Lovely story. I'm so glad they worked it out!

Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad they worked it out, too! ♥

I needed to read something heartwrenching but also that ends good today. This was one of the best I've ever read. So beautiful, so heartwrenching, so good.

Author's Response: Thank you SO much. This story means a lot to me, so I'm always happy to hear that people are still picking it up and enjoying it. <3333

Hi. *fidgets nervously* I never really write detailed reviews, usually I settle for "AAAH, I LOOOOVE IT!" or nothing at all.
But I've just read your entire story in almost one sitting, and I cannot get over the sheer brilliance of it. I DO ABSOLUTELY LOOOOVE IT. Somehow, you deserve "more" (nothing's really more than love, right? ;) ) than that, though.

Well… I think your story is marvellous, absolutely marvellous. I think it's an amazing piece of writing and that you have got SUCH talent. I’m so impressed with your skills; you're my new idol (haha, that's why I'm nervous). If I met you in real life I'd totally squeal like a girl (Although, I AM a girl...) and want your autograph (But I’m NOT a crazy stalker, promise, I just appreciate good literature, loooads!). This story has got the depth and the intensity of a book, and I've been having such a hard time finding just thaaat on the site.

I love the way that you absolutely, entirely seems to understand the human mind, and the reasons behind our actions. I love the way that you are portraying the characters, not being overly focused on appearances and good looks. It’s just a very mature approach at people’s exterior, and I’ve gotta tell you it’s refreshing to read someone who’s not so overly obsessed with Bill’s unearthly beauty.

I love that the story’s so much like real life, in the way that everything sometimes goes horribly wrong; thing after thing; and it’s your OWN fault. The feeling of being totally powerless and the feeling of everything’s spinning out of control.

And I love the way that there are moments after fights and angry word-throwing when all is perfectly right and good and there is no need for language to clarify that. The way that sometimes, moments like that just appear out of nowhere and make the world an uncomplicated place; the communication between minds clear and unbroken.

Gosh. I could go on and on. It's a beautiful, realistic, heart wrenching story about love. And there are soooo many love stories out there, a zillion of them, it seems. You are truly amazing for creating one as unique as this one.

P.s. I just have to ask, is English your first language?

Author's Response: Please don't be nervous. I think you just made my entire week (if not more). This story is very personal and dear to me, and it makes me so very, very, very happy to see other people connecting with it and loving it the way that I do. I'm happy to see you notice more of the emphasis on the psychology of the characters (why they did what they did) rather than just simply what they're doing. I tried to make it as realistic as possible, and I really hope that it came off that way. I really wish I knew stronger words than just thank you, but Thank You seems to be all I have right now. I'm so glad you enjoyed it as much as you did, and doubly glad that you decided to leave a detail review. You certainly made my week. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ (And by the way...yes, English is my first language. =])

Terrific voyage through the twins' ups and downs in coming to terms with how they feel about each other.

Loved the complicated awkwardness and powerful love between them.

Great fic.

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Maria

Author's Response: Thank you so much! ♥

Eep… I finally found time to review, I wanted to reread the whole story all the way through without interruptions (hard thing to find that much time. XD)

I love the way you start the story. How you show the connection between the brothers so well, it makes me grin. Because everything just does seem so perfect between the boys. Yet, you see that it really isn't.

Maybe they couldn’t technically read each other’s minds, but Bill could feel everything Tom felt, and Tom always knew when Bill needed him.

That line, is one of my favorites, just the way it's just like, well they really can't, but they're so close, they kind of can. XD And then when they're young, I love how you write people young. n_n It just captures things so well!

But Tom never cried, so he wondered if he could give his brother some of his, if Bill ever did run out.

See, little wonderings like that, it just seems like someone at a small age would think, and just, it's a cute line. :) But then, as you have them growing through kissing (in the one paragraph) it just seems like they are growing, not just being one age and then another.

*cough* got a little carried away on the first chapter. But one of the things you always do, is be amazing and bring things you've said earlier in the chapter, or in the story, and you bring them around (no idea if you do it by accident or planned ahead to do it) but I love it. :)

You know, reading, there are some stories that I think are amazing, and then go back and reread, and they're not what I thought they had been… but not with this one!! Hahaha, sorry, just wow. n_n

You do just lovely writing friction too, you never seem to forget about one person's or another's play in things really. :) I love it, you weave things that just seem so real, even though they’re not, and just wow. I have to keep reminding myself of different facts. XD

Telling Bill that he was wrong was like telling a brick wall to jump -- absolutely pointless.

I'm really happy you had Andi notice the change, it just shows how you keep characterization so realistic. People don't jump from night to day unless something big has happened. n_n and I totally adore that sentence too. XD

Tom smirked and let out a tuft of air. “You don’t care what I think, remember?”

Seeee, seee, seee!! All the way back in like chapter four or whatever Bill made that comment, and here in 11 Tom brings it up again!

“We used to be able to read each other’s minds and shit.”
Chapter one, now spoke about again in chapter 11. XD
that their connection was coming back.
And they're physic babies in 23!!! (not really) but, hehehe! I just always get happy when an author can tie the past and the present in so well. Plus, I love the sentence. n_n
"Do you think our psychic ability is ruined?”
Chapter 19 :D and then on chapter 30 (before too, but you know, chapter 30 is the most adorable one)

“No!” He snapped, looking up at Tom over the table for the first time since he’d sat down. “I’m not a fucking baby. I can get places on my own.”

I think I crumbled there last time I read this, and now reading it again… oh I love it! :D And it’s kind of a bring up of what he said before, and wow…

“Ah, fuck, Tooom.”
Chapter 15 I believe I shall call one of my favorite chapters. The angst, oh the angst, it's to die for. XD

I LOVE it how you keep making my heart stop, or just send these chills down my spine, just wow. And then the mood was ruined when my friend sent me the image of a mouse caught in a printer...

The letters, first mentioned in like chapter 1-4, somewhere in there. Brought up, chapter 20! LOVE! And then 29, Simone pulls out the letters and then on, the letters n_n

“Pretty serious, then?”

I wonder where I heard that one before. Lol, just wow, how you bring everything in, and rereading I still get so many chills, and wows...

Lol, I think I just realized this, you think I'd seen it sooner, but Tom is always playing with Bill's hair, and he doesn't really care. But the second we get to Andi, it's always mentioned how he hates Andi touching his hair. XD

When you make a person, and OFC like Casi, just wow. Everything that you have both Bill and Tom feeling about her, I'm kind of feeling too, like not hating her, loving her, but feeling disgusted, trusting her, but not… haha, I don't know if that made any sense. But I still love her character even though Bill claims to hate her. XD And I love how you have Georg portrayed in this, he isn't just there for comic relief like he sometimes is in story, he's… really helpful.

Chapter 27 I remember the best, and I don't know why. It's really just the scene with Bill and his flowers between Andi I remember so well, I just always have been able to call up that image in my head, while other things I remembered as I read. Just the way Bill likes the flowers between him and Andi. Haha, it's a weird thing to remember, but I just do…

But 28 has to be my favorite, the ending there is just so, oooo, idk, so intense, it just has so many raw emotions. *giggles* and I love "hit me" scenes between the brothers. XD People can't always do it right, but yours is just so amazing and angst and powerful, just like this whole story (powerful not all of it is angsty XD)

And then 30 because of just the way you wrote the letters, that I'm positive I said I loved. And I do, I love the excerpts from them, and the way you had Tom read them, how we didn’t get the whole letter. It just seemed when you had Bill give them to Tom to read one after another, it seemed more urgent.

The journal!!! I have to say that is my favorite thing that you bring up from previous chapters. Just the one time (I think? Maybe more… I wasn't really looking) in the beginning Bill wrote in it, and now it's here, and wow. Just the way from all the way back there to now… That ending part was my favorite part of the whole story, hands down. The whole chapter wasn't my favorite over all. But then I did love the part in the last chapter where Bill is teaching Tom how to do a guy. XD (Sex scenes aren't my favorite things though, so… can't be my favorite chapter XD)

So yeah, finishing it again, and then scrolling to the top so I could read the italics just got me grinning and starting to tear up, because idk, it's just such a great story. n_n You almost always keep the characterization that you set up on chapter one, and that's just so amazing, and wow...

Sum up the whole story, I fucking loved it. Just, everything you had woven together, and squeeze your beta a time or two, because she convinces you to throw in more angst. XD

But Tom never cried, so he wondered if he could give his brother some of his, if Bill ever did run out.

My favorite line. (I said I’d pick one out didn’t I?) I just, idk… there are so many great lines and everything, but just the characterization behind the line, and what it means, and how even though (I don’t think) you mention it again later, it kind of plays a part throughout the whole story. (But that just might be me because I love the line so much.) Just wow. Thank you so, so, so, so, so, so, so much for writing, and writing so well, and then letting everyone read it. And yeah. n_n You deserved every single review in this piece. Just wow. Lovely, amazing, awesome.

Maybe I’ll get around to reading all your other stories and gushing about them (because if they’re all as wonderfully written as this, how could someone not?) but I won’t count on finding the time until… some time. XD

beautiful.

Author's Response: I had to sit on this review for a few days partially because I wanted to savor it and partially because I had no idea what to say (a simple ‘thank you’ would not be nearly sufficient in this case). First of all, it’s amazing that you went back and read it all again. I haven’t even read through all of it straight through since I finished it. It’s huge, so…I mean, how long did it TAKE you? lol Anyway…on to the responding to the actual review. ;) I’m really glad that you enjoyed the little pieces I put into later chapters from previous chapters. I just feel like a story isn’t a complete story unless it all ties together somehow, so I really tried to do that. And I’m glad you could spot several different things that were linked. Reading your comments took me back to this universe…kind of made me nostalgic. lol As far as the hair thing, I grinned SO hard when I saw that you spotted this. I don’t recall anyone else pointing it out, but it was one of the things I knew from the beginning that I wanted in there. I even had to go back in a couple chapters and add in Tom touching Bill’s hair and Bill not caring, because it was important to me. It was just a sign of Tom having Bill completely, even during those four years when they were apart. And on the topic of Casi: I love her too, ngl. I toyed with the idea of writing a sequel just so that I could write more of her, but I’m not sure that’ll happen now. But…I do love her. Your favorite line: I didn’t expect you to pick that one. I don’t know what I expected you to pick, but until you brought it back up, I think I’d forgotten about it. It’s a sweet line, though. And now that you’ve pointed it out, it’s kind of stuck in my head. haha Anyway thank you for reading (twice!) and for ALL of your reviews. I seriously fell in love with your reviews so much, and this one just kind of topped the cake for me. So thank you, a million times over. (And over, and over, and over.)