Mein liebe... Your 66 year old lover is enamored with your writing skillz.... T__T Amazing. I can feel Bill's pain, both the shattered glass in his hand and the feeling of air stuck in his throat because of the word's he heard... my God..

Author's Response: Just don't strain your heart, honey, or I will have to CPR you ;)

This wasn't as bad of a cliffhanger! I can deal with this one. What a satisfying chapter. I really want to snuggle you right now to convey my gratitude and how much I enjoy your writing. And thanks for the belated birthday wishes

Author's Response: Stop being so adorable! xD *snuggles*

The heartbreak, I don't think I can handle it!

I am so glad that Gustav showed up when he did. If that crazy Chad bastard had gotten any further I think I would have either pulled some Matrix kind of thing and jumped into my computer, or I would have had to stop reading for a while.

And when they got back, ahhhh! Poor Bill, I'm glad he at least had his two teddies to make him feel better. Tom should have at least attempted to hear Gustav out. Bill needed him at that moment! From where it cuts off, though, I can assume that Tom doesn't know what happened?

It was nice to see them acting a bit more normally at home again, even if it was just kind of a mask. It breaks my heart that Bill feels like he needs to lose weight in this. I hope somehow he comes to see that it isn't true.

The twins breaking the bed has to be the cutest thing ever, I pictured it so clearly and it made me smile so big. Then that girl had to call and ruin it.

I feel like Tom is dropping the L-bomb a bit quickly, though. It feels like he is just trying to cover up for something he doesn't even realize. It's like he's throwing himself head and body first into something, anything to distract his mind from any other possibilities.

The ending was just heartbreaking... Bill needs someone to hold him and love him like he needs. I don't often find myself saying this, but I hope it will be Tom.

Author's Response: I wanted Gustav to be the 'Hero of the day' and honor Metallica's song xD I actually love writing Gustav's POVs, because I can relate to this muse's logical side. So, most of time, I let him act like I would, if it was me there.

Tom cowered at that point... because he was fully convinced Gustav was going to confront him about the kiss, when the drummer had no idea whatsoever about such a thing. So he just let his emotions speak louder and kicked poor Gusti away like that lol

The weight issue is Bill wanting to make himself good enough for Tom... Even if he knows he practically has no chance, he wants to at least give it his all, because that's just the way he is. And about Tom, you got the real point. He has no idea about Bill's feelings, so he's assuming he's the cause for his brother's breakdown and willing to do what he can to show Bill he's not interested in him that way - far from knowing it's what Bill most wishes for. The typical example of how not taking the time to sit down and talk can fuck up things more often than not xD

en espera anciosa del prox capi.... este capi me tenia tensa en buena forma
:)

Author's Response: Mi Español no es muy bueno pero... Muchas gracias por leer y hacer la review, lo aprecio muchíssimo y que te esté gustando hasta este punto :) Ya he empezado el capitulo 6 y intentaré tenerlo pronto lo mas rapido possible!

Just as I said, I am leaving a review here because I am tired of tumblr eating messages.

So, I actually finished reading this earlier, but I needed to process all of my thoughts. (And then I needed to go get food.)

First things first. Despite not being a TWC fan myself, I can honestly say that so far I am loving this fic.

I find the amount of detail fantastic. That in and of itself it something that stands out in my mind. Properly detailing a fic is a task that will either make or break it, and you seem to have found just the right way to give this story heft without making it drag out. You have a way with words that makes the story come to life, without shoving every last tidbit down a persons throat.

The introspection on Bill's part is another thing I am absolutely in love with. I love his character in this, and the way you delve into his thought process is what really brings it together.

For example, in chapter three I was absolutely holding my breath when Bill was about to cut himself. I didn't want him to do it, was praying to whatever higher forces there are that he wouldn't, but the way his thoughts were going it was just bound to happen. The introspection made it work, where in a less in-depth lead in it might not have fit. It did not seem cliche, as it would in some stories, because however heartbreaking it may be, at that moment it was the only option Bill felt he had.

Now the angst, ohh the angst. I am such a sucker for angst. The more I read into this story, the more heartbreaking it gets, and with every new line I feel it more clearly. I just want to hold Bill and make it go away, but unfortunately I think that Tom is the only one who can do that at this point. I guess I will just have to wait until he does.

There is a lot more I want to say, but I think I may go back and re-read certain chapters later on and leave other reviews where they might fit better.

I just hope Tom has another one of those twin-bond moments and feels Bill's urgency, because that boy needs a rescue and STAT!

Now, I am just going to leave off this review and say once more that I adore this fic and can't wait for more!

Author's Response: Okay, finally replying to this masterpiece that was your review... Before anything else, thank you so much, first for reading the fic (when I knew you didn't even appreciate twc and, truthfully, I take this fact as a HUGE compliment) and second for taking the time to write such a detailed comment, I REALLY appreciate both facts.

I can't bring myself to write without detail. The text would look too poor to me otherwise and I do not want the reader to reach chapter 10 or 11 and think "...how the hell did things end up like this, again?" Although, at the same time, I also do not want to make it too thick. I like to leave a bit for the reader to wonder about, because I've always thought it's better to imagine some things than to have them flat out described to you word by word. If I have managed to find a good balance between both, so far, I'm glad.

The introspection is another point I value too much, for the same reason. I think the sucess of a fic is based on two things, essentially: a good plotline and interesting characters, that can adaptate to it. In most fics I've read Bill has this stereotype of either being too girly, too dependant on Tom or too depressed just because. Obviously, I wanted to keep a bit of all these facts, but not as much as to make it not credible. My Bill can be girly at times, but he can also man up when there's a need to. He is a sucker for his brother but he can stand up for himself. And, in this particular case, I try to explain clearly the reasons for him to feel so down and get to the point of self harm. It's not like he does it just because one of his wishes wasn't tended to, I never wanted him to be that shallow. Like the point you mentioned... He did it because he had no other option, exactly. His feelings for his own brother are stifling him and he hates himself for loving Tom, because everyone always says incest is disgusting and, so, he immediately assumes that would be Tom's reaction as well. And the fact that everyone seems to be hooking up with someone and leaving him behind, all alone with an impossible love, only adds to it. In a way, he blames himself for his own loneliness and that's where his self loathing comes from; getting to the point where he starts being obsessed with that forbidden love and develops an ED in order to, eventually, have a chance with Tom.

Once again, thank you so much for all the support. Hopefully chapter 6 will be out soon enough and I'll get more of your awesome comments :)

WOW. wow. This story is amazing. Beautiful, Wonderful.
I have been waiting so long for a fic this good.
Thanks.

Author's Response: Thank you SO much, my dear, your words really made me smile <3
I'll try my best to always keep it at the best level :)

Oh Bill... :/
Wth? Chad... Is a total freak -.-
Hope Tom hears Bill...

Great chaptet, again :D

Author's Response: HE IS, HE IS.
I wanted him to be :')

Thanks a lot, honey <3

This is so good! *-*

Aww poor Bill :/ I really just want to hug him and tell him he's perfect just the way he is. If Tom doesn't think Bill is beautiful, he's crazy -.-

Author's Response: Tomi does though! But poor Bill thinks otherwise... cause Tomi is this thick headed manly man and does not realize what he says is being misunderstood by Bill xD

Wow... Huni this is getting intense... Can't wait for the next chapter! :'D

Author's Response: If I have my way, it shall never get boring ;D

this is really good but i don't like how bill cut himself :c you went in so much detail i started cringing but other then that i loved it n_n

Author's Response: I like to make my writing as graphic as possible, since I'm a sucker for detail xD Thank you a lot, sweety :3