Date: 05/20/10 01:55 am Title: 40. Epilogue
I love your picture your so pretty!
Can't wait to read the sequel! =]
Author's Response: Thanks for the review! :D
Date: 05/20/10 01:32 am Title: 40. Epilogue
ahh so good! :') oh and congratulations - im glad that you can be so open about such a sensitive topic, and i can tell you're really working at getting better. it makes me smile :) (p.s. you are GORGEOUS! not to be a creeper or anything... XD)
Author's Response: Thanks for the review! I really want to discuss this topic through my story to spread eating disorder awareness, because ed's are a tabboo-ish topic, I think. No one wants to admit to them or understand them really, they just say, "Here you go *hands over sandwich* you should probably eat that." I want people to realize just how serious this problem really is. And thank you for the compliment...and don't worry, I don't think your a creeper...because if you are, then I am too...Okay, we're both creepers lol :D
Date: 05/20/10 01:13 am Title: 40. Epilogue
Awwwwww yaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I loved this story and this chapter and i'm so happy to hear that you ate a full meal in public :) And i really admire you for going through so much AND finishing a story. Good job! And i cannot wait until the sequel, i'll be on the lookout for it :D
Author's Response: I'm really excited that I finished this story as well. I spend a rediculous amount of time writing it, I can assure you. And now, I get to spend some more large chunks of time writing the sequel!! :)
Date: 05/20/10 01:13 am Title: 40. Epilogue
Great ending and can't wait for the sequel. You're gorgeous by the way. Keep doing what you need to do to get healthy.
Author's Response: Thanks for the review. I think it would be awesome to get healthy, but it will probably take a long time. And if the truth be told, I'm scared of all the work it would take to finally get well. But, I'm still trying, and that's what counts :)
Author's Response: Thanks for the review. I think it would be awesome to get healthy, but it will probably take a long time. And if the truth be told, I'm scared of all the work it would take to finally get well. But, I'm still trying, and that's what counts :)
Date: 05/20/10 01:05 am Title: 40. Epilogue
Awww! x3 That ending was adorable! It's sweet that the Trumpers are so willing to accept him into thei family. While I'm rather sad that this story has ended, I'm so psyched for the sequel. x3 I can't wait!
btw: You're so pretty! Congrats on the dinner. I have a friend who has an ED, so hearing about steps taken to overcome these things are really inspirational.
You're an amazing author - I'm gonna start counting down the days until the sequel is posted. xD
Author's Response: I'm psyched for the sequel as well. I just can't let go of this story yet!! And thank you- it took a while, but in the end the dinner went really well. And I'm sorry to hear about your friend. Hopefully they have a strong support system and try to get better. =)
Date: 05/18/10 04:14 am Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
I feel so relieved now that the truth is out there. :) And Bill finally stood up for himself!
*Random Thought* I know there are abusive parents out there, but it's just so hard for me to imagine a parent wanting to hurt their child. I mean, I've had my fair share of punishments, but that was when I was younger and - let's be honest - a little bratty, and it was nothing compared to what Bill went through. I guess reading this story just really makes me appreciate my parents that much more.
Wow, that thought was longer than I intended. Sorry lol. And I do have a question. :) When a person with Anorexia doesn't eat, is their hunger level a prominent factor? Are they actually not hungry, or do they convince themselves they're not hungry? Or do they just choose not to eat even if they are hungry? I suppose it would be different for each person, but I was curious.
And I'll definitely check out your other stories! I'm sorry this review is so long! D:
Author's Response: I have a friend who is treated poorly at home, she's not physically abused, but her parents are so horrible that words can't even describe them. She's not allowed to do anything, go anywhere, they refuse to buy her even the necessary things, and they just don't show her that they love her. Ever. That's where I recieved some of the idea for Bill's story from. I have always had a strong desire to make people aware of the crimes that go on in people own homes (abuse, eating disorders, suicide...). I'm glad that this story makes you appreciate the good parents that you do have. :) To answer your question about Anorexia- Yes, the hunger is very prominent. The line starts to blur between craving, hungry, and starving. For example, I am always hungry, but I cannot do anything about it (like how someone without an eating disorder could just have a snack- I can't do that). Then I convince myself that I am not really hungry or that I don't need food, and I will then eat when I am literally starving. It sounds terrible, I know, and it is. There is also the problem that a "proper meal" in my mind, could be considered a "snack" to the average eater. So even when one does go to eat, they have less than is appropriate because they convince themselves that even that is too much. I hope that answers your question and that it doesn't sound too much like a major ramblefest. XD
Date: 05/17/10 10:22 pm Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
I finished reading this chapter on my ipaq. I’m sorry Bill got undiagnosed by David.
But that’s what happens almost every time. It’s like A.A. philosophy says: “you cannot face a problem until you accept that you have one”.
I could ask you a thousand questions about your eating disorder, but I just got one (or it might be two): Do you want help? And if the answer is yes, are you expecting that someone close to you realizes that you have an eating disorder? Sometimes I wish that my mother could tell that I starve and then I choke with food, and then I come back to starve; but that’s because I want to know if I still matter to her. And that, my dear it’s not the best way to live.
I hope that you are eating a little more, and that Bill in the sequel does that too.
Kisses,
-Loves
Author's Response: Bill's eating disorder, because it is undiagnosed, will only continue to escalate in the sequel. To answer your question, "Do you want help?" I'm not really sure how to answer. I have thought so much about what would happen if I told someone of consequence (like a guidance counselor at school). I have already tried to do this before, but it didn't really pan out the way I intended. When I was 14, I was reading a magazine that happened to have an article about Anorexia and Bulimia. I told my parents that it was really weird because my thoughts were pretty much identical to the listed examples of how eating disorder minds work. My parents response, summarized, was this- Being Anorexic is stupid. Who do you think you are, Paris Hilton? Besides, you are not even very thin.- end summary. My parents did not understand that Anorexia is a mental illness. That's why in this story, Bill's dad tells him he does not have an eating disorder, but that he's just seeking attention. My parents thought I was just seeking attention too. There are people close to me who do know about my eating disorder though, the two most important being my boyfriend and his older brother. They've been looking out for me and trying to help me, and I really appreciate that they're doing that... But I can't always be watched. Even after all the things I have gone through with food over the past four years, there are still some days when I think to myself, "Kristina, you do not have an eating disorder. You're just blowing this way out of proportion, and it's not even that bad. Because you have not been in danger of dying, your problem is not as worse as it seems- real people with Anorexia are in the hospital. You're not." Then I have to remind myself that actually I do have an eating disorder and that it's just me in denial. It sucks. And I'm really sorry to hear that you starve and choke with food. The same thing happens to me- sometimes when I am eating, I am unable to finish chewing on something and I have to spit it out (and that's one of the reasons I do not like to eat in public). It's been really wonderful getting to talk with you and hear your wisdom throughout this whole story. If you ever want to email me and talk more, I'm totally open. Kisses, Kristina
Date: 05/17/10 06:12 pm Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
this story was so emotional. I cried at least 5 times. It's so real,as if the author were experiencing it. But I hope not because I'll fly over to where you live and kick the SHIT out of anyone that may be hurting you.
Author's Response: Wow! I'm happy to know that you are fully prepared to protect me from getting hurt!! But thankfully, I am not physically abused at home...but some emotional abuse is always there. My eating disorder and the emotional abuse (my parents, like Bill's, are always telling me that I am lazy, stupid, and not good...) influenced my writing a lot. But those are the only things that are hurting me right now. Thanks for the review! =)
Date: 05/17/10 06:00 pm Title: 36. The Truth Part 1.
the end made me cry so much.
Author's Response: Aww! *hands over tissue box*
Date: 05/17/10 05:25 pm Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! =D
billa's getting help ^^ awesome!! =D and he got to stand up to his dad!!! *happy dance*
Author's Response: Thanks for the review!
Date: 05/17/10 03:02 pm Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
hey there, its my first time reviewing but i've been a long follower of this story.
its hard to have an eating disorder. i do, too. unfortunately (or fortunately?) i'm not anorexic or bulimic. rather, i have compulsive overeating disorder. i use to be a skinny child because of my high metabolism rate but as i got older it has slowed down significantly, coupled with my binge eating i've been starting to gain weight.
everybody tells me i look better now because i still LOOK slim. therefore no one takes me seriously when i tell them that binge eating is a form of eating disorder. in other words, i was reaching out for help but got none.
Author's Response: Thanks for the review! I learned about compulsive overeating disorder in school, but I do not know as much about that topic as I do Anorexia and Bulimia. It is sad that your friends do not recognize your binging for what it is- an eating disorder. My friends and family are the same way. They've told me that I am just "picky" in what I like to eat. I've also been told that it is healthy for me to not eat too much, so its good that I only eat a few things. Are they stupid or what? I know that is very far from the case- there's obviously a problem, but everyone is to blinded to see it. And honestly, it really sucks. There are only two people who take my ed seriously and know the most about it, that try to help me out. If you ever want to discuss your eating disorder, just send me a message and I'll be happy to listen. :)
Date: 05/17/10 10:43 am Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
Wow awesome can't wait :)
Author's Response: Me too :)
Date: 05/17/10 10:41 am Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
I've been tracking Nvnc Avt Nvnqvam, i do enjoy it. I don't know you but from this story it seems that you are really fighting the good fight for your own well being. I applaud the fact that you wrote your story and notes in a way that will help people who need help, and will open those who don't, to be more understanding. Take a bow.
Author's Response: Thanks for the review! *Bows* I think it's really cool that you appreciate my story so much. It makes me smile a lot, actually :D I really want to inform people that eating disorders are not "lifestyle choices", but that they are actually mentail illnesses. Too many people think that by saying "You should eat because we're all beautiful in different ways" you will cure someone of an ed. That's not the case though. It's way more than that.
Date: 05/17/10 03:28 am Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
Love that Bill told off his father and that he's going to live with Tom now.
So that's a real "lets see if you have an eating disorder" test?
Those questions are really easy to answer no to.
Wonder how much someone got paid to think that test up.
Love this story! Can't wait for more! Hope you're feeling better. :]
Author's Response: Yes, that is a real eating disorder test. Like I mentioned in my end note, those kinds of tests do not mean 100% that you have an eating disorder, but they can support that idea depending on how you answer it. If I were to truthfully answer the test, I would definately have over 2 yes answers, but if I were to be tested with that in real life I would probably lie in my answers. I think that the SCOFF test isn't very helpful though (because it's so short), but there are some other, longer tests that ask much deeper questions to determine if someone might have an eating disorder. Thanks for the review!
Date: 05/17/10 02:17 am Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
I'm so glad to see that things are finally working out for Bill! You did an amazing job and I wished the chapter wouldn't end so soon. :(
And nooo, the story is going to end! What will I read in Maths class now, haha?
You're amazing, sweetie!
Author's Response: Yes the story is going to end! *sobs uncontrollably* But I promise that the sequel will be up soon, so that you can distract yourself during math class ;)
Date: 05/16/10 11:35 pm Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
Wow. I've seen this story often as you've updated and while it seemed interesting, I never gave it a second thought. Now, on this most recent chapter, I have read the entire story (it's going on midnight right now!) and I am glad that I did. This story is truly unique and well thought out.
Author's Response: I'm so happy that you took the time to read my story! I love reading entire fics all in one go (there was one really long fic that I was up til 2am reading once!). And btw, a sequel to this story will be coming out soon. I'm not quite done telling this story =)
Date: 05/16/10 11:08 pm Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
i love this story. and great job on billa today. im so sorry he had to go through it
Author's Response: Thanks for the review!
Date: 05/16/10 10:39 pm Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
Gah, Bill was reasoning himself into answering those questions the way he did!
I can't believe his father denies what he's done to Bill!
Can't they make Bill press charges?
Can't wait for the epilogue!
Author's Response: Well, Bill's father is an asshole... I have a feeling that he might be kicked in the ass. I wish I could say more. :D
Date: 05/16/10 09:33 pm Title: 39. I Have Something To Say
Well, I was/am worried about you and your ED. I just didn't know what to say as far as words of encouragement. But I really hope you're getting the help you need. Is it Bulimia you have?
As far as the story, I'm really looking forward to the sequel. you are such a great writer. If you were a published author, I'd buy your books!
Author's Response: I don't have Bulimia, but I have Anorexia. If you want to be specific, I would be classified as a "restricting Anorexic", which means that I do not eat for large amounts of time (the longest ever was 42 hours), eat only small portions, and there are many foods that I am "not allowed" to eat (I could technically eat them if I wanted to, but I am either afraid to or can't bring myself to have them). I think it's such a compliment that you would buy published works by me. I've considered possibly being a writer, but I am completely undecided with that right now. For now, it's just fan fictions and school essays =)
Date: 05/16/10 07:48 pm Title: 15. I Love You, Mom
graveyard scene made me cry
Author's Response: *Hands over tissue*