Date: 04/19/10 06:49 pm Title: V
My heart keeps breaking for Tom. I'm pretty sure Bill is not sick or dying, more like drowning in a mess of his own making. I can understand why his wife would act like that, but it also made it abundantly clear the type of woman she is. Compassion doesn't seem to be one of her traits, for certain.
You're doing such a great job with this story, the angst is so well written it actually hurts to read it. I'll be looking forward to more.
Author's Response: It did show what kind of person she is, right? When someone shows you who they are, you have to believe it. Thank you so much. I'm glad you're with me, even though it's a painful read. =)
Date: 04/19/10 06:28 pm Title: V
Bravo, Tom!
There are just some hurts that you just can't forgive. :(
I don't blame him. He's reacting to everything he's feeling and NOT getting from Bill. She destroyed who they were, or at least Tom thinks she has, but I'm starting to wonder if Bill didn't help that along the way, in giving in to her thinking that what they had was wrong.
>.>
It's just horribly painful and because it's coming from Tom's pov, my heart aches for the both of them and this agony they're obviously feeling.
Author's Response: I think, for everything he's been through (and is going through), he's pretty strong to stop there. I know it hurts, and I'm sorry, but am very grateful that you're reading. =)
Date: 04/19/10 05:49 pm Title: V
that bitch >.>
Author's Response: I know. =(
Date: 04/15/10 08:30 pm Title: IV
*sign* I'm tearing myself apart again tonight. First Nina Elisabeth's Aftermath and now your fic. Feels like I'm really ripping my heart out and stomp it to the ground.
I love the way how well you write emotions. The pain, the confusion, the terrible separation and drifting apart. I feel so bad for the twins. I think I know what Bill meant there, but it truly hurts to see them srtill so far and Tom's pain is terrible for me to take - no matter why or where. I adore the skill to write emotions so strong...and actually without much of happening. They just are.
I need something funny and fluffy now :D
Author's Response: Gosh. I'm really sorry that I have anything to do with your heart being stomped on. =( However, the compliments are greatly appreciated it. I'm so glad you're with me, even if you do have to go and chase it down with fluffy. I totally understand. <333
Date: 04/14/10 10:22 pm Title: IV
Okay, first, omgomgomg!!! I love you, just epically. I'm reading along, trying to get through this in the few minutes I have, and I stopped here before hurrying off to ballet.
The two of them still get together to play, to write, even though the band ended when Bill’s search for love did.
And wow, let me tell you, dancing with this line spinning around in my head is such a cool thing to dance too, because it's like, peeking under everything, and I'm trying to find out what thing you're going to pull out of the two brothers and show to the readers. And wow, not disappointed when I finished reading. :D I think I love the line because a) it mentions others besides Bill: Georg *giggles* and Tom and b) the last part (after the comma) idk, I just adore the line so so so much!! So lovely and flowing put together.
I actually kind of want to just repost the whole chapter here, saying it's my favorite line, because there are so many little amazing things in here. (And I laughed when I was younger and my teachers explained imagery as important, well apparently, I knew nothing then. It’s one of my favorite parts of stories now. XD)
A black hole that moves with them, shifts when they shift, stretches when they drift.
Love, I have this great kind of angsty picture in my mind (love the angst, btw) and "stretches when they drift" idk, it fits so perfectly into there... It’s not “stretches when they stretch” like how it was “shift when they shift” it’s “Stretches when they drift” and yeah, it made the line for me. :D Hahaha, I think you're my favorite writer on site. Damn, I need to find time to read more of you (not to be creeping or anything... )
He can’t bring himself to do any of this.
Not really the phrase as much as the whole paragraph that follows, just, awwww, I love it, it's so pretty in a kind of depressing/gloomy/goddess (not really god) of death way (I hope you understand, I think I've ranted about this before) and so beautiful sculpted. So yeah, I'm going to stop now, but I know why Bill thinks he's sick!!! He's not, promise him, he's not sick. I love Tom in here too, awwww!! I think, someone new to the fandom, who didn't know the pairing, would be intrigued and kind of, "Omg, how is Bill sick?? I want to know!!!" And even though I know, I think I do at least, I still want to find out how the brothers make it through. It's amazing when people can keep this sort of thing going, even when an idea has been used (one brother thinking they're sick...) and keep the readers still loving and enjoying every minute. Yep, that's what you're doing. *squishes* :D
Bill pleads against the ribs meant to safeguard Tom’s heart, but the words penetrate right through the protective barrier, burning everything they touch.
Favorite description of dialogue piece…
Author's Response: You. Are. Awesome. I'm so glad you're finding time to read this. It makes me so happy. I'm glad you pointed out liking the imagery in this one because I think, of everything I've written, I played with imagery and similies/metaphors the most in this story. In that respect, it's different from anything else I've ever written. And! It's not creepy that you want to find time to read more of my stuff. It's actually quite flattering. =) (And I tink you may be on to something with Bill's sickness, but I have people guessing, so maybe it's not so obvious? I have no idea. I thought it might be. lol) But thank you so, so, so much for another amazing review. <333
Date: 04/13/10 09:41 pm Title: IV
oh my god, it's like Chinese water torture! This story is driving me slowly mad, woman, and you know, I click into the new chapter so fast when you update. xD
I'm interested to see how the chapter is going to go when Tom figures it out. But we've got more angst to go until then, huh? Bring it, bb. I can take it. xD
Author's Response: Yikes. Chinese water torture? Really? lol I'm sorry it's driving you mad, though I can sympathize because it did the same for me. I'm glad you're still with me though. And you're sooooo right. More angst. It's what I do. lol =D
Date: 04/13/10 07:46 pm Title: IV
omg poor bill :(
how old are they btw?
Author's Response: I know. =( And their age is up for interpretation. The timeline for this story vs the timeline in RL are completely skewed. So, it's whatever you think it is. =)
Date: 04/13/10 04:59 pm Title: IV
awwww my heart is kinda breaking right now, awww
Author's Response: awwwww I'm sorry.
Date: 04/13/10 03:19 pm Title: I
watching this one. feels like he's gonna turn up HIV+ by the sound of it.
Author's Response: Glad you're watching it. We'll find out how sick he is in a couple of chapters. =)
Date: 04/13/10 02:56 pm Title: IV
This story is like a train-wreck, I just can't stop reading it, even if I know my heart will break when I do. I feel so bad for the two of them. Bill seems so lost, so small. I feel his 'sickness' might have something to do with his feelings for Tom, that's why he is trying to keep his distance but at the same time, is unable to stop coming to him. *sighs* Such a bloody mess that. I'll be looking forward to more. I just love the way you're writing this.
Author's Response: Definitely a bloody mess, and I totally get what you mean by train-wreck. You don't want to watch it, but you can't take your eyes off of it. Thank you so very, very much. <3
Date: 04/13/10 10:41 am Title: IV
OMg you got me so worried here, I though there was something wrong with Bill! But if it's that kind of sick, I'm ok with it cause it means Bill finally realize what Tom knows from quite some time !
Anyways, love the chapter and can't wait for more !
Author's Response: I'm glad you're loving it! More coming next week. ♥
Date: 04/13/10 09:19 am Title: IV
So my excuses for Bill's sickness went from a cold, to Mpreg, to cancer and now it's stuck on some sort of STD like AIDS o.o I really hope I'm wrong, but I'm sure that Tom will be there for him regardless :)
Author's Response: Well, for the record, I don't really do Mpreg...just so you know. You can mark that oneo ff your list. ;)
Date: 04/11/10 01:51 pm Title: III
"You want me to--” sleep with you, be with you “--stay with you?”
Omg, here, and paragraph after, crying. I love when people play with the whole twin thing so much (well it happens a lot because they are twins and all that) but you just do it so beautifully, and I love the boys so much the way you're writing them here. The connection seems so bright. :D
The only bit that seemed a little off to me was when Tom asked about what they were fighting about, it seemed a long track of thoughts before an answer finally came around, and because of my attention span I'm assuming, I forgot what the question was and all I read is "Sex." So then I think, omg, what did I miss? Are the twins having sex now? What?? (Don't ask where that came from) But anyway, I loved everything put between the two talking parts, because everything said in there seemed like it needed to be said, however it also kind of made me forget what the twins were talking about...
Hehehe, weird thing, bah... I want to say I didn't like having to go back to reread because it jolted me out of the story, but not having everything written in there, like all the thoughts and everything, the words wouldn't have seemed as important or BAM! as they were. Lol, little rant, but you know, I think it's always good to know what people feel/look at/whatever when they read your own writing. :D Maybe that made enough sense?
But oh my gosh, I feel so sad for Tom, I want to hug him, and kill the wife, and tie Bill and him together. Lol, it's just so sad, Tom trying to give Bill all he wants... I love it though. XD And with Bill worming his way into a position with Tom, oh it made me smile, so adorable. :) Hehehe, beautiful once again.
In the dim, artificial light of the room, Bill suddenly appears like an adult, all grown up and beau--
Weird line to pick out, I know, but the way everything was written before, and then after, the line was beautiful. :D And I love how beautiful is cut off, hehehe, really nice use of "--". :D So yep... really love this, waiting to see the change then.
Author's Response: Gosh, your reviews always make me smile. Before I even read the comment, just seeing your name, I always smile. I get what you're saying about the long train of thought before Bill answers the question. I think sometimes I have problems with getting all the information in without making it seem like too much. Because I have all this story in my head, and the back story and all that. So I just kind of want to put it all in at once, and I know I can't. But I am SO glad that you're enjoying this, and yo know how much I love it when you point out lines that you like. It makes me really, really happy.
Date: 04/07/10 11:23 am Title: III
This is just what I'm afraid with the twins. Not that it isn't sweet to find ~ true love ~, but I can't stand it to tear the twins apart, not by anyone, in a way that one day they don't know each other. Not really. Oh, you're stabbing me straight into the heart! :D
I'm sensing some sort of slow turning to better again. It's just tiny, but when Bill acts like this, confesses that Tom is the one who knows him, it means that Bill thinks about Tom too. Maybe Tom's fear is useless, maybe they'll know each other like they've always known when looking under the cover? All those touches, all...it can't be for nothing?
It's sad, but of course I'm sticking with it! :)
Author's Response: I'm so glad that you're picking up on the little tiny changes and signs that maybe things are too fucked up to repair. I'm happy to see you reading more deeply into it than what's written on the surface. Thank you so much for your awesome reviews, and for sticking with it even though it's certainly a bit of a downer. <333
Date: 04/06/10 11:28 pm Title: III
how old are the twins?
Author's Response: It's never said. I leave that up to the readers' interpretation. Right now, all that's known is that it's after the band's broken up. However, the timeline is really skewed and later you'll see things happening that have already happened (before the band breakup), so...it's hard to say. But it's up to the readers to decide how old they think the twins are.
Date: 04/06/10 05:21 pm Title: III
I really like this story. It's nice to read something deeper once in a while, cause even if I like simple happy twins story, it practically always the same plot. This is very different, well-written and interesting. Good job with that, can't wait for the next chap!
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm glad you think it's different enough to be interesting, and not too deep to be a turn off. <333
Date: 04/06/10 04:57 pm Title: III
wow, gah this IS so sad, but i love it, good angst is good.
Author's Response: I know it's sad. I knew, from the beginning, that it was going to be sad. But you're right...good angst is good. And thank you! <333
Date: 04/06/10 01:28 pm Title: III
And I'm aching for them both now. It's all so messed up. I'm still loving it, though, even with as painful it can be to read at times.
Author's Response: I'm glad you're still with me. It'll get easier to read, eventually. <333
Date: 04/06/10 12:17 pm Title: III
...and they both wake up aroused >.> Or not. xD
Author's Response: hahaha Not thiiiiiis time. =P
Date: 04/06/10 12:09 pm Title: III
This story just gets me, really gets me. You are capturing the suffocating, heartbreaking sadness of the situation perfectly. And as weird as it may sound, the masochist in me loves it. This chapter in particular reminds me a lot of something I went through a few years back, so it definitely strikes a chord. I can totally relate to Tom's feelings in this one. Kind of wish I couldn't, but well, that's life.
So, even if it's sad, it's wonderful. ♥
Author's Response: I'm sorry that this is something you can relate to, that you've gone through something similiar. =( But I'm glad that you feel I'm capturing it well, and making it realistic. So, thank you for reading, even if it hits pretty close to home with you. ♥