of relevance soon.
AND SEE WHY YOU SHOULD NOT OFFEND CHAD. Then, he does stuff like this xD But yeah... In his mind, he's doing the right thing. And I kinda hinted at it already, but this won't be the last we see of him.
Date: 10/02/11 03:26 pm Title: We lock ourselves in
Omg! You have got me completely captivated! I was hooked from the first chapter, and now I’m craving for more! I love the way you write, especially how you use the language. You have to update soon because I’m dying for more! I actually read all of this at once, and now I’m frustrated because there is no ‘next’ button.
You know, I love how big a role Gustav and Georg play in this story. Sometimes people forget that they are the twins’ best friends and band mates. They deserve more attention. Now that Bill and Tom both have the same feelings for each other, I really want them to talk somehow. Bill is getting worse and worse and Tom isn’t that good either, so finding out that they share the same feelings might be better. Not that that will solve much, because I’m sure that one of them would somehow try to deny it anyway. Tom I’m assuming. Meh, I don’t know.
I’m glad that Chad got caught, and Tom came to the rescue! How could he even think of touching our Billa? He should be killed for that! I’m definitely looking forward to next chapter! ^o^
Author's Response: Before anything else, thank you SO MUCH for reading and leaving me this little gem in return. There are few things that please me more than a long and detailed review and, even though it's just starting, you've already made my day :)
Actually... I even think I'm lacking a bit of introspection on Georg's side, when compared to the other three... It's just that, so far, the plot has not had many opportunities to explore his points of view more deeply, without it becoming forced or like I'm doing it just because or to be a filler. However, now that he's getting closer to Tom, that may eventually change and dear Hobbit will get the proper and rightful share of attention.
And, yeah... That's, basically, their biggest problem - how they do not talk to each other about it, because they immediatelly assume the other would be disgusted and shun them away. From start, I wanted to board a few sensitive matters in this fic and one of them was the bias towards incest and/or brotherly love. I, honestly, have never looked at it as a problem... Fanfics aside, there ARE people who do truthfully love family members. And what right do we have to judge their options and say what's right or wrong for them? As long as it is not forced (like a father raping a daughter, sexual harassment, etc), love is love and no one else should have a saying in it.
Another fact I wanted to explore was, exactly, Chad - who's basically the impersonation of the totally crazed fan, who has no boundaries. True, this one actually does have a mental disturbance to fuel it, but there are people like this out there. There are people who, even if they might not get to the extreme of kidnapping their idol, they wouldn't hesitate into breaking into their house, for example, and go through their most personal stuff - and proof of it is how it has happened to the twins, already.
As a last note... Unfortunately, I am terribly prone to writer's block and, lately, I've also been having a lot of extra stuff to keep me busy. However, I have this story entirely plotted out for the most part, already, so that ensures I won't get lost in the middle of it and/or get bored of it and drop it. Albeit slowish, updates should be steady.
Once again, thank you so so so very much for your wonderful review. Hope to hear from you again in chapter 11 :D
Date: 10/01/11 01:17 am Title: We lock ourselves in
Wow Lucy! Just amazing. I cried while reading this. I can't wait for the next chapter. each one gets better and better!
Date: 09/26/11 06:47 am Title: We lock ourselves in
This is so awesome! I loved ur story :3 its interesting... I'll be waitin for more :3
Author's Response: Thank you so much, for reading and reviewing :)
Date: 09/25/11 03:58 am Title: How can I connect to you?
Tomi is jealouse!! :D
Author's Response: Keep reading, keep reading! ;)
Date: 09/24/11 12:52 pm Title: We lock ourselves in
You just get better and better with every chapter... :')
Author's Response: *takes a bow*
Date: 09/24/11 10:27 am Title: His first time on the edge
you had to ask why the sky was blue did you? physics instantly rushed into my mind! The sky is blue because the aatmosphere is made up of mostly nitrogen and oxygen which reflect violet colored light. But since our eyes are not sensitive to the color violet we see the sky as blue. After physics class I could never look at the sky the same way ever again!
Author's Response: I actually do know the fact, but thank you for the attention :) It wasn't really to be taken literally... More like as in: "My favorite color is orange, why can't the sky be orange and not blue? It would be nicer, if it could be that way."
Date: 09/24/11 04:13 am Title: We lock ourselves in
I'm so glad Tom rescued Bill and that Chad is in jail! thanks for the update!
Author's Response: Thank YOU, for reading and reviewing :)
Date: 09/23/11 09:32 pm Title: We lock ourselves in
Oh and I wanted to say that I hope you're getting through your IRL issues OK. I appreciate that you're still able to share with us no matter what. :). I would do the heart symbol here but I think that that would just mess up my review, so ♥! Sorry to put this in two reviews, by the way :(.
Author's Response: I'm starting on this one, to mention how sweet this was <3 Thank you, both for reading/reviewing and for the attention - I really do appreciate it a lot.
And you probably have read this over Unicornland, in one of my random text posts, but I really have fun writing Chad. Obviously, not because I approve of his doing, but because he's a really strong (as in heavy, thick, intricate) character and writing him in a convincing way is a little challenge.
When I first started this fic, it was my intention to broad a few real aspects of the fandom. For example, the whole "Bill isn't cute anymore, I miss the old TH" - which is partially related to Bill's depresion. And then, the other kind of 'fans' like Chad, who have no bondaries. I'm pretty sure that, unfortunately, there are a lot of Chads out there who would love to do to poor Billa the same things.
Once again, thank you so much and I hope you're feeling better, by the time you read this ;__;
Date: 09/23/11 09:19 pm Title: We lock ourselves in
"It was ironic, how much alike he and an inanimate object had become; how much both of them only went on shining because they were still able to reflect a source of exterior light. " I really like that.
Chad is such a strong, well-written character. I don't mean strong as in like...strong morality, but strong as in very solidly and consistently written. Idk if that makes sense...I'm a bit affected by the cough syrup I just had to take -_-;...
OMG Tom saves the day :)!
I just want to be Tom and cradle Bill all day forever so that he'll feel better. Does that make me broken?
I am now a high warm sad puddle of goo after this chapter (and the cough syrup. Medicine isn't my thing...). I just want Bill to be OK. My heart wants to cry but since I'm pretending to watch a movie with my parents right now I shall stay strong with meine well-practiced poker face.
Date: 09/17/11 04:28 pm Title: His first time on the edge
Oh man, Tom is just going to make everything worse by pulling back. Great chapter. thanks for much for the updates!
Author's Response: Thank YOU so much, for reading and reviewing :) Glad you're enjoying it so far!
Date: 09/17/11 04:11 pm Title: Where the rain won't hurt
I'm glad someone is starting to notice that Billi is not okay.