Date: 01/12/12 05:59 pm Title: Permanent
This story was amazingly bittersweet and I really enjoyed it. Danke. :)
Date: 10/24/09 11:16 am Title: Permanent
beautiful just like the song.
much love, chiara
Date: 10/23/09 07:39 am Title: Permanent
This story was so beautiful and heartfelt and it made me want to just cry and hug both Bill and Tom really tightly! Such a good story *favourited*
Date: 10/22/09 11:23 pm Title: Permanent
Gorgeous and heartbreaking. I listened to the song while I read it, and now I'm all sniffly.
Wonderful job with the first person point of view, by the way. Not everyone can pull that off so well.
Date: 10/22/09 10:53 pm Title: Permanent
Well this was depressing, can you write a sequel where everything's better?
Date: 10/22/09 09:14 pm Title: Permanent
That was heartbreaking and I so pray that Tom never feels like that. But you did a beautiful job with this.
Date: 10/22/09 08:43 pm Title: Permanent
This was beyond beautiful. Made me shiver, the emotions were real and I'm always glad to read a broken Tom.
Really, really good!
Date: 10/22/09 08:21 pm Title: Permanent
Wow....that was beautiful. A gorgeous portrayal of the Kaulitz twins. There are no words with which I can describe this, but, know that in my mind, I'm giving you a standing ovation.
Date: 10/22/09 08:18 pm Title: Permanent
*chin wibbles* brb...gonna go cry myself to sleep now.
Date: 10/22/09 08:17 pm Title: Permanent
No, thank YOU for letting me read this so, so sad fic. Very painful and sad and it squeezed my heart tight. You know... I've been thinking all of this too so much lately. It was painful, because I knew exactly what did you see, when you wrote this. At least I hope that I knew. It's not like this, it can't be... because if it is, then it would beak my heart. And yet again.... Something has been lost during the last year. We all can see it, I think.
When I was reading this, I was wondering what would I ask, if I could ask Tom one question. I would ask, if he is happy. That would be my questrion. Just crossed my mind when I was reading this.
I might have to listen that song too now :)
Date: 10/22/09 08:01 pm Title: Permanent
This is wonderful, lovely, and heartbreaking. :( The rhythm makes reading it flow even without the dialogue, and considering you don't usually write in first person [or ever?] the writing is nearly flawless.
This especially strikes a chord with me because, as the over-obsessed fan that I so proudly am, sometimes I am seriously concerned with the boys' mental well-being, such that reading this is rather masochistic. But it's the kind of sadness that you want to feel while reading a story, I suppose---if that makes any sense.
There were some lines that I especially loved:
He looks so pale these days, his face as white as the bed sheets we bury ourselves in night after countless night.
I just love how you connected their exhaustion and their lifestyle to death---every night that they have to continue their Hotel life is like another step to a gradual, steady death---literally meant or not. And not only that, but they're the ones burying themselves. Brilliant.
It hurts so much to know that he thinks of me as being his hell, at least to some degree.
This hurt. :(
It is he that needs sheltering, but I’m still so weak. I can’t do it on my own, and we just continue this endless song and dance until the first one collapses in inevitable death, the second sure to follow soon after.
No words for this. :((( You write Bill's despair so... thoroughly and penetratingly.
Side note: it's interesting to see how both the twins are handling their troubles when they're both going through the same thing; they're both different but basically the same. They need each other and their happiness depends on each other, but they are both separate as they struggle with their troubles.
I can’t rest my head without my brother. I can’t sleep, I can’t show vulnerability, I can’t be myself without my brother. He’s my everything.
So good D:
I let them slap the makeup on and spike my hair and dress me and write my songs and I go out there like a robot, so automatic, and I let it happen.
I like how you let the darker side of TH seep in to this; not just their struggle with fame, but the things that everyone always speculates on and that fans always turn a blind eye to. I don't personally believe that this is the reality of TH, that the boys are all puppets, but it is scarily possible and I appreciate you for putting that in the story. It makes it all more dark and surreal.
Then the ending... was perfect and made me cry. ;___;
I'm glad that you wrote this because I think it really showcases your skills as an author; your ability to write an unhappy, tearjerking fic while keeping it wholly-non-twincestual and to make me like it so damn much. Congrats ;___;
p.s. you definitely did the song justice!
Date: 10/22/09 07:53 pm Title: Permanent
Bill! So much love for you right now. Makes my heart burst.
So much love in YOUR heart for Tom, it makes me cry!
Tom, so much hurt and pain inside yours, I want to help Bill help you mend it to make you whole again.
If there IS one constant in your life, that will always be your brother, Tom. Forever. He's really not going anywhere.
Never without you.
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Date: 10/22/09 07:43 pm Title: Permanent
thats so beautiful brought tears to my eyes. i can sympathise me and my brother are so close :') well done. really really great :)
Date: 10/22/09 07:42 pm Title: Permanent
Wow that was beautiful.. and made me have to listen to the song over and over and overagain... because i havent listened to it in a long while I love the song its truly one of David Cooks Best songs.