Penname: Melancholia [Contact]
Real name: Rebecca
Member Since: 03/21/08
Membership status: Member
Bio:
sometimes people ask me, so here's my answer: i have two writing styles. the first one (which can be seen in and you'll no longer burn, cheshire, how to define brotherhood, how to disappear completely, magi and things behind the sun) is written by the hopeful, insecure, eager and nostalgic side of me (echo). Now, my other writing style (which can be seen in hysteria, je mourrai pour toi, love faileth, paper tiger, storyteller, wanderlust, never ever, ever did, through my autumn bones, spring is a creep, the brave boy and hang me out to dry) is written by the uncaring, passive, (self) destructive, burning, lying, raw, manipulative and melancholic side of me (october). just so we have that cleared up.
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FanFictionFantasies by firelucy       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 176 | |
Summary: Bill is keeping a secret from Tom, he reads not so innocent fanfiction. Tom is keeping a secret from Bill, he writes not so innocent fanfiction.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Humor, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Adult Content
Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3806 Read Count: 9378
[Report This] Published: 01/05/08 Updated: 01/06/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 11/03/08 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3

I lovelovelove this, Lucy. I can't believe I never read it before. Shame on me. ;) But god, this is so hot and so adorable, I love the brotherly gesture Tom did, it made them brothers, which I think many people tend to ignore in their fics. Not you, however, which I'm so grateful for. Thanks for writing this, I sure got my knickers in a twist. ;-)

...Makes Three by Majestrix       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 3353 | |
Summary: Past Featured Story"This cannot be happening. I mean, it's not even possible!"


Categories: Slash
Characters: Andreas, Bill Kaulitz, Bushido, David Jost, Georg Listing, Gordon Trumper, Gustav Schafer, Jörg, Original Female Character, Original Male Character, Saki, Simone Trumper, Tobi, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Angst, Drama, Humor, Hurt/Comfort, Mpreg, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: Gustav/Georg
Warnings: Adult Content, Blood, Heavy Kink
Chapters: 56 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 286572 Read Count: 490998
[Report This] Published: 01/13/08 Updated: 10/12/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 03/21/08 Title: Chapter 36: Is Reconciliation Really The Answer? Part I

Oh.My.GOD - I think that was 'the' best chapter I have ever read. So very deep and argh, I don't know what to say. Just brilliant. You're a genius.

Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 10/12/08 Title: Chapter 56: Does Anyone Really Know the Answer?

I really adore this chapter. I could use a break from all the drama that the earlier ones contained (not that there was anything wrong with them, of course). Tom is way too cute with Zoe, and Bill is adorable, and Zoe is just... Zoe. XD

Author's Response: I think Zoe is too cute for her own good, personally. She\'ll have Tom wrapped around her chubby little hand so tightly it\'ll cut off circulation. *pets Daddy!Tomi* Thank you so much for reading! (and yes, sometimes it\'s nice to have a fluff vacation from all the angst, am I right? lol)

Believe in Me by Sickk_boy       

Rated: R | Reviews - 67 | |
Summary: Bill's depression complicates the twins' relationship and angsty fiction ensues.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, David Jost, Georg Listing, Gustav Schafer, Saki, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Adult Content, Blood, Drug Use, Light Kink, OOC
Chapters: 9 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 14637 Read Count: 4402
[Report This] Published: 02/14/08 Updated: 06/13/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 09/10/08 Title: Chapter 9: Speaking in silence

God, I love this. So much. Update real soon, yeah?

Analyzed by Froggy       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 1228 | |
Summary: Past Featured Story


An intimate look into the life of the Kaulitz twins and the challenges they encounter as their relationship develops.

Categories: Slash
Characters: Andreas, Bill Kaulitz, Gordon Trumper, Jörg, Original Male Character, Simone Trumper, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Angst, Drama, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Adult Content, Under-Age Erotica, Violence
Chapters: 27 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 113155 Read Count: 147318
[Report This] Published: 03/03/08 Updated: 01/05/09
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 04/19/08 Title: Chapter 18: Learned Helplessness:

I'm a ghost now. Dammit, what angst. I love it xD

Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 01/06/09 Title: Chapter 27: Modeling:

It's so sad to see this one go, because I believe it was my first real love in the TH universe. But I agree with you; this is the ending it needed to come to. Still can't believe it's over, but what can you do. I love it with all my might, and I'll never forget it. Thank you so, so much for writing it. :)

When In Doubt by emseviltwin       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 358 | |
Summary: Past Featured StoryThe twins don't talk about what they do, but they should. In a tangled web, running away from the one you love sometimes only leads you closer to home.


Categories: Het, Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Bushido, Original Female Character, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Angst, Twincest
Main Pairing: Bill/Bushido, Tom/Bill, Tom/OFC
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Adult Content, Drug Use
Chapters: 28 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 103440 Read Count: 55355
[Report This] Published: 03/06/08 Updated: 05/09/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 12/10/08 Title: Chapter 28: Go Slowly

I've been trying to write a proper review ever since you finished this, but I'm still at loss. This story saved my life, literally, so it's very precious to me, and deserve more than "I love it", though the words are true enough. I'll be back... when I've found a way to express how I feel about When in Doubt. Hopefully, it won't take too long.

Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 12/11/08 Title: Chapter 1: Impotence in a Box

I would like to apologize for not reviewing this when you finished it, though I would like to stress that the reason was not because I didn't enjoy reading it - far from it, in fact, I loved it - nor because I felt lazy but it was predominantly because I couldn't think of anything to say (as mentioned in the previous comment).

Recycled lines of previously reverberated compliments didn't seem to cut it to describe When In Doubt. I thought that if I were to review, the least I should give is some fresh material. After all, there is no point repeating the same thing over and over again.

I suppose it is fair to say that When In Doubt rendered me speechless. I can tell you that I spent quite some time reading it (over and over again, at times) and didn't dare to skip lines, lest I'd miss something small but important.

I'll admit, I'm not one for het, and I never really liked Lena. Yet she was realistic, and I appreciate that. Also, normally I hate (fear?) Billshido with all my might, but the way you wrote it... I loved it. It's the only Billshido I deign to read. (Oh yeah, feel proud.)

Apparently some readers didn't like the ending, but I can't see how it could've ended any other way. I was never fond of tidy endings, and yours is so much more realistic and heartfelt than had you tied all strings together and made them decide that they don't give a fuck what people around them think.

To summarize, the whole story is just absolutely breathtaking.

...And I need to learn some new adjectives.

There's a lot more I would've liked to say, but words fail me yet again. I hope I got my point across, anyhow. Congratulations on creating something so beautiful.

Body language by firelucy       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 643 | |
Summary: Past Featured StoryBody language is the worlds most commonly used language. What Tom wasn’t aware of though was the possibility to read someone’s true meaning out from the way they use their body. When Gustav provides him with a book on the subject he is about to find out just how much he has missed out on.

Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Georg Listing, Gustav Schafer, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Humor, Romance, Twincest
Main Pairing: Gustav/Georg, Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Adult Content
Chapters: 8 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 22241 Read Count: 56924
[Report This] Published: 03/28/08 Updated: 04/13/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 06/03/08 Title: Chapter 8: Sunday

I don't think I ever told you how much I love this fic (enough to add it to my favorites). Well, clearly, I do. It's adorable. Just the fluff I need when I'm heartbroken. It's also very funny; Georg being afraid of fairies and Bill dressing up like one... Hahaha, it's all just hilarious and sweet and adorable and OH, when Tom finally realized that Bill wanted lube and not lip balm (he's such a dork), well, that was just priceless. Write more stuff like this =P

Author's Response: hihi thanks, I have a thing for wacked humor and I just can\'t seem to make it serious ;p I had A LOT of fun with the fairy thing, my friends still calls him \'fairyGeorg\' o.O and yes, Tom is rather slow when it came to Bill\'s sign language, but at least he realized in the end right ;) thanksies girl <3

Tread Softly by Little Muse       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 31 | |
Summary: Past Featured StoryControl is a fickle thing. Like love.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Georg Listing, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Drama, Humor, PWP/Lemon, Romance
Main Pairing: Tom/Georg
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Adult Content
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1518 Read Count: 2487
[Report This] Published: 03/31/08 Updated: 04/17/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 01/17/09 Title: Chapter 1: Tread Softly

Damn it, why is your Torg so good? ;_; Love this.

Educational Purposes by firelucy       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 135 | |
Summary: Bill needs help with the ladies and who better to ask then sex-God and older brother Tom ?
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: PWP/Lemon, Romance, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Adult Content
Chapters: 4 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 9656 Read Count: 10846
[Report This] Published: 04/08/08 Updated: 04/27/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 06/05/08 Title: Chapter 4: Fourth Lesson : When in ‘her’ pants

Wow.

This one is so sexy. SEXY I tell ya!! I love the fact that Tom bottomed, he should do that more often ;-)

Last line is so great and suggestive; "Hmm, yeah, I'll have to teach you a lesson." DEFINITELY demands a sequel. xD

Author's Response: hihi oh becca ,) you see I have a kink for Tom bottoming...he\'s like that in a lot of my stories xD thanksies, maybe a sequel is in store one day? ,)

First Snow and Mistletoe by firelucy       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 26 | |
Summary: Snow brings a cold bliss, Mistletoe the first kiss.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Simone Trumper, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: First Time, Fluff, PWP/Lemon, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: OOC, Under-Age Erotica
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 5914 Read Count: 1782
[Report This] Published: 04/22/08 Updated: 04/22/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 06/06/08 Title: Chapter 1: First Snow and Mistletoe

That was extremely sweet and adorable and hot. Made me smile. =) Mistletoes are good, aren't they? lmfao

Author's Response: *holds up mistletoe* I love those *kisses you* thank you so much becca, I loved writing this so it makes me smile that you liked reading it!

My Little Brother by firelucy       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 315 | |
Summary:

Tom loves his brother, Bill is everything to him. And of course Bill loves him back, even though Tom can sometimes get a little intense. What Bill doesn’t know is that Tom craves more. But Bill, Bill is too innocent to see and being the older brother Tom would never, ever hurt his twin by telling him. Tom really, really loves his little brother…
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Fluff, Romance, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Adult Content
Chapters: 8 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 20739 Read Count: 24242
[Report This] Published: 04/29/08 Updated: 06/05/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 06/05/08 Title: Chapter 8: As we became

Aww!!! That was so adorably adorable xD Really, it made my heart melt.
"I can't just fuck you, Bill. I want to make love to you. Can I make love to you forever?" Favorite. Line. EVER.

The beginning of the story always makes me smile because Tom is all sweet and cuddly and Bill's all innocent. Well, not so innocent we found out, but still. This is really the best fluff I've ever read.

"I really, really love my little brother"... *tear* So beautiful.

Author's Response: Oh my *blushes* thank you so much Muse :) this means a lot to me! haha I love writing fluff ,) it\'s just something I can\'t get past! love you for this girl! hugs, lucy <3

Holy Mama by firelucy       

Rated: R | Reviews - 65 | |
Summary: Andreas had never understood how puberty could tie a couple of brothers closer together. Not that he pondered over it too much though, he was too busy checking out a certain ass.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Andreas, Bill Kaulitz, Simone Trumper, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Romance, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Under-Age Erotica, Voyeurism
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2557 Read Count: 1611
[Report This] Published: 05/05/08 Updated: 05/05/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 06/03/08 Title: Chapter 1: And her sons

Oh. My. God.

First off, the title is hilarious. Simply priceless. I love your Simone, so understanding and not minding being "bad", as you put it. ;)

Andreas thoughts about the twins' mother are priceless too; "Ms. Kaulitz was not only a female, but a well-developed woman. A fine one at that." And haha, passion fruit. ;P

All in all, I love this one. It's amazing. You're amazing. ;D

Author's Response: ooooh :D thank you so much! it\'s nice to get comments on the title, shows that you care :) I still can\'t believe I wrote this...Simone/Andy...where the hell did that come from??? ,) and simone being okay with her boys twincest and then cheating on her housband with a teenage boy...I\'m crazy aren\'t I xD thanksies <3

Routine by Ryuuzaki_L       

Rated: PG | Reviews - 15 | |
Summary: Because you know he can make you feel better. Even if that means he may get a sore throat or a backpain, just because you use him as a human pillow at night.


Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 729 Read Count: 816
[Report This] Published: 05/12/08 Updated: 05/12/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 10/24/08 Title: Chapter 1: "No, Tomi, nothing at all."

God, this is... this is so sweet. Just the perfect mix between the angst of a bad day and then the fluff once he's home. I adore this.

We Tried It by Ying Fa       

Rated: R | Reviews - 14 | |
Summary: Tom told me he loved me. He told me he loved me enough to defy the world with me. And then he changed his mind.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Angst, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Light Kink, OOC
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1541 Read Count: 299
[Report This] Published: 05/13/08 Updated: 05/13/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 11/13/08 Title: Chapter 1: We Tried It

I think I read this when you first posted it... and it teared me up so bad I had to turn off my PC and read Tolkien till the pain was gone. Sorry for not leaving a review then. This is so... so realistic, and that's what makes me want to throw the fuck up when I read it. I can't help but hate Tom at the moment. God. This is so painful but I love it. Whenever I need to angst myself up, then this is the fic. XD Great work.

Author's Response: Wow. :o Thank you so much. I\'m really glad you liked it that much. Believe me, it was as difficult to write as it was to read. ^^ The fact that you wanted to throw up really, i mean, really makes me happy in a my-story-is-a-success way. *-*

Pandora's Box by emseviltwin       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 33 | |
Summary: Georg finds Tom’s camera and in turn discovers more about the twins than he ever wanted to know.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, Georg Listing, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: PWP/Lemon
Main Pairing: Georg/Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Light Kink
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 8084 Read Count: 4002
[Report This] Published: 05/17/08 Updated: 05/17/08
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 12/10/08 Title: Chapter 1: Pandora's Box

I see how it could've fit in When in Doubt, but I like the direction you took better. I'm definitely not one for threesomes or Biorg, but with all the emotions swirling in this I forgot about the smut, I really did. I felt for all of them, especially Bill. Tom almost seemed a little disturbing. Love Georg's jealously, and how in the end he felt like the deviant. Just... perfect. You deserve applause.

Author's Response: Thanks so much for your review. As you can see the original version of WID had the twins already heavily involved in a relationship but ultimately, I like the characterisation of Bill better in the finished version compared to how he is in this fic because I like him a little more defiant and fiesty XD Thanks again for your comment.

KatzenAugen by namenlos       

Rated: PG-13 | Reviews - 415 | |
Summary:


Bill was born a freak, marked for life. Cursed, he is forced to live his human life as a cat - and uncannily befriends Tom, of his surrogate family. Despite his situation, he's perfectly content. But on their eighteenth birthday, both Tom's and Bill's worlds are turned upside, as they struggle to understand why this is happening to them, and what they can - and will have to do.
Categories: Slash
Characters: Bill Kaulitz, David Jost, Georg Listing, Gordon Trumper, Jörg, Original Female Character, Original Male Character, Simone Trumper, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Alternate Universe, Angst, Drama, Fantasy, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Twincest
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill, Tom/OFC
Side Pairing: None
Warnings: Blood, Major Character Death, OOC, Violence
Chapters: 17 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 56873 Read Count: 14836
[Report This] Published: 05/18/08 Updated: 03/07/09
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 10/19/08 Title: Chapter 14: So Close but So Far

Not a cliffhanger!! *wails* oooh hurry up, update! I adore kitty!Bill and the ending was just mean. Love this. Update? Pleeeease?? =D

Author's Response: Update soon I promise ^__^!!! :D

Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 11/04/08 Title: Chapter 15: Repentance

Thanks for writing it. ;-) God, this is so, so sweet. I adore how you write kitty!Bill. God, this is like... my drug. xD

Author's Response: Aww thanks =^____^=

Oh Brother! by Sapere aude       

Rated: NC17 | Reviews - 957 | |
Summary: Past Featured Story
Tom meets his potential stepbrother, Bill, from Germany

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Bill is into guys

Categories: Slash
Characters: Andreas, Bill Kaulitz, Georg Listing, Gordon Trumper, Gustav Schafer, Original Female Character, Original Male Character, Simone Trumper, Tom Kaulitz
Genre: Alternate Universe
Main Pairing: Tom/Bill
Side Pairing: Bill/Andreas, Bill/OFC, Tom/Andreas
Warnings: Adult Content, Drug Use, Light Kink, OOC
Chapters: 20 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 44664 Read Count: 60888
[Report This] Published: 05/21/08 Updated: 08/06/09
Reviewer: Muse Signed
Date: 05/21/08 Title: Chapter 1: I

Well, you have to update this one. I'm hooked. The ending was just priceless. As was Bill with his banana ;P I love it, so please, update ASAP xD

Author's Response: Thank you! Glad you\'re liking it so much ;D