Date: 02/25/10 02:55 am Title: Tom @ 52
His person.
That was just so powerful.
It makes me so uncomfortable to read about something like this, to read about Tom so incapable of taking care of himself and having to have Bill take care of him. It's always been like that; I've always been uncomfortable around people who can't take care of themselves and I can't help it :/ And you made me uncomfortable to read this but at the same time so, so...<insert word I don't know here> because Bill is there for him, and you can hear Tom's thoughts through your writing, and...wow. I just...
ASDFGHJKL;;
Author's Response: I really, truly sympathise with you. Even living through it, it makes me uncomfortable at times, too. Thank you for sticking around, it means a lot ♥
Date: 02/25/10 02:26 am Title: Tom @ 52
I'm ready for this to be over now. Never thought I'd feel so much for a fic before... I don't know how you're doing it bby *hugs*
Author's Response: *hugs* Not long now ;_;
Date: 02/25/10 02:23 am Title: Tom @ 52
I purposely wait up for your updates nowadays. XD But oh gosh, these chapters are becoming more heartbreaking each time. I'm glad to see that Tom recognizes his Bill, but it's still all so sad.
Chapter 44 is still the only one that's actually made me cry for some reason, and even as I reread it again and again it seriously gets me every single time. XD I'm torn between wanting this fic to end so that everything will come to a peace of a sort, and not wanting it to end because it's just so lovely and I can't seem to get enough of it. I know I said this before, but seriously this fic amazes me and I adore every bit of it. :)
Author's Response: Thank you so much ♥ It is sad, even if Tom recognises his Bill - I'm glad it's moving you and thank you again for sharing that in reviews!
Date: 02/25/10 12:56 am Title: Tom @ 51
Tom is there, but he really isn't, is he? He still knows Bill, but he knows the Bill of yesteryear, not the here-and-now. They do need each other, but Georg is right. Bill won't be doing anyone any good if he tires himself out. It's great that he wants to be with Tom, but he has to think aout hinself a little bit, too, right?
Author's Response: Bill does need to think of himself; I'm glad you see that because a lot of people underestimate the demands on carers ;_;
Date: 02/24/10 11:57 pm Title: Tom @ 51
It would usually seem, like, really clichéd to have Tom only remember Bill. But...wow. This...wow. With every chapter it's even more heartbreaking but at the same time it puts another piece into the puzzle. It's...
I wish there was a word.
Author's Response: He doesn't entirely just remember Bill though, because he's recognising the nicknames for the others. I'm glad you're enjoying it though ♥!
Date: 02/24/10 11:55 pm Title: Tom @ 50
Oh my god.
Oh my godddd.
Author's Response: ;_;
Date: 02/24/10 10:56 pm Title: Tom @ 51
Oh God. Tom is hospitalized now? I don't see this lasting much longer.
This was a particularly heart-aching chapter. Tom is so far gone. I agree yet disagree with Georg. Tom needs Bill there with him as much as Bill needs to be there for Tom, but Bill does need a break. At the rate things are going, I don't see Bill coming out of this in good shape, if he comes out of it at all.
It's so painful to see Tom like this.
Author's Response: :( *hugs tight*
Date: 02/24/10 08:17 pm Title: Tom @ 51
God this is heartbreaking. I don't think a story has gotten me so nervous every time there is an update, but I love it.
Author's Response: Thank you, though I'm sorry to make you nervous!
Date: 02/24/10 06:56 pm Title: Tom @ 51
So perfectly heartrending. Bill's devotion and, even though he doesn't realize it, Tom's as well.
Author's Response: ♥ ilu
Date: 02/24/10 05:56 pm Title: Tom @ 51
This reminds me so much of my great grandmother, she was so out of it most of the time she was strapped to a hospital bed because they didn't trust her out on her own. Weird thing is that she remembered hearing about my mother getting a divorce and marrying someone else, and when I saw her she said my name and remembered it, but everything else was just blank. Once she looked under a car and under the seats to see if her husband was hiding there and stuff, totally out of it. And then, the times that she did remember everything she began to cry and screamed that she wanted to die :/
I hate reading about Tom that way ;__;
(But I love the story, lol)
Author's Response: I'm sorry, but also thank you for sharing. It's awful to have to witness ;_; (thank you!)
Date: 02/24/10 05:50 pm Title: Tom @ 51
*wibble*
Author's Response: *offers hugs?*
Date: 02/24/10 05:46 pm Title: Tom @ 51
No but you see, we all WANT a happy ending! Doesnt have to be cheesy, but we dont want to have to slice our wrists after reading the ending, lol. I'll be so depressed if it ends unhappily *plays 'Spring Nicht' lmao.
Author's Response: I think the ending is sad, but not depressing. It's not happy, but not unhappy either depending on your point of view. You'll need to form your own opinion!
Date: 02/24/10 05:33 pm Title: Tom @ 51
How could Georg ask him to leave Tom? Hes in a very fragile state, he needs Bill the most. Tom never left Bill, and Bill should never leave Tom.
I'm confused, in the past chapters you mentioned that now its Tom who travels? Huh? And what does that have to do with his condition?
Author's Response: Georg wasn't asking Bill to leave Tom, just for Bill to consider respite - which is putting a loved one into care while the carer focuses on themselves, if you aren't familiar with it. It's something that a lot of carers feel like they shouldn't do, but that's out of guilt and it's bad for them. Sometimes the weight of caring is just too much - as you know from Bill's visits to the past. For a carer to be healthy themselves, they need to be able to think of themselves.
In terms of the travel, it was metaphor - Tom's travels are in his head, getting lost in the past and forgetting the present.
Date: 02/24/10 05:08 pm Title: Tom @ 51
Yes, that's your Bill, Tomi. That's your beautiful Bill. Always there, always there for you sweetheart. Never leaving you. Ever, ever, ever.
He loves you more than anything in this world. I know trying to remember him is hard sometimes, but he always comes back to you, and therefore, you come back to him and he's happy.
You always come back to each other. It's the way it's always been.
And always will be.
Author's Response: ♥
Date: 02/24/10 05:03 pm Title: Tom @ 50
Oh god, how hard this must be for both Bills here and oh god, Tom. You will always remember your Bill.
Always
Author's Response: Deep down, always, always, always.
Date: 02/24/10 04:58 pm Title: Tom @ 49
But Bill knows, doesn't he? He can see it, because this Tom keeps forgetting that Bill is him and he is Bill. That his twin knows what's happening but is too powerless to stop it and the one thing he CAN do is still love him and make every day bearable for both, because things are just going downhill right now, Tom's memory more faulty and a time when it will hurt Bill, but he knows it's not on purpose.
;__; *hugs*
Author's Response: ♥ Bill knows all too well.
Date: 02/24/10 04:55 pm Title: Tom @ 51
oh thank you so much - two updates in a day! again, so sad yet sweet - i guess the word im really looking for is bittersweet...it just sums up the way i feel whenever i read this :'(
Author's Response: It very nearly had a title about being bittersweet, lol. And you're welcome - these final bits are short and I don't want to drag it out unnecessarily. ;_;
Date: 02/24/10 04:27 pm Title: Tom @ 51
:(
Author's Response: *hides*
Date: 02/24/10 04:25 pm Title: Tom @ 51
why
why
why does it have to be so sad? I can't find an explanation, it seems---not human.. let us see it
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I'm sorry about that, but I can't stand this pain, maybe I'm just acting like a child but... yes... my heart is dying slowly... like tom.
Author's Response: It's far too human I'm afraid. Like I said in another response - this fic promises you something at the outset, and that's something that is honest but not necessarily happy. If This didn't end the way it did, because it's all so interlinked, I don't think anyone would be satisfied, even if they aren't happy. That may not make sense?
Date: 02/24/10 04:18 pm Title: Tom @ 51
im crying my eyes out
Author's Response: ;_;