Date: 01/15/12 05:01 pm Title: No, I don't think of you
Lols XD Don't be sorry. I like crying at fics XD I also like realistic fics that don't have happy endings for things that probably wouldn't HAVE happy endings. When fics start out super-sad and end up with everyone happy it feels...well, it doesn't ALWAYS feel wrong, but it often feels totally unrealistic. So the unhappy ending was a good thing ^-^
Author's Response: Okay, then I won't feel bed ;) I'm also very glad you liked my unhappy ending. Despite it being hard to write, and the fact that is was even harder to actually accept I would have to keep the boys apart, I think the story turned out quite alright :)
Date: 01/08/12 11:38 pm Title: It's my secret, no one knows
I think the only reason I didn't cry with this one was because the first one in this series made me strong enough to withstand the pain. It was so beautiful, and I kept having to take half-sobbing breaths so that I could keep reading it. I haven't read a story where they kept away from each other to keep each other safe before (I'm sure there are plenty of them, but I haven't read them), and this really tore at my heart because I know that if they really were in love with each other, they'd have to keep apart or keep it secret, and since keeping it secret would probably be impossible, they'd basically just have to keep apart. I like that Bill adopted a girl, and I love that Tom A. had twins (poetic justice) and B. divorced his wife. I know that's not fair of me, considering how hard that must have been on everyone involved, but I still like that he decided to be truthful eventually. This was very well done, and I can't wait to read more of your stories (which is why I won't XD).
At least the first story, heartache and endless crying was good for something, then ;)
I do want to tell you I completely agree with you, though. In my head, if the twins ever did realise they love each other more than, you know, they already do, they would have to stay apart. I mean, living so close to someone you love like that, not being able to be with them, that would be too hard. Better to stay away and suffer the pain in silence, right? Being confronted with it evey single day would slowly kill you, but staying away you could always imagine they were happy and that would ease the suffering.. At least, that's what I think.
Tom did go through a lot to get to this point, yes, but I think that's what he had to do to make peace with himself. Now he can start living again, of sorts. Being honest with one self is always the most important thing. It makes living easier :)
Oh, and finally I would like to thank you for all of your lovely reviews! I love hearing poeple´s thoughts and reactions to my stories! And your reviews were truly touching. Thank you! :)
Date: 01/08/12 11:13 pm Title: No, I don't think of you
Ainee-san...Oh, Goddess, this...AND JUST AFTER I'D GOTTEN CONTROL OF MY TEARS, TOO!!!! I started crying again after this chapter. It was so beautiful, and sad, and heartbreaking all over again, because Bill is OBVIOUSLY not over Tom, and Tom is obviously not over Bill, and...WHY'D HE MARRY THAT BITCH IF HE STILL LOVED BILL!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I am definitely reading the sequel.
Author's Response: I'm sorry? *sigh* I know, I am evil. It's just that this was how it played out in my head and I had to write it so... I guess I could have given the story a sort-of-happy ending, but that just wouldn't have been right. The sequel does provide answers, but you know, not all stories are meant to have a happy ending. Just saying..
Date: 01/08/12 11:05 pm Title: No, I don't think of you
First, the entire chapter I was on the verge of tears. Second, when Tom was asking Bill those questions, and Bill was answering "no" I did cry.
Third, this chapter inspired me to write a poem, so thank you ^-^
This is truly brilliant so far, and this chapter was the most heartbreaking thing I've read in a very, VERY long time. The only thing that matched this for heartbreaking-ness was a fic in an anime fandom (Gakuen Alice) where one of the love interests (the love interest who eventually got the girl, in cannon) was watching her wedding to his best friend, the other love interest. But this topped that, because in that, the character was at least happy for their happiness (anime characters are always perfect like that XD Selfless and all that good shit). This was...Goddess, I can't even describe it. I cried for five minutes straight (and that doesn't seem like a lot, but it is, for me), and I had to curl on my side and dig my fingers into my back to regain my control. On top of that, the grammar sucked (no offense, but PLEASE have this looked at by a beta...), which is even more amazing, because usually, if the grammar sucks, I can't really get into a story, because I keep correcting it in my mind. Basically, this chapter was so compelling and heartbreaking that, even though I was correcting the grammar as I went along, I still got emotionally involved enough to cry. That takes serious skill. Very well done.
Oh, I inspired a poem? Wow, that's cool :) So, uhm, is it any good? Haha, no I'm just joking. I'm sure it's lovely...and heartbraking and really, really sad.. Right? I'm sorry I made you cry :(
And I am sorry about the lousy grammar. English is not my native language and this was my first attemt at writing a 'short-story' since I graduated High School (many, many years ago). Anyway, I've had my other stories betaed and now I never post anything without having it go through her first. I've always thought I should have had this checked, but you know I never seem to get around to it. I'm glad you didn't give up on the story, though :)
And thank you so much for all of your kind words. I'm glad I was able to drag you into the story and feel for the characters, it's what I aim for when I write.
Date: 06/30/11 10:58 am Title: It's my secret, no one knows
Hey, here I am writing another review. Finally I'm done reading "It's my secret no one knows", it was really necessary you write this, lots of things have been answered with it. You know? before I started reading this, I had to calm down, take a deep breath and I also had to repeat to myself a couple of times: “It's just fiction, it's just fiction", my little sister was seated next to me, and she was staring at me with a questioning look, I can swear she was thinking: "What the hell is going on with her? The bigger she gets, more stupid she becomes", and I wouldn’t blame her if she did, ‘cause I gotta admit that I tend to be a drama queen most of time.
Oh, God If you had seen the fucked-up face I had while reading, you would have laughed of me, really. I didn’t want to hear a single noise, so I told everyone to shut the fuck up, I know it was very rude and that’s why now I’m grounded, but I don’t really care. On the bright side, now I’ll have more time for reading, because they said: No going out for a week, but they didn’t mention anything about reading xD Well, I think I wrote so much about myself now let’s go to the point, I mean, my review for the story.
I had wondered throughout the night, if Tom at some point felt the same way Bill did, and after reading the sequel, I realize that he did, maybe he loved him more than Bill could've ever imagined, but it's a pity that he never told him while he still was alive. I tried hard to hold back my tears and I almost succeeded on doing it, but at the end I couldn’t.
I bursted into tears, when Tom started talking to Bill's headstone and said: "...I'm sorry for pushing you away. I'm sorry for not fighting for you, for not trying to make you stay. I'm sorry for not going after you ..." it killed me.
What a beautifully sad story! I sent it right to my favourites. Once again, I need to tell you that you are a talented writer, and you did what no one ever dared to do, you separated Bill & Tom and then you killed Bill! So, that's what took me aback, 'cause I'm not used to imagine Bill far away from Tom. Anyway you did an awesome job, these kind of stories with no happy ending are my favourites after all. Kisses and bear hugs for you, Ainee!
Okay, so I'm really happy to hear you thought the sequel necessary - I was so worried it would ruin the first story completely. But, now that it's done I'm quite content with the way things turned out. It was difficult to write and I had a hard time separating the two, but I sort of got throught the worst bit in the first story and after that I just had to get rid of Bill completely.. *snickers* Yeah, okay, that was kind of mean. But, that's life, you know, it tends to be a bitch ;)
You know, I was laughing so hard over how you were snapping at everyone while reading it and ended up getting grounded for it - I do the exact same thing! Though, there's no one here to ground me. I remember when I was spending last summer at my parens' place, I would coop up in the guest room and not come out for hours. If someone came in to disturb me I would kick them out and lock the door *grins* I do believe reading fanfiction turns us all into drama queens, we're too good at putting ourselves in the boys' place and relate to their feelings. I catch myself repeating "It's only fanfiction" as a mantra quite often too..
I guess the answer to all your questions were 'yes, Tom did in fact love Bill too'.. It's just a shame they never got around to telling each other, isn't it? I'm not sure if it's what you want to hear, but in my head, I think Tom actually loved Bill more than Bill loved Tom. Does that even make any sense? I just think Tom was better at keeping his feelings locked up, though Bill did quite an excellent job at that too.
I'm sorry I made you cry. It's not like I write stories with the intention of making people cry, but I do believe that it's a huge compliment and I find it rather rewarding to hear I've managed to affect people so greatly they're brought to tears. It's a small personal 'win' and though I don't mean to, I'm actually very pleased when people tell me I made them cry :p
Finally, thank you so much! I always get this stupid grin on my face when people tell me one of my stories are on their favourites list :D And I can't say anything more than that I'm honoured you think I'm a talented writer - It's one of my favourite hobbies, so to hear you think I have a knack for it is simply..wow.. Thanks! I'm so glad you liked the story - thank you again for this lovely review. Lots of love to you too, MitzaBlake! :)
Date: 06/27/11 09:29 pm Title: No, I don't think of you
OMG! I've finally read this oneshot. I was dying to read it since I finished reading: "Art imitates life" which was the first fic of yours that I read and that I fell in love with since the very first chapter. I'm shocked, my heart is shrinking within my chest with pain and my eyes are red and swollen from much crying. I know this is just a story, but it was too much for my fragile mind where there is etched "Bill&Tom together forever" all over, I really loved the way you wrote the story but I do thought that there'd be a happy ending or something. When Tom looked at Bill before saying the fuckin "yes" during the wedding, I expected Bill to say something to stop it, but nothing ever came out from his mouth. And then, when he was on the train ready to leave, and Tom told him that he knew the reason of his leaving, I thought Bill would step off the train to run towards Tom arms, but once again nothing happened. Maybe it was meant to be that way, but still I can't get it. Maybe it was meant to be that way, but still I can't get it. I love these kind of heartbreaking stories, though. I never thought it would affect me that much. I read something about a sequel, how's that? I wanna read it, what's the name of the story? I'd be really greatful if you could reply me. Ainee, you're such an amazing writer, did you know it? You always make me feel a lot of things with your stories. Keep on writing wonderful stories! You're awesome! Kisses and hugs!b29;
I m so happy to hear you enjoyed "Art imitates life" so much that it lead you here! This was, as you might have noticed, a whole other kind of story. As a matter of fact, I wrote the art story as a counterpart to this one. After finishing this story I really needed to write something a bit more fluffy and cheerful with a happy ending ;)
I can definitely relate to your reaction, though. My brain's also imprinted with "Bill&Tom together forever", but I think that's exactly why I had to write this. It's actually quite interesting trying to understand how the boys would react if they were ever to be separated. Their bond seem so strong, I can't even begin to imagine how it would feel for them to be apart. I could only do my best and hope that it would convey their pain in a somewhat realistic way.
No, there was no happy ending in this story, nor was there ever meant to be one. On the bright side, if one would even dare say so, there is a sequel. I don't know if I would say it's more cheerful than this one, but at leat it answers some questions. It's called "It's my secret, no one knows", and I'm sorry that I can't remember how to put the link in here - you'll just have to search for it :)
As for your praise, I can only say thank you! I try my best, but in the end, it's all up to you guys, as the readers, to decide if my stories are worthwhile or not. I really am grateful for your compliment, though, it's those that keep me writing, knowig there are people out there that appreciate the time and effort I put into my stories. Thank you again for your lovely review - I hope to see you again! :)
Lots of love, Ainee
Date: 06/27/11 06:57 pm Title: It's my secret, no one knows
I am happy that you decided to post the sequel after all. I loved it and it made the story as a whole so much more rounded and bearable to stomach down which might sound quite odd given the fact sequel was equally heartbreaking as the original story but now I, as a reader, got my cathartic release and the story of Bill and Tom got finally it's resolution, the circle closed and tragedy of their sacrificed love could be better understood.
I was happy to see what direction you took and how it all ended. It left an ache in me, it hurt quite a lot in fact but real life bites sometimes, really bad at that and your story portrayed just that beautifully. And it made me think too, really hard... about difficult life decisions we make, about motives behind them, about courage and strength to carry on living, about consequences of our choices we have to live with for the rest of our lives.
What I found the most difficult to read in your story was the communication route Bill and Tom decided to take with each other. How they both lulled themselves into believing that they spared the other one the heartache and misery by keeping their "secret" for themselves when in fact they did the direst opposite. They loved each other so much and in name of that love they denied themselves it's fulfillment which is plain CRAZY but also so understandable ... people being afraid of asking for and getting what they want and need most. Sacrificing your own love for the sake of making someone else "happy" is a very romantic and noble notion but it hardly ever works. In a story like yours I am really bleeding for Bill and his inability to have courage to be honest with Tom even if he had to risk losing him because in the end he lost him anyways. As for Tom, he was just afraid I guess, and then it was too late. I am glad he found his peace in the end nevertheless.
This story was truly beautiful!!!
I'm so happy to hear that! I was so afraid of posting the sequel, though I can't really explain why. As a matter of fact I wrote this not long after I finished the first part, but something in me kept me from posting it. I can't really explain it better than that I was afraid it would spoil the first story. Still, now that I'm here I'm glad I did. It was a tough thing to get through, especially 'cause I killed Bill, but also because Tom was aching over a matter that could have been solved years ago if he'd only had the courage. Still, his fears were just - telling Bill how he felt could have ruined their relationship all together or bring about a whole new set of problems.. In Bill's case, well, he honestly thought he did the right thing.
I think letting the boys get together and work through this issue would have been the easy way to go with this story and that wasn't what I was going for. I wanted to leave you guys with this feeling of frustration, that they couldn't be brave enough to face their fears, and a sense of sadness for the boys who sacrificed their own happiness in belief that if would be the better thing to do for the other. And trust me, I probably found it just as hard to write as you have found it to read. But it was a pain I needed to describe. And, somehow, I wanted to show that despite all the hurt and turmoil they went through, they both found a sense of peace. Bill through his work, but also through his love for the orphaned girl; Tom through his children and finally being honest with himself.
I don't really know what else to say to your amazing review. I've actually read it several times, wondering what to say to it. I came up empty. Thank you so much! Honestly, I'm amazed I can affect people in this way through my stories, and moreover have them reflect over the consequences of our choices. I find that the most intriguing part about life, how every choice we make has an effect on our future. Even the smallest decision can turn out to be life-changing in the end. But, in continuation of that, I do believe it's important not to get too hung up on the fact; it could turn any man (or woman) insane. I firmly believe one should not regret anything, despite where it leads you. It's important we learn from our mistakes, no matter how painful it is.
And just like that I ventured into my own little philosophical bubble.. I'm sorry. Anyway, I just really wanted to thank you for your lovely review, I truly appreciate it! I'm so happy you enjoyed this little story of mine :)
Date: 06/19/11 07:43 am Title: It's my secret, no one knows
There you go. All my questions answered.
As promised, I read the sequel, which I find amazing. If I have to judge this by the amount of tears I shed, it is not so intense and sad as No, I dont think of you.
Sometimes I dont read the sequels, they are not needed. But in this case, although you said you will not write it, I am so glad you did. It closes a circle, it answers questions and soothes. Yes, with all the painful details, lost love, estrangement and death.
I liked the way they both chose trains to get them to their lost loves. It is so much more romantic (what a choice of word from me, but it is a love story, after all!!!) and it delays to a maximum the moment of confrontation, plus it offers a space for insight (which you used perfectly).
I loved the way they both thought the sun shouldnt shine any more, like a reflection of their inner state.
I avoided this story for a long time, this is how much I thought it will affect me, and now I am so glad I read it. It is sweet, true, so painful and brilliant. I can fully understand why you had to get it out of you.
And I am so happy this is just fiction.
Very good work.
I'm glad you decided to read the sequel - mostly because I knew it would answer a lot of questions. What the hell was Tom thinking, acting the way he did? Well, there you go, that was what he was thinking.. ;) Yeah, this is definitely not as sad as the first one, and I think it's basically because it's more of a "the calm after the storm" sort of thing. The twins had their confrontation in the previous story, and now it was time to make peace..
I understand how you feel about sequels, though, I often have it the same way. Sometimes the sequel is crucial to the story, to fully understand it, but a lot of the time I feel it's just the authors way of dragging the story on and on, in lack of anything better to do. Though, that happens a lot within stories too, they just keep going even after it's actually done, and it annoyes me immensly.. I'm relieved you didn't feel this was one of them. I had a really hard time deciding wether I should write/post this story or not, but in the end I felt it was necessary to give it a proper ending and not just a "now what" thing, as the last story.. It was tough getting through, though - I hated killing Bill! :/
I love the train! Actually, I'd hardly ever been on one until a couple of years ago, but now it's my perferred way of travelling. I love the freedom you have to move around as you wish, but still having the opportunity to watch the world passing by.. I guess it is quite romatic (and I'm not a huge fan of that word). At least, from personal experience, it does provide you with a lot of time to think. I guess I do tend to put myself in my stories, as I found it quite easy to relate to the feelings Tom (and Bill in the first part) was going through, wanting to put off the moment of arrival, but heading toward it nonetheless.
So I guess, after all is said and done, I'm thrilled you decided to read the sequel - I know how you really didn't want to! ;) Thank you! There is little that bring me the same amount of pleasure as the knowledge I made someone do something they didn't want to, and enjoy it! :p
Trust me, you're not the only one who's glad this is just fiction.. This happening in real life - it would break my heart.
Date: 06/02/11 05:43 am Title: No, I don't think of you
Ok, just give me a couple of days to recover (I really was an emotional wreck, no kidding) and I will give it a try, I will read the sequel.
And yes, you write so good!! I was reading your other fic There Ill be and I felt much, much better. But this is another subject and will have its proper review. I am glad that I received such a reaction from you, it is proportional to the distress you caused me, with your talent!!!:P
And I still think Tom made a huge mistake not going after Bill. If I would be Tom and I would lose Bill like that I would gone mad and beyond myself to get him back no matter what...But again, this is my opinion.
I totally understand it had to be like this for this fic but Im still so frustrated!!!
And now, because I promised, I will have to read the sequel, too. I have to tell myself over and over that it is just fiction, it is just fiction, my dear....
Haha, no stress! And you know, you don't have to read it if you really don't want to ;) I was just sulking for the fun of it..
I'm so honoured you think I have talent. I enjoy writing so much, it's always nice to hear people thing I have a knack for it :) About my other stories, most of them are more cheerful than this (especially 'Art Imitates Life', which is fluff with fluff and fluff on top), but I do have a thing for writing angst, as I like to delve into people's distressed mindsets. But yeah, I guess I'd suggest you steer clear of 'Ashtray Heart' - it's sort of messed up..
I still think Tom made huge mistake too - but hey, that's just how it turned out. I guess I could have written a different ending, but I just wouldn't have felt right. You're allowed to have a different opinion, though, I won't blame you ;)
And yes, it is just fiction.. It's hard to remember that sometimes, isn't it? I have it the same way - I talk about different characters from fictions like they're real people and let them annoy me endlessly when they're acting stupid. I get all angry and frustrated and almost forget it's just fiction. Perhaps especially my own characters, as I know them so well after I've finished a story. They're like real people to me.. Makes it so much harder to complete a fic, it's so sad to say goodbye! Yeah, I'm completely sane... XD
So, I guess I should say good luck with the other story - I hope it doesn't kill you.. And, I guess, I should apologize for answering so late - I've been really, really busy.. Anyway. You have fun with the sequel, and I'll stand ready with a box of Kleenex when you're done ;)
Date: 05/31/11 03:27 am Title: No, I don't think of you
This is the end! I will not read the sequel, as I do not want to be a an emotional wreck all day!!!!
First, I must say it was hard to forgive you for the ending of the band (which I think and I hope will not ever happen)!!!
Second, it was understandable what Bill did, to leave the band AND Tom and hide himself. What was not understandable was thaht Tom didnt look for him deperately and that he somehow found it in him to move on with his life. But it is your fic and you do as you see fit.
Third, it is so well written!!! Its power sucked me in from the first paragraphs, the sadness and desperation is overwhelming, I can hardly imagine how you managed to write it.
When Bill told Tom that he doesnt love him, that was the moment i gave in and tears were flowing just like Toms. Of course I kept reading and I was cheering up for Tom to acknowledge HIS love for Bill but this didnt happen.
So with all the love, I will not read the sequel to this one, it will be too much for me...
I am so, so sorry for splitting up the band! I'm with you, I hope they never do! It was simply necessary for the story, so yeah.. But I'm keeping my fingers crossed they never, ever will ;)
Bill did what he felt he had to do, and Tom.. Oh, Tom, he was just being stupid, wasn't he? I agree, he should have gone looking for Bill. At the same time, it was Bill's decision and Tom felt he had to respect that, so he didn't. It's a difficult problem, isn't it; to do what's right for you or to do what's right for others.
Thank you so much! Despite all the sad things about this story, I'm glad you still liked it.. Well, sort of ;) I'm so honoured you think it was well written - and if the story managed to suck you in from the start, well, then my work here is done ;) It was a bit emotionally straining to write, I will admit, as I kept putting myself inside their heads trying to figure out what would be the logical way to react, or what emotions a certain action would provoke. But, in the end, I'm quite pleased with it. It was never meant to be a happy story - it was supposed to be frustrating and sad. I guess I can only apologize for dragging all of my readers down into this miserable pit with me..
And I honestly am sorry I made you cry, but I would be lying if I said it doesn't please me. To me, that's the best proof I can get, that I managed to write something that people can relate to. A strong emotional reaction is always a good thing, never mind what the emotion might be.
I think we all were cheering for Tom to run after Bill and declare his never-ending, undying love for his brother. Hell, even I did that for a while, but then I realised that wouldn't be the right way to go about it, so Tom never did.. Honestly, the boy was being chicken. Then again, this is Tom we're talking about - I don't think he's as tough as he claims to be :p
Aaaw, you won't read the sequel? *sigh* Oh well, that's up to you ;) I guess I'll give you the gust of it, then: It's from Tom's point of view, sometime in the distant future.. Exciting, yeah? :p Actually, it's more of a conclusion to the tragedy. I dunno if it causes tears, but people have been having mixed feelings about it. I even think someone told me they hated me for writing it - said with love, of course ;)
Okay, I'm gonna stop now, 'cause I'm rambling. My point is; I'm glad you decided to read it, and though it might not be what you wished it was, I'm glad you liked it, at least enough to review..haha :D Thank you for taking the time to let me know what you thought about it, I greatly appreciate it! :)
Date: 05/22/11 01:06 pm Title: It's my secret, no one knows
My... That was so heartbreaking, utterly beautiful and touching, really but it doesn't make it less heartbreaking :(
Amazing job. I loved it to bits :)
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad you liked it :)
Date: 05/21/11 09:39 pm Title: It's my secret, no one knows
Yeap, you made it again. I'm gonna promess you that I will translate the first part and then this one if you let me do it. They are such a beautiful and sad sotry.
As a matter of fact... I cried, a lot :) Isn't that what comes after you feel our heart being crush against your ribcage?
Thanks for making me feel, gorgeous
Of course I'll let you! :) I'm just happy you like them enough to want to! :D
Yes, I do think that's what comes after your heart's been shattered.. Though, tears aren't always bad, and heartache isn't either - it let us know we're alive ;)
Oh, you are welcome, honey! I'm glad I could be of service ;)
Date: 05/21/11 03:06 am Title: It's my secret, no one knows
Well you can really trigger emotions in such a fictional story....man like I'm dying to know that they would reconcile after 20 years then this hits me that even in his funeral he never shows himself there? then he would make up for him on what? damn you realy had a mind in turmoil....LOL....I'll keep on track you really catch my attention and I know that's good....hear from you soon k....:D
Author's Response: I never promised a happy ending.. No, Tom couldn't bring himself to go to Bill's funeral, he didn't feel he was allowed, nor did he have the strength In his opinion he betrayed his brother and is beyond forgiveness.. But, twenty years later, perhaps he can find it in him to, at least, forgive himself? We'll see.. ;) I'm really happy to hear I caught you attention - that is definitely good! :D See you soon!
Date: 05/20/11 12:09 pm Title: It's my secret, no one knows
I remembere the first part of this story. I haven't been able to translate it, mostly because of my time but there is this huge emotional wave that comes with this.
And here, you have killed him, I don't know what to think
That's all right! That's always the problem, isn't it? Finding the time.. If I'd had the time I would write more, but alas...
What can I say? I'm evil - I killed Bill! *snorts* It hurt like hell, I'll tell you that, though, but it was sort of necessary..
Date: 05/16/11 10:34 am Title: It's my secret, no one knows
I gotta hate you for this.
I hated you (well you know that love-hate kind of thing) when you wrote the No, I Don't Think of You. It broke my heart. It made me cry.
And now this.
I don't really like reading stuffs with no Happy Endings and with character deaths, but Hell. Just because it's you, and you wrote this, and I've read the first one...
Oh, my love for you. Why do you torture us, so??
I could feel Tom's grief, it really hurts my heart... Especially on the part he was listening to their song, and the way he would imagine Bill's reactions and such... And when in the end he kept saying no, Bill wouldn't to see him... It so. Fucking. Hurts. How could you torture us readers like this??T____T
Going back to my lair and cry some more. And wait for the next update and be the masochistic me and go emo again...
I'm sorry! But in my defence, I never promised a happy ending! And you know you love me! :p
I never intended to make people cry (well, maybe just a little bit), I just felt this story needed some sort of closure. You know, let you guys know how this whole thing was for Tom. Because you know, there's two sides to everything.. It does hurt him a lot, but just imagine if you lost your twin, you love, and never got to say 'goodbye' or 'I'm sorry', that would be eating up at you from the inside forever... He's definitely a tormented man, and this is his journey to make peace, not just with himself, but with his brother too :)
Aaaaah, you have a lair?! Damn, that is so cool, I want one too! XD Next update will be...uhm, soon? Man, I don't know when, but probably sometime this week, if I find the time.. Fuck my life for being so busy! And please (and I mean pretty please with cherry on top) don't go masochistic emo over this! :( I don't like it when people are hurting themselves, and this is definitely not worth it! It's just a story you know, it's not real ;) And yeah, I know that came out quite patronizing, but it wasn't meant like that..
Anyway, I'm so happy to see you back here! I have missed your rambling! :D Welcome and, again, I'm so very, very sorry! ;)
Date: 05/15/11 10:51 pm Title: No, I don't think of you
As heartbreaking this story is; it is quite beautiful as well. I could feel Bill's pain as well as Tom's.
Author's Response: It's a tough one to get through, 'cause we always want our boys happy and in this one they're not.. :( I'm glad you still liked it and having you say you could feel their pain is such a huge compliment! Thank you :D