Date: 06/21/11 11:30 am Title: Coming Home
Incredibly heart wrenching chapter darling. I'm bawling right now. I want to say so much yet I cannot find the words. Maybe I'll email or AIM you later. *curls up in your lap*
Author's Response:
A story like this is hard to write, let alone read, or review. I understand.
rn/cuddles you up
Date: 06/21/11 04:10 am Title: Coming Home
wow amazing chapi! poor Billi I hope he will tell tom everything :3
Author's Response:
Thanks! And eventually!
Date: 06/21/11 12:50 am Title: Coming Home
At least twice this chapter, I fully expected Bill to tell. Especially after the nightmare. I think that will to keep it in is breaking, little by little.
The cutting was disturbing and sad but not surprising. This story is so visceral, I feel like I've been through the wringer by the end of a chapter. It's amazing.
Author's Response:
How is it that you get every little thing that I put in here? You get every twist and turn and nuance; sometimes in your reviews, it's like I wrote it just for you, haha.
rnThank you so much for this review; it really bolstered me. Your support means the world, and has from the very beginning.
Date: 06/20/11 08:49 pm Title: Coming Home
but i love softcocks, well no only you.
Author's Response:
MacFosty, what, what is this
Date: 06/20/11 12:51 pm Title: Coming Home
I didnīt want to read this story at first because of the warnings. I really donīt like reading something with raping and such things...., but when I saw this update today I thought I can give it a try...
So, first chapter was really bad, I knew something terrible had happened but I thought (oh how naive I was) that this is the worst part of this story, something that had to be done for the next progress of the characters. But no, the worst part was the third chapter. I canīt say much about it, you left me with clenched throat.
Every chapter I hoped something was going to change, it HAVE to, but it was only darker and more heartbreaking... Poor Bill, oh god, I wish he would tell someone, anyone about what happend, if he just could share his emotions, his pain, his fear.... He canīt do it alone, I donīt believe it.
You better fix this, fix HIM, or I will find you - I will go through the monsoon just to find you and persuade you personally how much we need a little bit of happiness in this story .... please? :-) Do it for Bill :-)
Author's Response:
I don't blame you; it's as difficult to read as it is to write, and if it's not, something's gone wrong in there somewhere.
rnThis story is not a happy one. Not in the normal tense. But I want it to ultimately be a story of triumph and reclamation. I want this character to succeed in a lot of things I feel people cannot - people cannot accept, cannot move on, cannot recover. In a way, it's like writing romance or fantasy in that it's something people may wish for personally, but cannot actually attain.
rnIn everything I write, though, things get heavier before the burden gets abruptly lightened. I always, always write a happy ending. It may be a long time in coming, but by the end, with any luck, it was all worth it.
rnHe will get fixed, if only because so many people don't get a chance to be, and I want more than anything to be able to write this, my ideal fantasy, one of recovery and overcoming all obstacles to become a more perfect person.
Date: 06/20/11 08:50 am Title: Coming Home
I'm not sure how much longer I can watch Bill suffer like this. I feel like there'll have to be a breaking point sometime...or rather, he's already broken, I'm just waiting for him to fall apart. It seems like Tom and Simone are coming closer to figuring it out, but damn Bill is stubborn. I'm half expectant/half terrified that Tom might come across the DVD.
I was really hoping that Bill had gotten better at home, but...apparently not. :c
He felt like a performer on a dark stage before an empty theatre, acting for no one.
I loved this line. Very poignant.
And a nitpick:
just so long as nobody knew, it effected no one else
*affected
There were also some weirdly placed commas but I'm too lazy to find them. /unhelpful
Author's Response:
That's good! I'm glad for the feedback; I need to know when it gets to be too much, so I can adjust and rethink my strategies. <3
rnBill is stubborn... but that thing about Tom finding the DVD may have something to it...
rnThanks! I thought it was pretty good myself. Nothing like a little hubris in the morning.
rnThank you for that as well! It's always the little things, haha.
rnVERY HELPFUL. In every conceivable way, thank you <3
Date: 06/20/11 07:55 am Title: Coming Home
"To let down this burden that was crippling him, bowing his legs and breaking his knees and stooping his back; pressing on his heart."
Genius. I wanted to get that part out of the way before the bawling...
You are striking a chord so deep I'm actually unsure if I can continue reading :-( It's dredging up so many painful feelings, I'm sorry to say I actually know how Bill is feeling. And that blade feels so cleansing yet not. It's addictive. You've thrown me back a decade - you may get your emo goth poetry yet //rueful.
I crashed down from my high like a ton of bricks and got into a fight with OH and kicked him out of bed so this was also possibly the worst time to read this cos I'm sobbing so hard I can barely see my phone screen :-(
*stifles sobs and crawls under the covers with you and clings to your koala!Tom like a koala!Bill*
Author's Response:
Thanks, I love writing pieces like that.
rnIn a way, AWESOME, that means my writing is actually evocative and my story is doing what it's intended to, but... damn. Of all the things I'd like to do to you, making you cry, or upset, is not one of them. I apologize for that. I feel awful about it, I really do. If you were here, I'd probably be skulking around after you like I do with my sisters after I've fucked up. :(
rn/cuddles you up, rolls over on top of you, snores
Date: 06/20/11 04:37 am Title: Coming Home
though she knew it wasn't physical, this seperation. > *separation
Bill could hear the thready tremble > Hehe, 'steady'?
Also, in Bill's nightmare, he's trying to hold on to the carpet but then it says it's hardwood. If the ground changes, maybe make it say "into the now hardwood floor".
God... >.< Bill's killing himself. If this goes on for one more chapter he's just going to have an absolute breakdown.
Author's Response:
Whenever I get your reviews, I always know right off the bat it's you. No one else is so detail-oriented, thank you. <3
rnHahaha, almost literally at this rate. Yeah, I'd say a breakdown is not far on the horizon.
Date: 06/20/11 03:00 am Title: Coming Home
Bitch. You better have Bill spill the beans pronto-ish or I'mma break in and steal your straightener.
But really, I love you! And I wasn't serious about stealing your straightener.(Mostly)
Love Torrie.
Author's Response:
God you're such a bitch sometimes jeez
rnAlso, nope :D
rnHOLD ME CLOSE NOW TORRIE DANCERRRRRRR
Date: 06/08/11 08:51 am Title: Liquor's Quicker
/curls up around you and sobs into your shirt
Author's Response:
/strokes back your hair
rnThere, there now, Kibbles will fix everything...
Date: 06/08/11 08:05 am Title: Sorry
My tummy hurts :-( I don't want a medal. I want a promise that you'll fix it. Oh, Bill :,-(
Author's Response:
I only ever write happy endings, bb. Don't fret. <3
Date: 06/08/11 07:57 am Title: When the Music Stops
No :-( *hugs*
Author's Response:
Yes. /cuddles you up
Date: 06/08/11 07:50 am Title: The One Hour War
Well you do know how to stick it in and rip it out don't you : Evocative...
Author's Response:
I like to think I have a little more finesse than that. D:
Date: 05/21/11 09:38 pm Title: Liquor's Quicker
I really need to stop crying for Bill in every chapter *wonky grin* Oh my heart. Now you need to update 'Cupid's Chokehold' just so there's a nice balance of happy on my tracked story list. LOL! (J/k)
Author's Response:
HOW DID YOU KNOW I WAS UPDATING TODAY, ANSWER ME
rnThanks for coming back again and again, inspite of everything! Like String Theory, you amaze me.
Date: 05/21/11 09:23 pm Title: Lest We Forget
Sometimes, I'm afraid to read this story when you update, because I know you write it so well. I'm surprised how close you've managed to capture a victim's psyche in this; I've always thought no one else would go through some of those except... you know. It's a bit weird to know that other people may have experienced the same thing and that it was documented somewhere. Creepy.
Sorry for giving you such a backhanded compliment, but this story is really good, if heartwrenching :)
Author's Response:
Backhanded compliments are my favorite! I LIKE IT ROUGH.
rnBut in all seriousness, these are the reviews I love the best. I like to know that what I've written strikes a chord, is relateable, even though a part of me wishes it weren't; for someone to understand this mindset is something truly terrible to consider.
rnEveryone has their way of coping. I hope this sheds some light on that.
Date: 05/17/11 04:35 pm Title: Liquor's Quicker
as;lkghjsh'g;jhoeri;f this story breaks my heart, why do I love it so much :CCCCC
Biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiill ;________________;
Somewhere deep down I feel like this can't go on much longer; something's gotta give. I just don't want it to be Bill. He's already massively fucked in the head, I'm afraid of him getting worse. I wonder when Tom will figure things out, or if he ever will, or if Bill is gonna start distancing himself from Tom. Buh. Twins ;_;
Author's Response:
ZOMG YOU AGAIN
rnIs that the telltale tinkling of a broken heart? :D AWESOME.
rnTHINGS ARE SO FUCKED. But Tom does find out. Eventually. >:)
Date: 05/16/11 03:27 pm Title: Liquor's Quicker
This story hurts so good. It's tragically beautiful and every chapter leaves me breathless and read for more.
I know Tom is going to have to find out eventually, but I honestly have no idea what his reaction is going to be. Anger? Hurt? Homicidal rage? (That may be more like it.)
Author's Response:
I fuqing LOVE hearing that. THANK YOU DAMMIT.
rnYes, yes, and yes. Shit's complicated.
Date: 05/16/11 01:24 pm Title: Liquor's Quicker
Oh God. You really are an amazing writer. This is exactly the kind of story I was searching for, a story capable of making me feel something inside, even if it's rage and sadness and pain. Even if while I was reading I was in tears xD
It was too long since I read a story like this, thank you thank you thank you!
I'm even frustrated because I can't really describe how I feel and what I think about this beautiful story and your writing, 'cause english is not my mothertongue and I'm speechless even in my native language xD
Please, update soon!
Author's Response:
Thank you, thank you! There is nothing I find more flattering than being told my writing's evoked a response in you! That, and being told I'm pretty. That's pretty nice, too.
rnWhat's your native language? I speak a few, maybe we can work something out :D
rnI'll try, honey!
Date: 05/16/11 02:26 am Title: Liquor's Quicker
You know, I sit at the end of every chapter, absolutely stunned. I'm in complete awe of your writing. You know how just to turn the word, the master manipulator, to make me feel every blessed thing Bill is feeling. And it hurts, but it's so good. Incredible.
For the story itself, Jesus Christ, Bill needs to tell Tom. Or Tom's going to find out on his own and...oh god. Nope, I'm keeping my theories to myself, but this is gonna be so rough and so good.
Author's Response:
I honestly do not have words for that. For once in my life I am just about speechless. Every time you review, I'm on the verge of choking up. You make me doubt my doubts, and I cannot thank you enough for that.
rnAs for holding back on your theories... WITHOLDER, I WANT TO HEAR YOUR THEORIES, DON'T MAKE ME HARANGUE YOU IN CAPSLOCK, AS YOU CAN SEE I AM QUITE ADEPT
Date: 05/16/11 12:26 am Title: The One Hour War
*loves on you* You are everything with or without me or anyone else, remember that. I do think you're pretty awesome though *smooshes*
Author's Response:
Wait why am I talking to you here
rn/takes to AIM