Date: 12/18/11 06:48 pm Title: Changing rules
Yikes, Tom just cannot catch a break. Thanks for the update.
Author's Response: Nope, there are no place for him to be safe, I'm afraid. And thanks for the review, I hope this hiatus won't be for ever.
Date: 12/04/11 07:32 pm Title: Changing rules
Aww, sweetheart. I know how you feel and I'm so, so sorry that I can't help you with this. If only English wopuld be my first, but ypu know how it is. *hugs*
You know I also love this story even if it more often breaks my heart than heals it. I can't help it. BUt it's so brutal, harsh, painful and maybe because of that, hits rigfht to me.
I hope I could read this till the end one day and if you decide not to post the rest of this, but you still have this written unbeta'ed, maybe you could email the chapters to me? I don't care about some grammar mistakes. :)
Author's Response: You know, your comments are always special to me *hugs back* rnrnI really do hope it will be solved, I have had some offers, which I'm so, so greatfull about, I hope it will work out, but if not, of course I will send them to you, have only one and a half finished though, it is almost painfull to write on a story you can't post, but at the same time, this is one I NEED to write to the end. Hm, hard to explain, but this story is special to me. rnrnThanks for all your thoughtful comments, both here and in mail!
Date: 12/02/11 06:58 pm Title: Changing rules
Hi, please no hiatus. I can get you a beta. She is a friend of mine and I am sure she will help if I ask her to. How many chapters are there left? Do you already now? So I can give her the most information I can.
Please let me know if you say yes.
Author's Response: Thank you, how sweet of you! If graciaxdiederich can't help me out I will come back to you, okay? I really don't want to put it on hiatus, but I have felt I had no other choise.
Date: 12/01/11 12:07 am Title: Changing rules
Noooooooooo don't leave us!!! I love this story and I was waiting for it like a freak!, god you describe every single character so good, is just awesome!. I hope you don't take so long and find a new beta soon, I wish I could help you but as you can see English is not my mother language :-(
Author's Response: I'm sorry, I feel bad about it too. I just hope I will find a way to keep posting, but it feels wrong to just let it be months between the updates like it has been now :( But I'm glad you like my story and I hope you will, the day I'm able to post the rest, still wants to read it!
Date: 11/30/11 10:36 pm Title: Changing rules
First of all, I've been tracking this story since the beginning, and I LOVE it! It's absolutely amazing, and I'll still be here when you start writing again.
Second, I would absolutely love to be your beta. I love everything you write. I'd be available any time you needed it. I don't really do it for others, particularly because I feel stressed when there are a lot of people asking for it, but I would be honored to help you out in any way possible. Just saying :]
This was amazing. Sad, but very good. Love it!
Author's Response: Oh, you can't imagine how touched I was when I read your comment! Had no idea you liked my stories, are always so suprised when someone "new" review, and flattered (yeah, I love reviews, even if I'm bad at writing them myself...) rnI would be so, so greatfull if you want to help me out, but I have to warn you; my English skills sucks. Big time. I do try to learn, it has gotten better, but I still need lots and lots of help. But if you still are willing to atleast give it a try, I would be so greatfull!
Date: 11/30/11 09:06 pm Title: Changing rules
i have a great Beta named MissAnna on here. ask her to help.
Author's Response: Oh, thank you for the tip!
Date: 09/19/11 06:14 am Title: The promise
i just..i dont..i cant i just cant
This story is too much
Im just gonna go back to reading the bill and tom twincest fics where no one gets raped
no offense meant really,
IM SORRY I CANT DONT HATE ME
Author's Response: No, I won't, don't worry, you can't like every story :)
Date: 09/17/11 04:56 pm Title: The police
God I hope they throw Gordon in jail and throw away the key. I am glad things are finally moving in the right direction.
Author's Response: Well, we have to se about that, I'm afraid. But I do hope so too. And thank you for your review! I'm sorry for not updating, but it seems like I have no beta reader anymore, and I can't find any one who want help me out, so this story will probably be put on hiatus, I'm afraid :(
Date: 09/09/11 02:16 am Title: Just a kiss
Still liking it! Thanks for the update, I'll be waiting for more ;-)
Author's Response: Thanks! I'm glad you are still reading, sorry for the time it takes, but there will be more :)
Date: 09/07/11 02:55 pm Title: The police
I did not know that the age for consent in Germany was 14. That is really young in my opinion and in this story it makes me sad. Because even though this is just a story, situations like this could happen in reality and nothing really can be done because of the law. So sad :(
Author's Response: Yes, I think it's low too. In Sweden it's 15, that is also really young. Let's just hope it doesn't. Thanks for your review!rn
Date: 09/05/11 05:19 pm Title: The police
Poor baby :(. Yes, I can understand the anger. I feel the anger. The line between right and wrong sometimes so blurry and in a wrong place. Frustrated. I know that was your goal with this and I can say you did a good job with it.
There are several emotions Tom goes through in this that I can easily see how they are rationalized. Human mind works in such weird way. It makes me sad to see how much he blames himself.
Btw, nice to see you updating again. :)
Author's Response: Thank you, I'm glad it worked out. And yes, I think so to, I guess we had to in order to survive sometimes.Tom is still so young in this fic, he doesn't really know how the world should be, how things are meant to be. To blame him self seems logic.I'm sorry for the slow updating, have been working on the Big Bang fic and my FQF, and my beta has not so much time to help me out, so well, it might take a long time between the updates, I'm afraid. :(
Date: 08/24/11 03:15 am Title: Okay to be gay
Yeah I did like your story a lot it's just so sad :/
Author's Response: I know :( but maybe it will be better for Tom some time soon?
Date: 08/11/11 04:26 am Title: Okay to be gay
There's just...everything is...oh, god this story is so fucked up.
Highly addicting, yet I feel hesitant starting a new chapter, out of fear of what might come next.
I love how complex everything with Bill and Tom is, how everything between them was sparked out of fear, and a tendency to get aggressive when fearful. I also like Bill's reaction to his actions, making himself suffer because that's what he did to Tom. It just makes a lot of sense.
Gordon & Tom's relationship is definitely something else. It's weird, Tom's realization that everything Gordon does isn't exactly out of hate. It's pretty fucked up everything Gordon does, but I felt the tiniest bit of pity (if pity were liquid, not enough to fill an eighth of a teaspoon) with his whole watch thing.
And then Simone and her whole drunken party thing? That was unexpected.
I really like this story, and will continue to check for updates. I do hope this has a happy ending, though. Tom has just been through too much shit for there not to be :x.
Author's Response: Thank you so much for your long review, it meant a lot to me!And yes, totally fucked up is a good way to describe it, I guess. I'm glad you read Bill and Gordon that way,I want this story to be complex and more gray than white and black, just like things are. Gordon is cruel, but at the same time he does love Tom in some strange way, at least I think it is love.I sorry for the slow updates, my betareader has a little too many other things to think off right now,but there are quite a few chapters left of this story.
Date: 07/25/11 05:19 am Title: Okay to be gay
I'm so glad things are getting better. i hope that Christine talks to Jorg, he wont let gordon get away with this and I think tom will talk to jorg. thanks for the update!
Author's Response: Me too, and I hope she does. Even if I think it might get hard to make Tom talk to his father about it. rnThanks for your review! I hope it won't take so long time for the next update :)
Date: 07/22/11 02:51 am Title: Okay to be gay
I like the direction things are taking. These tiny steps of progress and normality, acceptance and understanding. In a way on situations like this it is so obvious how young Tom is in this. I'd say he acts like most of kids would in his situation.
Maybe it'll go to better after all... I hate to see him so vulnerable and so, idk, surrendered?
Btw, yeah, I know your opinion of Simone, so from that POV I'm not surprised about this. It's just that it is so very unexpected role given to her in fics in general. :)
Author's Response: I like it too, and sooner or later some one just had to understand what was wrong. I think Gustav has the most "normal" family, so it felt right to let his mother be the one to react and maybe act on it. But this is just the first step, let's hope it will be more steps in that direction.... And yes, I think so too, or I hope I manage to write him like that; as a normal 14 year old in a situation he can't handle. Okay, yeah, but I don't like the stereotypes that often appears in fics, with the good mother and the bad father. I don't see Simone as a bad mother in this, but not a very good either, a not so mature person. And Jörg is a good father to Tom then he sees him, but he doesn't see him so often as he should, and then he sees that something is wrong he doesn't really act on it. Both his sons has been in hospital because of drug use, only 14 years old, he should have claimed the custody of the boys, but he hasn't.
Date: 07/21/11 08:45 pm Title: Okay to be gay
I love this story, Tom staying at Gustav's is such a relief.
Not to mention, Gustav is such a good friend!
Author's Response: Thanks, I'm glad you like it! And I think so too, both that it's a good thing and that Gustav is a really good friend,let's hope this will work now. Thanks for your review!
Date: 07/19/11 09:00 pm Title: Okay to be gay
You don't know how happy I am that Tom is out of that hell...
*deep breath*
Author's Response: Let's just hope he will stay out of it too.... rnThanks for your review!
Date: 07/11/11 08:48 am Title: A hero?
Sorry that I'm this late. Been out of home the weekend and having some...things going on the last few days. Anyway, I'm here...
What should I say.. The first half of the fic - party & when they are at twins' home were painfully realistic in a way that these kind of things do happen. A certain drunken mess, where everything is twisted and fucked up is rerality to some people. The way to handle every pain and it becomes a habit. Very, very sad. Amnd then there is one person with actually sense and how frustrating it is to watch thinghs being so m,uch a mess and try to fix things, but it's so huge operation, challenging, only piece by piece. I was a bit surprised of seing Simone like that, but then again - that's the way it works, often with people you least expect to.
The last part of this fic gave me hope. How difficult it must be to listen to something like that, when everything told is so obvious, so casual for the child telling these things? Maybe it's Pandora's box they're opening now? But it has to be opened. I'm happy for Tom. It was a right move - even if drunken one and an accident.
Author's Response: Oh, don't worry, you are far from the only one who is a bit "off" right now :*) I'm just so glad you reads, and comments, my fic!rnrnYeah, I guess we all at some point, in some way have been in the same situation as both Tom (then he had to sober up to look after Bill) and Fran, and it's anything but funny. I'm glad you found it realistic, I hope this fic feels realistic, the world is a pretty ugly place a little to often, and even if I hope that the abuse Tom suffers in this fic is more than most ever have to come close to, a little to many children grow up like Tom. I found it intresting that you was suprised over Simones behavior, I guess we have quite different views on her? I'm afraid we will see a little more of "my" Simone soon...rnThanks for your review, I will post the next chapter now :)
Date: 07/06/11 11:32 pm Title: A hero?
Omg... I finished reading all of this... chapter 15 he justs... it's...
Author's Response: Guess that means you liked it? I hope you will read the rest of this story too :)
Date: 07/06/11 02:07 am Title: A hero?
thank god!!! I am so glad an adult finally knows!!
Author's Response: Me too, let's hope she can help him out!