Wow, this is amazing! I love the suspenseful plot. I was really affected by the descriptions of the nightmare and Bill's anxiety, and I love all of the descriptions of the twins' interaction. ♥

The nightmare is so horrible. ;_; Losing your twin! I like how the descriptions of the nightmare change a bit each time; they always affect me, though. The idea that Bill doesn't even want to be pulled up from the water because Tom's not there; the matter-of-fact tone of the third (or fourth?) dream.

OMG TOM I love him, saying "You okay?" when Bill wakes him up in the middle of the night, not annoyed by it at all, and asking Bill to join him and saying they'll be awake together if they can't sleep. ♥

I love how normal their morning is, Bill being insulted by how quickly Tom got him coffee and Tom's threat to make inappropriate Jessica Alba comments. They make me feel so much better after being settled by the nightmare. Because I was!

Tom saying "Roasting alive." Ack, what a choice of words! I really like their exchange though. You write them so well, it feels like I'm really watching them talk and share their tour life feelings. And the other descriptions too. Tom's "little 'I'm indulging Bill' smile!"

The marvellous twin scenes make the nightmares feel so much worse, though! "He is caught and held. Tom has him. Bill is terrified for any prospect of a time in his life when that may not be true." That makes me terrified too! It's obvious how much Tom means to him, how Tom's everything to him. It's so horrible to imagine them losing each other. :( But I love that Tom clears the room so that Bill can talk to him, and I love that Bill can finally cry and cling to Tom since that's obviously what he needs to do.

I love how they talk about it. "You know we can't stand it when we dream of one of us dying." I love it when they talk like that, like they're one person. ♥ But seriously, Bill dreaming about Tom dying is making me upset!

"Tom's protectiveness never fails to touch something tender within him" -- this is so lovely! I love that they're touching each other's wrists. In my opinion, Bill should never be too old to pile into Tom's bunk! But I'm glad they're touching, still. I love the description of Bill's feelings for Tom being "like some vast underground lake."

I had my heart in my throat when they talk about it -- or try to and almost fail. I was all, "Don't you dare!" when Bill says "Never mind." I definitely want them to talk about it! I love Bill saying "Don't play dumb with me, Tom Kaulitz," hee. The sense of losing Tom inevitably is so awful, though. "either through his lack of action...or the words he's brought out into the open." :((( Damned if you do, damned if you don't!

I love all the ways they touch. This made my toes curl: "He shifts closer, the tip of his sneaker scuffing shyly over Bill's boot."

Oh, it makes me so sad that they don't connect! I understand why Tom feels like there's nothing they can do -- how could they protect themselves against that vision, even if it is true? But I get Bill's frustration too, especially when Tom didn't seem very enthusiastic to be "everything" with him... and when Tom starts to talk about how Bill blows "every little thing" out of proportion -- the whole exchange is such great writing, their conflict, turning into an argument, Tom touching Bill's shoulder and showing that he's sad about this as well. The last paragraph of that scene is just amazing: "he keeps his pen poised over an empty notebook page" -- so evocative.

Sharing dreams and Bill being able to step into Tom's dream is so cool!

I love how you describe their closeness and their personalities, how well they know each other, like when Tom covers "up the potential sentimentality of the moment with brusque talk," and Bill knows it, and yet he's hurt by it. It's more complex than simply being hurt by Tom's words.

"A surprise with cameras?" Bill ventures, having every right to be suspicious.

Aww, Bill "venturing" to guess that the surprise comes with cameras makes me feel so much sympathy for him, poor thing! I'm suspicious too, though, because I'm still afraid of the fire or something happening, and I think it's got something to do with this surprise. Poor Bill! The descriptions of him being wistful and desolate really get to me. At least he finds Tom and they talk at least a little. I like Tom pointing out that he didn't lie, he just said it was dangerous, and also that life isn't a song. Their conflict sounds very real and based on their personalities. Tom tries to be sensible almost as if to balance Bill's (as he perceives them) more romantic views.

The description of their non-consensual cuddle is lovely! And I'd like to think that Tom wants to give Bill a moment of peace, too, and it's not really all that non-consensual, after all. He must know that Bill can relax best when by Tom's side.

I really hope they don't go back but this was too amusing not to make me smile: "the people nearby are studious in their inspection of anything in their surroundings that does not include Bill and the scene he's making." Hee! I love the scene Bill is making, how he tries to go limp like a child, and how incredulous and annoyed Tom is. Both because I feel it's really important that they stay away from the yacht and because it feels so realistic. I love that Tom explains his feelings and reactions by saying "Do you know how scared I was?" Aww. ♥

I'm dreading what will happen! "This is what it's like to run out of time" and "He can't change anything." ._. This will be all right, right? Nothing will happen... right? A sudden switch to Tom's point of view feels like a bad sign! I'd feel strangely vindicated if Bill was right about the gas and the danger, but I don't want anything to happen to him.

I love Tom in this story so, so much. I love that he will do anything for Bill, absolutely anything, and that he needs to actively fight that urge and be gruff!

This is so incredibly well written! "'Bill!' Tom screams, understanding at last." Everything has been leading to this point, and now it's happening. This is so effective. I read the whole description of Tom going in for Bill wide-eyed and horrified. Tom's "You idiot" made me laugh out loud, I was so relieved! And it's so touching -- that it's not what he meant to say, but he'd been so scared, and he still is. ♥

Bill is giggling, a soft huff against Tom's lips, and they seal their mouths together after two unsuccessful attempts, mostly because Tom has to pin Bill's lips down to stop his giggling.

The ending is so lovely! Bill's giggling! SO WONDERFUL. I got tears in my eyes! I just love this so much. I love it when they kiss chastely and Bill giggles, and when their kisses become more heated, and when Tom cries and Bill holds him. ♥ So sweet, and a perfect catharsis.

Author's Response: Completely *____* over this review, you blow me away as usual. I'm pleased you enjoyed the twins' interactions!

I wanted the nightmare to be horribly vivid otherwise the stakes weren't as high, you know? And I strongly feel Bill would want to go if Tom did, too. And of course Tom will let Bill in for a cuddle if he's woken up from that kind of dream. I wanted to get in some good twinny banter, some humor to infuse in between tense and upsetting scenes. And of course Jessica Alba is a frequent topic for Tom. ;D

I definitely wanted Tom's "roasting alive" to be ominous to the reader. I'm glad you enjoyed the twin scenes and the two of them being close, so you can feel the tragedy of potential separation! And yes, the tactile definitely reassures them, but it's difficult when they have to contend with how others might see them and not comprehend or condone of their bond. That description of Bill's feelings as the "vast underground lake" was one of my favorites and I'm so glad you enjoyed. ♥

Tom was playing totally obtuse and of course, Bill was so nervous! But they can't possibly misunderstand each other. Still, they can manage to hurt one another, poor boys. And we're winding everything up in Bill's fear that he's going to lose everything one way or another.

They have so many discreet touches, of course I have to work it in! And they've said they can share dreams before - I'm sure they didn't mean quite like this, but it was a fun idea to play around with.

It's definitely how I see the twins - Bill with his flights of fancy, Tom trying to keep them grounded - and to keep both of them safe, poor boy. And, Bill only thought of it as non-consensual. ;) Tom was totally into it, he grabs every chance he can. As for Bill and his scene - that's how it is in a lot of big cities, people try not to look when there's some kind of scene. Poor Bill! It was so difficult to write that scene with Tom because I just don't feel Tom would force Bill to do anything he was so violently opposed to, especially when Bill is having dreams where Tom dies. ;_; But, I had to follow the basic plot so Tom had to be the bad guy!

I wanted that switch to Tom's POV to feel terrifying. ;) What's going to happen where Bill can't narrate anymore? And of course, Tom finds out - and of course he jumps into the water after him. I'm glad you enjoyed Tom's POV as well!

It's so lovely to hear you got tears in your eyes. Thank you so much. I'm very happy to hear your thoughts on this story, I was very worried about it and at the same time it meant a lot to me. ♥

I loved that remix! I don't know how was the original story but this one blew my breath away! It was well-written and captivating. I liked the ending. Great job, anyway.

Author's Response: Thank you so much! Ah, I'm really glad it gave you that reaction. I appreciate the compliments, and thanks for your review!

What you've done here is absolutely staggering in its intensity, complexity and emotion. You had me all over the place; feeling sorry for Bill, angry at Tom, and terrified for both of them. This was wonderful. Wonderfully written and one hell of a remix. Well done!

Author's Response: Wow! *_* *absolutely staggered by this review* Thank you, I'm really happy it evoked all of those emotions for you. I really, really appreciate your review and I'm so pleased to hear your thoughts.

i honestly don't know what to say. stunning, heartbreaking, beautiful, so realistic and just...wow. this is going to be imprinted in my memory for a long time. truly amazing story.

Author's Response: Thank you so much, I'm so pleased you found it to be all of those things. ♥ I really appreciate your review!

*_* This remix left me totally speechless but I’ll try to leave a coherent review anyway. Reading the few first line, I was already addicted to this fic. The way it’s written and the plot is just amazing. Reading about the twins being separated or loosing each other is the most painful thing ever, so sad and heart breaking. But it’s also very intense and with this ending, it’s just perfect. Every time Bill dreamt about Tom’s death, I had tears in my eyes, even if I knew what was going to happen, it was still sad and emotional.

One of my favourite moments was when Tom told Bill to go from his dream to Tom’s the next time so he’ll keep him safe. I thought it was the most adorable and sweet idea, protective Tom is one of my favourite :) The way you describe Bill’s love for Tom with the comparison with the lake and all was just brilliant. And the way you brought the pairing in this story, pushed by the sense of urgency was so fluid, truly well done. And omg, that was hilarious: ``I swear to you, Tom Kaulitz, by the Jumbie I hold most sacred, I will get on the boat right now.``

I have so much to say about this fic but I’m going to stop here before I quote every single line and moments as my favourites. You did such an amazing job with this remix, my favourite so far. You are very very talented and I can’t wait to learn who you are and see if my guess is right about your identity :D

Author's Response: Thank you so much! And I don't even know what to say. ♥ Your review means so much to me. It was an intense topic to deal with, and I wanted to do it justice. I'm happy if I got even a little bit close.

That was an addition to the story that I had fun with - I definitely wanted Tom to be protective, even as he didn't believe it could be a vision. And, !!! you mentioned my absolute favorite metaphor, the one with the lake, I am so glad you loved that. I was waffling over whether to add the pairing or not but in the end, it was what I needed to do with the story, so I'm glad you thought it worked.

There should always be Jumbie. ;D

Thank you so so much. Were you right? ;)