Date: 05/04/10 05:44 am Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Whoa, poor Bill D: And I really hate Jorg, someone should beat him up...*grr* Anyway, YAY for a sequel, I can't wait to read the next chapter XD So, that's this thursday right?? And I'm suffering too, I have exams coming up, one in a subject I really hate...argh. Good luck to you!! And this story is amazing, I can't wait to see how it'll end!
Author's Response: I think that Bill should go crazy and finally attack Jorg!! Well, actually that probably isn't going to happen... you'll just have to wait and see what does! There's only a few chapters left! And good luck on your exams by the way!
Date: 05/03/10 09:45 am Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
3- Yes i am suffering, like you -.-
4- NOOOOOO ,
Oh and, THIS IS AWSOMEEE please dont let bill hate tomi xd
Author's Response: Damn. AP suffering is the worst, isn't it? And don't worry, there will be a sequel!! So the story will continue!!! :)
Date: 05/03/10 02:33 am Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Why is the doctor questioning Bill in front of his parents?! Stupid doctor!
Tom finds Bill and Bill doesn't remember they're friends! Hope Tom is able to convince Bill that they are.
Can't wait for Thursday! Love this! :]
Author's Response: Thanks for the review! :)
Date: 05/02/10 11:58 pm Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Umm there's one spot in the story, right as they send Bill out of the room, where you said Dr. Jorg. Wasn't it supposed to be Dr. Jost?
Not to be critical or anything, but I appericiate constructive critisism with my writing. I'm glad there will be a sequel. Good luck with your tests. High School or College?
In a strange way, I feel for Tom. He doesn't know that Bill got his memory back. But at the same time, he got what he deserved. But then again, befriending him, even out of punishment, most definately made up for it; especially after he did actually become a friend.
Sorry, just rambling. Great story!
Author's Response: Thanks for filling me in about that mistake with the doctor's names. I went back and fixed it already. My tests are in high school (I'm a senior) and I'll be finished with those classes for the year at the end of each AP test. After that it's just movies and lazyness. I feel for Tom too. And I love the rambling!! DX
Date: 05/02/10 11:58 pm Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Awww. D: Poor Bill. And poor Tom, really. I wonder how Tom's going to take it, and how you're going to write it so that they become friends again. This chapter was great! Please update again soon.
Author's Response: Hmm..All good things to think about... Luckily, I know just what needs to happen!! :)
Date: 05/02/10 11:36 pm Title: 34. Stand Through The Pain
Ja! Definately a sequel! And a summer in Germany? Im sooo jealous! I've been wanting to go there since I was 16. I likie to tell myself it's because I was born the year the wall came down.
Yes, I kinda figured Tom's english was delibrite. But I liked tha song the way it was. Tom singing is not something you get alot of so that was a treat. Thanx.
Author's Response: Ha! That's a great reason to want to go to Germany! I was born after the Wall fell and lived in Germany until age 9. I haven't been back for a while so I'm incredibly excited! Hopefully you will get to visit Germany one day! And I'm glad that you liked Tom's singing =)
Date: 05/02/10 11:00 pm Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Yay!!! There's gonna b a sequel!!! This story is sooo good :) I really like it :D I'm soo glad uve kept writing it!!
Author's Response: I can't part with this story just yet. There's so much more to tell! Thanks for the review XD
Date: 05/02/10 09:50 pm Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Wow i hav never cried so much abt a story n my life u should make this a real book i know i would buy it.. becuzz its AWESOME but very sad ;-)
Author's Response: Wow, I can't believe that I made you cry so much! That's incredible! I'm glad you think my story is Awesome. =)
Date: 05/02/10 07:17 pm Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Hi
There should be Kara for each and every abuse child in this world. Sometimes an outstreched hand could do miracles in the souls that had decided to stop caring.
My poor Bill is afraid of saying anything for fear noone will care, isn't he. But somehow all this pressure will bring everything upon him until the very moment he can not keep it inside.
I really feel bad for Tom. It must havve been terrribly hard that a person you've learned to care about just forgets all about you and spits at your face his hateful feelings.
I have no idea what an AP test is, but as it is a test, I wish you the best of the lucks in all of them.
Of course we all want you to continue the story, it is great.
Send you big hugs honey! Take care.
Velia
Author's Response: I agree, I think that a Tomi, a Kara, a Georg, a Simone, etc. should there for all abused children, or better yet- all people who need help in general. I only hope that the readers who follow this story might try to reach out and comfort someone that they know who is in need. I like how you say, "But somehow all this pressure will bring everything upon him until the very moment he can not keep it inside." How very true that is. An AP test is a college level test that you take in high school. It's rediculously hard and very competative (at least at my school it is) so everyone's been studying their brains out all year for it). *Hugs in return* :) rn
Date: 05/02/10 05:45 pm Title: 34. Stand Through The Pain
Omg, I'm like so so so honored! You made me want to cry! Thank you for dedicating this too me! < 333 Awesome chapter as usual... Always leave me wanting more and more!
Author's Response: Aww!! You're welcome!!! I'm glad you liked it. =) I'm getting so anxious now that the story is coming to an end! Well, at least there's a sequel to look foreward to. XD
Date: 05/02/10 04:17 pm Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Oh no poor Billa, poor Tomi!!! Another great chapter by the way. I can't wait until the next one and i'll be reading the sequel for sure!
Author's Response: Yay! New chapter soon!
Date: 05/02/10 03:49 pm Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Oh my, thank you so much for the dedication! I was completely taken by surprise when I saw my name up there and really, I'm so glad you found what I said so great, because I meant every single word. :)
And, the song from this chapter is lovely and fits the chapter - the story develops nicely and I am curious to see what will happen in the next chapter - how will Tom react? How will Bill react if he finds out that Tom has been so amazing towards him? Oh, so many questions...
And I really wish Bill could tell anyone about who has really been hurting him, it makes my heart ache and the story is only fictional (yes, that's the impact your story has on me - it makes me think that it's happening for real and it makes me want to cry for Bill and cry for everything he goes through)
Keep up the good work!
Author's Response: I love the song as well. It's definately one of my all time favorites. Tom's reaction will be...I can't say yet, but I think you'll be happy with it. Bill's reaction -spoiler alert- will be heart breaking. I find it so exciting that you see the story as real (even though its only fictional). I wanted it to be as realistic as possible and I'm happy to know that it comes across the way that I hoped. :)
Date: 05/02/10 01:12 pm Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Wow awesome can't wait :)
Author's Response: Sameness :)
Date: 05/02/10 11:42 am Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
god someone tell tom what happen
Author's Response: I understand your frustration. All in good time. XD
Date: 05/02/10 10:28 am Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
Aggghhh!!! Bill should tell the truth, it would be so nice for a change! Anyway, I hope you are doing well and eating well (or at least a bit)
Take care ^^
Author's Response: I'm sensing some incoming truth from Bill. =) And in all honesty, I haven't been eating well. But I am eating better than I was a couple months ago. Thanks for the concern! :)
Date: 05/02/10 07:57 am Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
poor bill ): he was hoping and then the whole memory came back thing destroyed it all. gaaah!!! stop hurting him T-T
Author's Response: Don't panic! Everything will be dealt with!! New chapter on Thursday!
Date: 05/02/10 07:35 am Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
I love this so much! I'm so glad someone is finally noticing what's happening to Bill. Really, it's so heartbreaking and almost every chapter makes me cry. AND YEY sequel! God, Im so happy that it's not only a few more chapers and then it's ALL over. *dies*
Good luck on your AP tests, I look forward to Thursday!
Author's Response: I'm so excited that people are finally noticing what's going wrong with Bill. If only they did this thirty-five chapters ago... maybe he'd already be okay. *sighs* I'm really looking forward to writing the sequel!! :)
Date: 05/02/10 06:47 am Title: 35. Tell Me What To Say
another great chapter from a great writer! seriously good...but poor tom cant wait to read what happens next..please update soon xo
Author's Response: Thanks! I'm glad you liked it!! More soon =)
Date: 05/01/10 02:46 pm Title: 34. Stand Through The Pain
Hi
I could almost feel what Tom did, it's difficult to perform a song in a foreign language in front of your class...
Poor Bill, he's going trhough hell and back thanks to this med revision. I myself hate doctors, but never have felt uncomfortable around them. But, for Bill, this must be martyrdom. To let someone so close when you haven't had the best experiences with physical contact. Bill got scared of the touch of people, and i know his trust has just be so much affected as well, that I can understand.
Now, I'm wondering if Bill will be able to say what his father does to him, if he will be able to remember and tell about Bushido's atrocities. Will justice be done for his broken soul?
Oh heavens!! I'm dreading the moment Tom gets closer to Bill and he wouldn't be able to remember his friendship.
Panick attack is coming, I can feel it.
Send you a hug, beautiful!!!
Author's Response: I'm completely uncomfortable around doctors and I dread doctor visits for months in advance. Bill's experience with the doctor is based on the story I posted in one of my previous author notes about my recent trip to the doctors for a physical- it was scary as anything! And Bill is definately afraid of other people's touch. Especially people who are older or appear stronger than him. I think that justice will be done... well, for the most part...*hides* You sense an oncoming panic attack, I sense an oncoming break down... =)
Date: 04/28/10 02:38 pm Title: 1. First Day
I read it all with the last 3 days - read it at school during lessons, read it when I was supposed to be studying and read it when I was in a desperate need of time. Frankly, I didn't care for the time that reading this took away from me, because may I say, it's more than just a story, it's life here in it's most saddest form. The spur of emotions and the way each line of the story makes me feel is completely overwhelming.
This here is not a fanfiction, this is something for which I have no words, but I will try my best.
First of all, I like how the story seems to be planned through and everything makes sense, you are not jumping from one thing to another and changing your mind 1 million times like I tend to do. That's a really good quality!
Secondly, you make it seem so real, all of it. As I'm reading it, I can't help but imagine everything and it's so real, it's not just a story, it makes me live the story and makes me feel the emotions and from time to time, it takes my breath away.
Also, I love how every chapter starts with a quote from some song, I listened to most of them and they fit the chapter perfectly.
And, as I read some of this comes from your own experience, I'm sorry you had to/are going through this, but it will make you stronger. To me, you seem like a writing-form-of-Einstein or someone like that, and that makes you utterly beautiful, smart and brilliant.
Keep on doing what you are doing - because it is more than just good. It's amazing.
Actually, I wanted to write you a bunch of inspiring words with lots of complicated adjectives to describe it all, but eventually, I couldn't find any words and I'm sorry for that.
I love that story and I respect you so much for sharing it with us.
Thank you! And I can't wait to read further.
Lots of love and take care,
Laura.
Author's Response: I can't even describe how inspiring I find your review. First of all, I appreciate that you enjoy this story so much that you took time out of your lessons, studying, etc. to read it. I must admit that I'm totally guilty when it comes to reading or writing fanfictions instead of doing schoolwork. (Fanfics are my main form of procrastination.) Writing actually gives me a temporary break from my eating disorder. Instead of thinking about food and why I can't eat it and the umpteen thoughts that go through my head just to have a drink, I can think about my story, what needs to come next, and how I can best describe it. Writing is my escape! Secondly, I'm glad that you think I'm not constantly changing my mind in this story. I have a million notes and reminders to keep in mind while I write so that hopefully, nothing contradicts itself and everything is resolved. Thirdly, I love that this story seems real to you, because it is. Although I'm not physically or sexually abused, that abuse is still going on in the world and I want for people to be aware of that so we can end it. Eating disorders, anxiety disorders, bullying, (and even claustrophobia) can all be treated, but it's up to us to seek help and not sit idol. I must confess that I'm a bit of a hypocrite when it comes to seeking help, because I am not currently doing any kind of treatment or therapy to get over my eating disorder. "It's not even that bad," is the thought that I tell myself every day because I'm convinced that even though I know the medical, physical, and emotional complications of Anorexia, I am still convinced that there is no problem. Part of this thought stems from the fact that when I told my parents that I thought I had Anorexia at age 14, they told me I didn't, that I was seeking attention, and that ANOREXIA ISN'T EVEN A REAL DISEASE. Well, I can assure you (as I'm sure this story already has) that ANOREXIA IS A REAL DISEASE! Fourthly, (I'm numbering everything so it doesn't seem like I'm just writing a big jumble of words :) ) I love sharing my favorite songs through this fic. And lastly, I cried when I read your words: To me, you seem like a writing-form-of-Einstein or something like that, and that makes you utterly beautiful, smart and brilliant. I can't even say how happy that makes me feel inside! Thank you so much for leaving me such a detailed and kind response. What you wrote most definately one of the best things that anyone has ever directed at me in my entire life. For that, I thank you.rnrnMuch love, Kristina. :)