Date: 10/22/14 03:32 pm Title: Part III - Parting
My heart is broken!!!!
Date: 06/02/12 05:28 pm Title: Part III - Parting
*gross sobbing*
Author's Response: Awww.... *pats head* I'm sorry :(
Date: 01/15/12 05:01 pm Title: Part I - Journey to the past
Lols XD Don't be sorry. I like crying at fics XD I also like realistic fics that don't have happy endings for things that probably wouldn't HAVE happy endings. When fics start out super-sad and end up with everyone happy it feels...well, it doesn't ALWAYS feel wrong, but it often feels totally unrealistic. So the unhappy ending was a good thing ^-^
Author's Response: Okay, then I won't feel bed ;) I'm also very glad you liked my unhappy ending. Despite it being hard to write, and the fact that is was even harder to actually accept I would have to keep the boys apart, I think the story turned out quite alright :)
Date: 01/08/12 11:13 pm Title: Part III - Parting
Ainee-san...Oh, Goddess, this...AND JUST AFTER I'D GOTTEN CONTROL OF MY TEARS, TOO!!!! I started crying again after this chapter. It was so beautiful, and sad, and heartbreaking all over again, because Bill is OBVIOUSLY not over Tom, and Tom is obviously not over Bill, and...WHY'D HE MARRY THAT BITCH IF HE STILL LOVED BILL!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I am definitely reading the sequel.
Author's Response: I'm sorry? *sigh* I know, I am evil. It's just that this was how it played out in my head and I had to write it so... I guess I could have given the story a sort-of-happy ending, but that just wouldn't have been right. The sequel does provide answers, but you know, not all stories are meant to have a happy ending. Just saying..
Date: 01/08/12 11:05 pm Title: Part II - The confrontation
First, the entire chapter I was on the verge of tears. Second, when Tom was asking Bill those questions, and Bill was answering "no" I did cry.
Third, this chapter inspired me to write a poem, so thank you ^-^
This is truly brilliant so far, and this chapter was the most heartbreaking thing I've read in a very, VERY long time. The only thing that matched this for heartbreaking-ness was a fic in an anime fandom (Gakuen Alice) where one of the love interests (the love interest who eventually got the girl, in cannon) was watching her wedding to his best friend, the other love interest. But this topped that, because in that, the character was at least happy for their happiness (anime characters are always perfect like that XD Selfless and all that good shit). This was...Goddess, I can't even describe it. I cried for five minutes straight (and that doesn't seem like a lot, but it is, for me), and I had to curl on my side and dig my fingers into my back to regain my control. On top of that, the grammar sucked (no offense, but PLEASE have this looked at by a beta...), which is even more amazing, because usually, if the grammar sucks, I can't really get into a story, because I keep correcting it in my mind. Basically, this chapter was so compelling and heartbreaking that, even though I was correcting the grammar as I went along, I still got emotionally involved enough to cry. That takes serious skill. Very well done.
Author's Response:
Oh, I inspired a poem? Wow, that's cool :) So, uhm, is it any good? Haha, no I'm just joking. I'm sure it's lovely...and heartbraking and really, really sad.. Right? I'm sorry I made you cry :(
And I am sorry about the lousy grammar. English is not my native language and this was my first attemt at writing a 'short-story' since I graduated High School (many, many years ago). Anyway, I've had my other stories betaed and now I never post anything without having it go through her first. I've always thought I should have had this checked, but you know I never seem to get around to it. I'm glad you didn't give up on the story, though :)
And thank you so much for all of your kind words. I'm glad I was able to drag you into the story and feel for the characters, it's what I aim for when I write.
Date: 12/30/11 07:45 am Title: Part III - Parting
this was a sad story!
Author's Response: Yes, yes it was :(
Date: 06/27/11 09:29 pm Title: Part III - Parting
OMG! I've finally read this oneshot. I was dying to read it since I finished reading: "Art imitates life" which was the first fic of yours that I read and that I fell in love with since the very first chapter. I'm shocked, my heart is shrinking within my chest with pain and my eyes are red and swollen from much crying. I know this is just a story, but it was too much for my fragile mind where there is etched "Bill&Tom together forever" all over, I really loved the way you wrote the story but I do thought that there'd be a happy ending or something. When Tom looked at Bill before saying the fuckin "yes" during the wedding, I expected Bill to say something to stop it, but nothing ever came out from his mouth. And then, when he was on the train ready to leave, and Tom told him that he knew the reason of his leaving, I thought Bill would step off the train to run towards Tom arms, but once again nothing happened. Maybe it was meant to be that way, but still I can't get it. Maybe it was meant to be that way, but still I can't get it. I love these kind of heartbreaking stories, though. I never thought it would affect me that much. I read something about a sequel, how's that? I wanna read it, what's the name of the story? I'd be really greatful if you could reply me. Ainee, you're such an amazing writer, did you know it? You always make me feel a lot of things with your stories. Keep on writing wonderful stories! You're awesome! Kisses and hugs!b29;
Author's Response:
I m so happy to hear you enjoyed "Art imitates life" so much that it lead you here! This was, as you might have noticed, a whole other kind of story. As a matter of fact, I wrote the art story as a counterpart to this one. After finishing this story I really needed to write something a bit more fluffy and cheerful with a happy ending ;)
I can definitely relate to your reaction, though. My brain's also imprinted with "Bill&Tom together forever", but I think that's exactly why I had to write this. It's actually quite interesting trying to understand how the boys would react if they were ever to be separated. Their bond seem so strong, I can't even begin to imagine how it would feel for them to be apart. I could only do my best and hope that it would convey their pain in a somewhat realistic way.
No, there was no happy ending in this story, nor was there ever meant to be one. On the bright side, if one would even dare say so, there is a sequel. I don't know if I would say it's more cheerful than this one, but at leat it answers some questions. It's called "It's my secret, no one knows", and I'm sorry that I can't remember how to put the link in here - you'll just have to search for it :)
As for your praise, I can only say thank you! I try my best, but in the end, it's all up to you guys, as the readers, to decide if my stories are worthwhile or not. I really am grateful for your compliment, though, it's those that keep me writing, knowig there are people out there that appreciate the time and effort I put into my stories. Thank you again for your lovely review - I hope to see you again! :)
Lots of love, Ainee
Date: 06/02/11 05:43 am Title: Part III - Parting
Ok, just give me a couple of days to recover (I really was an emotional wreck, no kidding) and I will give it a try, I will read the sequel.
And yes, you write so good!! I was reading your other fic There Ill be and I felt much, much better. But this is another subject and will have its proper review. I am glad that I received such a reaction from you, it is proportional to the distress you caused me, with your talent!!!:P
And I still think Tom made a huge mistake not going after Bill. If I would be Tom and I would lose Bill like that I would gone mad and beyond myself to get him back no matter what...But again, this is my opinion.
I totally understand it had to be like this for this fic but Im still so frustrated!!!
And now, because I promised, I will have to read the sequel, too. I have to tell myself over and over that it is just fiction, it is just fiction, my dear....
Oh, God!
Author's Response:
Haha, no stress! And you know, you don't have to read it if you really don't want to ;) I was just sulking for the fun of it..
I'm so honoured you think I have talent. I enjoy writing so much, it's always nice to hear people thing I have a knack for it :) About my other stories, most of them are more cheerful than this (especially 'Art Imitates Life', which is fluff with fluff and fluff on top), but I do have a thing for writing angst, as I like to delve into people's distressed mindsets. But yeah, I guess I'd suggest you steer clear of 'Ashtray Heart' - it's sort of messed up..
I still think Tom made huge mistake too - but hey, that's just how it turned out. I guess I could have written a different ending, but I just wouldn't have felt right. You're allowed to have a different opinion, though, I won't blame you ;)
And yes, it is just fiction.. It's hard to remember that sometimes, isn't it? I have it the same way - I talk about different characters from fictions like they're real people and let them annoy me endlessly when they're acting stupid. I get all angry and frustrated and almost forget it's just fiction. Perhaps especially my own characters, as I know them so well after I've finished a story. They're like real people to me.. Makes it so much harder to complete a fic, it's so sad to say goodbye! Yeah, I'm completely sane... XD
So, I guess I should say good luck with the other story - I hope it doesn't kill you.. And, I guess, I should apologize for answering so late - I've been really, really busy.. Anyway. You have fun with the sequel, and I'll stand ready with a box of Kleenex when you're done ;)
Date: 05/31/11 03:27 am Title: Part III - Parting
This is the end! I will not read the sequel, as I do not want to be a an emotional wreck all day!!!!
First, I must say it was hard to forgive you for the ending of the band (which I think and I hope will not ever happen)!!!
Second, it was understandable what Bill did, to leave the band AND Tom and hide himself. What was not understandable was thaht Tom didnt look for him deperately and that he somehow found it in him to move on with his life. But it is your fic and you do as you see fit.
Third, it is so well written!!! Its power sucked me in from the first paragraphs, the sadness and desperation is overwhelming, I can hardly imagine how you managed to write it.
When Bill told Tom that he doesnt love him, that was the moment i gave in and tears were flowing just like Toms. Of course I kept reading and I was cheering up for Tom to acknowledge HIS love for Bill but this didnt happen.
So with all the love, I will not read the sequel to this one, it will be too much for me...
Author's Response:
I am so, so sorry for splitting up the band! I'm with you, I hope they never do! It was simply necessary for the story, so yeah.. But I'm keeping my fingers crossed they never, ever will ;)
Bill did what he felt he had to do, and Tom.. Oh, Tom, he was just being stupid, wasn't he? I agree, he should have gone looking for Bill. At the same time, it was Bill's decision and Tom felt he had to respect that, so he didn't. It's a difficult problem, isn't it; to do what's right for you or to do what's right for others.
Thank you so much! Despite all the sad things about this story, I'm glad you still liked it.. Well, sort of ;) I'm so honoured you think it was well written - and if the story managed to suck you in from the start, well, then my work here is done ;) It was a bit emotionally straining to write, I will admit, as I kept putting myself inside their heads trying to figure out what would be the logical way to react, or what emotions a certain action would provoke. But, in the end, I'm quite pleased with it. It was never meant to be a happy story - it was supposed to be frustrating and sad. I guess I can only apologize for dragging all of my readers down into this miserable pit with me..
And I honestly am sorry I made you cry, but I would be lying if I said it doesn't please me. To me, that's the best proof I can get, that I managed to write something that people can relate to. A strong emotional reaction is always a good thing, never mind what the emotion might be.
I think we all were cheering for Tom to run after Bill and declare his never-ending, undying love for his brother. Hell, even I did that for a while, but then I realised that wouldn't be the right way to go about it, so Tom never did.. Honestly, the boy was being chicken. Then again, this is Tom we're talking about - I don't think he's as tough as he claims to be :p
Aaaw, you won't read the sequel? *sigh* Oh well, that's up to you ;) I guess I'll give you the gust of it, then: It's from Tom's point of view, sometime in the distant future.. Exciting, yeah? :p Actually, it's more of a conclusion to the tragedy. I dunno if it causes tears, but people have been having mixed feelings about it. I even think someone told me they hated me for writing it - said with love, of course ;)
Okay, I'm gonna stop now, 'cause I'm rambling. My point is; I'm glad you decided to read it, and though it might not be what you wished it was, I'm glad you liked it, at least enough to review..haha :D Thank you for taking the time to let me know what you thought about it, I greatly appreciate it! :)
Date: 05/15/11 10:51 pm Title: Part III - Parting
As heartbreaking this story is; it is quite beautiful as well. I could feel Bill's pain as well as Tom's.
Author's Response: It's a tough one to get through, 'cause we always want our boys happy and in this one they're not.. :( I'm glad you still liked it and having you say you could feel their pain is such a huge compliment! Thank you :D
Date: 04/24/11 03:54 pm Title: Part III - Parting
Awwww so sad. :(
Author's Response: Yeah, well... It wasn't meant to be all happy and cheerful.
Date: 04/24/11 03:50 pm Title: Part II - The confrontation
Geez how sad can it get? :( I've been hurt similar to Tom as well, not so long ago, so this is extra hard for me to read. But I'll quickly read the last bit.
Author's Response: It ca get quite sad, I'm afraid.. And I'm so sorry, honey! :( Hope it's not too painful - I don't want to have you hurting over this!
Date: 04/18/11 06:36 am Title: Part I - Journey to the past
Are you kidding me? You have a sequel written? Now, you got me truly intrigued:-) But I also understand you might feel uncertain about posting it, I really do. Some things are best left alone, with this one though I do really believe there is a potential to develop it further ... (no pressure there, :-DDD)
And you know what... you shouldn't worry about what other people might expect, or what they wish for, you should always stick to your writing integrity and create your vision and no one else´s.
I hope you will find the courage to put it out there one day (*crosses fingers*). But until now I am off to read other stories you wrote:-)
Author's Response:
No, I am not kidding you, I do.. It's set quite a bit into the future, though, so it's not a direct continuation of this story. Haha, yeah, I'm not feeling the pressure at all now! :p
I do try sticking with my own idea of the story as much as possible, I guess I'm just afraid everyone will hate it because it's not what they'd pictured themselves. I'll see abut trying to find that courage and you might see it sometime in the future ;)
Date: 04/18/11 04:20 am Title: Part III - Parting
Oh God, I don't know what to even say. This story is simply incredible.
I HATE these kind of stories because they break my heart, beat up my soul and I usually end up with a nasty headache after having cried tear floods BUT I also LOVE these kind of stories because they are so real, they touch something deep inside, shake my inner core, making me think of them long after I had finished reading, but mostly they present what life is all about - counterbalance between beauty, love and happiness as opposed to sacrifices, pain, suffering and endless longing for something we can't have. Without the one we might not be able to fully appreciate the other one.
You see, I really loved the ending even though I was breaking inside for both Bill and Tom but at the same time I just couldn't stop thinking about their lives as they would continue from that point in time and on...
It has happened to me a couple of times before that I lived, felt and suffered through the story I was reading but the biggest mind work kicked in first when starting to think what the main characters lives must have been like after the story had been done and finished with and I experience the same with this story too - longing to know:-)It is as if you opened a door and I am so intrigued to walk through it, to see how they are, how they cope, how they can carry on with that knowledge and wrap their minds around the fact that they know, how they find the strength to mend their broken hearts, how they can live without losing their minds over the predicament of their relationship ...
Fabulous work!
Author's Response:
Okay, so I have to start by saying THANK YOU for this wonderful review! :D I was lost for words after reading it, and I still don't know what I should say..
I am so happy you found my story so beliveable and real! :) I do agree with you, I have to say, that one can not fully appreciate nor understand the meaning and value of love and happiness without pain and suffering..
After finishing this story, I had the exact same feeling, actually. I found it so hard just to stop there and leave the story be. I wanted to know what happened next, how they dealt with it and if they ever made peace with it and each other.. But, unlike you, I didn't just imagine it, I actually wrote it. I do in fact have a sequel to this story all written out, but somehow I can't bring myself to finish and post it. I guess I'm afraid it won't live up to the first one, that it won't be what people want, or expect, or that I end up ruining the first story completely by continuing it... Perhaps I will find it in me one day to actually put it out there? I don't know, man, I think I worry too much ;)
I'm so very happy to hear you enjoyed this story so much, though. It was my first story on THF and I'm still quite attached to it ;) Thank you again for this amazing review! :D
Date: 03/01/11 10:01 pm Title: Part III - Parting
There goes my heart T^T
Author's Response: I'm sorry... *hands handkerchief*
Date: 01/24/11 01:22 pm Title: Part III - Parting
oh gosh. i cried hard at this story. it's really good.
Author's Response: Oh, that's sad :( But Tom and Bill definitely deserve some tears after going through all that.. Thank you! I'm glad you liked it ;)
Date: 11/29/10 04:34 am Title: Part III - Parting
OMG I'M SUCH A CRY BABY :L
I cried at the end when Tom yells out to Bill when he was on the train. :'( Soooooo sad!!!!!!!!!!! Yet sooooo awesome!
Author's Response: Naaw... It is so sad, it really is :( But I'm glad you still liked it - that makes me so happy! :)
Date: 11/26/10 11:45 pm Title: Part III - Parting
YOU HAVE NO IDEA how much I'm hurting right now after reading this 3-chaptered fic..T^T Damn, it hurts. So heartbreaking, I can't breathe...
Author's Response: I feel your pain! Actually, it hurt writing it - but it was just the way it had to be..
Date: 11/03/10 06:22 pm Title: Part III - Parting
You just broke my heart, you made me really sad!
I really hope you can make a sequel for this story, please, I'm begging you.....*standing on my knees*
Author's Response:
I'm sorry.. :(
About the sequel, well..honestly it's actually already written.. And if things go like I hope they will, then it will be up sometime in the not too distant future.
Date: 07/22/10 07:01 pm Title: Part I - Journey to the past
This actually really made me cry ;(
I know we don't always get happy endings, but damn, it doesn't make it any less sad.
Author's Response: I'm sorry I made you cry, but I'd be lying if I said that wasn't what I was going for ;)rnrnI talked to a friend of mine the other day, and she was literally yelling "alternative ending" at my face. There's none, though.. It wouldn't be right if it had a happy ending.rnrnStill, I can understand the feeling. Everytime I read a story that ends badly, I die a little inside. And still we keep reading..aren't we all masochists?