Date: 05/18/25 02:14 am Title: Home
Will you continue to update?
Date: 07/10/13 06:05 am Title: Home
You are killing me. Are you ever going to let things get better for Tom? He deserves so much better than this.
Date: 05/16/13 02:43 pm Title: Home
Oh, things areso fragile. Like carefully hopeful, but so close to breaking apart with one wrong word. I'm glad Tom issafe, but at the same time this isn't... happy. This is really sad. Like Tom isreally lonely and that is awful feling to deal with. And how could things turn back to how they were? You know the dramatc moment, when everything chances and you just knw that nothing will ever be the same again? I feel that now.
I want to hug Tom. I feel so hopeless - even if there's a dim light of hope.
Date: 05/16/13 01:21 pm Title: Home
Wow! This has got to be the hardest thing I've ever read. There were times that I thought I'd have to just give this story up because my heart and stomach couldn't take it. But I trudged on like a soldier. This is fantastic and I can't wait to read on. Jus cause I need to know if Tom will be okay.
Date: 05/15/13 03:23 pm Title: Home
One more comment. I think it is very symbolic that Tom feels so cold in his house in his room and just cannot get warm. It feels like he does not belong in this house, at least not until Simone puts her shit together, kicks out Gordon and Bill really tries to reconnect with and take care of Tom.
Cannot wait for the next chapter!
Date: 05/15/13 06:19 am Title: Home
Jesus, I can't believe Tom's back home and, really, nothing has changed. Gordon is still there, and Simone has no understanding of what Tom has endured and who was to blame for him leaving home in the first place. And I guess even if she did, she wouldn't necessarily believe him or would pretend it wasn't so, and wouldn't accept any responsibility for her part in it. Talk about denial, she's the mistress of it. I hope that Tom and Bill can rebuild their brotherly relationship, and that Georg and Tom get together again. They all need each other in this fucked up family. Tom does have back-up now, his grandparents are on his side and his dad, and I'm sure they'll be keeping an eye on things. I really, really hope Tom's life will improve, but until Gordon is out of the picture I'm not sure that will happen.
Date: 05/14/13 11:47 pm Title: Home
I cannot believe Simone did not connect the dots about Gordon together yet. Not sure what will happen now. I want Tom to be OK so much... Poor boy deserve a better life.
I wonder what will happen between Tom and Georg now.
Great chapter!
PS. I can beta this story for typos for you as well if you'd like.
Date: 05/11/13 12:14 pm Title: The savior
This was comforting chapter, but I knew it already as you told it would be much better than the previous one. There's finally hope and I see the genuine love in the air - finally. On the other hand I understand that it's not so simple. Many things have happened and it's not clearly only for good to get Tom back. But there is hope and relief. It'll be okay.
Finally a chance to read and review, yay!
Date: 05/09/13 11:11 am Title: The savior
As I said, I am so happy you posted this chapter so soon after the last one. At least now I can hope that things are really going to improve for Tom. Pretty please. Gotta love Timothy for caring enough to help him, even going against his wishes and calling for Fran to come get him, when he knows that wouldn't be Tom's choice, but that's it's the best thing for him...I hope. Unless he's just about to return to the same family situation, with Gordon still there thinking he can pick up where he left off with Tom. What I would really love is for Tom and Bill to be able to reunite and be there for each other so Tom can heal and their relationship can mend. There might even be a sexual edge to it because when a kid's been abused like Tom has often they find it hard to equate love with anything but sex. But at least there would be real love between them. But, really, rather than going home, I think Tom would probably be far better off living at Georg's place. If Georg still wants him and has feelings for him. Oh, I can't wait to find out what's going to happen.
Date: 05/09/13 10:58 am Title: Hans
Both these men need to be made to suffer horribly. Hans is so gross I have no words to adequately describe how much I hate him, but the Man is somehow worse. At least Hans doesn't really try and justify his disgusting acts, but the Man is like Gordon, he tries to make himself believe that what happens to Tom, what they do to Tom, is preferable to the way Tom would be living otherwise. Such hypocrisy. I think it was probably Hans who robbed Tom; he was so cold-hearted and I feel The Man would want Tom to have the m money to salve his conscience, so he could believe that at least Tom was paid for what they did to him. You are so good at writing this kind of dark material you make it all too realistic. This was one of the hardest chapters to read and I'm so happy to be able to read the next - happier - chapter almost right after this one to wipe away the residual nausea that this chapter left me with. I'm off to review that one now.
Date: 05/09/13 12:10 am Title: The savior
ohhh menos mal.... al menos Tom esta con su abuelito que espero lo proteja :) great capi XD
Date: 05/08/13 08:15 pm Title: The savior
I am so glad that you updated so quickly! Thanks! The previous chapter left me in a deep distress. I could not stop thinking about what happened there. It is so great to read so quickly that things are improving for Tom now.
I looked up the age of consent in Germany and it is indeed 14 years old. Wow! I am so surprised that in a developed country they have such a careless law. A 14 year old is a child and does not have enough understanding or power to consent. Your story clearly shows that.
Anyway, I am so happy that Timothy found Tom and contacted Fran. I am glad that Fran took Tom to the grandpa. I really hope that Simone believes Tom now and kicked Gordon out of the house and feel so very guilty for what happened to Tom. She has a long way to make it up to him. I also hope that Bill feels guilty as well, missed Tom dearly and will treat him much much better and with a lot of care from now on.
I hope that Tom will manage to recover psychologically from his experiences.
Cannot wait for the next chapter!
Date: 05/08/13 02:59 am Title: Hans
Ops, I accidentally pressed wrong key. Sorry.
I meant to say that in S.King's book (was it The Stand?) and it made a huge impact on me then.
Date: 05/08/13 02:57 am Title: Hans
I'm at work, supervicing some exams. I'm also very... shaken. I'm not sure why or how. This is such a tragedy. Like the separate things happening hold the turn-on factor, but when seeing the bigger picture, the whole story, the tragedy breaks my heart. And like always, the result, the ending is the most painful. Like it's not the rape itself, but how we lies ghere, cold, alone, afterwards and finds his money gone. When the glimmers of hope are crashed.
I really love this story. It is one of those I feel most emotionally connected with. Eventhough you hurt me with it, it also makes me happy to see it updated. It serves the needs of taking care in me.
Btw, I once read close to similar scene with the gun fucking from S.King's
Author's Response: I do think this part is pretty awful, in many ways. And the "nice parts" (you know what I mean!) from the last part gets so... this makes them look even wores to me, maybe you feel the same? I'm not sure Tom even understnad that he been raped, I think he vews this as his job, something he need to do for living, and that makes it in my eyes even worse. Oh? I haven't read much of King at all (just seen the movies, I'm bad!) but interesting that we manage to write something simular, I guess I should see that as a good thing? Thank you for keep reading and reviewing this!
Date: 05/07/13 11:54 pm Title: Hans
this makes me cry
Author's Response: Me too :( but it WILL be a bit better in the next part!
Date: 05/07/13 09:36 pm Title: Hans
This was a very hard chapter to read. These men are horrible scum. I hope they will be caught and imprisoned soon. I cannot believe what they did to poor Tom and had guts to justify that it was better for Tom and even stole not only the money they promised Tom but also Tom's savings. Please, please put these horrible men into prison!
I really really hope that things will start looking up for Tom. I hope he realized in the moment he thought he would die, that he HAS to go home. He should go the police or hospital and ask them to take him home. Please make things better for Tom. He suffered enough.
Anyway, great story! You know how to invoke emotions in your readers. But please make Tom meet some decent people that will help him.
Author's Response: It was pretty hard to write too, I guess it is one of the darker parts of this story. The men are so awful, but them beeing polices, I do think it makes it so much harder, it will be harder for others to believe in Tom, and I do think he will have a harder time to trust the police even so much that he do try to report them. But we wll se. As I promised before, the next part really IS a little bit better for Tom! Thanks for reading and reviewin!
Date: 04/26/13 05:10 pm Title: The Man
I am very happy to see an update of this. It's my favorite story by far, and I've been following it on LJ since start.
Poor Tom though. And here I'd thought he had gotten a break. Clearly not. And mr Mystery man... He knows who om is. That is interesting, and I can't wait what twist that will bring. At least Tom won't day on a rest-room floor from fever... Progress that, I suppose...
Your story is absolutely amazing. I sincerely hope you will continue to update it!
Author's Response: I'm glad to hear it's a favorite of yours, I'll keep posting it both here and at LJ. rnYou will find out more about the man, who maybe isn't that mysterius? in the next part.rnI have updated and will update soon again.
Date: 04/23/13 03:46 pm Title: The Man
As I told you, you know how to keep me happy.
I was so happy to see this updated and yes, it first sounded like it started suddenly, but then you actually knitted it nicely together and fitting niocely to the (seemingly=) endless story of abuse. You already know how much I love this Tom and how confused and sad feelings this brings to me. It feels like his destiny, somehow smt IN him draws in the animalistic side ion people. As we'äve talked, he certainly has (had?) that in him. Just like in here when there was so much kindness too - almost good - and yet there were this nasty m,otives behind. Perhaps he even feels like he loves Tom, I wouldn't doubt that at all, but the means are just... no. Though the line between good and bad intentions is often a thin red line. I'm not going to explain all things I loved in this (you know them already and I'm more willing to discuss about them in private), but yeah, I would have paid that 200€ just to tyake care of him. Does it make me weird? I'm not sure how to feel about it myself.
Author's Response: LoL I do my best! I think it is like that, that some sides in ppl awake feelings and behaviors in others that sometimes is extremly negative. And I do think the man, just like Gordon, think it's okay what he does, that he doesn't hurt Tom. And Tom, he accepts any littl kindness he can get, poor boy. And I know, and no, it doesn't, at least not in my eyes.
Date: 04/22/13 01:17 pm Title: The Man
I'm pretty sure I got confused somewhere in here... but that's okay because I still loved this. You know I can't resist a creepy old man with a poor little vulnerable Tom. Is there going to be more of these two?
Author's Response: Well, sorry for that. I think? My English is... interesting LoL, but I'm glad it's okay anyway. And well, yes, there are more, even creepier old men in the next part :)
Date: 04/21/13 03:17 pm Title: The Man
ohhhhhh nooooooo a donde fue a parar tom!!!!!!!!!!!!! :/
great capi i missed your fic please update soon :)
Author's Response: I'm glad you think so and I have updated now, the next after that will come soon too :)