Date: 02/20/10 02:59 pm Title: Tom @ 46
not fair.
Author's Response: Never fair ;_;
Date: 02/20/10 02:53 pm Title: Tom @ 46
I've known. I've known since their nineteenth birthday that something bad would happen to Tom. I didn't know how or when or what, but I knew. I've known all this time and still read-I could never leave you or your fic now.
I am so incredibly sorry to hear that you have first hand experience with this because it is something that no one deserves to go through. It makes this story so much more. More worth my while, more special, more beautiful, more heartbreaking.
I am so close to an emotional breakdown with every chapter I read, but I can't turn away because you've bound me to your twins with so much love. You posess such a great talent in capturing your readers' emotions. I am lucky to be able to go through this journey with an author such as you.
I will be here with you and the rest of your loyal readers and reviewers till the very end because I know you will make it worth it. I apologize that my previous review was so lacking...I just was so...drained. I hope I've made up for it with this one.
I look forward to tomorrow and all that it brings. Thank you.
Author's Response: Can I just say thank you so much for this? You nearly managed to make me cry and I truly, truly appreciate the support and the value you're willing to give a fic that is very personal to me in many ways.
Date: 02/20/10 02:50 pm Title: Tom @ 46
I want to hug them both so bad right now, because everything is slowly coming around full circle and a lot of Bill's earlier behavior will make lots of sense to Tom, but I know it will break me as well to see this year by year until the end.
But like Bill, I will be there with Tom to see it through. I'm not leaving these boys, ever.
And I'm not leaving YOU. *hugshugshugs*
Author's Response: You'll be here if you're not distracted by the amazing het saga I linked you to anyway ^_~ ♥
Date: 02/20/10 02:07 pm Title: Tom @ 46
Oh my gosh. My heart is breaking for them. I have to admit, I kinda figured it was Alzheimers. Just the way everything was worded; Tom's failing memory and mild confusion. Not pretty at all.
But somehow, in the midst of the anger and confusion and indignation, you managed to make something beautiful stick between those two boys. Wonderful.
Author's Response: Thank you. I wrote this a very cathartic exercise and the bond between Bill and Tom was what finally let me make it work I think.
Date: 02/20/10 02:04 pm Title: Tom @ 46
I've read this story over the past days, and I must say I really love it a lot! Even tho some chapters are short none of them were boring!
Can't wait for you to continue! ^^
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm really glad you gave it a try!
Date: 02/20/10 01:47 pm Title: Tom @ 41
Consistantly beautiful.
Author's Response: Thank you ♥
Date: 02/20/10 01:41 pm Title: Tom @ 46
I somehow knew it was going to be Alzheimer's disease. I couldn't quite think of anything else that would fit.
I have to admit, this chapter was so painful to read. It sucks... because you're such a good writer, everything in this chapter was just so real. Too real in fact. The beginning of the chapter was hard enough to read, but then there was the shift with the younger Bill. There aren't hardly any stories I've read on this site that have made me cry, but this chapter did. About the time Tom told the younger Bill that they had received some bad news I started crying. And jeez... the last sentence was a jolt. I don't know why, but learning that Bill learned of Tom's future illness on their 19th birthday just made it all the worse. It doesn't make sense to me, but I have weird logic sometimes.
Now that I'm done with that little bit... I loved how real this chapter was. Every chapter has seemed real to me thus far, but this one just seemed even more real than the rest. I could perfectly see everything that happened playing out in my mind. I'm glad that Tom listens to Bill and tells the younger Bill about his illness. If only things could really work out that way, then everyone could have more time.
I think my absolutely favorite part in this whole chapter was when Tom was telling the younger Bill that he's sorry, and then Bill tells him that it's not his fault. The span of these seven or so sentences was so powerful, and so true to life. Tom's reaction to Bill's tear was so typical and so real, as was Bill's reaction to Tom's apology. I can so clearly see Tom's hurt and guilt, and also Bill's anguish. It's almost too real, because even after Tom blames himself. It's so... I don't really know what I'm trying to say. I loved the ending to this chapter as much as I hate it. Take it as a compliment. I love it because it was so real and so true to life (and maybe because it was able to make me cry), and I hated it because of being so real and true to life (and probably because it made me cry). I'm not sure I'm explaining myself correctly or not... I feel like I'm leaning more towards not. Simply put: because you're such a good writer, you brought this chapter (especially the ending) to life even more so than the rest of the chapters in this story (in my opinion). I love reading things that seem real to me and that's why I loved reading this chapter in particular. I hated it at the same time... because of how real you made this chapter, it made my reactions to what was happening so much stronger. Even now... I feel like I didn't just read about this exchange between Tom and a younger Bill, I feel like I was there. So I still feel the hurt. Haha. I really don't think I'm expressing myself how I wanted to.
Reading the chapter end notes kinda depresses me. I have grown to love this story so much that I hate to see it end, but I do realize that it kind of has to at this point. I completely understand that the way you're depicting Tom's illness is meant to be a representation. It's because of that, and not because you simply want to make in angsty, that it is so angsty... because you're making it real. I'm sorry to hear that you've shared a personal experience with this disease. I can't imagine. On a positive note, I never had any intention of not sticking this story out to the end. The story is too good, and you're too good of a writer, to let this go until it's completely finished. Couldn't stop reading even if I wanted to. :)
I'm sorry for the excessively long review.
Author's Response: Wow, thank you for the long review ♥ I'm both really pleased it touched you and sad it upset you, but thank you so much for sharing the experience with me and it means a lot that you'll stick it out.
Date: 02/20/10 12:24 pm Title: Tom @ 46
aww this story is breaking my heart
Author's Response: I'm sorry ;_;
Date: 02/20/10 12:11 pm Title: Tom @ 46
=//
idk what to say.
:'(
Author's Response: :(
Date: 02/20/10 11:19 am Title: Tom @ 7
Omg that's so sad.....but very beautiful. I hope it gets better soon...
Author's Response: Thank you
Date: 02/20/10 10:48 am Title: Tom @ 46
I really can't imagine the effects this desease has on people, I mean, I've read about it, heard about it, but never in my life be confronted to it first hand. I just can barely wonder how strong the family and friends of the person affected mus be.
The story's been great so far, emotive, beautiful. Of course I'll stick to it till the end.
Greetings
Velia
Author's Response: Thank you so much for this - I sincerely appreciate it so much.
Date: 02/20/10 10:35 am Title: Tom @ 46
This fic squeezed my heart.It's so genuine. Bill must be having a terrible time. It must be painful to see the end, but I'll stick with it.
Author's Response: Thank you ♥
Date: 02/20/10 10:17 am Title: Tom @ 46
This story is way too beautifully written to abandon right before the end, even though it'll probably be painful to read...
Oh wow, I'm too touched by this chapter to say anything else right now.
Author's Response: Thank you so much, I really appreciate this right now.
Date: 02/20/10 10:13 am Title: Tom @ 46
OH! I understand now! Oh my gosh! Life is so unfair to the twins! ='( But that's just the way the cookie crumbles I guess
Author's Response: It is unfair, but it's unfair to everyone. Tom and Bill are lucky to have each other the way they do though.
Date: 02/20/10 09:09 am Title: Tom @ 45
I don't understand. What's happening to Tomi?
Author's Response: @ 46 should explain this, but let me know if you're still confused!
Date: 02/20/10 09:03 am Title: Tom @ 7
Yeah it did!
Danke schon ^_^
Author's Response: No problem ^^
Date: 02/20/10 09:01 am Title: Tom @ 46
T_T there is nothing. NOTHING that will stop me reading this fic.
I never want it to end.
But I am already crying, perhaps due to the fact that this chapter and In Die Nacht just results in LOTS AND LOTS OF CRYING!
God... Please update
Please.
Author's Response: ;_; ♥
Date: 02/20/10 08:54 am Title: Tom @ 45
Im confused and saaad.
What was the diagnosis??
Im crying here!!!
Author's Response: I'm sorry - next chapter should clear things up!
Date: 02/20/10 08:31 am Title: Tom @ 46
i'm sorry, but i'll stop reading... :(
Good job on this one though, thank you.
Just a question, does the Time Traveller's Wife end like this? With Rachel McAdams getting Alzheimer?
Author's Response: No, The Time Traveller's Wife doesn't end like that. Thanks for staying with the fic this far, but I can understand people not wanting to go further. For me, the final sections complete the fic though.
Date: 02/20/10 08:28 am Title: Tom @ 46
My grandfather had Alzheimer's for two years before he passed on a couple months ago. If I can't handle reading this after the next update, I just wanted to tell you thanks for a beautiful fic, and I promise at some point to finish it. :)
Author's Response: I can understand that - I had to wait for three years before I was able to write this and it was very cathartic for me. Thank you for letting me know and I'm sorry for your loss ♥