Date: 08/08/10 05:20 pm Title: 10. Families Aren't Always Fairytales Part 2.
Well hello! :D I know this fic is finished, but still I decided that I would review every chapter from now on. Hope you don't have anything against it ;) This chapter made me do a lot of thinking. I have had a eating disorder. And the tings Bill say as arguments for not to eat is kinda... no, really realistic, to what I told my self. It also makes me wonder - have you had an eating disorder? I know that it's really not my business, and you defenitly don't have to answer! Just ignore it if it makes you uncomfortable :) And you know what? I think I just found a new dream room... ;)
Author's Response: It's alright. I totally love getting reviews, and even though the story's already finished, I really enjoy hearing feedback about it. To answer your question, yes, I do have an eating disorder. I've always had problems with food, but in the past almost five years, it's been getting worse. If there's anything you want to ask me about my ed, feel free to send me a message. :)
Date: 07/18/10 09:06 am Title: 40. Epilogue
aww your very pretty :)
i love this story, cant wait 2 read the sequel!
Author's Response: Thanks!! I'm really glad you enjoyed the story!! And the sequel is already up!
Date: 07/16/10 11:49 pm Title: 15. I Love You, Mom
awww :') that last part made me cry!
i love this story its really good
Author's Response: Thanks for the review!!
Date: 07/16/10 11:02 pm Title: 12. Did I Do That?
omfg he really should of finished reading the letter....but if he had they wouldnt be becoming friends :)
Author's Response: Hm... maybe if he had finished reading the letter, Tom would have gotten him help faster!!! And this whole crazy drama could have been avoided. *sighs at Tom's impatience and irrationality*
Date: 07/07/10 07:14 am Title: 34. Stand Through The Pain
Oh I love Jost in the story! And I also love the David Hasselhoff reference. Ah Georg. How we love him so.
Author's Response: I love Jost's character too! He's so polite and considerate. I also love David Hasselhoff references. *claps for Georg*
Date: 07/07/10 12:05 am Title: 18. No One Saw Through My Games
Andreas is always a nasty little bitch in every story he's in lol.
Author's Response: Lolz. I like him as a whiny bitch though. It makes him such a fun character. :)
Date: 07/06/10 03:41 pm Title: 40. Epilogue
hey! i've just spent 3 hours re-reading your brilliant story..i just thought i would leave a comment telling you how much i enjoyed it. i absolutely adore this story and the idea was very unique..your an incredibly talented writer and i loved every single chapter..you had me in tears at one point in this story..and i learnt lots of information about eating disorders..
it must have been hard writing this and sharing your personal experiences with us..this sounds wierd but i feel like i know you from reading this story..(i hope that doesn't sound creepy =)
also IMO you have great taste in music..i loved all the tracks/artists you mentioned and looked up those songs i didn't recognise..
well done for writing this story and thanks for sharing this with us..
okay before I go I wanna also say well done for eating at the resturant (im so proud of you).. plus I think your gorgeous! (no im not hitting on you =P lol)
take care XXX
Author's Response: Rereading? Wow, awesome!! Its cool that my fic interested you more than once. I think its really cool that you enjoy my writing, and I think its really cool that my story made you cry (I'm glad Icould bring out emotions through this fic). I think its really cool to get to know my readers, and I think I do that by giving too much information. Plus since this is online, I can say things honestly that I wouldn't say face to face with someone in real life. I'm glad you enjoyed my tracklist. I worked hard on it, and all of those songs are on my own special playlist just for this story. lol, and thanks for the compliment! :)
Date: 07/06/10 12:42 pm Title: 15. I Love You, Mom
When I read "*Grabs tissue box- I suggest you do the same...*" I didn't think I'd even need to. But oh yeah, I cried. A lot. Its was one of those terrible crys were you get that huge painful lump in your throat. That doesn't really happen to much so good job :)
Author's Response: I'm happy that I made you cry. Wait-- that doesn't sound write. Let me rephrase -- I'm happy that my writing triggers emotions in you. I really wanted this story to captivate the reader, and I hope I've done a decent job of that. :)
Date: 07/06/10 06:48 am Title: 14. The Way He Feels
I think you're doing a great job writing the eating disorder parts..as I also know from personal experience. Love this story though!
Author's Response: I'm glad you find my writing to be accurate. I am writing based on personal experience during almost all of the eating disorder scenes. I'm sorry to hear that you've had past experience with eds. If you ever need to talk, just message me. :)
Date: 07/05/10 10:12 am Title: 3. Whispers
Ohhh this story is so awesome so far! And yeah, I hate Bushindo too. BillXBushido is liek the weirdest thing ever.
And if the about him making poor Billa cry is true or not, I don't know.
But either way I don't like him.
Author's Response: I'm glad you like it!! Yea, Bushido sucks. I'm fine with reading it when Bushido is pictured in a nice way, but that's only because its a fic. In real life I cant stand the guy, and I doubt I'll ever write a fic with a nice, comforting Bushido character.
Date: 07/02/10 03:23 am Title: 40. Epilogue
OMG!! I love this story. I read the entire story today. It was extremely well written. I cried at some scenes(when Bill was talking to his mother's tomb stone) and laughed at others. I also got angry at some parts and so desperately want to kick ass. You did a really swell job. This story had me capitivated the entire time. I am so glad Bill will no longer suffer because of his ass of a father.
And good job at your accomplishment. I am so proud of you. Eating a whole meal isn't a whatever, it's good you did it. Every step is an accomplishment, big or small.
I learned a lot about anorexia just by reading your end notes. I want to thank you for enlightening me on the topic.
And can't wait to start reading the sequel and good luck to you, hon and keep doing what your doing :D
Author's Response: Thanks for the review!! I'm really glad that you enjoyed this story. I worked very hard on making the whole thing work out just right. And I'm glad that you learned a lot about Anorexia through this story. That was part of my goal. :)
Date: 06/27/10 03:08 pm Title: 40. Epilogue
wow, you are like really pretty :)
any-a-ways, *sob* it's so sad to see something good end, but ya know what they say, don't cry cause it's over, smile cause it happened *smiles hugely)
Author's Response: Thanks for the review!! I'm really glad that you followed this story for so long. :)
Date: 06/11/10 09:58 pm Title: 1. First Day
Wow. I just read your answer to a review and I can't believe your parents really said you were seeking for attention... I really liked your notes on eating disorder and explanation/ analyze of what was going on with Bill. I loved that story, especially because I learned so much. How glad I was when Bill admitted his father was beating him ! Like, finally ! It was really nice to have a friendship relation between the boys, it made it really realistic. Though I have to say the change in Tom's behaviour was too ''quick'' for me. Gosh, I hated him when he was mean !! I can't understand how he could have been like this, especially when we meet his family... But I loved how much he cared for Bill, just like a perfect big brother.
Well, thanks a looot for this fic! Thank you for sharing your personal story ! I wish you the best! AND you are really pretty :)
I'm not quite sure I'll read the sequel because the summary seems really dark... I might stay with the happy ending ;)
Author's Response: Yes, my parents do not see Anorexia as a disease, they see it as a bad, attention seeking diet of some sorts. I'm glad that you learned a lot from this story. I really wanted to educate my readers about the reality of eating disorders, abuse, rape, and depression (but mostly eating disorders). I felt that Georg's change was too much faster than Tom's, but overall I was happy with how the characters developed throughout the story. No!!! You must read the sequel! What if I promise you that it will end happily? I mean, even happier than this ending?! I'd love it if you continued to follow this plotline, but in the end it is up to you. :)
Date: 06/09/10 12:57 am Title: 1. First Day
I forgot to mention; when I read your end note about you eating a full meal, I squealed out loud, literally. I am so proud of you, sweetie! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Author's Response: Awww thats so cute!! I'm really trying, I swear. And even though things haven't been too good, I'm still trying and that's what counts. :)
Date: 06/09/10 12:55 am Title: 1. First Day
This entire story just blew my mind. I'm not even sure what to say. I just read this entire thing in one sitting, so sorry for not leaving a review on every chapter.
This was so riveting! It was suspenseful, and realistic, and just... it blew my mind!
Thank you so much for sharing this story, and I commend your bravery for sharing your own. Sharing your story with us all definitely took a lot of courage on your part.
One of the things that I really like about this is that you didn't sugarcoat things, nor did you romanticize these issues by putting in a Bill/Tom pairing. It was refreshing to see a story where they're friends who are just that--friends. =) I think if you'd done that, then people would've been more focused on, "BRING ON THE KISSES AND ROMANCE," rather than the real issue that you were trying to highlight, which was that anorexia and abuse are real problems that happen to real people and need to be dealt with; that we can't just ignore these things; that we need to help, or find someone who can.
You're a wonderful writer, and this is for sure one of the most beautiful things that I've read on this site. You did a wonderful job, love. =)
And just for the record, I think that you're absolutely gorgeous. ♥
Author's Response: Wow. Reading this entire story in one go is a very impressive feat. Kudos :) I'm really glad that you enjoyed this story so much. I tried to keep everything as realistic as possible, because I did want to focus on the issues and create awareness for things such as abuse, eating disorders, depression and suicide. I don't know if I would call myself courageous; I just want people to understand what Anorexia is like because no one in my life (except for about three people) understand how terrible a disease it is. I know so many people who think that Anorexia is a "lifestyle choice" and a way to simply lose weight. Perhaps you noticed that during this story, Bill did not step on a scale (except for at the hospital), he counted zero calories, did not exercise obsesively or try to look good in a specific pair of pants. Why? Because eating disorders are more than just "diets turned ugly", they are mental illnesses that can affect any man/woman/child of any age/ethnicity/gender/sexuality and they aren't under one's control. The same goes with abuse. I did want to keep Bill straight throughout this entire fic, and I didn't want a Tom/Bill relationship to take away from the seriousness of the situation. I'm just so glad that you actually understood my underlying message!!!! *is super excited* Thanks so much for the review. The sequel, Confusion Never Stops, has already been posted. Kisses, Kristina :)
Date: 06/08/10 08:40 am Title: 30. The Morning After
*sniffles* This chapter hit a very painful memory for me....It literally brought tears to my eyes as I read it.
I completely understand what Bill is going through, not just with the abuse, but being raped while drugged.
I really appreciate you putting in information about ed, as I read them I started to see how so much like myself Bill is....and it has made me wonder.
Anyways, I do love this story and you truly capture how a person feels and what they go through when they go through abuse and rape and everything else that you have Bill going through...I know because I have been there.
I also know how he feels in thinking no one can help him....so very scary how you actually mirror what truly does go on in a person's head when a victim of things.
Anyways, sorry I have not reviewed before now. I just started reading this last night, and a lot of times I have no idea what to say...but this time I was moved to finally say something....I love your work and also love your Nvnc story.
Author's Response: I can't believe that you are able to admit what you suffered through. You are very strong to do that. Many people would keep things like rape to themselves, but it always good to seek help, counseling, or police action in those kinds of situations. I have a friend who was molested and raped by her father, and although I have thankfully not been abused in my own home, I know how important it is to listen to what others have to say and help them when something terrible happens to them. She told me her story two years ago, and I will never forget a single word of it. Ever. I cannot even begin to describe how sorry I am that you had to go through something like that, but I have the faith that you will stay strong despite what happened to you. When you say that you relate to Bill more as you read the eating disorder information, do you mean that you feel as though you might personally have an eating disorder? If you do and you ever want to talk about it, I'm here to listen and share my advice. Although I haven't seen the worsts of eating disorders (meaning that I have not been admitted into a hospital yet), I have suffered from Anorexia for so long that it has really messed up a lot of things in my life. I strongly relate to the feeling that you (and Bill) share about thinking that no one can help you. When I was fourteen, I told my parents that I thought something was wrong with me. I explained to them about this article I had read about Anorexia Nervosa, and how I fit all of the symptoms; and I told them about thoughts I had in my mind that told me I shouldn't eat or go out into public because of how terrible I look all the time. What happened? My parents told me that I was seeking attention, that Anorexics are "stupid" girls on diets, and that I wasn't thin enough to be Anorexic. Four years later, food is all I can think about and I am terrified of eating in public, gaining weight, being caught not eating, eating in general, drinking liquids, being hated for what I eat (my parents told me all throughout high school that I would never have a boyfriend if I ate snacks and candies or just too much, had bad skin, or looked bad at all. Then they told me that I did look bad, how I'm a bad, worthless person, and how could I let myself be so lazy (when I am ranked number 8 in my graduating class) and why couldn't I be like my sisters because they're all so nice). So thanks for fucking me up mom and dad. But now, I have a boyfriend who appreciates me for who I am and what I do. And he and his brother have been trying to help me with my eating disorder for the last few months. Anyways, I do think that you can be helped (even if like me, it takes more than one try to get help). I really hope you contact me if you ever need to talk, and I am so happy that you reviewed this fic and were so honest in what you told me. Always a friend if you need one, Kristina :)
Date: 06/07/10 09:43 pm Title: 40. Epilogue
Just an observation
Title of this story-Coldplay"Fix You"
Series-Coldplay"Yellow"
Author's Response: I'm really glad you picked that up!! I did it on purpose. And the sequel is Coldplay "Clocks". If you read the titles together, it says: When you lose something you cannot replace, confusion never stops. Turn into something beautiful. XD
Date: 06/03/10 04:31 pm Title: 40. Epilogue
i liked the end alot. i'm gonna go read the sequeal now.
P.S. i'm very proud of you for eating a full meal, i know its hard.
P.P.S. you're very pretty
Author's Response: I'm really glad you liked it!! Enjoy the sequel!! Yes, it was very hard, but I'm really trying. I wanted to let everyone know that. And thank you :)
Date: 06/03/10 06:24 am Title: 40. Epilogue
I wish someone would do that for me whenever I come home lol. It's so awesome how much the Trumpers care about Bill. ^^ I can't wait for the sequel!!
And when I read that you ate a full meal, I honestly had such a big smile on my face. Way to go, hun! By the way, you're gorgeous.
Author's Response: The sequel was just posted!!! *cheers* It's called Confusion Never Stops. :)rnrnAnd I'm glad that I made you smile. I am really trying to eat well, and even though its not really going too well, at least I'm trying, right?... I hope that counts for something :)
Date: 05/29/10 10:24 pm Title: 40. Epilogue
This story has touched me and has reminded me of my own troubles with different disorders and my own experiences in the hospital. thank u for writing this it really touched me and i will always remember this. by the way loved all of ur quotes in the beginning of each chapters!!! Not Afraid is my fav song right now. i say again thank u!!!
Author's Response: I'm so glad that this story has touched you so much. I really wanted to inform others about eating disorders through this story (in addition to things as child, sexual, physical, and emotional abuse). I smiled alot when you wrote that you will always remember this. XD Seriously, I have been smiling all morning because of it. And I always enjoy posting the quotes with each chapter. I'm big into quotes and I love sharing my favorite songs with everyone. =) And Not Afraid is my fav song right now too!!