Date: 04/25/14 04:40 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
It's a marvelous story, one of those you can't forget in time.
It leaves questions not answerred, as why Bill needed that pain (if ever there is a reason to that. I can't imagine that there is nothing to do with is love for Tom and his fear to loose him. But anyway, I don't know what, at first, made him lead Tom in that wreird game. And Tom, why did he step into it ? I imagine it was a strange mix of fascination for Bill and the violent image he had of himself. But he didn't really understand it or he didn't want to.
Anyway, It relieves me that they finally get out of that to let their love fullfill their lives.
It's a very intense story, going deep down the hidden part of humain being.
Really, bravo for this !
Date: 10/12/13 02:24 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
I've read this story so many times, and it's just as beautiful as when I read it the first time. You describe such a tragic codependency, and I don't know if they ever came to love each other until the end. I don't think they even really knew. Maybe deep down they were in love, but it was masked by their mad need for each other's suffering. It's just beautiful.
Author's Response: You know, hearing someone's read my story more than once makes me so happy I have no words - it feels like I've actually succeeded in writing something worthwhile ;)If you want my humble opininon (because even I'm not completely certain of when exactly they fell in love), I think perhaps it was a slow-growing thing. In the beginning, I don't think they loved each other at all, but at some point, their passion and need to cause eachother pain turned into something very different. There was probably never a specific moment when they fell in love, I think that happened over time. But, there's plenty of room for interpretations here, because I actually don't know - quite an achievement for the author, huh? ;) The only thing that is certain here is that they did fall in love and that the realization changed their relationship, and probably their lives, completely! Thank you so much for taking the time to read, and even more for taking the time to review - I love hearing what you readers think, and especially when you've taken the time to read it more than once! I'm truly honoured :D
Date: 04/12/13 08:15 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
this was so beautiful. all i can say.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm always excited to hear what people think of this story, since most people find it a little disturbing :p So, I'm really happy to hear you liked it! :D
Date: 04/15/12 07:22 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
i know what you mean, and i can tell you that yes it does. as much as i love dark/angsty stuff you can't help but love it better if there is a happy ending, or even a glimmer of hope that things might work out! and of course, one of our boys ending up with someone else? i don't think so! XD
Rorixx
Author's Response:
I hear you! ;) And, of course, I totally agree :)
xx Ainee
Date: 04/15/12 04:15 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
thank you so much for taking the time to reply to my review so quickly and lengthily (if that's a word), not only did it completely make my day (i like long review answers, it makes me feel more connected to the author) but also i understand now. that is what i kinda assumed, but i did have a bit a of a nagging doubt and it annoys me to no end if i don't understand something so thanks for clearing that up. i wanted them to stay together so that is what i told myself that is what you meant so i'm glad that is the true answer. it definitely didn't ruin the story so don't worry, and i totally understand what you mean. twisted and morbid stories are the best!!! thanks once again XD
Rori xx
Author's Response:
You're very welcome :)
I do understand what you mean, I must say. I have the same problem - I hate not understanding things, it nags me to no end and leaved me rather unsatisfied ;) I'm just glad I could help.
I believe we all want the boys to stay together. Anything else would be messing with the natural order, don't you think? ;) And though this was never meant to be a 'happily ever after' kind of story, I wish that it leaves you with a sort of optimistic hope that things will work out in the end :)
xx Ainee
Date: 04/09/12 05:34 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
i remember this was one of the first stories i read on this sit, i was utterly repulsed and enthralled. after searching around and reading the larger portion of the stories on this site, and coming back to read it again i can now truly appreciate it. Honey, you have a real talent with this writing thing and i urge you never to give up. this story was utterly twisted and disturbing but so beautiful and true at the same time. I not going to pretend i even really understand what's going on, but thats why i love these types of stories so much, it's pretty much up for your own interpretation, and you can know without a doubt this story will be on my mind for a while to come. I'm not going to ask for a sequel because that would ruin the beauty and uniqueness of it, especially if it didn't re-create the hauntingness of this story, but i will ask a few things if that is ok. i'm a bit confused about the end, have they given up on hurting each other and become a real couple, because it says the words 'before everything changes' so i'm assuming something will change. the very last scene leaves you satisfied and yet wanting more - the mark of a true author but i'm curious. the ending does seem to suggest that they have given up on hurting each other, so if you don't get back to me about this, which i won't mind if you don't, i will take that away from this story and perhaps be even more satifyed, though perhaps with that little annoying feeling of doubt. i don't even know why i care so much, i i truly believe this story is utter beauty (which probably shows i'm insane) but hey, what's life without a bit of insanity. i'm in a weird mood now, the kind of nostalgic-y thing i get if i read a really good story. wow this review is really long, i probably wont read through it again so i apologize if it doesn't make sense or if they are any spelling errors. anyway, just thought i'd let you know how i feel because you deserve it after an amazing job. completely and utterly hauntingly beautiful...
Rori xxx
Author's Response:
You know, the first time I read this review, my mind simply went "Damn." I had absolutely no idea how to respond. But now that I've had some time to think it through and having been forced to re-read my own story, simply to understand what you're talking about, I'll try.
First, I'd just like to say thank you for the thorough review. It's not often I have to think this much before responding, so it's a refreshing change ;) Also, I want to thank you for your compliments, they really are too kind. And not to worry, I won't stop writing any time soon, it's too much fun! XD And there might be more of these stories in my future. If you're insane for liking this, I'm definitely insane for writing it. Not to mention that I actually prefer writing these kind of twistedand slightly morbid stories. They're always easier to write than the cheerful ones. Like I said, I'm definitely a bit insane myself ;)
As to your questions, I'm not sure how to respond. Mostly, I like to let people think whatever they want, trying not to force my own thoughts upon them. It's always more fun to hear their own interpretations. But, since you asked I will try to explain what it was I was picturing as I wrote it. The line "Before everything changes" is refering to how their relationship will have to change, one way or another, after they've actually talked about it. For all the years they've been together, they've never really talked about why they do the thing they do or why they're even together, when it's mostly just causing them pain. So yes, after that moment it will be forced to change since they've been forced to face the real truth about their relationship. From there it can go two ways. 1. They stop seeing each other, knowing it's the easiest way to stop hurting each other. Or, 2. They stop the whole 'causing each other pain' thing and become a real couple, without the marking and that other twisted stuff. Which way it will go is left unsaid in the second to last paragraph. In the last one (after the last dashed line), what I write implies that they choose option number two. Tom stomps the cigarett out in his own hand as a sign of two things. The first is that he will no longer hurt Bill, the second one is a final marking that shows Bill that Tom will be his forever.
There! *exhales* I hope that explained the ending better, or rather, I hope that didn't ruin the story for you. Again, I'm sorry about the lateness of my response, but like I told you, you really made me think. And lastly, I hope you had all of your questions anwered. If not, feel free to ask again! I don't mind the questions and hearing your thoughts are one of the greatest things about sharing my stories on this page. Thank you again for the review and for reading, and enjoying, my story! :)
xx Ainee
Date: 03/25/12 08:48 am Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
I don't know what to say now, just finished reading your story. Trust me, you have the way with words. I've never read a fic like this before, at least, in this site. I'm not sure if I really get all you mean in yours but I get the pain and the bond between them.... it's kind of freaking me out now, like the way I feel after watching a mind-blowing movie. Not sure what to say now, but it's a very good story :)
Author's Response:
Well, you've managed to render me speechless too.. Thank you so much! You're really too kind. I'm so happy you liked it! I honestly have nothing more to say than a HUGE thank you! :D
Date: 03/13/12 06:49 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
I Absolutely loved this! It was so loving and dark at the same time and a story that really gets you thinking.
I especially loved how Bill was the dominant one, the one who pulled the strings, because I haven't read that a lot and I've been craving it lately, lol :)
I really enjoyed the lay- out of the story too, with each paragraph explaining how the rules were broken, it really added that special something and it was just a really beautiful story.
Also, thank you so much for not making the perfect, fairytale ending! So many falls into that trap and this was so much more realistic :)
Author's Response:
Oh my.. *blushes* You know, I'd never expected such kind words in return for this story.
I like dark stories myself, and sometimes I do get annoyed that so many want eveything to turn out all happy, rainbows and butterflies included. And dominant Bill is always a treat ;)
Honestly, you are too kind. But, I'm really happy you liked my little twisted tale and, once again, thank you so much! You really made my day with this review! :D
Date: 11/22/11 08:06 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
wow, really good, but weird. in a good way though...interesting.
Rori xx
Author's Response: Haha, I know.. Glad you liked it! :)
Date: 09/07/11 07:29 am Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
That was beautiful.... so different I liked it :3
Author's Response: Thank you! :) I like things that are a little bit out of the ordinary..
Date: 08/13/11 08:34 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
I want to review because this story was beautiful and amazing but I don't know the words. I eventually started to make a playlist of the music I listened to while reading this. It started with Zydrate Anatomy from Repo! It includes Dance in the Dark by Lady Gaga, From Yesterday by 30 Seconds to Mars, Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray, Sober by P!nk, Hurt Me by Kerli, and (don't as me where this one came from) Still Alive from Portal. >.< Either way, I just wanted to tell you that this is now one of my all time favorites and I have to go start writing now.
Author's Response:
You know, I think I'll have to check out your playlist ;) The only songs out of them I've heard is Lady Gaga and 30 seconds to Mars. But, I'm always open to new stuff :)
And I'm so honoured you liked the story so much. I'm always a bit worried when posting stuff like this, because most people find it disturbing. But, if there is at least one person out there that reads it and falls it in love with it, I will think of it as a job well done ;) And yes, you should definitely go write - writing is good. I should too, it's been too long since last time! Who knows, perhaps I'll get my ass in gear soon? :p
Date: 08/07/11 08:14 am Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
Why I never left a review for this one is beyond me.
Anyhow... I can say I am totally in love with this story. It managed to push that very specific "fucked-up" button in me that made me love it so. First of all, your writing is really good, you put in just a perfect mix of detail and vagueness. Second, I really liked how well and multi-layered the characters have been constructed, they are very complicated, messed up individuals and you managed to capture that very well. Last but not least, the darkness.... I so loved it (but I am generally inclined towards dark, desolate, angsty writing)... the dark feel of it was so overwhelming, their love was so tragic but also immensely beautiful and somehow even tender if I could express it so. They were hurting each other, they were messed up, but still they needed each other and above all love was present all the time even though it was expressed in the most weird way.
Marvelous story!!!
Author's Response:
I must apologize for my belated response, I've sort of been gone for a while...
Anyway. I'm so of happy to hear I managed to push your "fucked-up" button ;) I think mine is stuck, can't seem to turn it off again, so to hear I'm not alone in enjoying fucked up stuff is kind of a relief :p
Thank you so much, I'm glad you enjoyd the storie despite, you know, everything. I truly enjoy exploring the darker corner of people's minds and being able to share this with an appreciative audience is a blessing. I don't think most people I know wouldn't like it much.
About the story, I think the most important message is this; that love come in so many different forms and shapes. The boys were fucked up and, to a bystander, they weren't very loving toward each other. But underneath it all, they truly did love each other and would do anything, even die, for one another. Their way of expressing it was just a bit outside the norm, you know... I'm so glad you liked the story. Thank you so much for your lovely review! :)
Date: 06/16/11 11:03 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
Well that was some wired story... but good. Really good. Nice writing style and well, unexpected. One of that stories that leaves you with a strange feeling you can't quit place. Really enjoyed reading it. Thanks for writing
Author's Response: Yeah, it's a n odd little thing indeed - I have no idea where it came from.. Glad you liked it - and leaving you with strange feelings is a good thing, makes you remember it ;) Thank you for reading! ;)
Date: 05/04/11 10:55 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
That was SO TENSE!
Loved it so much, congratulations on setting such an angst, violent and yet loving mood!
I *really* love the fucked up-ness of both of them, caught in something they want and struggle with at the same time!
Veeeery dark and violent (not only physical violence, but something deep!).
I love it how they both loose any innocence they might have, but together, in their own universe, they found innocence in each other - hurting means belonging, loving, and even protecting.
Seriously.Blown.Away!
Author's Response: I have no words... Wow, thank you so much! I'm blown away by this review! I'm so happy to hear you liked it so much! :D I know it's really dark and a lot of people don't like that, but I think that it being dark doesn't mean it can't describe a 'loving' relationship, of sorts.. But yeah, it's pretty fucked up. And somehow, despite it all, they do still love each other, they just have a strange way of showing it, I guess ;) Thank you so much again, this review seriously brightened my day! :)
Date: 03/07/11 12:10 am Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
You always leave such thoughtful reviews I decided to seek out some of your stories in return. This is so broody, talented and extremely DARK! I am very impressed and through the chills it gave me a I really enjoyed, keep writing!
Author's Response: Oh, it's my pleasure - but it's nice to see you here! ;) I have no idea how this story came about, I just remember listening to 'Ashtray Heart' and actually picturing somone stomping out a cigarette in someone's heart. It sort of spiraled out of control from there. It was always supposed to be dark, I tend to stray down those paths no matter what genre I'm writing. I'm really flattered by your comment, I have to say. Talented? Wow, thank you so much! I'll definitely keep writing - rather, I can't seem to stop. Things get finished slowly, though, as I have so much going on in real life. Like finishing my master degree.. Anyway, thank you so much for stopping by and for leaving such a nice review! :) I'm so happy you enjoyed it! :D
Date: 12/02/10 08:44 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
very interesting one shot. nice job.
Author's Response: I'm glad you think so! It's an absurd little thing, but I still like it ;)
Date: 10/07/10 11:29 am Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
awww thats sweet
Author's Response: Haha, I'm not sure if that's the word I'd use, but thank you anyway! ;) I'm glad you liked it!
Date: 09/26/10 03:08 pm Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
Beautiful
Author's Response: Thank you! :)
Date: 09/26/10 05:58 am Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
I loved everything up until the first dash thingy, and then it got a a little too cliche-poetic in parts.
"He was just another leaf, soon to be blown away, and stepped flat into the hard concrete."--LOVED that. And after that I loved prety much everything. The progression of the story was neatly laid out.
I like when an author writes characters in such a way as to leave me feeling a little unsure for awhile. You really invented two personalities and stuck with them, but didn't reaveal it all right away. I eventually concluded that this is a great example of pure, unapoligized-for sadism and masochism. And even better than that, you've managed to show how the masochist can be the dom and the sadist the sub! And on top of that, you seperated the feelings and motivations from the actions, connecting them in ways that people wouldn't expect. Brilliant and artfully done!
Amazing how you can write such a hard, cold, gritty, and even brutal story, with only hints of true caring feeling, and then at the end still convince me that the two have been in love for a long time and that this story was a romance all along.
"I wonder how many thoughts you'd have the time to think before hitting the ground. Probably more than you'd like."--liked that too.
Oh, and there were quite a few grammar errors in there (nothing horribly annoying), so you might want to edit it.
Author's Response:
Thank you for the long review! I love it when people actually take the time to not only reflect on my stories, but also let me know what they conclude..
Haha, I know, I tend to go adrift sometimes whilst writing, and then stuff like that comes out. Probably a effect of writing poetry on the side, it sneaks its way into my stories ;)
Thank you for your praise! I was kind of stunned when this story took the direction it did, but once I acknowledged it, I actually tried really hard putting myself in Tom's head, wondering how he might feel or react. I'm glad if I succeeded :) And you know, the romance thing surprised me a bit too.. I had no idea until I'd finished it!
Thank you for pointing it out. I alrady proofread it once, but I was quite tired at the time, I'll probably do it again later. It's easy to let thing's slip when you've reread a story so many times you know it by heart.
Thank you again for this wonderful review, I really appreciate it! :)
Date: 09/26/10 01:07 am Title: Cenicero, mi cenicero. Mi corazón, mi cenicero..
its really interesting your story, how they are ill but in a way they fit each other
Author's Response: Thank you! It's like that, isn't it? The same feather flock together ;)