Date: 11/12/11 07:33 am Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
That was so powerfully cathartic! I have no words! Literally!
Date: 11/12/11 06:10 am Title: The One Hour War
Like everyone else the intensity of this chapter really got to me. Tom is amazing in his steadfast love and loyalty to Bill. That last scene was so, so painful and I really didn't know if Bill was crazy enough with pain and anger to go through with the attack. But at least they now seem to be in a position where they can deal together. You are amazing how you write emotion and your characters have such depth. You may not update quickly but your chapters are always well worth waiting for. Thank you so much.
Date: 11/12/11 02:46 am Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
At the moment I am a blubbering mess...thank you:)
Date: 11/12/11 01:05 am Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
God, how am I supposed to make any sort of sense when I just want to bawl for both of them?
The intensity of your writing doesn't astound me at all. Not anymore, because I've seen what you can do. That doesn't mean I'm not still in awe, because I am, every single time you post. The depth of your characters is fantastic. They're multi-layered and feel so real that my reaction to these chapters is gut-achingly visceral. I can't even tell you how happy I am that you share your words with us. Thank you.
Date: 11/12/11 12:24 am Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
This is so well done, and hurts so much to read.
Date: 11/12/11 12:22 am Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
I'll be damned if that didn't hurt.
Date: 11/11/11 11:52 pm Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
paralizante capi y me encanto :D fue locazoooooo
Date: 11/11/11 11:03 pm Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
That was gut-wrenching, but absolutely beautiful. I was just as terrified as Tom there at the end, but then, just...that whole last bit was...amazing.
I'm going to read it again and again probably.
Date: 11/11/11 10:46 pm Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
Holy! *kick flails* I just. Holy fucking shit!!! That was...oh my...Wow.
Dear freaking whatever deity that exists out there that was amazing.I couldn't freaking breath I was so choked up with emotion!! I felt Tom's pain, and Bill's pain and exasperation
And that thing at the end!! where he was all grawr and vicous and attacking Tom!!
I'm glad Tom took it to David and Dunja, hopefully they will be able to sneakily get Bill into some sort of therapy, without telling him why they want him in it. And I'msure they will definitely tighten security, and prosecute the perpetrators.
I think (hope) Bill had a decent break through at the end there. Even if it is just one where he realizes Tom won't leave him and isn't ashamed of him.
This was just...So wonderful. I loved seeing stuff from Tom's perspective too. Keep up the a-fucking-mazing work! I can't wait to see more!
Date: 11/11/11 10:00 pm Title: Mouths Shut, Eyes Open
Eepies. *slumps* This was just about my limit. I've read all the other tragic chapters in this fic, but for some reason this one *really* got me.
PS: Heh... I was actually waiting for someone else to review first, but after several minutes I had to break the stunned, sad silence.
Date: 11/11/11 09:55 pm Title: The One Hour War
Hmm what happened to bill? Was he raped? Abused? Who did it??
Date: 10/31/11 10:42 am Title: Snap
Every. Fucking. Time. This story ALWAYS makes me cry. Ugh.
But at the same time, reading this story has been somewhat therapeutic in a way. It's been quite the wild ride. I'm so glad that Tom finally knows. Bill is lucky to have someone that is willing to be there for him like that. I hope he realizes that and lets Tom help him before it's too late!
Date: 10/28/11 01:53 am Title: Snap
Fuck. I knew there was a reason I put off reading this for so long. Once I've finished crying like a little baby, I will probably swear you and threaten and say all kinds of nasty stuff to you in the most loving way possible.
Wow, this is the second story you have written that have reduced me to a fumbling mess of snot and tears. Not cool dude, my nose gets all red and shit.
Still love you though. Almost want to beg you for another chapter, but I doubt my fragile heart can take much more of this at the moment.
Date: 10/25/11 02:09 am Title: The One Hour War
Well I just read this whole thing and now want to give you and Bill and Tom the biggest hugs ever. You are an incredible writer. The emotions are so real. The characters are so real. EVERYTHING is so real.
So many people on this site downplay traumatizing events like these when they're really nothing to toss around, and you write it so accurately and achingly and show the pain that is involved. This is too well-written and considered and amazing for me not to fall in love with it, as gruesome and heartwrenching as the subject matter may be.
Beautiful writing, sir. Keep it up.
Date: 09/19/11 02:30 am Title: Snap
PS: Oh, and my memory must be faulty, because I don't remember anywhere in the story when Tom came into the bathroom while Bill was in there. Or is that only mentioned in Tom's pov?
Date: 09/18/11 11:51 pm Title: Snap
How did I miss this update? Totally stopped breathing when I *did* notice. I knew this was gonna be it.
Eep, I feel like curling in a ball myself. Maybe I will. (But no, I need food) Dug my teeth a little into my fist while reading it.
There's like nothing else to say.
Date: 09/17/11 08:24 pm Title: Snap
Hairs stood on end just on seeing that there was a new update; clearly I'm somewhat masochistic.
It wasn't nearly as bad as I'd feared. Probably because we got to see Tom's thoughts on everything up to now, first, which was really good to see. How he felt shut out and helpless because you really didn't see it before, and you couldn't from Bill's side of things. I wonder if Bill will get angry later at Tom for not knowing, not having seen the clues, for even asking why Bill didn't tell him.
I almost thought that Bill would have tried to deny it further but am so glad that he didn't. How Tom will make things right, I don't know except to answer my next question:
There's a thought that keeps coming back...those men, they must have been a part of the tour crew for a short time. There was no way they would have known where to leave Bill the video otherwise.
I should feel relief but I don't quite, but guess that's okay. Hope your 'puter problems get sorted out soon.
Author's Response:
Yesssss, gooooodddd... /rubs hands together
rnI'm glad you enjoyed that part! I thought it was pretty important for the reader to understand his mindset, too; sometimes, there are more than one victim in a crime like this.
rnIt's very possible that he will! Coping is difficult at any time, in any situation, but this is so personal and life-altering - emotions will probably run the gamut.
rnThey were indeed; they were local security in the country they were in at the time. :) Ace for catching that!
rnThings aren't over yet, that's probably why. There's a long, uphill road ahead of them. <3
rnCastiel, my laptop, is good as new and funky fresh!
Date: 09/17/11 10:46 am Title: Snap
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa!!!! *dam bursts*
In a way, that was soooo cathartic! But it was soooooo heartbreaking!
This is when they left for LA, right?
Damn, but this fic scares me with how close you managed to get to actuality, but I really, really like it.
Author's Response:
Oh habibti... /cuddles you up, hands you silk handkerchiefs
rnVery definitely heartbreaking! But now things can finally get better! <3
rnAbout, yes; I try to keep things as vague as possible for the reader's imagination's sake. <3
rnHahaha, wow! Sort of a backhanded compliment! XD I love it!
Date: 09/17/11 10:06 am Title: Circling the Drain
*waterworks*
OMG....
Date: 09/16/11 11:47 pm Title: Snap
oooh, I'm on the grapevine? I don't think I've ever been on the grapevine before. I feel so special now. *grins*