Date: 04/21/13 01:47 pm Title: The Man
Oh, Tom... Why, why did he not go meet his mother? I have a feeling she believes Tom now and kicked Gordon out.
I thought you said that things will start getting better for Tom. I hope Tom will find courage to go home soon. He knows he can go to his father, right?
Great story! I was so happy to see the update. Cannot wait for more :)
Author's Response: I don't think she understood where Tom was, I mean, she didn't even know which town he is in? I think it's very dubble for Tom, both the longng for home and the fear of going there. I hope she have, but we will see about that. rnAnd it will, or well, the chapter after the next is a bit nicer, I can promise you that :)rnThank you for reading and reviewing!
Date: 04/21/13 12:40 pm Title: The Man
It's absolutely tragic that Tom is so ill and so desperate for a little kindness and caring that he's grateful to such a man for taking him home. It shows just how little he now thinks of himself, how much he's suffered and how confused his emotions are that he would go with the man rather than let his mother come fetch him home. The man himself is disgusting, preying on someone so weak and vulnerable, using Tom even though the boy is obviously so very sick. I'm left wondering whether Tom will ever find his way back to a more normal life,whether there's any hope that things will improve for him...whether he could even live as a regular person now after everything he's been through. God, I could cry for him; I so want to rescue him. You are one of the few people whose stories really touch my heart. So, so sad.
Author's Response: I think you get used to most things, and then you start to rate them, to Tom, I guess this at the moment felt better than the option; to stay in tht public restroom and what ever might have happend to him there. But I agree, it really is sad, and the man who use him that is absolutly disgusting. I think we are able to heal from almost anything, but it sure wont be easy, if he ever goes back home. I'm so glad they do, I love writing and when it awakes such reactions in peopel, it feels like I got it right. Even though the story itself is so, so wrong. Thank you so much fro your review!
Date: 03/04/13 05:25 pm Title: A phone call
I'm happy to see this updated! :)
So many mixed emotions from this cgapter. t was like a burst of light and happiness in the middle of this dark world and it's soon wiped away harshly. It really heartbreaking to se this drifting between good and bad. I feel so, so, so bad for Tom, so helpless. My heart can take this child's pain, not at all. *sigh*
You are really killing me with your fics there days, aren't you? ;)
Author's Response: And I'm happy to be abel to update! He really is helpless, and jet is he the only one who can help him, it really is heart breaking. And sorry for that, know I'm been bad lately, but I really do hope you will like the update :) Thank you so much for reading and reviewing this story :)
Date: 03/03/13 04:13 pm Title: A phone call
I am so happy you posted. Happy too that Tom finally found some people to help him without expecting something in return. I'm wondering how this reunion with his mum will really go; he's remembering things through rose-tinted glasses perhaps, but so much has happened and nothing can really go back to the way it was before all the horror began, can it? But I do hope that somehow he and his mum and Bill can have some kind of relationship and he can recover from everything that's happened to him, at least find a way to live with it and move on with his life. I would love a happy ending for him and Georg too. And I really, really want Gordon to get what he deserves. Thank you again for updating.
Author's Response: I'm glad to hear that, and thanks for the suport, I need that I think :) I wounder that too, what will happen the day Tom really do goes home. And I know, at the same time I thik he knows and understand that he isn't remembering things the way they were, maybe that's why he heasitates? A lot of wishes, I hope some of them comes true. I have updated now, and I will hopfully update soon again, this storie needs to move forward now :) Thank you so much for your review!
Date: 03/03/13 02:49 am Title: A phone call
I just found this story and spent hours reading it. It is very impactful. I could not stop reading it.
I heart aches so bad for Tom. I really really hope that his life will get better. He should go live with his father.
I hope that Gordon will be prosecuted. I am not sure how I feel about this Bill...
Anyway. This is an amazing story! I am looking forward to the next chapter!
Author's Response: I'm glad you found my storie! And yeah, living with Jörg had been such a good thing for him, I just wish Tom would undertand that himself. I hope you enjoy the update :)
Date: 12/15/12 04:36 pm Title: An old friend
OMG, you're breaking my heart! This is so, so, so sad in such many ways. The hopelessness or... the hope which people so desperately try to hang on? I feel like you turned a whole new page in this fic when you moved Tom to Berlin. Kind of new life, new story. We'
ve come so far from the start and it feel so long ago. Perhaps it's like that for Tom, too?
I guess this chapter breaks my heart so much, because it nails so perfectly the world lived in those tagged element jhouses in every bigger urban area? It breaks my heart, because we've probably both seen some of that happening in young people around us?
Idk, damnit... So many feelings. *sigh*
Author's Response: Sorry, for breaking your heart I mean. I find it interesting that you think so, I do belive Tom feel that way, that a lot of time has passed and he is far from there he used to be, but i feel I get closer and closer to there I started off, it's good to see that you who read doesn't view it the same way. And yeah, I think we have and it's not a good thing :( But I guess it fits pretty well in here. The povertry Tom lives in on the countryside doesn't show so clearly, but really, it's just the same as in those houses and it's sad to think about. Thank you so much for your review, it meant a lot to me!
Date: 12/12/12 11:57 pm Title: An old friend
Aww how sweet:) some good for little Tomi!
Author's Response: Yeah, it can't be just tragic all the time, right? He need some friends and he need a break from time to time. Thank you so much for reading and reviwing!
Date: 12/12/12 03:38 pm Title: An old friend
So.
Even though I beta read this, throwing red at it like it's going out of fashion, I never reviewed it. This is /bad/. *hangs head in shame* For what my opinion is worth, I love it. I stand by what I said on the bottom of the email I sent you. You play with emotion so well, keeping it intense but real, not amping it up for no reason. Timothy's mother breaks my heart in this chapter, as does Timothy. The pain they feel is so well written. To be entirely honest, even though you don't have a perfect grasp of English, you create such vivid characters and deep emotional concepts that it doesn't matter. /stops rambling now.
Author's Response: Nah, that is not bad. But I'm really glad you took your time to do so, it means a lot to me to hear what you think about the story (after beeing so harsh on the poor words with all the red ;-) ) I'm so glad you feel that way about this story, as it truly is my baby and I'm so grateful for all your help, I hope you know that <3
Date: 11/11/12 02:32 am Title: To take
I guess its only been 7 months, but that's plenty long. I would have abandoned this story long ago because its just so hard on poor Tom, except you write so well. I am determined to stick it out. This was a great chapter, and no real torture for Tom either. Thanks for the updates!
Author's Response: Of course seven months is a very long time for a child in Tom's possison, and thank you, I'm glad you like my wiriting. I know it's an awful story, but there must be some light in the tunnle, right? Thanks for reading and reviewin, I hope you like the next chapter :)
Date: 10/31/12 06:05 pm Title: To take
I'm really, really frustrated, you know. I almost want to slap every single person on this story (inc. Tom) for not actually "make the call" to change something. It's all about thinking and talking, but nothing. I don't even know why I got so frustrated all of a sudden.
It's in little details and things being symbolic to this story that I like.
Just... hoping for the best, I guess? *sigh*
Author's Response: On the other hand, Georg's mum did try, even if she isn't sure what is wrong. Gustav's mum did do what she could, tried to make the boys stay with her and helped Tom to report it to the police (who didn't care) not much more she could do. And poor Tom told Gustav's mum, he told his own mum (or no, let her know) but she choiced to not believe in him, he told the social workers, who didn't believe in him. He tried to tell his father, but it didn't work out either. So well, frustrating. But what can he do? Now he even tried to tell a complete stranger, and still, nothing. Well, this story WILL end some how, lets see if you feel the same about the end too? :) ( we are gettint towardst the end, slowly.)
Date: 10/31/12 07:05 am Title: To take
Like the man at the store, I think a hell of a lot of the people around Tom must suffer from selective blindness (and deafness). They see and hear the problem but would rather not get involved so they don't delve deep enough or ask the right questions to allow Tom the opportunity to unload his dark secret. It's a case of them not wanting to get involved. And like that man they kind of pat Tom on the head and sympathise without having to do anything that will rock their little worlds. Oh, wow, don't know where that insight came from, but I feel so damned sorry for this kid. Bill and Georg must both be worried to distraction about Tom but being kids themselves they're just as powerless. I so hope someone will save him soon. Thank you for updating and know I am so involved with this story, the utter horrific realism of Tom's situation, that whenever you post a new chapter it stays with me for days afterwards. That's the mark of a good writer.
Author's Response: I do think that is rather common, we all like to think that peopel would react, or that we ourselfs would do something if we heard something like that, but most of us don't. Most peopel just feel bad, and as you say, kind of pat the person on the head to feel a little better about themselfs and then they go on with their lifes and tries not to think about it twice. I do think both Bill and Georg suffers a lot, and one can just hope that Simone does too, maybe starting to understand that her son did tell her something very importatnt befor? I'm so glad you think so and tell me that, I hope I will be able to update soon again, I do have the whole next chapter written already.Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!
Date: 10/31/12 01:30 am Title: To take
ufff... i feel so sad... =( but as tom is very far of his home(of gordon and simone i mean)... everything will be better :)
sorry my english ops
Author's Response: I hope so too, even if being alon in Berlin might not be the best place for a child like Tom. And please, never be sorry about your English, mine is really poor, I'm just so glad when ever anyone take their time to read and review!
Date: 10/31/12 12:21 am Title: To take
He just ran away!!Oh my god! Sometimes I forget how harsh life should be to want to leave the only place in the world which you should feel safe: home.
Bill must be having an anxiety attack over his brother dissapearance, and Geo must be truly worried about his friend.
I really can relate to some of this wituation you've described. I empathize with a lot of what Tom feels, not all but some of it.
I'll see you around next chapter.
Author's Response: Yeah, I don't think there are any place, except maybe for his dads, that Tom feels really safe at right now. I think this must be jsut as hard for Bill,too. And I do think he feels guilty about it too, poor thing. I'm glad you are reading, and even happier that you let me know what you think, I hope it won't take too long until I can update again!
Date: 10/17/12 05:42 am Title: To leave.
Jorg should suspect Gordon. The men who are closest to Tom are the obvious suspects and Jorg should take Tom away until he knows who it is.
Are you ever going to stop torturing Tom? Please stop at some point.
Author's Response: I think it might be hard to see sometimes, or wanting to see, we are often blind for things happen too close to us, I'm afraid. But yes, that would of course be the best if he did. And yes, at some point. And remember, I'm posting this so slowly, the time from the first kiss till now is just seven mounths, it's not a very long time. I'm so glad to see you are still reading this and thank you so much for your review!
Date: 10/05/12 12:05 pm Title: To leave.
I love it this all history ....
he is run away....I hope Gordon dont find him. :)
please update soon..
Author's Response: Thank you for telling me, I'm glad to hear you like it! And I hope so too, it's not easy for Tom to be Tom in this story. I hope to be able to update soon :)
Date: 10/05/12 04:35 am Title: The promise
What. The. Fuck.
Author's Response: Well... I just think he didn't really know what to do, I do feel sorry for Bill too in this, even if his acctions can't be defended in anyway here.
Date: 10/05/12 03:28 am Title: To leave.
Oh gott. Bitte.
You need to right more, I''m going to dieee.
Author's Response: I am, I hope I will be able to update soon, thank you for reading and reviewing, it means a lot to know that some body does :)
Date: 10/03/12 05:42 pm Title: To leave.
I'm so glad to see you updating this. NOt only I love to read this, but because I know how important this fic is for you. :)(
I just hope you'd let Tom go. He deserves top go and be happy and not be afraid anymore. Manipulative adults and questioning of children's explanation is so hard. I think it happens a lot. I hopoe things turn out somehow for good now.
Author's Response: Thanks,and yes, it really is to me, of some strange reason, it really is my baby, this messed up fic. rnAnd i do think so too, even if this is just fiction, boys like my Tom here do exist. And well, you will se, I hope to be able to update this soon :)
Date: 10/02/12 06:08 pm Title: Just a kiss
I was waiting for this for so long, I'm so happy that you are back :D
I'M GOING TO READ IT NOOOOW!!!
Date: 10/01/12 12:16 pm Title: To leave.
Such a heartbreaking chapter. If only Tom would tell Jorg who it is who hurts him. But I can understand why he doesn't, feeling it will only make matters worse because Gordon can twist anything to his advantage. I actually think one of the most sickening aspects of this story is the way Gordon appears to truly believe that he isn't harming Tom, that he is just showing his love for him. And yet at some level he knows he is doing wrong otherwise why would he have to lie to everyone to cover his tracks. I feel sorry for Bill here too. The younger twin must hurt for his twin but also be afraid he'll get blamed for what's happened to Tom, and also he just doesn't know how to make things better. I am so happy you are still writing this; I keep on following the story because it's compulsive reading but also in the hopes that eventually there will be some kind of happy ending for both of the twins and that Gordon - and, in a way, Simone too for her neglect - will get what's coming to him. Can't wait for the next installment.
Author's Response: It really is, isn't it? And I think he, Gorodon, is really good at it, as them who abuse children tend to be. I do think he loves Tom, in his own twisted way, and I don't think he sees any of it as wrong, but that he tries to hide it as he understands that other adults will find it wrong. I allso feel for Bill here, he has a really hard time dealing eith everything, both his own mess and everything around him, poor boy. rnThank you, and I'm so glad to see that you still are reading this, I'm sorry for the lack of updates, I wish I was abel to write in English with out help from a beta, now I have to wait until someone have the time to help me out, I'm afraid.