Date: 05/07/11 03:15 am Title: A merry Christmas?
aw man. i really wish tom has talked to his grandfather or taken him up on his offer. at this point i dont care if someone kills gordon, i think he deserves it.
Author's Response: I wished he had too, but I don't think he can think clear anymore. And what if Tom is right, what if Simone blames him for all this?
Date: 05/05/11 11:56 pm Title: A merry Christmas?
Gosh is it sick that this is one of my favorite storys? All I want to do is give poor tomi a hug and make all the bad people go away.
I really like how you mad Gordon the bad guy and Jörg the god guy.
I hope that geo comes in and saves Tom before he does any thing drastic.
I love the story you are writing, and your story is the only one right now that gets me really emotional:)
Author's Response: Nopp, or well, I'm glad that it is! Thanks, I don't like the way many writes Jörg, he is still important to the twins, can't understand why so many seems to dislike him? I hope so too, Tom can need an personal hero like Georg, but I'm afraid he might not be able to do so much, he is just a kid himself?Thank you so much, I'm so glad anyone likes my wirting!
Date: 05/05/11 01:05 pm Title: A merry Christmas?
Wow. You really get into Tom's head. I check daily for updates to this fic. It's one of my favorites. Sooo intense.
Author's Response: Glad to hear you think so, it's what I try to do, and thanks, I'm glad you like it :)
Date: 05/05/11 08:41 am Title: A merry Christmas?
It confuses me too.....I thought Tom hated when Bill did all those nasty things but now he is into it? I thought he wont let his brother touch him again.
Author's Response: Of course he isn't in to it, but did he have any other option? If he had tried to escape Bill, he might have hurt him even worse, it's always a good idea to listen to peopel who has a knife. And if he had fighted him, someone would have heard them, the house is full of peopel, I think Tom thinks that is even worse than the things Bill does. Finaly, Tom belives this is his own fault, he doesn't se the things Bill does as something evil, but something he has earned and created himself, that's why he thinks he has to die to put an end to all of it. rn
Date: 05/05/11 01:59 am Title: A merry Christmas?
this chapter has offically confused me
Author's Response: In what way?
Date: 04/29/11 08:13 pm Title: The bathroom
I love this fic, it somehow keeps getting better and better, deeper and deeper. I actually like the xomplexity the characters have to go through on their development. There are so many layers and especially convlicted feelings that nothing is really clear or easy.
"United they stand - Divided they fall" were excellent lines. I like to fogurative image of it. Both of the twins are so messed up and it breaks my heart to read them like that. Not only Tom, but Bill as well. And how sex & sexualioty have become the source for everything and everything revolves around hurting, violating, sexual power. It is really sad, when it becomes a merchandise.
Georg is so kind to Tom. I like it. Even if his emotions are not simple either. Your Tom is one of my favorite Toms on this site :)
Author's Response: Thanky so much, and I'm glad you read it like that - the way I tried to write it; as a journey that right now goes against something darker, something even worse. And thanks again, I think it is that way in this fic; it was the moment then Bill hurt Tom that it started to get really bad, they are so used to act together that everything goes wrong then they have to go through it alone. And yes, Bill is absolutely just as messed up as Tom is, but in another way.Georg got a lot of own problem, that we will learn more about later on, but I do belive he is the best thing Tom has in his life :)
Date: 04/27/11 03:55 pm Title: The bathroom
Ah! I like this chapter. You show Tom's confusion so well. He believes that he is responsible for Gordon's actions. Tragic.
Author's Response: Thanks, and yes, I think so too, this story is kind of tradgic :(
Date: 04/26/11 02:59 pm Title: The bathroom
Ahhhhhh, so glad that they kissed!!!And even if it's just a small kiss, it's a start!I'm really happy to see them like this. Hope they'll be together, and will do more then just a kiss. Tom deserves to be happy and Georg I think is perfect for him. Bill will always be near and will love him, but I hope as a brother, not more. Don't get me wrong, I like Tom/Bill but not in this story. In this story I'm all for Tom/Georg...
Author's Response: Me too, Georg is good for Tom and the relation to Bill only gets abusive then they doesn't act as brothers. But you never know, a lot can still happen...
Date: 04/26/11 04:35 am Title: The bathroom
I just feel bad for Bill and Tom (for different reasons) every time I read this. I really hope things work out for everyone in the end. thanks for the update!
Author's Response: I hope so too, but is a bit afraid that things might get even worse, we will see I guess. And thanks for reviewing!
Date: 04/26/11 01:38 am Title: Just a kiss
Aww Georg and Tom *-* but I also want Tom with Bill.. yeah I know he hurt him but it seems that he really loves him..damn I'm confused now..
Author's Response: Of course Bill loves his brother, but I think it's best for the both of them to love eachother as brothers and nothing else :)
Date: 04/25/11 09:51 pm Title: The bathroom
they are so cute together :)
Author's Response: Thanks, I like them too together, even if thier relationship is far from uncomplicated :)
Date: 04/25/11 08:08 pm Title: The bathroom
What did Bill do to his feet?... or do we find that out later?
Man... Things in the band are getting pretty dysfunctional even in the beginning of TH! I got a really good sense of the chaos and tension in this chapter. Good work! :)
Author's Response: I wrote about it in the chapter "The promise" :) And thank you and yes, quite messed up from the begining.
Date: 03/27/11 08:37 am Title: Just a game
Oh Tom... *sigh*. So heartbreraking. I don't think anyone has ever before writrten sexual abuse in this way. This is so detailed and full of emotions - and what exceptional - so mixed signals, dancing on a line of right and wrong. The way Gordon felt of Tom being just a child and yet all details imlieing to adult's games was interesting (and sad) insight to a mind whjere everything could be explained right. In a way, it's sick, but is it intentional bad? I don't know. What would be the right accusation?
Also Tom's inner monologuq - fears, hopes, second quessings and constant observation for something, anything, bad to happen is sad. He tries to sort out things much bigger than himself and I can understand. Children do that, blame themselves.
This is so tragic, but as said, I can't help, but lovelovelove your Tom here.
Author's Response: I don't think so, that it's intentional bad from Gordon's side. I do belive that he truly loves Tom, I don't think he wants to hurt him, or well, I don't think he is capable of understanding what harm he is causing the boy.In an adult relationship this would pass as a game, like hurt/comfort or something like that, but with a child it just turns in to abuse. I think the law help to confuse too. Tom is at legal age in Germany and so far has everything Gordon done been in some sort of consent. And yes, I think so to, that children blames themselfs then something like this happens.rnI feel sorry for Tom to, and I'm afraid this might get even worse soon...
Date: 03/25/11 07:50 am Title: Just a kiss
yeah probably, She is gonna be shocked when she find out what kind of man she maried.
Author's Response: Well, maybe we will find out ;)
Date: 03/22/11 03:26 pm Title: Just a game
aww poor tom, his mother is such a stupid woman in this story, good god woman your kid is getting raped and you don't talk to him about it. STUPID
Author's Response: A bit stupid, yes, or maybe ignorant, I guess she doesn't want to see, or maybe is the truth so far from how she thinks their life is that she isn't able to even think something can be realy wrong?
Date: 03/22/11 08:13 am Title: Just a game
I just want Gordon to disappear, I hate him so much!!!!! I want Georg, where is he?
Author's Response: lol I want him too, hopefully he will do something to help Tom soon, if only he can.
Date: 03/22/11 04:49 am Title: Just a game
i hate that this is happening to Tom. please tell me it gets better at some point.
Author's Response: At some point it has to come to an end somehow, let's hope for a good one :)
Date: 03/22/11 12:32 am Title: Just a game
I WANNA STRANGLE GORDON!!! THE FUCKER!!! LET ME KILL HIM!! IMM KILL THAT SON OF A BITCH!! *grabs butcher knife*
Water sport is not my cup of tea. I hate it. So i kind of skimmed a bit on that part..D: I still feel sooooo sorry for Tom.. And he's like.. In love with Georg - the only good thing in his life:( I'm more of a Tom/Bill through and through.. But damn it I can't even trust Bill here! The poor boy's a mess in some sort of way too!!
I just want this Gordon thing to stop:( He's being manipulated. I hope someone else will notice soon before it destroys the poor boy completely...
Author's Response: lol Feel free, just go ahead with the killing ;)rnI guess it isn't Tom's either....rnI think Bill is pretty much messed up in this story, so yes, Georg might be the only good and normal thing he has, the poor child.
Date: 03/12/11 01:11 am Title: The promise
I actually enjoyed this because it's rare that ill is the aggressor and does something like this. Ver interested in how this story continues to develope.
Author's Response: I try to stay away from the stereotypes as much as I can :) Thanks for your review!
Date: 03/08/11 11:03 pm Title: The promise
whoa...so it was Bill all along?....just...whoa....it may have been unpleasant, but this was hella good. Keep on writing!
Author's Response: All along? Well, it was Bill now, but I don't think he have even thought about it before. Hope to update soon :)