Date: 06/19/10 12:09 am Title: Marseille, France, March 24th, 2010
Didn't you already write this chapter? I could SWEAR I've read this before.. Dammit, I know I did. Did it delete and you repost it...?
Author's Response: No, I haven't posted this chapter before, or anything that is in it. I posted this once, so I don't know. I can have posted a snippet of it on my blog or LJ, but I'm not sure. I even wrote over half of this chapter the same day I posted.
Date: 06/04/10 05:50 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 24th, 2010
First, I hope you'll get better as soon as possible and everything goes well with your health!
And then, the chapter... as I've said earlier, this is very, very painful fic to read. It just literally tears my heart in pieces. I struggle chapter after chapter, because it's so great, but at the same time I have to wonder, why I'm torturing myself like this?
Because even if I've had hard time with this one already many times, but this chapter connected with my somehow over sensitive mood right night made me truly cry. Oh crap, now I have my makeup all over my face. I don't know why this was so painful... I just can't stand the idea. It's too much for me to handle. I wonder if you could have written this with dry cheeks?
So yep, wonderful expression of Tom's pain and... well, all of them. It feels really genuine and beautifully written. Griefing is hard to write, but you did a great job with it.
It's just... I feel like I can't take the idea of them separated right no, which is intertesting, because I'm not hurting so much because of Bill dying, but I'm crying because Tom's pain. The unbearable realisation that you truly are... alone. It's terrible thought for me to even think about... that they'd need to go thought that feeling.
Anyway, very touching chapter and I hope you'll get better soon!
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I am so touched by your review in general, thank you for taking your time to read and write up this. I have a hard time writing this without crying my heart out, but I often write it without thinking too much about it and then maybe a tear will fall when I read it over. I am so glad for your thoughts. I really struggle to keep this realistic, to keep the grief real and not too fake and overdone. I'm so scared to make it seem unrealistic and "no, this will never happen". Thank you so much for your review!!
Date: 06/04/10 03:04 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 23rd 2010
Author's Response: :xrnrn:3rnrn>:Drnrn^__^
Date: 06/01/10 10:59 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 24th, 2010
whats wrong? are you ok?
Im not updated my stories much either because of the same thing
Author's Response: I have some trouble with my body, mostly my back and joints. I have a lot of pain and then stress headaches, insomnia and fatigue. It's going slow, but forward.
Date: 06/01/10 10:01 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 24th, 2010
bill comes back to life, please?
ha, im guessing no.
but if you run out of ideas, take it into consideration ;)
Author's Response: No, he doesn't. The story was planned before I started to write! ;) Thank you for your review!
Date: 06/01/10 06:40 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 24th, 2010
God this is so sad... very good chapter, I was able to feel Tom's pain. I'm so glad you updated ! Take care and update when you can. :)
Author's Response: Thank you for your thoughts. I'm happy you liked it, I will!
Date: 06/01/10 06:33 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 24th, 2010
today had to be one of the worst. And that was such a gorgeous chapter. I read it while listening to "Schwarz" & "Black" it was so beautiful..
I want to hold Tom, and beg God for Bill, so Tomi can have his sweet brother back. So tragic.
I liked the convo with his grandmother..
I want to cry now again.
Author's Response: Thank you so much for your review. And now we know why you was sure you had read the chapter before, you had!
Date: 04/27/10 10:25 am Title: Marseille, France, March 24th 2010
No. Nononononono! Oh God. That's just.. heartbreaking. I cried. I can't even imagine the pain Tom must be going through. This is.. God, I don't even have words. Beautiful doesn't cover it. Just, update soon?
Author's Response: Thank you for your thoughts and taking your time to review!
Date: 04/26/10 07:47 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 24th 2010
Just as I feared...MCD strikes always too hard. So thanks a lot for making me cry! And really... thank you. I hate o feel so devastated after reading MCD, but I guess there is a weird reason I read them time to time.
I don't even know if I feel like this because Bill died or because I can't stand the idea of Tom struggling alone, without his brother. It's unbearable for me to deal with. So far I haven't been able to read a single fic of either twin's life after the other one has died, but I try my best with this fic. They've been just too hard for me emotionally.
Beautiful work, once again.
Author's Response: It often do, sadly. Oh, I am so sorry! I am so grateful for you trying, and as always, I really appriciate your reviews. Thank you so much.
Date: 04/26/10 07:26 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 24th 2010
Finally... some time to review.
This was very upsetting chapter to read, but I guess it was obvious. You wrote all of their emotions very realistically, not just Tom's although his pain was really hard for me to deal with. I don't know what to say... The surrealistic atmosphere got me from the very beginning.
The ending surprised me since I counted on MCD and I kind of expected Bill to die in this chapter. Maybe he will? I don't know... Just that it surprised me.
Now to the next chapter...
Author's Response: I really love and appriciate your reviews. I'm trying to write is as realistic as I can, and since I've never been through something like this, it's hard. I appriciate to have your thougts on it. I wanted to leave it, letting the 'ending' be alone. Thank you for your review!
Date: 04/26/10 04:28 pm Title: Marseille, France, March 23rd 2010
oh my god. i was crying non stop. D: billy cant be dead *shakes head* nooo. poor tomi :'( this was so sad!! gosh now im sobbing.
Author's Response: Aw, I'm sorry for making you cry. Thank you for your review though!